Anxiety

12 Nov 2024

Dream

I don’t remember much but all I know is I was able to wake myself up from it. I remember i was in a uncomfortable situation where I was aware that I didn’t like what was happening, I was either scared for what was gonna happen or I just didn’t wanna be where i was in that moment. When I feel like that in a dream, I’ll close my eyes in the dream & then forcefully Open them, it’ll take me a few tries when closing & opening but while doing that all in a spam of like 3 seconds, I’m connecting to my physical body to open my eyes, & then eventually my eyes will open. I won’t remember the dream tho right away, i’ll remember it later in the day .

11 Nov 2024

Dream

I was in some sort of large high end building with a group of friends. And we were on sort of adventure that turned into a game. We we exploring the building incognito as we were not suppose to be there. We kept finding layers upon layers to the building, even inside this building there was a mall which was a perfume I wanted to purchase when we were there the first time but then I didn’t. I also kept getting distracted with the other perfumes on display, but made note of the one I wanted to buy in the first place. We continued to explore and as we got deeper into the building we found a space with large commercial appliances that then turned into show rooms with large luxury high end cuddle palettes that were this extravagant cushions that were beautiful and so soft. One of them was two story building high. We jumped and played on them. As we continued to explore we found an area that was off limits with that had machines that were clearly very important and dangerous to mess with. I went inside one that looked like a fridge but as we were exploring a group of workers were nearby and we had to hide. We laid low until they passed. We we moved further along we found a prison. One of my friends was there and it surprised me to see him as he was always a man who was kind and did his best and I was confused as to why he was there. We sat and talked for a bit and he was worried about his sister. As we decided to make our way out of the building we had to pretend to be business men who were very busy and in a hurry to blend in, at one point I was in a suit and I would run through a space where there were people saying a bunch of a numbers. When we were coming back I remembered the perfume I wanted to buy. I did not get distracted this time with the perfumes and stayed focus. I had to wait for a worker to come and help me and I was anxious waiting on them, because I wasn’t suppose to be there. As I was making my purchase we were getting caught by the building and my group of people started fleeing, we had been found out and were no longer incognito, we started racing to escape. As we were running we found an elevator that got us out but as we were getting in our group split up as it was merely seconds the door was closing. I felt guilty that the group split and some of my people were left behind.

9 Nov 2024

Dream

Com uma casa de praia , com a minha família , mas estava infestada de ratos e minha filha estava com medo , estávamos querendo ir a uma praia mas eu dizia que as melhores praias eram distantes e quando eu estou de férias não gosto de acordar cedo pois já faço isso o ano todo, que preferia ficar por perto.

8 Nov 2024

Dream

I was with some influences and they were hosting a private party which was like a game show. The room was purple and I didn't get along with one of the girls there. My boyfriend decided to break up with me over text while I was at the dinner table with everyone in the room and then I accidentally broadcasted it on a projector so three people on the table told me it and everyone looked at me weirdly. After this I had to make a bed in one of the rooms but this girl kept stopping me and destroying it so I attached her with a chair and the items I was building the bed with and I decided to leave the house. It was still night time when i was at that house. After this I travelled to a more light and tropical area and it was then day time and I brung my cat with me. I bumped into an influencer while out with my cat and we got loads of photos but then I accidentally dropped my cat and he ran away. I did not know where he went and there was loads of cats that looked like him in the area so it was really difficult to find him. With this there was loads of water in the area so I was frantically looking for him but I could not find him and I started panicking. My cat is a house pet and does bit know what it is like to be outside so that triggered my anxiety majorly.

