Anxiety

10 Sep 2024

Dream

I had a dream which was set a few centuries into the future. The human species has evolved and found a way to inhabit every planet in our solar system. Now, I was working at a space station in the middle of the solar system as a kind of space order police. My job was basically to keep the order on the various planets. The way that would work is that my team and I would transport our consciousness into the bodies of people who would be present at a crime scene, or I would get more complex missions where I would have to send my consciousness somewhere on a mission to solve more complex crimes. This wasn't without any risk, in the dream it was explained that if the body of person died before we managed to transport our consciousness back to our own bodies at the spaceship, our consciousness would die with it. There was one mission where my team and I transported our consciousness to another spaceship which I'm guessing was involved in illegal activities, and after some fights and altercation we had no other choice than to blow that spaceship up. Now what's interesting is that there was one romantic interest involved in the dream, who could also transport his consciousness but he wasn't working with us or employed by the government, so it was illegal for him to practice that consciousness transformation, yet he still would do it since he was a criminal. Interestingly enough I did met his consciousness specifically on that one mission with the spaceship, and he was the one who blew the spaceship up in order to save me and my teammates. So after my consciousness was back in my body I had no idea if that "criminal" survived or not. Until one of the next missions, where our job was to retrieve something from an all-boys-hotel/orphanage, like basically it was a hotel ran by orphanage boys, and that was when I ran into that man's consciousness again in one of the boys bodies. He decided to once again, help me to retrieve whatever it was that I was looking for, which was kind of ironic since technically he was a criminal helping a space order police person, and technically I had the right to arrest him. Anyway, we did have a romantic moment in the hotel and then I woke up.

9 Sep 2024

Dream

my mom being crazy stressed and we just moved into a dark house Me and her where talking in my bedroom and then she just vanished mid convo Go to her room and she's there just saying down and I asked if she was okay She just said calmly "I killed them all even the kids" looks over at me "Just accept your fate" I somehow got my own knife and woke up once I did. I have no idea if I got stabbed and woke up or I stabbed her and woke up from stress.

9 Sep 2024

Dream

I can’t remember a lot of details from my dream last night, but I know it was about Ian and Taylor. I remember Taylor and I were going to some kind of water park or amusement park that was part of another dream from long ago? But when we got there I recognized Ian from behind, and quickly turned to Taylor to ask if that was him. He just nodded, and I decided that we would try to just go anyway. That there was a minimal chance of us crossing paths. So we waited a long time for him to get through the line. I’m sure he was with his family, maybe some friends as well. We never actually ran into him, but the whole time Taylor was acting more scared than I was. He wouldn’t go through any of the water rides with me, he stayed behind me the whole time, was constantly checking over his shoulder. I tried dragging him through the rides with me but he refused so often, that after an hour I decided that we should just go home. When we got out to the parking lot, Ian had maneuvered his car behind ours. The stupid black ford fiesta was parked sideways halfway behind our car. There was no one in it, but it was almost like he was trying to leave a message that he knew we were there, and he knew which car was ours as well. I can’t remember anything else from the dream but I woke up feeling incredibly off put.

