Body

3 Nov 2024

Dream

I experienced sleep paralysis for the first time last night. I had just gone to bed and was laying on my right side holding a pillow and I felt like I was floating and spinning and I was sure that I was having some kind of OBE. I could feel my arms move and legs moving around all over the place. Felt like I was an astronaut in space. I somehow was able to get my face mask slightly off my eyes, perhaps because I had just entered sleep paralysis I may have gained a slight amount of movement. Once I had a tiny part of the mask off my face I then realized my body was paralyzed. My arms were straight out sticking out of the covers and off the bed. I remembered being scared for a second and then realizing I was having sleep paralysis. Once I made that realization at some point my body started to listen to me and move again but I can't remember those details completely. It felt like this happened no more than a few minutes after falling asleep.

2 Nov 2024

Dream

上演一部舞台劇，一部有點年代的家庭倫理劇，我是飾演一位在婚姻出軌被老婆發現，然後老婆殺掉兒子，向我報仇的角色。 其實我並沒有背好舞台劇的故事脈落，但是突然間就要來一個預演。我在後台等待的時候，只是打開自己的筆記，看着自己的對白，而我的筆記裏並沒有其他人的對白，所以其實我並不會知道何時到達我的出場和如何跟對方在演繹上對接。 我在台面聽到他們吵吵鬧鬧，劇情危急，所女人我亦是憑直覺走到預備的空間等待自己的進場。台面非常空曠，充滿煙霧，暗綠暗藍色的燈，還有聲音在麥克風裏變得非常之散開。 在預演之前，老師看得出來我有點悶悶不樂，他叫我趴在地下，幫我推開膊頭和心胸的緊繃，我脫了上衣趴在地下，只餘下一件束胸上衣，他說，有些事情只能透過時間去推動，再多的苦惱也無補於事，只是庸人自擾。

28 Oct 2024

Dream

Me and my boyfriend, Jacob, were talking about sex. He was telling me things about my body, and it felt like I magically realized what meant and is true about my body.

23 Oct 2024

Dream

I was travelin to some sort of family reunion with my mother, we were clad in mostly white clothes. As we rolled up the the oddly fuzzy grassy plane, I saw numerous people i presumed to be family, but I couldn't make out many if any of their faces at all, really. I only recognized my Nana and one of her sisters. My Nana was the first to greet us at the party, and one of my great aunts(my Nana's sister) scoffed at how my mother had presented me, disappointed by my overall disheveled appearance. My mother tried to plead my case, saying I was a bit sick(and in the dream, i felt I was), but my great aunt did not care for it. She said that if I was too sick, I should not have come. My mother would eventually yeild to her wishes and bring me to a nice cabin, on the outskirts of the property that which the party was still being held on. My great aunt did not really acknowledge me but I noticed some family members waving goodbye, and my Nana worriedly(for my sickened sake) also bid me farewell. She prompted me to lay on a soft bed, rubbing my forehead and telling le she would return when the part was over to retrieve me. I smiked and also bid her farewell as she kissed my forehead before leaving through the door. Then, there was a man, presumably already in the cabin before we could get inside, but he was no stranger. Oddly, enough, he was an anime character, one i knew, called Gojo Saturo, though I've never actually seen the source material. (Despite that, I will admit that in real life i've read raunchy and dark fictional scripts of him—though never anything primarily gorey, whuch is why the next part was so confusing to me) He began to stradle my lap and caress my body in a sensual way, but he did notice my reluctance and withered state of body. Before I could really communicate anything to him he had already acquired a manic grin, saying that he could "fix me", He cut me open, it seemed with onky his hands though the cut looked clean like a scissor. My organs were on complete display, and also cut clean through. A scream aas bareky stuck in my throat as a strong pressure and unruly sensation that I figure was supposed to be the pain of this situation that i've never felt before. He rummaged through my open body cartoonishly, picked out something prickly and gross from what i assumed was my large intestine, before throwing it behind his back amd sealing me up with the magic of his hands. A luminescent, white light lined the scar that would be my insides and outer belly being pulled together by some other-wordly glue like substance before turning a darker, more feasible colour. I was constantly gasping at all the odd sensations, cries caught in my throat, as it never seemed to get that bad, I was never really fealing pain but not feeling pleasant either. It felt like shock. He got excited, then. Pulling his pants down, fondling my vaginal entrance. I squeaked and tried to convince to lay off—tell him that he had essentially just perfomed surgery on me, and that I needed to rest. But he had an odd air to him, white hair and pale blue eyes. He seemed like he didn't understand. He seemed like he just wanted my pleasure above all else. So when he thrust into me anyways, I screamed and cried and moaned. Because it did feel good, but I was terrified of ripping my stitches, and I was rapidly becoming more and more wary of him. He kept one hand on my hip, hard so I couldn't remove myself from under him, but it seemed he started to see my pain. I was trying to speak to him between gasps and sobs, "Gojo, I can't—the scars, theyre gonna open up, Gojo, please" He tried reassuring me, saying "Look, look! I'll heal you even faster while we fuck, so we cam keep going. Are you okay now, baby?" And while his "healing" was indeed working, where he pressed his hand on my stomach the dark scar turned bright again and began to fade from the bottom up and he worked harder to remove the scar, but again, the pressure was alot. He held my hip down with a heaping amount of strength in that one hand while the other pressed onto my stomach to hasten its recovery, all while mercilessly snapping his hips into mine, panting like a dog, very pleased with himself. His smile was giddy and his tones were absurd as he spoke to me. The pleasure from the penetration had me further encompassed into this weird "shock" feeling. I could feel the light buzzing of magic being used to heal my body, the thickness of his warm dick filling me in quick repeating thrusts, and the subtle but prominent fear of the whole situation. I did wake up to a weird half-orgasm though.

