My mother-in-law and i sit in the living room chatting, The air light. I sitting on the floor and her sitting on the couch leaning down to talk to me. The vibe changes to serious and she tells me that Ahren, my boyfriend and her son, told her that I was depressed, and that I can talk to her about anything. Sometime passes and I must have left because I walk out into the living room to the children I'm my family over for a visit, playing and laughing. My mother-in-law watching over them. She told me that went to the store and ran into my aunt. She agreed to take the kids and let my aunt finishing shopping. Bella my cousin and Aryah my niece beg to stay the night.

Aunt

Cousin

Depression

Family

Mother

Relationship

I was outside with my older (step)brother, my little brother, my baby (half)brother, my stepmom, and my dad. My stepmom and dad were sitting at one of these metal, all-white chairs which have an umbrella attached while everyone stood near them. I was watching my baby brother drink juice from his sippy cup and then he started whining. We were a little confused, but eventually my little brother tipped the bottle up for him and that seemed to be all he wanted. Some while later, I’m at school but no one is in the classroom. I thought that it was too hot in the room, so I went to look for where to power the AC. For some reason, I was sure that it was attached to the window. I opened the window and started reaching for some type of metal black thing. I was pretty nervous since there was nothing stopping me from just falling out. I remember that there was some honking outside because some troublemaker kids were blocking that cars from going through the driveway. It got sorted out, though. There was als a little drama going on because apparently Philz showed up at the school as a student, but the dream didn’t focus on that for long at all. A classmate walked into the classroom, and then a little bit later I saw my friend coming to the class as well. I asked her if she could help me with the AC situation, and she agreed without a problem. I thanked her, got down, and then noticed the play place connected to the classroom. There was a tunnel, which led to a rope-course thing, which led to a wobbly bridge, which led to the rest of the playground but in a different room (which kinda looked like a closed-down restaurant). Since there wasn’t anything to me to do, I started to go on the playground. I went through the ropes course (which was a little difficult due to the way it wobbled), went on the bridge (which was nerve-wracking due to the fact the bridge was wobble and there was no guarding for if you fell), and then I made it to the plastic rock part, which was the top of a rock climbing wall. You were meant to climb down it to get to the next part, but I think I might’ve fallen down or something because I managed to get down without doing the rock climbing, somehow. Then after that there were metal rocks built into the ground, which I was supposed to hop on to avoid touching the ground (kinda like the floor is lava). But then, as I was doing that, a lady came from around the corner and screamed, “That is unacceptable!” I though she was talking to me, so I stopped and quietly went “What?” Once she caught up to me, though, she walked right past me. I turned around to see where she was going and it turns out she was actually screaming at this dirty-blonde girl who was sitting alone at one of the tables near the playground. She looked to be around 12 years old. The lady, now recognized as the girl’s mother, grabbed her my the arm and started walked her to the classroom (which wasn’t really seen much as an actual classroom in the dream). I decided to follow by going back up the playground at the same time, because I felt like the mother wanted to talk to me too. When I came up the girl, her mom, and her dad were together near the tunnel I was in. The mom was screaming about how you only sit at muli-seating tables if you’re married and stuff alike. The girl was just silently nodding, and she looked sad yet not surprised at all. The mother said “You need to stop this depressive phase you’re in!” Then she turned to me and said something like “And you, don’t become friends with my daughter! Do you understand me?!” I nodded. The end since my alarm interrupted it.

Brother

Falling

Playground

School

Window

Dream About Family And School Dynamics

I was in my room with my crush. We were both a but shy and we were watching a movie on a laptop. First we were side by side then I laid on my stomach with a pillow under my chest. She started playing with a feather on my back, gently poking me with the stem of it. It felt nice. After that it was as if she was gone and I was getting tattooed with that feather and I was laying on my back. The feather kept going lower to the point where it was on my lower stomach and got me feeling aroused so I grabbed it and threw it across the room. She was there again and she understandingly stood in silence and picked up the feather. After that she was gone again and my ex was with me. Everything he did was very similar to how we were before and he asked me to be together again, but I felt depressed to simply stay in bed as we did everything but I agreed reluctantly. A bunch of people were suddenly there and I had a bunch of animal toys they were playing with but the toys were alive and all of them were predatory animals but they were really fun to play with they also stayed toy size as they came to life and no one thought it strange that they came to life. As I woke up I felt like leaving my ex was definitely the right decision.

