Thought

24 Jun 2024

Dream

In waking-life I have only daughters. In my dream I was taking my youngest two daughters to a modelling agency, to see if I could get them signed. The girls were dressed impeccably, with their hair in golden curls and they were behaving demurely and politely. They modelling agency was in an old building, very elegant and refined with polished wood and antique furniture. The women working at the agency were also impeccably dressed and coiffured. There was soft classical music playing. The whole atmosphere was of quiet refinement. All of a sudden there was an electric guitar riff that shrieked through my dream, and my heart sank as I knew what was coming - I knew it was my sons (that I don't have in waking life.) From around the corner on the street outside, a double pram careened on two wheels, and raced towards me. Nobody was pushing it, it was propelled by the raw energy of the two toddler boys strapped into the side-by-side seats. They were laughing uproariously, spraying potato chips and drinks out of the pram as they sped towards the agency. They were sticky with peanut butter and other food, their hair was standing up, and they were pure wild energy. I thought "thank goodness theyre strapped in" and was relieved to see that the pram was too wide to fit through the modelling agency doors. I felt no shame of my sons, I was proud of them, but glad they wouldn't be able to destroy the serene environment, that it was safe from their wildness. I turned to the women running the agency, and with great dignity and a genuine smile, I gestured to these wild creatures outside the door and said " ...and these are my boys." They nodded mutely, aghast. I woke up laughing.

12 Jun 2024

Dream

I just remembered to see dirty water comíng out from a water hose but in my dream i realized that it was a dream an not real that it was my subconscious giving me that dream because I was thinking about the problem I have in my mobile home with the water line that I have to replace because the water is coming out dirty and it’s not good for our health and that’s when i stop dreaming

17 May 2024

Dream

My old boss that got fired was hired back on. She asked me how work was without her there and I told her it was way better. She was incredulous. She asked me how that could be possible and I told her that the new director is able to listen to opinions other than her own, she comes up with solutions that actually make sense and when she helps us out it actually helps instead of just stressing us out more. She told me I was being a bully and just trying to make her look bad. I told her she didn’t need any help looking bad. She told me even thought she was my boss now she could let it go and start fresh. I told her there was no need and I quit.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

I was playing an old childhood game on my computer. It was a horror themed fish game and I had to make it through different stages. The fish would attack the player and depending on how you treated your fish allies, they would stay allies or they would become enemies. All this with an interesting story about a scuba diver having an adventure through the ocean. After awhile of playing for a couple hours and losing, I stopped playing and switched to Geometry Dash. That I found an old level I made a long time ago. It looked really ugly but also surprisingly detailed for the time it was made. I was thinking about remaking the level sometime but first I wanted to get through it. I had a hard time due to errors I made in the design choices at the time.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that I was at this dance community and the teacher had me do some moves following after her, and she was so impressed and when she asked of my dance experience I said I had none. Everyone was so surprised the people around me were a lot younger so I felt behind, like i still see myself as a child or that I’m not where “adults” should be. But then I was in even though they never asked officially I was partnered up this this boy who didn’t want to be me partner at all. I felt super overwhelmed and inexperienced to be there, he didn’t like the fact that I was a nobody and that I was new, so I spoke up and said if you don’t like me or don’t want me to be here plz just communicate and talk to me, and he got over it, but there was Always tension. Then we sat against this wall the whole dance crew. I’m a bench. And watched others dancing it was really beautiful and this one girl was doing a backbend on roll skates! I was in awe there was this little girl who came up and said I hate black, for then my dance teacher said ofc not in that way, the theme was about sadness and anger, and they were doing a vocal expression of it as well as dance, the place felt like I’ve been there before, sort of like my job but more expanded we all lived there and dormed there, the hold time I felt unsure if this was what I wanted, incorporating or committing myself to something new, my days and time would be spent different, and I had lots of anxiety about how I would perform, and it felt hard to settle in, I wonder how else’s in my life the idea of doing something why I always go to “idk if this is for me” maybe always feeling unsafe? Or having to be on edge. But I wonder if flowing through it and sinking deeper into the possibilities of life could take me to a place I like. Cause the same is bringing me just that, and I seek for growth and change. So I want to be open to incorporating newness and committing to things that question if it’s for me,