8 Nov 2024

Dream

My mom was giving me a punishment for something and that punishment was going through trash to find the thing I accidentally binned. So I keep going through trash until I find a package that I accidentally binned (not what I was looking for). It was a package from temu, do i go upstairs with it and open it. There i saw a lot of red boxes with Chinese letters on them. They weren't all read but they had images on them. There was one box that said "outdoor lamp" and I thought to myself that I must've orded an outdoor lamp accidentally. But then I keep looking and I see a box that looks like it had a screen protector for my old phone on it but when I open it, it had the exact same model of my old phone in it! I was surprised! I thought to myself that I must've spent way too much on this. I start up the phone and I see that I'm in a Minecraft world made by temu (the company that shipped me the phone) to test out how good the phone is, it wasemt bad I must say, but I wanted to leave Minecraft and see the rest of the phone. When I finally did leave Minecraft, my objectives changed. I was gonna finish my punishment, and then open the rest of the packages. So I go to the bin area where it was dark and all the trash bags were located and I keep looking through them. I find that in one of them, there's stuff I can sell so I call out to my mom and she's very happy about this. She tells me to keep looking through the for that item I accidentally threw away so I do, now that I've found it I don't care, I keep looking for valuables. It's as if each bag I go through has more and more electronics or manuals that I can sell. Suddenly I get teleported to my bedroom I had as a child and I'm opening the trash bags there. There's less and less trash but more and more things I can sell. The more loot I find the more my mom helps me, she would bring the trash bags in and made sure we weren't caught rummaging through our neighbours trash. I kept thinking to myself "wow, if I was my neighbours I would sell this stuff, they must be rich to not sell this". When I get to the last bag, there no trash in it, just things I can sell. The atmosphere looks very dark yellow because of the lightbulb thats emitting that colour. My mom looked happy and I told myself were gonna be rich. While I was searching through thoughs bags I felt a bit stressed not to get caught.

7 Nov 2024

Dream

Ian, his mom Linda and my daughter Lucy were in a trip and stayed in an home while traveling. It was a huge house split into different rooms but there were no doors and every room was connected. While exploring the house I realized I came across other peoples rentals and was very confused that there wasn’t a wall or door to separate the different living quarters. There was a pool in the house and in one pool it was very deep and had mattresses. Lucy had found a friend she was playing with in the pool. I was laying on a pool chair next to the pool. There were other parents sitting on the ledge where all of the kids were playing. I lost sight of Lucy and was yelling for her. There’s was a bunch of mattress in the pool and the pool also had fog on the top so I couldn’t see to the bottom ver well. I went under water to look for her and couldn’t see her. Then I started running around the house yelling for her and asking everyone if they had seen her and no on had. I was screaming and crying in my dream and I had this feeling that someone knew where she was but I also had tremendous guilt because I felt like it was my fault that she was gone because i waited to long to look for her after I lost sight of her initially. I was crying and accusing people at the house and they were just laughing and mocking me and I just knew they knew where she was, someone had her and I just screamed and cried and felt so helpless.