Animal

My crush

Tattoo

Dream About Crush And Ex Animals

I had a dream that i was with my mom, her boyfriend, my brother, his wife and my boyfriend. We were in an odd house and i couldn’t quite make out who’s house it was. It seems like a mix of my boyfriend and i’s house and my moms boyfriends house. I remember being so angry at my boyfriend for the tiniest things. In real life i do get very angry because of my bipolar and i can’t seem to calm down. In my dream i yelled and screamed at my boyfriend all the way down the hall. Then i locked myself in a bathroom to calm down, and that’s when i felt so quilty, sad, and very apologetic, i never want to be angry. My mother had came into the bathroom to calm me down, i apologized to my boyfriend and i remember i bought mcdonald’s for everyone to eat because where we live we don’t have fast food and i always get so happy to have fast food. It was so windy out side that the table in the living room fell over and all the food was wasted. I got so angry and stepped out side from the side door. There was metal stairs that were not too stable. I remember my boyfriend coming out trying to comfort me, i felt so bad and told him that i just wanted everything to end and that i was done with living life. Then i woke up.

The dream had a loose narrative, starting with a family gathering and ending with a personal emotional crisis.

Turbulent Emotions in a Familiar Yet Unfamiliar House

The dream was marked by intense anger and sadness, especially during the arguments with the boyfriend.

The dream was emotionally intense, featuring strong feelings of anger and guilt.

While the setting felt familiar, the mix of different houses and the extreme weather made it somewhat surreal.

Specific details like the windy conditions and unstable metal stairs stood out, making the dream fairly vivid.

Lilly, your dream is a profound exploration of your inner world and the dynamics within your closest relationships. The setting of the unfamiliar house, blending elements from your boyfriend's and your mother's boyfriend's homes, symbolizes the merging and sometimes conflicting influences of these significant relationships in your life. The instability of this house, reflected in both its mixed identity and the metal stairs, mirrors feelings of uncertainty and transition you may be experiencing.

  Your intense anger towards your boyfriend over minor issues, in both your dream and reality, highlights the challenges you face in managing emotions due to your bipolar disorder. This dream reflects the inner conflict you experience, where your anger and subsequent guilt become overwhelming. The act of locking yourself in the bathroom signifies your need for solitude to process these intense emotions, a place where you can temporarily escape and reflect on your feelings.

  The presence of your mother in the bathroom, offering comfort, underscores her vital role in your emotional support system. Her calming influence in the dream suggests your reliance on her guidance during difficult times, emphasizing the importance of familial support in your emotional journey.

  The scene with the glass table that didn't break, despite the chaos, symbolizes resilience and the ability to withstand emotional turmoil. Your brother and his wife, though in the background, represent the stability and support available to you, even if it's not immediately apparent. The food falling but being saved, except for yours, could signify feelings of personal loss or sacrifice, despite the broader context of abundance and support around you.

  Your boyfriend's swift forgiveness in the dream, contrasting with reality, might reflect a deep-seated hope for understanding and reconciliation within your relationship. The fast heartbeat upon waking suggests lingering anxiety or unresolved emotions from the dream, highlighting the intensity of your feelings and the need for ongoing emotional processing.

  This dream invites you to reflect on your relationships, the support systems you have, and the importance of self-compassion as you navigate the complexities of emotional regulation.

Boyfriend

Guilt

House

Stairs

Table

Wind

Dream About Anger And Apologies

I was in the room that all had a blue hint to it all darker and depressing blues I myself was blue. I was down and depressed in everyday I looked sad and felt it all over. I get up to leave the room open the door and bump into my husband. I asked him what was he doing he said nothing . I looked down the hall a bit there was a bright room all warm orange and yellow colors. I looked at him he had a smile on his face but was nervous. When I look into the room it had all warm colors of yellow and orange and me laying on my belly in the bed. This was a happy me almost looked yellow and golden. I was completely naked on my belly my butt (so much bigger and round than mine) was oiled up and I was happy and relaxed as if I just received the best message. I turned to my hind and still standing in the hallways and asked did you oil her up and give her a message. He said of course look at her and before I could cry I woke up.

