Dream About Mission To Accomplish And Anger Towards Loved Ones

Me, younger brother David, younger sister Maria and my boyfriend Colin who are all adults in real life, were together going some where or just hanging out. But it felt like we had some kind of mission to accomplish, which a don’t remember exactly. I think is was an epic mission, like saving humanity from an apocalyptic situation. We were walking around in a tall and huge building. We walked by a balcony. My sister Maria went on the balcony and stood near the steel bar fence. David said nowadays kids are smaller that they are gonna fall on one of the bigger gaps between those bar barriers. And here Maria was seen as a kid and she also looked small. It felt like she is not even part of our conversation and doesn’t have a thought of her own since she was just quiet the whole time. I agreed with David and wanted to protect her. And said to get off from there or asked the guys to get her out of there. My boyfriend jumped out to the right side is the balcony and looking around what’s there and if he can reach down. I saw down from the balcony and it was pretty high. On the right side were like three roofs making a stair like form to the balcony but the gap was notable. Every connection to another lower roof had notable gaps. My boyfriend was just doing his thing and further away from us. And Maria now also wanted to follow down to him. And David nagged me that if he was me, he wouldn’t let her. I disagreed this time and a bit annoyed that he made it sound as if I have all the responsibility and it felt too restrictive because I really didn’t see the danger. But for some reason I think I stopped Maria from going down as I just grabbed her clothes. And I don’t know exactly how we argued on continuing but basically he kept nagging and telling me what to do when I don’t agree and feel like he just likes ordering around and insisting on his thoughts. I felt like he was stepping out of line to my boundaries where I make my own decisions. I felt there was no respect towards me and what I do. I think Maria actually went on to a level lower roof to explore too. And David kept nagging me about it blaming me. And I don’t remember exactly what we said to each other but after a lil argument, I had enough of it and was so so very angry. I start hitting him on his face and beating him to the ground focus on his face. But it was weird as it felt like I wasn’t really hitting him, it felt like I was imagining wanting to hit him as much as I was angry and letting myself understand that’s how angry I am, because it felt like David wasn’t even getting what I was saying and how his words and attitude is so infuriating and not helping the situation. It was more angering because he is the one accusing me but he is so oblivious to his own wrongdoing. And another part that was weird and didn’t felt real was that he just seemed like a rubber doll that doesn’t move or think. I was just able to hit how much I wanted. And his face also didn’t bruise or bleed or anything but just his face being squashed like a rubber doll would as I hit him. My anger was very intense and hard to dissipate. I woke up being overwhelmed by anger and was still quite angry after waking up for a moment. I feel like this dream parallels to my waking like where my boyfriend is shown and I argue intensely and not feeling heard or understood by him and overwhelming annoyance and anger towards him. And him telling me to do something or a certain way when it is my job and he doesn’t know that much about it and doesn’t trust me as much as I wanted. So my boyfriend is depicted as David in the dream maybe, representing our relationship. But the thing is we just got out of that situation as a couple working on it together by communicating and changing our behaviors, also as the hard changes in our lives stabilized and we are so happy together again. But there is still a lingering feeling of how I felt before and resentment towards him that I don’t want to feel anymore. On the other side, I feel like this dream is also about David in waking life where he is the one who is going along our dad’s way being religious and living as dad wishes him to, while still living with him. Even I know we actually think alike in many ways, it makes me scratch my head when our actions and life choices are almost the opposite. And Maria also lacks her independence and she never rocks the boat. And I always feel like I am responsible for her and help her out of that situation that feels like a rut.