Fear

16 Apr 2024

Dream

I was at home in my bedroom with my friend, the lights were on and it was night time outside, we were playing games together when I got thirsty, I left my bedroom to go to the kitchen, the rest of the house was so dark I could barely see, from the kitchen in my grandparents doorway I saw a tall and dark silhouette with two glowing white eyes. It didn’t say or do anything but as soon as I looked at it I felt chills and sensed it’s negative energy. I went to sit down on the couch and hope it would leave me alone. I was on FaceTime with my friend and he was not talking either. The monster slowly moved toward me before rushing at me. It phased through me and it was so terrifying. There was a rush of noise as it happened then it was gone and it was dark again. I started to get up then saw it around the corner in the hallway. It ducked away and I ran down the hallway into my bedroom. My friend was no longer there. He was on the phone with me instead. My lights were off and my room was as dark as the rest of the house. I closed the door and locked it then I got in my bed in my blankets and still didn’t feel safe. Several minutes passed and under the door, through the light of the nightlight in the hallway, I saw a shadow standing right in front of my door. The feeling of dread and fear came back as I stared at it. The same dark shadow slowly appeared through my door and was standing and watching me from the corner of my room. i just held my blankets tighter and watched it. Then woke up.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that I was at this dance community and the teacher had me do some moves following after her, and she was so impressed and when she asked of my dance experience I said I had none. Everyone was so surprised the people around me were a lot younger so I felt behind, like i still see myself as a child or that I’m not where “adults” should be. But then I was in even though they never asked officially I was partnered up this this boy who didn’t want to be me partner at all. I felt super overwhelmed and inexperienced to be there, he didn’t like the fact that I was a nobody and that I was new, so I spoke up and said if you don’t like me or don’t want me to be here plz just communicate and talk to me, and he got over it, but there was Always tension. Then we sat against this wall the whole dance crew. I’m a bench. And watched others dancing it was really beautiful and this one girl was doing a backbend on roll skates! I was in awe there was this little girl who came up and said I hate black, for then my dance teacher said ofc not in that way, the theme was about sadness and anger, and they were doing a vocal expression of it as well as dance, the place felt like I’ve been there before, sort of like my job but more expanded we all lived there and dormed there, the hold time I felt unsure if this was what I wanted, incorporating or committing myself to something new, my days and time would be spent different, and I had lots of anxiety about how I would perform, and it felt hard to settle in, I wonder how else’s in my life the idea of doing something why I always go to “idk if this is for me” maybe always feeling unsafe? Or having to be on edge. But I wonder if flowing through it and sinking deeper into the possibilities of life could take me to a place I like. Cause the same is bringing me just that, and I seek for growth and change. So I want to be open to incorporating newness and committing to things that question if it’s for me,

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I went to the doctor to trap about my health concerns. And when I stepped in the scale for a vital check-in, a blue screen flashed in front of me and said I was obese. The doctor was insistent on my bed to make lifestyles changes if anything else was going to get better

8 Apr 2024

Dream

Two or three months after my grandfather passed away in 2021 of November, I had, well, his family was in town, and his wake, his funeral, everything, them basically destroying my house and taking my home from us was horrible after he passed away, and a family friend of ours that is very close to me, she has special gifts, she hugged my aunt, that is my grandfather's sister, and she said she felt darkness, she felt cold when she hugged her, and it kind of shocked her, and then after that, after hearing that, I don't know if it was the night of or the following night, after they all left town, his whole family left town, I had a night terror, I was in my old bedroom, laying on my bed, I felt like I was awake, actually, a black cat came into my room, which is odd, because I don't have a cat, so, that was pretty odd, because it literally felt like I was awake, like I was just, you know, my whole room looked exactly the way it was, like I felt like I was in my bed watching TV, black cat came into my room, then weirdly transformed, and then I ended up with a woman sitting on my lap in a white gown with dark, long black hair, her black hair was covering her face, so I did not know what she looked like, she was sitting on my lap, I sleep on my back, when I'm sleeping, so she was sitting on me, I remember vividly shouting, yelling, screaming at her, get off me, what are you, why are you on me, but then I realized, I cannot open my mouth, my mouth would not open, I am screaming, trying to get the words out, but it's just in my head, I'm screaming in my head, God, get her off me, get her off me, who is she, get this demon off me, Lord, I don't know what to do, I can't speak, get her off me, I'm freaking out, I am so freaking out, and then I remember wanting to move, but I could not move, it was like I was frozen, my arms would not move, nothing would move, it felt like my eyes were open, and I was screaming in my head, because my mouth would not move, nothing was happening, she was still sitting on me, and then I remember waking up, waking up from the dream, which felt like it was going on forever, and I remember after waking up from my dream, I could not move, I could not speak, for a whole 20 minutes, after the 20 minutes I could finally move my body, and I just started crying, uncontrollable crying, I was shaking, I was trembling, like my anxiety, and my, I basically had a nervous breakdown, because it was so scary, I was so paralyzed with fear, and crying, because I did not feel safe anymore in my house after this, it was horrible, it was absolutely horrible.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