The dream had a somewhat disjointed storyline, with a sudden transition from a blue room to a yellow one, but maintained a thematic coherence related to emotional states.

The Room of Blues and Yellows

The dream began with a feeling of deep sadness and depression, highlighted by the dark blue hues, but shifted to a nervous happiness with the appearance of warm oranges and yellows.

The emotional shift from sadness to nervous happiness and the stark color contrasts made the dream quite intense.

The dream had realistic elements like the interaction with the husband, but the surreal transition between the blue and yellow rooms added an unreal quality.

The colors and emotions were extremely vivid, with specific details like the oiled-up appearance and the bright, warm colors standing out.

Noli, your dream starts in a room suffused with a deep, melancholic blue, reflecting a state of emotional heaviness and perhaps a feeling of being trapped in a cycle of sadness. The color blue often symbolizes calmness, but in darker shades, it can represent depression and a sense of longing. Your own embodiment of this color suggests a deep-seated emotional state that you are currently experiencing, perhaps related to aspects of your life that feel stagnant or unresolved.

  Encountering your husband at the door is symbolic of a pivotal moment where your internal and external worlds collide. His presence may represent a real-life connection or relationship that is currently ambiguous or 'complicated,' as you mention. His response of 'nothing' when asked what he is doing may hint at a feeling of emotional distance or lack of communication between you two, which could be contributing to the overall sense of sadness and confusion.

  The hallway leading to a room bathed in warm orange and yellow hues signifies a transition from your current emotional state to one that is more hopeful and vibrant. These colors are often associated with warmth, happiness, and energy, suggesting that there is a part of you that yearns for this emotional renewal and positivity. Seeing a version of yourself in this room, happy and glowing, indicates a deep desire for self-acceptance and contentment, a part of you that is relaxed and at peace.

Blue

Crying

Husband

Naked

Orange

Yellow

Dream About Blue Room And Happy Self

I had a dream about a mother and daughter( 4 year old) ..... The mother in my dreams was look like she has been abused.......  The dream start with conversation of the mother and daughter...... Something regarding moment and her husband....then a srap cut happen in a dream.... They are in new place... This place is just room ...drity , conjusted, feels very depressive .....again the mother and daughter talking ..... The daughter ask about her father ..and just after this a man drunk comes and attack the mother ( he is probably the father) I got scared when this happened..... This man and another  keeps on assaulting the lady .... The man who is not the father.... Ye puts his dick inside the lady's mouth ( I have this type of dream...why I am have these kind of dream again and again....
Next what happens fuck my mind ....  Both man rape the lady ...but the father didn't feel satisfied....so he rapes his daughter ( I didn't see this scenario....  But clues of  what's happening like the mother was crying in a side and the man raping someone

The dream's narrative is jarring and fragmented, reflecting the chaos of the events unfolding.

A Disturbing Encounter

The dream evokes a profound sense of fear and sadness, particularly through the mother's distress.

The intense emotional turmoil is palpable, especially during the violent attack on the mother.

The realistic setting of a dirty, cramped room heightens the dream's unsettling atmosphere.

The imagery of the mother's tears and the oppressive environment is strikingly clear.

Sam, your dream presents a deeply troubling narrative laden with intense emotions and significant themes. The presence of the mother and daughter immediately evokes the idea of familial bonds, but in your dream, these connections are overshadowed by trauma and fear. The mother, appearing as someone who has been abused, suggests a reflection of feelings regarding vulnerability, either in the context of your own life or perhaps as a broader commentary on societal issues surrounding abuse and the impact it has on family dynamics. The dialogue between them hints at an innocence that is starkly contrasted by the surrounding violence, emphasizing the fragility of safety in familial relationships.

  As the dream transitions to a new, dirty, and congested room, it symbolizes a space of confinement and despair, indicating feelings of being trapped or overwhelmed in your waking life. This setting serves as a powerful metaphor for emotional states—perhaps you feel stifled or burdened by circumstances that are not conducive to your well-being. The oppressive atmosphere of the room amplifies the sense of hopelessness that the mother might feel, highlighting a possible resonance with your own experiences of confinement, whether emotionally, socially, or mentally.

