Father

6 May 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was voting for Trump and I was being watched by my Dad. We were writing ✍️ in our votes 🗳️ and my Dad and I were in this big place like as if to be in a convention or place with lots of speakers and people gathered at a banquet of tables and such. I voted 🗳️ in the dream 💭 and it was for Trump I felt good but felt judged as if my dad would be mad 😡 . I also had a dream 😴 💭 I was at a friends house and he had solar panels and was like really being silly about how things were being built at his house. 🏠 he’s funny and of course seeing my psychiatrist and he said give me your arm time to take blood 🩸 probably because of my PKU and it’s time to check my protein levels and it’s time for bloodwork. Nothing I can’t handle lol.

3 May 2024

Dream

The part that I remember about my dream, had to do with my father, who is estranged in my waking life. I think I was taking care of my kids and also the neighbors kids, and then after finally getting them settled in, I went to grab my phone but could not find it. That’s when my father handed me my phone. I grabbed it and went into my bedroom to go to sleep. As I looked at it I realized it was completely smashed, shards of glass flaking off the screen. I went back to my father to confront him. He said he did not break it. I asked him if he dropped it on accident, and he denied that too. That made me even more angry, and as I showed him the condition of my phone, I felt like I could tell by his face that he was lying about breaking the phone, whether it was intentional or not. I told him it wasn’t like this before, and asked him if he was going to replace it. He said no. That made me even more enraged, and I started yelling at him, telling him how expensive it was and how I couldn’t afford it. He asked me if it still worked, and I told him FOR NOW it does, but it won’t for much longer. Not only that but it wasn’t safe due to the sharp shards of glass that were flaking off and me having young kids who like to play on it sometimes. Deep inside I know I was kind of happy that I now had an excuse to get a new phone, but I did not want to express that. The argument was going nowhere so I stormed back to my room angry and crying. There was more to this dream but I cannot recall at this moment.

29 Apr 2024

Dream

My dad whom I haven’t seen or spoken to in 6 months, due to a strained relationship with my mother, was shot multiple times. We were using a water hose to wash off the blood. I don’t remember who did this or how it happened. I feel like it was at his home since he was laying on a mattress when we were washing him off. My dad got the Covid jab against my and my mothers concerns, and he is currently suffering from non-Hodgkins Lymphoma Cancer likely due to the vaccine.

28 Apr 2024

Dream

Dream about my deceased child’s father. He shows up in my dreams but he doesn’t speak. He’s just visible at times.

27 Apr 2024

Dream

Okay, there was this one dream that I was in a fighter jet getting ready to take off and then I heard a loud boom and I landed in somewhere unknown. I was unconscious for a little bit and then my father woke me up and I asked what happened to my co-pilot and he said they couldn't find the body. But then once we found the body, it turned out that he was dead. He had dark hair, dark eyes, without skin and his name, which I had on my dog tag, was Luis. So we buried Luis and we made this trek to where my mother picked me up and we were just looking around this big old mansion. It was like really huge. I went up the stairs but then for some reason I didn't. So we were just talking, just standing by the stairs, just talking about nothing. And then for some reason I went up and went to sleep and some guy with black hair, blue eyes was saying, come on, let's go, let's go and there was bombing like everywhere. So we made a rush and it looked like it was a big old border tag. We didn't know what was going on and then all of a sudden I was back up on the Enterprise. Ding, ding. And then for some reason he got transported to the ship, but I wasn't. I was running around for a little bit and then I saw somebody from Blackjack that looked like Throck and I was just scaring, I was just like, I don't know what happened. So for some reason I hit my head and I was waking up on the stone bed and I just, being every fiber said I need to get the hell out of there, but that dude just wouldn't let me go. And they tell him we gotta go. I gotta get back to where I came from or else we could perish. Lo and behold, I saw that he was levitating and flying and I was just jumped out and I ran and then he get in front of me. He told me, don't be afraid. I know who you are. He told me that he had lost a son in some plane crash. He looked at my dog tag and tears were welling up in his eyes, I was like, he was your son or somebody you know. He was obviously upset and told me that he lost his son. I asked if he had any kids. He said one grandkid and was a single dad. So for some reason he lifted me up and carried me to that place where the plane crash took place and I was like, yeah. So I was asking him where was his grandson and he told me that his sister was taking care of him. So I was like, just let me go back to my ship and I'll leave you alone. I wouldn't do anything, I wouldn't say anything. I'll let you do what you gotta do, just leave me out of this. He was telling me I am involved if I like it or not. I was like, wait what? I know you're devastated but I need to go back to the ship. I need to let my captain know that we are in peril. So he let me back down to the ship of the Enterprise where my commander had went back up. So I did and nothing happened. A couple weeks later there was a couple of explosions, it was like missile airstrikes or phaser airstrikes. So I was yelling out, Black Phantom, don't leave me. So somebody geared me back to some foxhole or some trench looking thing and I looked and I see a whole bunch of people getting stabbed and they were screaming in agony. And then I looked up and there was fear in his eyes, immense fear and sadness. We ran and then we went to some place that looked like in New Mexico where a bunch of people looked like they were Aztecs, ancient people and I guess this one guy he was like a medicine man. So we went up and we were talking to him and then I looked back behind and somebody just was trying to stab me in the back and I just woke up.