21 Sep 2024

Dream

I don't recall the dream really, but through telekinetic messages from my TF, Steve, he was showing me that my current relationship is not going to last and that Vim is not him. He was showing me that he (Steve) wouldn't ignore my body's desire needs as Vim has. My TF tells me that he is the only one who can satisfy me with an insatiable craving. He was convincing me the truth about my waking life. I can hear Steve saying Raven, wait for my love. I hear your cries and your body. I'm coming for you, Raven. Wait for me please. I woke up

20 Sep 2024

Dream

Another twin flame dream. And all night and morning long, it was just me and my TF, Steve, making love. But it felt so real. He just loved being next to me, feeling my body, and both of us being exhausted from a long night of ecstacy, but no matter how tired we were, we never stopped and we became more virile. Both of us were pouring in each other's sweat. Hearing our longing moans while our bodies were entwined to each other. It was like we were nonstop giving each our highest of energies and we just kept going. During the dream, I can hear him whispering and moaning to me, "Soon darling, this will be real. And I can't wait to feel your body for real and get to finally taste you. Be ready." I felt like I was in Shangri-la. And I seriously did not want to wake up. But I woke up and I feel some virility that I never felt before. My heart was pounding fast.

4 Sep 2024

Dream

I kept having broken dreams and waking through the night, each time I slept the dream continued. I was at the gym, working out, and was surrounded by women on other machines all around. They were al super fit and as I was swearing I noticed they all kept looking at me. I became self conscious thinking I looked fat or smelled bad. Turns out my dick had fallen out of my shorts and they liked whatvthey saw. As I went to the shower rook to wash and change I was followed by a few girls who wanted to watch me shower, but as I got naked, they closed the door and got naked too. Then I woke up. And dozed back off. Story continued. I didn't have to lather my body with soap, they used their bodies on mine to do so. I was rock hard. So they cleaned EVERY crevasse. I closed my eyes and let them have their way however they wanted. They were all giggling saying the harder they workout the horner they get. I woke again, then dozed back off. It turned into a foursome under the shower, rubbing pussies, fucking them, kissing, licking clits, it was all super sexual. I woke again, then dozed off. By the end they all begged to be creampied. They knelt over each other exposing their pussies, and ibfilled each with vast quantities of cum. Then I woke up, with a raging morning wood.

31 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in this town, there was a tractor, I started to become lucid and walking around this town, and as I was walking around this town, a being sucked me out of my body and I fell into the void state of darkness and started to drain my energy, and then I came back to my body.

31 Aug 2024

Dream

I was cleaning up houses for a living and I ran into some friends. We started drinking. We drank before going to class but i decided not to go to class at all. We were fishing I couldn’t catch a fish but ly friend did. I felt left out with those two girls. I was proud for my friend and took a picture of her and her fish. Someone came and told me that they found my boyfriends friends body in the river.

29 Aug 2024

Dream

I woke up and checked my bank account and realized 550,000 was transferred into my bank. I was stunned. It was a from a forgiven account I couldn’t read or recognize. It scared me that this happened and I didn’t know how to process or what to do with the information. I wanted to tell my husband but I didn’t know if I should, as I was unsure if he was actually my husband. I went to the gas station to see if I could pull any money out from my account. I was able to pull a few hundred dollars out and felt some relief. At the gas station there were some high school kids being obnoxious and they made me feel anxious, I left to go back home. When I went back home my husband was awake and we had plans to see my mom. She picked us up and it was raining. We were driving around town and I couldn’t get a grasp on reality. I wanted to tell my mom about this money but I again felt very afraid. I had a desire to my nails done. When my dropped us back home, I told her I wanted to talk with her, and I remember feeling anxious about this. She had things to do and made it clear it needed to be to be quick. I brought her in the house while my husband was still in the car, and I kept trying to muster up telling her but I kept avoiding the actual truth. I didn’t know if I could trust her. My husband came in and my mom left. I became unsure if my husband was my actual husband, and I gave him a series of questions to test him to see. I wasn’t convinced. We did a tour through the house because I felt scared and paranoid. In the back room there was a old man’s body on the floor lying in the fetal position, but neither of us were surprised to see this, as if he was a part of the house. At one point we ended up on the driveway and our dog was in the car and there was a shoot out with the police. I remember being so scared for the dog, worried they were going to hurt or kill him.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream I woke up at my normal time to get ready for work, and Heather and I were messaging each other about the weather. Good light conversation like normal. I went to get into the shower and as I looked at my naked body, it was all splintering away like rotten wood, most of my insides were hollowed. I looked out the window and saw a tree had fallen onto the roof of the house, with multiple breaks of branches. The weatyer was strong winds, heavy rain and dark clouds. I worried about Heather in this weather. I couldn't reach her. Then I woke up.

7 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed I was exhaling letters in different forms that were demons and my body was getting rid of them by doing this. I was not scared but relieved