  The daughter's inquiry about her father introduces an element of innocence amidst the chaos, showcasing the natural curiosity of a child. However, this question quickly spirals into horror as the father figure appears, intoxicated and violent. This confrontation could represent fears about authority figures or the potential for betrayal within trusted relationships.

Abuse

Alcohol

Assault

Daughter

Rape

Dream About Abuse And Trauma 4

I was at a huge outdoor benuecwhen a helicopter carrying thr band nirvana was in it. It was an award show and was televised and the plane landed and killed all of the musicians including kurt cobain. It showed the video of them and it didbt crash it justcwent down too fast. I was in shock and horror and was so depressed.  I wandered around the area and lsid down next to site where it happened wnd thought that i had lost my best friend.  I then wentvto my house whete i lived with my mom and my sister came to thr house and my mom was mad at me and difbt want me to return so i grabbed a blanket and i was still sad over losing Kurt but they had no sympathy.

Blanket

Death

Helicopter

Sister

Dream About Nirvana Helicopter Crash

I was out shopping with my mom, we were in Regina though. The Cornwall centre is where we were shopping. But I guess in this dream it was the Cornwall centre in Yorkton. So, we are walking around and the place feels unusually vacant. We come across some people with their kids and we are looking at phones and making jokes and laughing. But we are laughing usually loud, it’s almost annoying to the others around because they keep staring at us. We then start to make our way to a different part of the mall, instead there are two employees in the hallway that leads to the other stores. One male and one female. The male decides to lead us down a very plain, beige colorless narrow hallway. But now I’m by myself, I look behind me and the guy is standing a few feet behind me, he’s smiling and nodding his head. I turn back around and I open the door that was at the end of the colorless and narrow hallway. It’s a small room, with metal drawer in the left of the wall, and to the right is wood scraps and my cousin Tristin, sitting in a wheelchair on his phone. And suddenly my cousin, Lyndell is there with me. The dynamic between me and her is like when we were 10 again. Lyndell starts looking through drawers and I just stand there “Not many businesses seem to last here in Yorkton.” Pointing out how the small city is pretty vacant. After looking through the drawers, Lyndell stands up and just looks around the small room. I go behind my cousin Tristin in a wheelchair, I put my hands on the handle bars and I begin to push him out the room. The room felt like there wasn’t anything beyond, just nothingness. As I’m pushing Tristin out of the room, he’s not even the real person. “We should take him, he’s always been interesting” I say. This Tristin was like a souless clone. I begin to walk down the narrow hallway and we come across another room to the left of us. I open the door and it’s my room from when I was 14. But it’s not my room anymore, it’s someone else’s room now. It’s completely different and messy. There is clothes and garbage all over the floor and I look to the left where there is a bed and a person sitting on the bed. I walk over to the window and I say “You should get up and do something” as I open the curtains. The person says “There’s nothing to do anyways.” I stand there and look around the room. It’s almost like I was in the perspective of a mother looking at her own depressed child. The end.

Clothes

Garbage

Hallway

Room

Shopping

Dream About Vacant Mall And Lost Rooms

Here's what I can recall from my dream. It’s strange; there weren’t many visuals, but rather a strong sense of feelings. The dream centered around themes of desire, societal expectations, survivor's guilt, and the struggle to truly live my life instead of being led by societal pressures that leave me burnt out, sick, and unworthy. 

I grappled with family traditions that made me feel like something was wrong with me while also confronting my deep desire for intimacy, compassion, patience, understanding, and doing things from my heart, filled with love, appreciation, gratitude, and compassion for myself and others. 

This dream felt heavy, muddy, and thought-provoking, highlighting my survivor's guilt, my family’s expectations, and the pressure to conform to societal norms. These expectations don’t bring me joy and are often impractical for someone with my health conditions, such as sickle cell anemia and dyslexia. 

It felt as if the dream posed deep, heartfelt questions about what I truly want. I realized that many things I thought would make me happy and fulfilled felt hollow and left me feeling depleted, frustrated, angry, depressed, sad, and confused. It seemed like my subconscious was delving into stagnant energy, draining beliefs, and the challenges ahead—an opportunity to overcome them. 