23 Apr 2024

Dream

My dad asked me to carry wood in he house for our stove, as I was bringing them in, every piece that didn't fit, he would hit me with as hard as he could until I was bleeding everywhere

14 Apr 2024

Dream

At my father's house someone left their kittens and I went to pick up a handsome man at the airport that I didn't recognize. Then we went back to my father's house and we knocked on the neighbors door bc we found a dirty cat pawing at her door so she took him in and we followed and she locked me in the shower and there was a lot of people watching me struggle. Then I started lucid dreaming and broke the glass before being pushed into the dream void

13 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamed about my father hiding in a very dark secret.

13 Apr 2024

Dream

I was on vacation at a sort of outdoor lake all inclusive resort type place, but I had the sense that it belonged to my dad or that he had organized renting the area/sleeping space/house portion, but mostly everything was on the middle of the water, just floating and connected by different structures and ropes and open water. I got the sense that many or all the people I love were there with me, all of us on this grand vacation and enjoying what it had to offer. There was a portion with an outdoor cafeteria or farmers market type place where everything was free, with all types of food, drinks, and desserts. I looked at all the beautiful options and made notes for what to eat tomorrow or bring back for the group to enjoy for a snack. I got excited and told this to my friend Allison who agreed with my choices but said people may not actually eat it even if I brought it back to them. I made a note but was hopeful anyway, and thought I’d try it later. While we were there, my other friend Ashley and her husband kept sneaking off during dinner or while the rest of the group was drinking, hanging out, and just having fun. She was breaking one of the unspoken rules and having sex with her husband sneaking away in the jacuzzi area when I accidentally walked in on them. I turned away and made to leave but she laughed and wasn’t bothered, asking me, do you think anyone will be upset? I told her I didn’t personally care as the jacuzzi area was extremely large and open, but others might. She seemed to listen to that and think, but later on I found them sneaking away again and just shook my head, giggling, and looked the other direction. Although Ashley had a baby this year, he wasn’t with them, but it seemed to make sense to me that the baby had been left at home for Ashley and her husband to get some time away. Other than that interaction in the house, I mostly remember episodic adventures swimming in the lake, riding on the boat, playing in the water, and hanging out with various family members such as my aunt Nancy, brother Ryan, and Dad, although many others were also there in the background.