7 Sep 2024

Dream

Dream I was in a school, alone, going through different classrooms trying to find a safe one, one had living squishmellow plushies. Like animals but they felt like pillows. I was hiding from a teacher and people who wouldn’t leave me alone because I was having an anxiety attack, they wanted me to stay and do something, i don’t know what but they made me scared more. I was in the safe classroom with the Squishmellows and i hugged a tiger one, I was just minding my own business with the tiger plushie and some other ones, and then I moved a bit and put an actual plushie that was not living on the other side of me so I was hidden even more, but as soon as I did that I saw someone coming, she was mysterious, she had glasses she was somewhat old but young at the same time in her 40s? She had a similar skin complexion as me, She started asking me questions and it made me scared, the question “who are you?” And “you aren’t supposed to be in this classroom.” I tried to reason with her and everything and it seemed like it worked? Then I saw the outline of the people who are looking for me outside of the classroom, the windows, and she instantly said “quickly this way” then I was lead into this glass room with a weird chalice bowl shaped cup, the bowl was in this weird silver square. She told me to pick it up and i did, but to be careful i grabbed all of it and not just the bowl, and to drink it, so I did, I drank the liquid it tasted sweet like tea, it was not cold, it was lukewarm, then I saw her, she was grabbing something, and she did it in a manner that scared me and made me stop drinking, she told me to keep drinking as she put in this strange silver liquid, I just got a small taste from it being mixed with the other liquid. It was sour, tasted like mercury, I didn’t really drink it, I didn’t drink any of it, but I lied, and then I saw through her and I told her how i could see that she wanted to harm me, that it was poison, she didn’t even try to hide the fact afterwards. She admits it. I don’t remember what happened after that I don’t remember what happened to her or where she went all I remember next is that the doors had become wide open now, and people my age had been leaving from it, now me outside of the classroom into the hall, I met some girl, she was nice, she was one of the students, in that classroom, she had no idea the teacher was evil, but she wanted to help me, she was truly trustable, then one of my friends, i caught a chance to see them and now us three began to find a solution to all of this, on our journey as we walked down to the hallway in a hurry, I stopped as thoughts began to erode my mind about what just happened, I thought, I really need to see someone, so i told them that i will be back and that i should see the nurse, and they understood that, one of them said they would go with me, but they both ended up walking with me, one of them got distracted by this weird man in a booth, he kept saying “ah I see you are on a journey, do you want to see how it ends? Would you like to see your future?” One of my friends took out a ticket and had the man tell them theirs, this was nerve wracking for me, this dude had weird vibes and I just wanted to go to the nurse so I don’t die from poisoning. But they wanted me to do it too real quick, so I did, i grabbed one of my lesser tickets, but wait it was ripped, I grabbed the pieces of it, it wasnt ripped badly and could be easily tapped together like a dollar bill, he did not like this i could tell he wanted a better ticket but i tried reasoning with him, which he seemed okay with but underneath not making it very clear, his motives about me trying to fix it and tape it back together, he became more aggressive, ripping the ticket more and more, saying it’s impossible to fix, that i should give him a better ticket, the special ones i have, as I’m here trying to fix the worsened ticket my friends are here trying to just get this over with and coax me into giving this man a overcharged ticket, because its taking so long, and now I’m anxious even more, sweating as I try to deal with this, now the strange man gets angry as I finally fix it and he was just like “why didn’t you just give me your good tickets?!” And then he ripped it up and flame eyes in him, I instantly got a magic vision like a magic ball or magic mirror showing me a vision of the future or present, it was a mangled face, that was supposed to be mine, it was all bloody with a bunch of ravens on top of it eating it, it was gross and looked like red fruit with a bunch of rips and bites in it where you can’t distinguish a face at all just bone and meat after the ravens disbursed and then it apparently got shown to everyone in the school at the same time, and they had been calling me by my dead name and then I woke up feeling humiliated and anxious.

6 Sep 2024

Dream

I was riding passenger in a car with a man. He was the driver. I wasnt attracted to him physically but he made me laugh and i was enjoying his presence. I think we were talking about his kids or his little brothers, im not sure. The car we were in felt more like it was flying rather than driving on ground. We were gliding through a night sky just talking and laughing. Eventually we fly over a cafe and i happen to notice my deceased grandmother casually sitting at a table with another person and drinking tea. I get excited and ask my friend to stop so i can say hi to my grandma. Eagerly i catch her attention but then quickly realize im dreaming.. she looked very confused when i called her nana and i immediately said “oh, never mind, my mistake” because i knew in this realm she wouldnt recognize me? I grabbed my friend quickly and said let’s go. I started pushing myself through the sky (flying) and just kept jumping up higher and higher as i high as i could get and then let go to fall. As im falling im thinking to myself, as soon as i hit ground, ill wake up. I was falling for so long i began to feel anxiety about not waking up and actually hitting the ground and feeling it. I eventually did wake up