6 Nov 2024

Dream

I just woke up from a nightmare. I had a dream. I have been there very big house like my own childhood house with all my families relative we all around each other. It was a night time my sister and my cousins her sleeping in the first floor like Mollaee and there was a noise coming from upstairs Seems like there is a kind of argue between young people upstairs and my son was sleeping in the room and other kids also I tried to protect them from the noise. Don’t wake them up. I saw people are coming to downstairs soon. Come on stop making noise children are sleeping here While I was trying to see this young people come upstairs and downstairs in the store. Seems like they called police they’re waiting for police. I just tried to hold the door and don’t let them come in and make noise so I talking to them to stop and be quiet. All of a sudden 2 boys came inside and they start talking to us and they making arguments and they told them keep it calm. Children are sleeping while they were talking and it was lots of 10 around outside. The weather is very bad like storm is coming. I hold the door to don’t let the storm paint open the door Very strong wind was very strong and then it pushed us away and opened the hallway door which is open under from the balcony and push a subway. I just throw myself on the top of my son to keep him safe and this is strong coming and passing through from the other door and make lots of damage Other people coming from other rooms and then we gathering what just happen and it was so satisfied that a cute save my son then I walk around and I was looking after T-shirts and pants to change my clothes because it was super dirty. My other cousin came and help try to help me to find some of my clothes in that chaos And then all of a sudden I saw the house is coming down. It seems like there is something is going like like earthquake then stopped and then when I looked outside I saw two other houses other side of street they are partly gone into the Earth and they were disappeared. I told my mother wow look at her The other one of the in the basement of those houses. I kept my money and I told my mother wow look at the other side. The houses are gone but the part I was saving my money there is still there why we were talking. Have you been looking at the house and we try all around each other to get some sleep And then it comes another earthquake? We all woke up like we had roof and it was such a chaos everywhere I hold my son and like people was just some of the people was missing again and I look at the other side. I saw the other part of two houses which was still on the surface. They were gone as well and then look at my mother and I said oh my mother The part I saved my money is there also gone now and my mother said yeah but mine not and did you take pick up your money and she said yes yeah well my money are gone why we were talking is another earthquake and we so all of a sudden is coming hot melting Liquid coming from the mountain is coming to our house. It seems like there is no way to be survive this liquid coming to our houses Office that I jumped on the wall and this liquid is coming to Saeede though I still survive. I couldn’t see anyone else from my family. I try to find a way to see where can I go to keep myself safe While I was trying to find a safe place and I found the kind of on the top went on the top of mountain while all the people coming down. I went up climbing up and I was almost in and all of a sudden about my son where is my son? I couldn’t find him in this chaos And I feel kind of bad because I didn’t even look around for him. I just assume he has been gone and I lost him so I found a safe place between trees and climb up the trees to see around. I saw there is a helicopter is coming and cut the people Always on the trees on the top with a cutter and I understood that there is a plan seems like the government wants to killing everybody. Don’t want anybody to survive and I told myself why I am trying to keep myself survive and try to leave. What should I leave for when everybody has died and they lost everybody there is no point to leave And my son is gone and I always feel sad. I didn’t know why I’m trying to just leave and keep surviving I was thinking about that and I saw two kids playing by the side of the kind of River of this hot quiet coming from Mount they’re playing. I miss my son oh my God maybe if my sonic survive him rescue him he was here and play with them. I was so tired on silent and come to the ages and look at that that’s how we liquid things coming running out from the mountain so maybe I should go back and check for him so the liquid things is still going down the hill. I was so unsure that is there any chance to find him or maybe after he’s finished all people who has been so gathering and maybe I will find him Couldn’t find any reason to leave it out then all people has been super gathered by the government and be controlled by the government and there is no point to live so I saw other people like there was a bicycle trying to skate but she was come and Fall into that river and she was she gone as well so I was in this dream and sudden and woke up and find myself a safe place. I was very very sad dream

4 Nov 2024

Dream

I had a dream my little cousin asked me for a ride somewhere to pick up his money nd I said yea not questioning anything.we pull up to a house with blue door.we walk up to the door nd two boys answered nd 13 year old nd a 8 year old. I noticed the 8 year old had a phone nd my little cousin nd the 13 year old disappeared.i get bored so I take the little boy phone nd start going through it I go to his photo nd see this video of my lil cousin give oral sex to an old person boy he was crying the video was very traumatizing.instead get very defensive nd worried wondering where he was I said the video to my phone number nd began looking for him.i walk to the back of the house towards a kitchen nd see stairs leading down nd I see a boy head looking up with a blood drop on head nd I wake up.