why last night (in the process of writing about it right after it happened) in my dresm a lot of scary stuff happened like horrifying screamings and saying stuff like "yes the bombing happend then and then" while hurting me, but i also couldnt move and my eyes would close when it happened while the feelingof slowly zooming in i used to have dreams like this all the time like this when i was younger, (7-13) which made me grow to not be scared of it, bc the only way to get out of the dream is learn to  not be afraid  not be scaredwhen it happens which has been easy bc i know what to look for when i know its one of thosd demonic dreams, idk if this is a demon interfering with my dreams or something but when something like this happens it feels so real  everything the pain, pitch screaming, zooming in feeling, fear, and esspasilly the bombing at my school, due to the dream started with the dsy of school with my brother saying "i heard there was gonna be a bombing today" even though the bombing didnt happen until after school with this women throwing them and hurt my friends bc the police wouldnt let us run as it was happening making me have fo trip and jump over prople to survive

7 Apr 2024

Dream

Warehouse. Lights. Street. Empty street. Random building. Fear. Trepidation. Need to escape. Need to get to my destination which is unknown but felt. I remember how it feel way more than the exact details and that was just sadness and fear and determination to get out.

4 Apr 2024

Dream

I can’t remember how my dream started, but I know it had something to do with my grandparents house, the scientist guy from “The Simpsons,” and a black hole. I think the scientist was talking about black holes in my grandparents house. Anyway, in my dream, my mom, dad, sister, and I were all at this buffet mixed with a sit-down restaurant. We were talking and having a great time, when one of my friends came out of nowhere and started talking to us. She convinced my sister and I to go to a nearby store, and my dad went with us to make sure that we were safe. Once we got to the store, I noticed an invisible barrier around it and started freaking out. As it turns out, it wasn’t invisible barrier, it was just glass. Glass so clear and clean that I couldn’t see it. Once I got into the store, my dad disappeared and was replaced by another male shopper. Dream me failed to notice that though, she was too busy looking at what the store had. Meanwhile, my friend and the random shopper tried on some animal masks. As I was walking around, I found the ‘Anime’ section of the store. (Anime is another word for Japanese cartoons.) I saw that this section of the store had a membership option. I looked at the membership rules and saw how strict they were. The rules said that I could only watch certain animes and then listed the ones that I got to choose from. I decided to leave after reading the rules and went looking for my friend, but I couldn’t find her. That’s when I noticed two dolls in plastic wrap by the front register. They looked eerily similar to my friend and that random male shopper. They even had the masks that the two of them were wearing. Then, I heard a baby cry in the employee lounge of the store. It caught my sister’s attention too. Before anything else happened, my dream cut back to my mom, who was still at the restaurant. Everyone’s orders had arrived at this point, and she was playing with her food. Somehow, she created a black hole while playing with her food, and the scientist guy from The Simpsons started talking to her. He was like: “Don’t worry, this isn’t a real black hole. It may look like one, but it’s actually a worm hole. So, if it reaches critical mass and pulls us in, none of us would die.” Then, the black wormhole starts engulfing the Earth. It transports Earth to an alternate universe, which changes our reality. The biggest and most common change were people turning into animal hybrids. There was this surfer guy who turned part octopus. There was this young farm boy who turned into a goat person. It was weird. Anyway, dream me failed to notice what happened, and instead went into the employee’s lounge to see what was going on. Before I could get inside the room though, the cashier yelled at me, and I ran out of the store in fright. I ran into a random neighborhood and finally realized that my reality had been altered. I find the scientist guy from The Simpsons and run up to him. I tell him how I think the store I was at was turning customers into products and selling them to other customers. He told me that he couldn’t focus on that right now because he needed to find a way to fix everything. Shortly after saying that, he fixes everything and makes a documentary about the incident. It showed what the experience was like for both universes. While I watch the documentary, everything slowly goes back to normal. I teleport to my house, my family fades into existence, and we all sit down on the couch. Now that everything is back to normal, dream me feels safe and happy. (And then, my dream ended and I woke up.)