6 Sep 2024

Dream

Some kind of family reunion near or at a theme park. Even tho I didn’t recognize anyone but Peter. While there, I also was messaging Kim, accidentally from my sister’s phone. I remember thinking this was odd because wouldn’t she ask me, her best friend, and not my sister to help her find something? I was surprised to go out side and see Kim there with her mother. There were reflective bluish windows on the building, reflecting our appearances back to us briefly as we walked. Her mom was overweight and with short hair. Kim looked stressed to be with her. My mom and I had gotten there earlier and lost our parking pass, and had dug through pink soft sand at the front by the wall where we may have dropped it. Kim and her mom were Looking for a parking pass. We went digging in some soft pink sand near the entrance wall and after a while we did find it and they were so relieved. They had noticed that my mom and I had already been digging and there was traces of us digging in the same area and I explained and when I went back down to dig through the soft sand my I nudged a piece of plastic and came up with the laminated ticket and I was so happy and relieved. After that I broke away from Kim and returned with my family to take a family reunion picture in a building on the right. I was in a sour mood for some reason, but my brother was there and Peter was keeping me in a decent mood. He also gave the photographer a hard time, and she seemed to be a little unprofessional or unprepared, but nice enough. He even insulted the picture she took. When I was holding things and they asked me to put them down, I threw them to the side, rather peddly, and then I even felt a little bad because one of the items I was holding wasn't mine. After the pictures, we all left to the building on the left, a very similar structure, and went inside to like mingle and stuff. We noticed these weird hopping animals as we went inside and they said that they were aardvarks but in my head even in the dream I knew that they were some fantasy animal but we'll call them aardvarks. They were orange-ish, about knee-to-waist height, with long necks and curled, dulled claws on their hands. And their necks didn't move the way a duck neck would. They moved like snakes, flicking and stuff. It was unnerving, but they were kind of cute and just seemed curious. One of them tried to get inside, hopping and clawing at the door. And I was joking at first, holding the door closed and telling my family about it, but the aardvark got more aggressive and insistent and it wouldn't give up and I kept holding the door and it was getting harder to hold the door closed from it. The door started to bend at the top and its claws came through and its neck and it was trying to come in, getting closer. Eventually, right before I woke up, I lost my grip on the door and the aardvark burst inside at my feet. I remember trying to nudge it with my foot and how odd it felt against my ankle and me being worried that it was going to bite me or something. Earlier in the dream there was something vague about wandering and trying to get to a destination urgently and yet feeling lost at some kind of convention in a dark building. There were other people there, but I can't remember much of the details. I know that there was a nice but busy priest nearby. I know that I think I was trying to get back to my mom or my family. I know that there was an odd bit about the parrot, Iago from Aladdin, and Sour Patch Kids with some kind of factory where they would squeeze through these child-sized holes. And the Sour Patch Kids were child-sized and also alive and had the voices of children and I remember feeling very anxious about that moment because it was almost like it was foreshadowing what if that happened to a real child and would they survive the candy factory and probably not because it would squish them or hurt them or something.

5 Sep 2024

Dream

Had a dream I was at school again. I was in language arts it was like the second day and I was having lots of anxiety. I also rode a real live horse to school so beautiful but I was stressed because I didn’t know where to leave him when I was in class. Other than that at the end of the day I made friends and woke up missing school.