9 Apr 2024

Dream

So I’ve had this repeat dream at least three times in the last couple of weeks. I feel like it is my mom who buys me this house, but this house is really in bad repair and it needs a lot of work and I don’t really care for it. It seems the house belonged to a coworker of mine that I really did not get along with , nor did I like. as I’m looking around the house, I noticed that there is a feral cat. now, I can’t stand cats and I’m highly allergic to them and even a little afraid. but the real estate agent is telling us that the cat has to stay with the house. I am shaking my head thinking there’s no way I’m letting a cat stay in my house if I have to live here. I’m thinking to myself the whole time that I do not want to live in this decrepit old house with a feral cat.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in a plane that was landing on the sea, I thought it would crash but it landed perfectly on crystal blue water next to and island where I took a cruise ship and had a good time with a beautiful view of the clear blue water

9 Apr 2024

Dream

It was about the coming of Christ. In this town there was a prophesy of the coming of Christ made out of clay. It depicted the savior reaching out to the people, two people looking up to the heavens with their hands on their faces, and two brothers rejoicing and hugging each other. There was also a written prophesy that said the savior would come as the butterfly blossomed from the chrysalis. There was a thorny plant near me that had a blue butterfly beginning to come out of it's chrysalis. It wasn't ready to come out all the way yet, but I was impatient and reached out to grab it. I cut my hand on the thorns and became very sick. When the butterfly was ready to come out, it fluttered around to show the good news, and flew to the heavens. Christ returned to the people. He began to comfort the people and hold their hands. Many did not see Christ because they were ashamed and trying to make themselves better before seeing Him. I remember thinking that it was all a waste because the savior could make them perfect if they would just go to Him. Part of my dream was about prophecy of the birth of Christ. There were many false prophets. They stored butterflies and released them to say that Christ had already come. They held knives to the throats of anyone who disagreed. In this dream my mom was Mary, and was pregnant with the savior. The false prophets tried to kill every pregnant woman to prevent the coming of a powerful being. They slit Mary's throat, but she lived. The feeling of the spirit was very strong, but many were too afraid of seeming foolish to accept what they were feeling.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamt that Cristian and I were dating again, or at least together, and I could see his location on my phone again. I don’t know why, I remember being confused as to why I could see it. I could see more of his social media again, but then I was blocked again, and then unblocked again. He made things difficult I didn’t understand why he was doing it but I thought it was for attention.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I was with some friends and we were walking thought this place that was sort of a mix between a house and an apartment building. We were checking out different rooms and some were too messy and we said how we wouldn’t stay there and some rooms we said were too small. We also found some clothes and decided to take them and wear them. Then some of us ended up walking to this common room type area. There were a good amount of people and a bunch of them I had seen earlier in my dream but didn’t know, some I knew and some were strangers. There was this dude that set up parties or something and he was talking to people. At some point some people took some edibles and I asked if I wanted one and I said no because I quit weed since it made me anxious. I still hung out with them and we walked to the woods or something and just explored. It started to become a nightly thing where we all gathered and people would drink and do drugs. We all sort of lived in that big area where I first met everyone and there were all the clothes and food we needed. At first all I would do was drink alcohol but I started to join in when they did acid and other pills. It was fun but I also didn’t know if I was making the right decision doing them. Everyone else was all the time though so I thought it would be fine. I would get up the next day and barely remember anything from the night before. Some days I had absolutely no recollection of the previous day. I was having fun but I also didn’t like how I was always out of it and never remembered anything. We had a poll on where to have some big party and we decided on a big party in the woods. We were all drinking and stuff but then for some reason the party became a competition and we were fighting some people but I don’t remember why. We didn’t fight everyone just certain people. I remember me and one of my friends were talking to the main guy and there were two dudes we were competing agains and both of our groups wanted to win. I decided I wanted to get it over with so I put one of them in a choke hold and we started fighting. I would be winning for a minute then he would be winning for a tiny bit but I ended up doing better as I could grab him from behind and stop him from moving. The right ended when I knocked him over and slammed something on his head and broke his nose. The other people were impressed and I was like, I think I broke my finger, oh well. Then everything went back to how it had been and it turned into nightly parties after that again and everyday felt like a blur. I couldn’t remember what happened when and where we were each night. We would go to cool places and party in mansions or at concerts. After a while the parties sort of stopped and we were apparently supposed to decide what we would be doing from