4 Apr 2024

Dream

there were bugs everywhere, i was panicking so much due to my fear of them coming from stink bugs.

31 Mar 2024

Dream

The main characters of my dream, who were doing an interview on a balcony, heard noises and went up to see what was happening. A killer ,who was unknown, secretly got into a room of two people that he wanted to kill. It was a personal matter to him. Someone else put themselves in front of the victim, who he was holding, to protect them. He told her to shoot herself in the mouth. And she did. Nevertheless, he still killed the other victim and didn’t stand on his word. Afterwards we found ourselves outside. But this other person who I was with right now wanted to check out what had happened due to their conscientiousness. I don’t remember who this was. It was either my sister or a friend. So we try to get inside of this building. By entering through the neighbouring building and going up with the lift. On our way, we saw two people coming from the opposite way. But we don’t say anything and go on. We keep everything a secret. On the last minute, when this person I am with (either my sister or another friend, I don’t know) goes to go up the last set of stairs and turn around to the said corridor where murder took place, I shut down. I don’t come up with her and actually want to tell her not to go. Since this is obviously a dangerous situation. But I can’t say anything out of fear the killer might still linger around and hear. And he does. The unknown person (sister or friend) goes up and asks something about what’s happening. The killer is very cold-blooded and gives off a thousand lies on what he’s doing up there and doesn’t even stutter. I didn’t see him. I was just anxiously waiting at the begginning of the stairs and not even on his level. But I was just scared that something might happen anytime soon. The killers lies, that I knew were curated, gave me the shivers and that’s when I woke up.

31 Mar 2024

Dream

The main characters of my dream, who were doing an interview on a balcony, heard noises and went up to see what was happening. A killer ,who was unknown, secretly got into a room of two people that he wanted to kill. It was a personal matter to him. Someone else put themselves in front of the victim, who he was holding, to protect them. He told her to shoot herself in the mouth. And she did. Nevertheless, he still killed the other victim and didn’t stand on his word. Afterwards we found ourselves outside. But this other person who I was with right now wanted to check out what had happened due to their conscientiousness. I don’t remember who this was. It was either my sister or a friend. So we try to get inside of this building. By entering through the neighbouring building and going up with the lift. On our way, we saw two people coming from the opposite way. But we don’t say anything and go on. We keep everything a secret. On the last minute, when this person I am with (either my sister or another friend, I don’t know) goes to go up the last set of stairs and turn around to the said corridor where murder took place, I shut down. I don’t come up with her and actually want to tell her not to go. Since this is obviously a dangerous situation. But I can’t say anything out of fear the killer might still linger around and hear. And he does. The unknown person (sister or friend) goes up and asks something about what’s happening. The killer is very cold-blooded and gives off a thousand lies on what he’s doing up there and doesn’t even stutter. I didn’t see him. I was just anxiously waiting at the begginning of the stairs and not even on his level. But I was just scared that something might happen anytime soon. The killers lies, that I knew were curated, gave me the shivers and that’s when I woke up.

31 Mar 2024

Dream

I’m supposed to go to church but this church is supposed to have a spirit in it. There is a mum who is practicing with the parishioners to say the right words. If we say the wrong words it might provoke the spirit . The church is old and a little run down. There are two words that we must say that are hard to remember. I feel anxious and don’t want to mess up the words for fear of bringing in the bad spirit

26 Mar 2024

Dream

we had a dog who had a litter of kittens, our mom didn’t allow us to have kittens so i was kinda sad cause there was an orange and a black one. my two fav cats. my mom looked at me and my brother looking really sad and said “okay yall can each have ONE cat.”. i immediately started crying of joy and picked up the orange baby kitten, and said “you and me- are gonna run this world sherbert”. i went to the dollar store where i work and got a bunch of cat stuff, and i told my boss that i finally got to have a kitten. i showed pic of the kitten to her and we both just stared in awe.