Emotions

12 Sep 2024

Dream

A guy I use to talk to and he’s hugging me in my dream and saying he loves me and I said it back! And it felt like a lot of emotions.

23 Aug 2024

Dream

I was a spirit and was told that I have to remove and replace my old, ancient, never used, dusty, China cabinet because it's taking up too much space. I was told this about many items, otherwise I would become a lost spirit. I was enraged and bawling the whole time. Even though those items didn't get a lot of attention, they still held meaning to me, and showed me how far I had come. To replace or remove them feels like removing my progress, but I did it anyway because I didn't want to become lost. Each item removed caused a great deal of emotional and mental stress. I would remember moments of my life that had that item in there, but then also when it was last used and left to dust. I would outcry and scream and bawl at the top of my lungs at each item, and wonder why I was subjected to this torture. I awoke in tears.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I visited these sisters in the hospital. One was dying and the other was healthy, the one that was dying I talked too for hours it felt like, we laughed and cried, but she died at the end, and then the dream changed, the dead sister turned into a dead cat, and I was crying so hard my chest hurt. We weren’t in the hospital anymore we were in an old broken down house, in a hidden back bedroom. The dead cat was laying on the window sill. I left my old stuffed dog that I owned as a young kid there with her, and I covered her in a blanket. I walked out of the room and I closed the door and I put a blanket over it and I pushed a dresser in front of the door so nobody else would go in. When I left the room the other sister was there. I said to her “it felt like your sister was apart of my family” and she said to me “my sister was a drug addict and it would be a shame to stay here and become just like her” then I woke up

23 Jul 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was at my auntie house it was me my mom my grandma and we were waiting for my uncle kemar to come and pick up clothes from us and when kemar came he walked up and handed me a water bottle that had alil bit of water in it and him and my mom laughed and I was looking confused so then we walked in the house and it had clothes in the hallways and a table to my left with stuff to cut and stitch clothes with and my mom had told him his hoodie came and it was red and it had words in the corner in white and black and words on the back and he was like I like it and he picked it up and said yall treat me so nice and I was like I also have clothes you could have to it was a bodysuit and jogger with skeleton hands on the butt part and I showed him it and I was like you could cut the body suit in to a shirt since it has sleeve or you could just wear the jogger and he said again yall treat me so good and everybody was just smiling and happy then I went into a different dream and it started at my school deloro and it was me and some of the people in my cheer and asb team and we had go sent to a different school bcs it wasn’t enough room and it looked like a elementary or jounior high but I was dressed like emo and I was dating a girl on my team named Ashley at first everything was fine and cool but then she started acting weird towards me and everybody in are friend group can see it and then we ended up in the cafeteria and that when it got even more weird it was two girl one on the side of Ashley and two infront of me and we were all sitting down I’ve never seen this girls before but everytime I would try and touch Ashly she would get mad and yell at me so I started look at this room that was infront of my it was yell with a window and it look like it head a vr set and games there was people in it but I just caught my eye to keep my mind off crying but when I didn’t try and touch her she would grab my leg and put my leg on top of hers and put her hand on my thigh so I moved my leg and I had said what wrong with you your being weird and she just said I guess I’m weird and laughed with her friend I guess so I got up and walked away and I got my phone and called Julissa my other friend and she didn’t answer so I texted her and while my head was down I bumbed into her and was telling her what happend but at this point we are infront of the cafeteria and this boy name Emanuel is playing football and we’re pretty much standing behind him and Julissa acting like she’s not listen to what I’m saying so I stop talking to her and some girl comes and starts talking to me but I don’t remember her face I just remember she had a white shirt on and then I wake up bcs my mom called and I leave my room but when I go back to my room there’s a dead lizard laying face up in my bed smushed and the tail in off and also I woke up crying in the dream and kinda out of the dream to but I would just go back to sleep and I don’t know what it means

16 Jul 2024

Dream

I was waiting for something to happen. The government was changing and not in a good way. Love was declared a disease and religions were under attack. There’s a procedure, a lobotomy really, which took away a person’s ability to feel emotions on a deep level. The phrase “better doesn’t always mean better for everyone. It always means worse for some.” Kept running through my head. I was scared. I didn’t know how to resist and I didn’t want to lose my ability to feel

26 May 2024

Dream

My work colleagues turned on me and told me they dislike me and think I’m attention seeking for self harming and not managing my emotions like when I feel depressed or suicidal My best friend also turned on me and told me she also hates me and I was all alone with everyone treating me like shit I was isolated and alone due to everyone confronting me and telling me how much they dislike me I began self harming by cutting my arms with a Stanley knife from work