2 Nov 2024

Dream

הייתי בתחנה המרכזית בירושלים והיה שם גם בית חולים באותו מקום. וראיתי שם את אולגה מהאישפוז יום ברחובות. ובאו להגיד לה שצריכים לספר לה משהו קשה ואז הודיעו לה שהבת שלה נפטרה. הבת שלה הייתה חולה כנראה. אני ממש הופתעתי מזה שיש לה בת (במציאות אין לה) ואז היא אמרה שהבת שלה ממש נרקיסיסטית אבל גם שהיא ממש נרקיסיסטית. ופשוט יצא לי הלב לילדה הזאתי כי לא יכולתי לדמיין איך היא סבלה את החיים האלה עם האמא הזאת. כי אולגה בנאדם משוגע וקשה ובלתי נסבל. וראיתי את הבת שלה ואז ראיינו את אולגה לטלוויזיה ודיברו איתה על זה שהבת שלה מתה ופשוט ראו שהיא נהנית מכל התשומת לב שהיא מקבלת, שלא אכפת לה בכלל מהבת שלה, ושהיא פשוט כל כך נהנית. היא אפילו לא הסתירה את זה, היא הייתה כל הזמן עם חיוך על הפנים והיה נראה שהיא פשוט נהנית מזה ממש וזה היה מזעזע ואז היה קטע שמישהו שאל אותי משהו ולא הייתי ממש מרוכזת ואמרתי לו כן בסדר ואז ירדנו במעלית וכשירדנו במעלית גיליתי שבעצם אנחנו יורדים במעלית כדי להגיע לילדים שהם צריכים למות. הם היו שם כי זה היה גם בית חולים והיה שם הרבה ילדים חולים ואז כשירדנו במעלית הוא אמר לי שאנחנו צריכים להביא רעל לילדים גוססים כדי שיהיה להם יותר קל למות, אבל זה לא היה בדיוק שמישהו שאל אותם אם הם רוצים את זה פשוט החליטו בשבילם ונכנסתי פשוט להתקף חרדה. הבנתי שהסכמתי לזה רק כי לא באמת שמעתי מראש מה הוא אמר. אמרתי לו- לא! אני לא רוצה לעשות את זה!!! לא ידעתי שזה מה שאני צריכה לעשות!!! נבהלתי בטירוף והייתי כל כך בחרדה, לא היה לי אוויר לנשום. ואז אמרתי לעצמי, אוקיי אני פשוט צריכה להתנתק כאילו אין לי ברירה אני בתוך המעלית ואני לא יכולה לצאת מפה ואני חייבת לעשות את הדבר הזה ואז הבאתי להם את הרעל זה היה פשוט קשה כי הם ידעו שהם הולכים למות, הבאתי גם לבת של אולגה. זה היה נוראי. ואז חזרתי לתחנה המרכזית וכל הזמן אנשים שם מתו מסביבי, הכל היה מפחיד, בכל מקום היה מחבלים ובחוץ היה חיילים אמריקאים ופחדתי מהם ממש כמו מהמחבלים כי לא ידעתי מתי הם יחליטו להיות פתאום נגדנו ויתחילו לירות עלי. וגם הייתה לי פתאום מחשבה כזאתי שאמרתי וואי אולי ככה הערבים מרגישים מול החיילים שלנו. בשבילי החיילים שלנו מגינים עלי ונותנים לי ביטחון אבל בשבילם הם האויב שלהם וניסיתי להדחיק את המחשבה הזאת. וגם כל הזמן חיילים מתו בלבנון כל הזמן היה שם קרבות ממש קשים וראיתי מהצד את הקרבות האלה למרות שלא הייתי שם, אולי זה היה בטלוויזיה.. אבל אנשים נלחמו והיה מלא פיצוצים וכולם שם מתו ונורא פחדתי, לא ידעתי מה קורה עם יהודה ויוס ממש דאגתי להם וגם היתה לי מחשבה שאם עד עכשיו לא קרה משהו, בטח משהו הולך לקרות, מישהו שאני מכירה הולך למות. כי זה לא הגיוני שעד עכשיו זה לא קרה. וניסיתי להכין את עצמי כבר לזה. אז כל הזמן ניסיתי ללכת למקום שאני לא ימות בו שיש פחות סיכויים כאלה ואז כשהייתי מחוץ לתחנה מרכזית אז הסתובבתי שם וקרו כל מיני דברים שאני לא זוכרת בדיוק. אני זוכרת שאלינה הייתה שם ועוד מישהי ואז פתאום נפלה לי איזה הבנה אמרתי לה שהבנתי פתאןם שאנחנו בעצם בתוך הצגה ואני כאילו מציגה את התפקיד שלי אבל בגלל שנכנסתי כל כך חזק לתפקיד שלי אני לא זוכרת את החזרות לתפקיד ואת כל מה שהיה לפני ומבחינתי היא הפסיכולוגית שלי, כי אני ממש חיה את הדמות אבל באמת אנחנו מכירות מלפני והיתה תקופה שבה התאמנו להצגה הזאת ועבדנו על זה אז הכרתי אותה מלפני. וזה היה נורא מוזר. יש לי הרבה חלומות שאני בתחנה מרכזית בירושלים וקורים שם כל מיני דברים תמיד זה דברים מפחידים תמיד נורא נורא מפחיד שם.