5 Sep 2024

Dream

Floating around a space station looking for pieces of something. I was moving around like swiming in water. I remember seeing a piece far below me and I was afraid to go far from the station. There were no stars. Then I found myself at a party at some party school or something and there was this super tall black guy that was a rapper but we had the rapper Eminem in our group so people were excited for that. The party was packed with people. There was a second party going on at same time but ours was way better and all the people were coming to ours. All of a sudden the party calmed down and some people left. I asked where'd everyone go. There was this girl that came up and was like hey. My friends were like, she was here the whole time. I was thankful and she was pretty cute. She had tan skin and long black hair. Then we turned around and it turned into a bar with a big square bar with seating all around and football and other sports were playing on tvs. There was an older lady that I was resting my leg against and then one of the guys I was hanging out with was gonna sit next to her and then he said something to her and I commented on it saying g he was a kind gentle soul and he looked at me like, hey, that's nit true and said you don't know me. I laughed and made a joke about it. Then the guy called the football play that was occurring like he was narrating it but wasn't even looking and I thought wow, that's wild.

3 Sep 2024

Dream

I went to this resort with some other friends. My crush was going to be there even though it was unsaid. We were both there but felt like we were avoiding each other out of nervousness. I was really afraid for him to see me finally and think I wasn’t as pretty as he originally thought. There were a lot of instances where we past by each other but I would purposely avoided his gaze. We finally all sat down at a dinner table. There was only one seat left across the table from me and two down the left. But when I looked up he was sat right across from me like he made two people move down to sit there. Our conversation had barely started until we were told we were all going to be in a challenge. So we all disoearesed back to our huts to get ready. I felt uneasy getting into the shower if peoooe could see me so I wasted all of my time looking for a private one and didn’t leave myself enough time to get ready. I woke up as I found a shower.

2 Sep 2024

Dream

So I dream that there's this guy outside, dancing with a famous actor I've seen on TV. Then, I remember the guy going to his house, taking his phone out and locking himself up.. he's also acting strange and mumbling...His appearance is not bad looking... Black hair,eyes, mustuch, cloth, he looks Asian and In he's 20's or 30's...But he seems anxious about something....so let's name him Jack Then, he got up and went to the window, and there were these two vendors (men) the other one is short and looks like an Asian let's call him Lee, the same goes with the other guy but he's taller than the other one and let's name him Eli. They're dragging some baggage that I'm guessing they're selling something inside, And so they were called up by Jack and Downstairs Jack bought a piece of bread that Lee and Eli were selling. After that I remember a toy room/shop it's dark inside.... Then outside the classroom... It's also dark and raining a little heavy... And Jack was walking straight ahead with his umbrella.... The air was kind of gloomy and cold... While there are dim lights and so... And I also remember an intense scene with a woman and jack... They're seem to be fighting/arguing.... This woman is kind of familiar... Probably I saw in a series or what... But they're outside and it's probably raining/light rain and I think there's a black car park near them...

2 Sep 2024

Dream

I was teaching a class at this creepy, dark complex somewhere in the Arctic circle, but no one was showing up to class, so I decided to leave. Lots of people were in this main market hub, on a dock right next to a frigid sea. Some of the dream involved me diving into the sea and swimming with ocean creatures, though I don’t think I was actually doing this in the dream but rather just imagining what it would be like. There was a creature like a narwhal that I kept referring to a “sea goat” which was aggressive towards the other local wildlife and being reined in by trained swimmers. I was in awe of this and wanted to witness it for myself. I spent a good deal of the dream imagining swimming with them, which greatly surprised me, because I am terrified of sea creatures and being underwater with them. At some point I imagined giant sea monsters, and was afraid that they would attack beachgoers. Andrew Eiden was there, and I was attracted to him, although he was hanging out with other women who were a lot more attractive to him. We ate dinner together; they were all eating seafood but I declined. I thought about how I could be a much better actor if I would just stop trying so hard, and I told Andrew this and he didn’t indicate if he agreed or not.

2 Sep 2024

Dream

Me and my friend shannon had plans to do some type of health ritual together and when i met up with her she suddenly didn’t want to do it anymore. She even had an attitude about it. While that would typically bother me and make me feel insecure, i felt completely okay. It was easy to remind myself not to take this personally and to carry on about my day.