now on. Like what we would be doing with our life. Everyone was splitting up and I was sad. Some people could go with one person from the group but some people had to go alone. There were a bunch of different tables with people at them sort of like a career fair but we had to end up choosing one. Some choices would be something like fly to different places often, never have a specific home because you’re always traveling. One was like working on boats by the woods we had a party at and stay in the area. One was joining the main dude in charge and help him prepare parties. One was an astronaut and go into space and leave earth behind. They were all really weird and there ended up being a point system or voting to decide what you get. I didn’t have as many points as some people so I didn’t get to pick first and I was stressed because I didn’t want to do any of the options but I had no choice.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in the car with my fiance. We were going down a road we've never been on. I said something about wanting to get a dog. He said that there would be a dog for me on the next road. There was this man walking a big great Dane. I could hear the great Dane talking. I don't remember what he said. I got out of the car to see the next dog. It was a little light brown bulldog. He ran up to me and said "I love you! Are you my new mom?". I said "yes I am, now let's go for a walk up this mountain ". I look down and I made a leash appear. We start walking up the mountain and I start getting an uneasy feeling. The mountain is steep and I keep looking over at the man with the great Dane. I heard the big dog say that he thought me and my dog were competition. He starts running faster, but his owners hold on his leash stopped him from running. I look at the owners face and notice his eyes change from red to black. I look down and were almost past the steep part of the walk. I notice holes in the ground. I can see inside and see this really big machine. I ask the man with the dog what is down there. He said "there's lots of dead bodies down there. Keep walking so you don't fall through.". We finally get to the top of the mountain. There's this store, and I go in. Instead of the normal conveyer belt at the cashier, there's cups. If your items didn't fit in your cup, then you couldn't buy it. I look around and see a lady who was meant to be a manager. I heard her thoughts. She was thinking about my performance as a shopper. I notice a paper in her hand, grading every worker and shoppers performance. If you didn't get a high enough score, then she fired you, even if you were just a shopper. I walk out and I'm in someone's house. I look around and think I'm supposed to be decorating. I'm at the kitchen sink and I look at the table. There's 3 unlit candles. I look back and notice the kitchen got messy in that time I took to look at the table. I look back again and notice the candles are lit now. I look back at the counter again and I saw sparks flying. The cabinet caught on fire. I use the hose setting on the sink to put out the flames. I'm trying to call the owner of the house, but I keep getting voice mails. I look around and notice the 3 candles turned into 3 people sitting at the table. I decide to join the conversation so I sit down. (I recognize one woman from other dreams I've had. I don't know this woman in real life, but I know her name is kelsey). A man was talking about how your eyes can change colors, so you can tell what psychic powers they have. I ask him about the man with red and black eyes. He said "that means fire powers. He also has super strength". Kelsey asks "My eyes are normally green but sometimes they change to blue and purple, what does that mean?" The man said "this means you can communicate with the earth and earth's materials like gems, metal, plants". I notice I appear at the kitchen sink again, so now there is 2 of me. The me at the kitchen sink says "well mine are normally green, but they change to a bone color. Almost white". The guy laughed and said "that's nothing. You don't have any ability". Then me at the table says "well we know white is the color of light when all the colors come together, like a prism. So would it be possible that she has every ability?". The guy said "you know what, I think you're right." He turns around to correct himself, then the me that was at the kitchen sink dissappears. I get up to find a bathroom and I notice that the shower is above the toilet. I decide to get a shower. As I'm getting a shower, I notice the drain looked like the holes in the ground I saw earlier, with the machine and dead bodies.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream that somebody I knew named Heather and another person I knew named JR were helping me with a bunch of art projects in a school cafeteria with a bunch of kids and they decided to take off on me but I didn't know what was going on and I didn't know how to handle the kids. Well the kids thought I was upset and they asked me if I was upset. I said no, I'm not upset. As they were leaving, JR wrapped his arm around Heather and it clearly made me upset because the other person that was there helping me was asking me what was going on as I was wiping down the tables because there was water everywhere and I could see the children's paintings and I was fixing up their paintings and you could just tell that there was something going on between Heather and JR although Heather wasn't Heather, she was an older woman. From the cafeteria I entered into another room where there was a bunch of like sea life and one of them was a betta fish that kept jumping out of the water and I couldn't figure out why it was jumping out of the water so we decided to dump out its aquarium to figure out what was going on and there was a hog nose being eaten by a bunch of mealworms and when I looked up to retrieve it out, my kid's dad was standing there instead of my kid.