12 Apr 2024

Dream

I had two separate dreams today as i woke up and fell back asleep 1. I had a dream i was back at my stepmoms and my father was there. It was night time and I was finishing dinner. My dad was very grumpy and kept saying unnecessary comments or mean things under his breath. “U should have started earlier now i’m starving” “If it was her boyfriend she would have already cooked”. I don’t even have a boyfriend anymore we broke up. As i was finishing up he got up off the couch and began telling me and screaming at me for everything i did wrong. How im disappointing my late grandmother. How im gonna end up like my mother who is an alcoholic but instead of drinking it’s smoking weed. The dream turned into just me looking at his face as he went on and on about how im failing him. I woke up crying and with a migraine. My right side of my head pounding and the light making it worse so i took migraine medicine and got under the covers away from light and fell back asleep 2. The next dream i had was very dystopian. I was a soldier in a large bulky ship that was flying over the ocean. Everyone looked grim as we got closer and closer to our destination. My commander barked orders. “Don’t let them grab u, Don’t let them trick u, Don’t go up the mountain” as he finished there was a loud boom and the ship tilted throwing all of us to the right as the ship tilted. We were being attacked, i grabbed my weapons and followed everyone to where the commotion was but the ship got hit again and before eyes the ship began to break in half. I held on for my life as everything got sucked out by the ocean. I felt dizzy as the ocean was pitch black below as it was night time. As i was holding on i heard something crunching and looked over to see a beautiful girl kneeling over my comrades body. as if knowing i was watching she turned around reavling large bloody teeth squinted eyes and claw like hands and almost like fox ears on her head that twitched and moved. Scared and shocked i let go and let the wind and gravity plummet me to the ocean. Now the dream starts to sputter i guess and scenes play out quickly. I was up on the island surround by 3 other survivors. 2 male soldiers and a female scientist/ doctor. They caught me up that i’ve been asleep for days and that they don’t know any way to contact to for help or departure. We decide to try and get higher altitude on the mountain for the radio to get better signal. It then jumps to us trying to pass a gate where a beautiful fox lady waits she isn’t the same one i saw before and doesn’t show the sharp teeth or terrifying squinted black eyes. However her nails are long and claw like. She tells us that she should alert the council there is intruders on the island but she is bored and decides to help us pass. As we go up the mountain monsters attack us but we manage. Finally at the top of the mountain we are captured by a group of fox girls who say if one of us can beat them they will let them see the elder. The dream ends there with us on cobble stone steps the black ocean way in the distance and the jungle below us as the girls stand between us and a large japanese temple.

11 Apr 2024

Dream

A friend of my father's came to visit, and they sat in the living room. I sat in Lucy's room, and from her bedroom window we could look down through the living room skylight. We saw my father and his friend sitting there. His friend was John, and he looked bad. He had long thin hair with all different colored hair clips in it. You could also see his scalp through his hair. When he left, my father told me that John had experienced something bad. John's nude photos were leaked online. They were pictures of his penis, and my father showed us those pictures. We were very shocked. John's life was ruined and he could never go on the streets normally again. I later posted a video on TikTok, and Nicki Minaj had reposted it. That was really weird since the video had nothing to do with Nicki Minaj, but I was so happy that she saw my video and liked it enough to share it.

10 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in this bunker with my dad, and a bunch of people I didn't know. There were also some characters from the show Carmilla, like Kirsh and Dani. There was some sort of sea monster that had been terrorizing the people of our city. Destroying ships and even going onto land to destroy buildings and take people. It was late at night and we'd just gotten a report that another ship was being attacked and that there were still survivors in the water that needed help. Someone turned the TV on and we all watched a live broadcast of the ship being attacked by large tentacles and people jumping ship, into the dark and freezing waters. Dad started shouting orders for any able bodies to gear up and get ready for a rescue and possibly a fight. I started to get my gear ready, but dad grabbed me by the shoulder and told me I wasn't going anywhere. He said he'd almost lost me to a giant hawk the last mission I went on and he couldn't bear to risk losing me again. I shook his hand off and said that I have to do something and that I wasn't here just to sit around and watch other people fight and die while I do nothing. I gave him a big hug and promised that I'd be okay and that I'd come back in one piece. I also told him that I love him he should be proud that he raised me so well, because he raised me to do the right thing. I gave him one more hug, then walked over to where Dani was crouched down, putting her boots on. I placed my hand on her back and asked if she was with me for this. She stood up and placed a hand on my shoulder and said of course, she'd always be right by my side. We headed into one of the bedrooms where I kept a special stash of weapons for fighting the sea monster. As we entered the bedroom, Dani spun me around and quickly, but gently, laid me down onto the bed. She immediately climbed onto of me, took my head in her hands and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around her and buried my fingers in her hair as we kissed. We made out passionately for a moment before she smiled and got off me, saying that was for good luck. I smiled back and extended my hand to her, which she took, then pulled me back up onto my feet. I grabbed the duffle bag of harpoon guns from my weapon stash, and smiled again at Dani, saying let's go kill that fucker. We began to rush out of the room, then I woke up.