6 May 2024

Dream

Im on thr train with all these celebrities while they are young. leonardo dicaprio, tom cruse, and vin disel. My assigment is to go back in time, dropping of these kids at different locations. Including school. Their adult selves of the future know im doing this. Im back in time undercover to complete this mission. We are all in a small van/bus. Drop off the young vin disel bus at jr high school that is in semi dangerous neighborhood- Then the dream transitions into a second dream that feels like a present reality. In the dream i become friends with MMA fighter connor mcGregor. We are friends because i am one of his handlers on the movie set “road house.” I get asked to interview and discuss what it was like working on set with him and Jake Jillianhall. Then later on in the future, I interview him on my podcast called “breaking bread”, my podcast show. We do the interview at my house. Its a mansion dream house. Open concept living kitchen dining that looks into the yard with a massive salt water pool. i invited every guest to come with their children and families. He was annoyed with his wife. He went outside to look for her with the kids and she wasnt with them. She was in another area of the house we found her she seemed down and sad. I reminded him they could stay. That was the plan. I told him i would show him my mom’s room and the house. My mom had a huge room, she was in the shower so i couldn’t show that but she has a seperate nook for everything. A kitchenette with an ice machine and it was colorful and mostly peachy and sparkling. An area just for makeup and hair brushing that was huge. And a massive closet. The room was the size of an apartment. This part of my dream felt so real. Then i told Connor ill put the kids in the 4 bunkbed room. His wife was already in there sleeping. We talked about marriage and how is hard to know more shot things because money gets in the way, but i pointed out he was grown and we all need to mature.

3 May 2024

Dream

I dreamt I won dancing with the stars and the dancers and nd I cried hugging each other and I felt so intensely protected and co regulating my emotions through him I just wanted us to Kiss. My friends and I were dancing on stage and the teacher put us on for a freestyle. I was extremely shy at first but then went for it and was doing horrible at first really and then a bit better. The teacher was throwing water at us to keep fresh and as I was dancing sexy she threw water on my pussy and I felt so hyped up like omg that’s what I’m living now it’s so great it’s such a core memory thing. There was also a pregnancy

2 Apr 2024

Dream

I was with my dad in the car and we went to a gas station I went into the gas station when I came back out a gun had fell out of my pocket but I didn’t go back to get. When I got back in the car my dad asked if I still had it when I told him I dropped it he told me to go get it and a loud voice said I don’t want to and my emotions became strong I went back to get it and I was grabbed by 2 men and they dragged my to the trunk of an suv and but me in the back I shot both men and went back to my dad. He was irritated at what happened and he drove me away but there was a parade so we couldn’t get to when I needed to go so he told me to go on foot to the trail station and I went

26 Mar 2024

Dream

I kept waking up in the middle of the night last night, worried and scared. having emotions from my partner coz he didn’t come home again and I think he’s cheating on me.

19 Mar 2024

Dream

I’m in this room of an academy and I felt like there was something off, but I ignored it. Then there was a door and a woman was at the door and she asked a boy to go and get the best workers from a nearby orphanage so in the morning the kids can go to this academy too. There was two girls that got roomed with me, one was a black girl with two puff balls on her head, the other girl looked strangely like the woman who ran the school, she had a sharp nose , blue eyes, blonde hair, but unlike the headmistress she had blue, pink, and red stripes of color in her hair. She was really kind and when I first went into the room she hugged me, but when she hugged me I could feel all of her emotions flooding into my soul. Weirdly any time I touched or hugged someone I could feel every feeling they had being leached from their bones and swim into mine. The woman was nice at first, but one time I walked into the room and she had the blonde girl by the hair. And she told her that she better focus on her studies instead of drawing. The girl pushed the headmistress away and into a wall. As the headmistress leaned against the wall I hit her with a rock. Thinking it was the girl she yelled do you think that you can hit me. So I responded by saying no she doesn’t but I do. And I ran at her and jumped on her back. She tree me off, an grabbed a needle from my desk. So in response I grabbed a pair of rusty scissors. I grab the girl and we run downstairs together trying to escape. But at the bottom of the stairs there looked to be a purple mist. Then I saw a phone with a text on it from the headmistress that said getthem. I knew that the fog was designed to make us fall asleep. But me and the girl ran through it like it wasn’t there. But I could hear singing. As we got to the edge of the property we started to run even faster because a woman was running after us. Still we kept running until we got to a nearby town. It felt like we’ve been to this town before though.

8 Mar 2024

Dream

My dream today was about immigration. One of the girls in the group of girls that I hung out with in high school isn’t documented, Yesenia. One of the other girls in the group is an ICE agent or they work with them to get people deported, Sylvia. Anywho we all met up again at one of the reunion functions but it ended up taking an interesting turn. I guess sylvia was looking for Yesenia and so me and the rest of the friends were trying to hide Yesenia from Sylvia. It was crazy, one of Sylvia’s people eventually found us in the bathroom but I tackled him and held him down so that she could get away. We found Yesenia as well as Sylvia and we all ended up having a heart to heart about it. Everyone was mad at Sylvia and the emotions were very high. We also found out that Yesenia was pregnant. I ended up offering to adopt her child if anything happened and she had the baby before they could deport her. We were all crying by then including Sylvia since I had kind of chewed her out about the job she has. I woke up after that.