2 Nov 2024

Dream

上演一部舞台劇，一部有點年代的家庭倫理劇，我是飾演一位在婚姻出軌被老婆發現，然後老婆殺掉兒子，向我報仇的角色。 其實我並沒有背好舞台劇的故事脈落，但是突然間就要來一個預演。我在後台等待的時候，只是打開自己的筆記，看着自己的對白，而我的筆記裏並沒有其他人的對白，所以其實我並不會知道何時到達我的出場和如何跟對方在演繹上對接。 我在台面聽到他們吵吵鬧鬧，劇情危急，所女人我亦是憑直覺走到預備的空間等待自己的進場。台面非常空曠，充滿煙霧，暗綠暗藍色的燈，還有聲音在麥克風裏變得非常之散開。 在預演之前，老師看得出來我有點悶悶不樂，他叫我趴在地下，幫我推開膊頭和心胸的緊繃，我脫了上衣趴在地下，只餘下一件束胸上衣，他說，有些事情只能透過時間去推動，再多的苦惱也無補於事，只是庸人自擾。

31 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream about a guy I used to talk to in real life named Kiavon. Me and Kiavon were really close and were involved romantically and then we fell out of the friendship and dream. The setting was my childhood home in my childhood neighborhood. And every time I would open my bedroom door somehow kiavon was sitting there waiting for me Because he had snuck in through my bedroom window. And I wasn’t startled by this actually was OK with it because me and him would talk for a long time and he seemed like he really needed me but as we were talking, he just got up and left. I don’t know what the reason was and I remember following him outside and he was like walking down the street and he ended up at my neighbor’s Porch . I called him on his phone and I said hey is everything OK? why’d you leave and he said that he was in some type of deal and he was going to get $300,000. He seemed a little bit anxious, maybe even a little bit scared to go to his own home. I told him I was going to his house, but this wasn’t the house he was at. I walked into his house and it felt a little bit eerie. I was walking through and I saw his roommate, and I asked his roommate where I could sit at. He showed me the couch and I sat down. I remember just looking around. And then my dream moved on to the next scene. For some reason I was in a workout class with my gym instructor. And then he was going to drive me somewhere but he had to pick up his son. His son got in the car and he was very nice. He told me he had a present for me and he handed me the gift when I opened up the gift it was a sweatshirt. But not just any sweatshirt. This was Kiavons old best friends sweatshirt that his old best friend had given to me in the past and I still have it to this day in real life.

29 Oct 2024

Dream

I dream that I was on a cruise ship with my friends we were heading to England but we heard that the sailer of the boat was receiving bomb threat that was being investigated. The boat was sailing still and I went back to my previous house where I saw this lady who I don’t speak to anymore. She was in the bathroom arguing with me and people was outside watching me argue with her, I was arguing, she kept saying she can’t stand me and how I am ugly. Then I ended up outside and this guy in a white shirt whispered in my ears that if I had bought the house then I would of have talk over her. I told him that was the plan. I went ahead to tell the guy in the white shirt that it’s month she don’t speak to me. The lady who don’t speak to me came over to the table in her towel alone to come talk to me, and I told them I don’t want to talk to her I am done I wash my hands off that situation. I went back on the boat where the captain came to a wall and then he sail the boat into a circle into the deep water and we all got wet I was in shock because I was like where we going. The boat ended up going through the water and went through some metals and other areas then we ended up on land. This all happened where me and my friend Dominque and others went down a slide, I could make it down so climbed and jumped into the dirt. Then when I made it on land, I find I didn’t have my belongings but walking along I found my phone. I saw the main road and I was telling my friend that I lost all my things, and she said all those can be replaced. I was like you right, then I ended up at my first home that I lived that when I came here to the states. I saw my mother and I told her the sailer had a bomb threat while she was in the kitchen she didn’t pay me any attention.