Although I didn’t see many images, the feelings and thoughts were profound, shaking me to my core and even feeling a bit scary at times. Yet, deep within me, I held the drive, determination, and motivation to face these feelings, understand them, and apply the necessary healing, cleansing, and protection for myself—because if I didn’t, I risked being consumed by things that lacked real meaning and importance.

In the end, I realized I needed to focus on understanding, healing, cleansing, and protecting my energy and what truly matters to me, rather than allowing outdated traditions and societal pressures to dominate my heart and soul. That’s all I can remember from my dream. What could my subconscious be trying to tell me?

The dream had a fair degree of coherence, weaving together complex emotions and reflections on family traditions and personal desires.

Struggle Between Desire and Societal Expectations

The dream conveyed a heavy emotional weight, filled with feelings of guilt, frustration, and longing for intimacy and understanding.

The intensity was notable, as the dream stirred profound feelings and thoughts, challenging the dreamer to confront deep-rooted beliefs.

Despite lacking visual clarity, the dream's themes felt deeply personal and relatable, highlighting real-life struggles against societal norms.

Vividness was low, with a lack of clear images, yet the emotional sensations were striking and impactful.

Quinnell, your dream resonates deeply with the complexities of your emotional landscape and the pressures that weigh heavily on you. The absence of vivid visuals in your dream, replaced by a strong sense of feelings, suggests that this is not merely a flight of the imagination, but rather a profound exploration of your inner self. The themes of desire and societal expectations being at the forefront indicate a struggle between your authentic self and the roles that others, particularly family and society, impose upon you. This conflict can lead to feelings of being burnt out, sick, and unworthy, which you have articulated with great clarity.

  The grappling with family traditions highlights a common source of tension for many individuals. It signifies that the expectations placed upon you are not just burdens; they are also reflections of love and concern from those around you. Yet, when these expectations clash with your personal desires for intimacy, compassion, and understanding, it creates a chasm that can feel isolating. The dream seems to convey that while it's important to honor family traditions, it is equally vital to carve out space for your own needs and desires, which may often feel at odds with those traditions.

  Your mention of survivor's guilt amplifies the weight of your dream. It suggests that you carry not only the burdens of your own struggles, such as sickle cell anemia and dyslexia, but also the emotional weight of others who may not have had the same opportunities or support systems. This guilt serves as a reminder of the privileges and challenges that shape your identity, and it can manifest as a barrier to your own happiness. The dream is calling you to acknowledge these feelings without letting them consume you, to find a balance between compassion for others and self-compassion.

  The exploration of stagnant energy and draining beliefs in your dream indicates a crucial turning point. It suggests that your subconscious is urging you to confront and dismantle the beliefs that hinder your progress and joy.

Anxiety

Journey

Lost

Love

Self-harm

Sick

Dream About Desire And Survivors Guilt

I am having dreams of a Bluesky account posting with AI generated nudes of me as a jab, getting visions of sacrificing some fruit at an Aztec temple (it was spelled Apec, for some reason?), and then me reading my Voicemail telling me to go back to the hospital as the voicemail captions cuts out after “depression” and “go back for treatment” as if they found something dire; … I’m bewildered…but will end up going back to sleep soon.

Abortion

Hospital

Dream About Bluesky Ai Nudes Aztec Temple

I had a dream about my classmates.

We were on a field trip together. We were all sleeping in the same room. For some reason my sister and mom was in another room right next to. 

Eventually I felt left out and so depressed, I was really upset nothing helped. They were all having fun just not me. I’m not sure I knew why I felt like that in the dream but it makes sense to me now that I’m awake because my class has been so sectioned and separated. There is one group of mean people.

Anyway I went to my moms bedroom and hid under her blanket while crying so much. Neither my mom or my sister could make me feel better though they definitely made me feel more safe.

My classmates were out having fun but I didn’t want to join.

Reference to real life: I was on vacation with my class the other week and was sick all week with fever so I couldn’t join them that much. It was lonely.

Anyway my mom then gave me a puppy in the dream, knowing exactly what kind of dog was my favorite. It cheered me up a bit. She also bought me swimwear that covered me more up than just a bikini. I’m not sure what this means? feeling vulnerable?

The coherence was moderate, with a mix of clear memories and disjointed feelings about my classmates and family.

Field Trip with Classmates

The dream had a heavy emotional tone, as I felt left out and depressed while my classmates were having fun.

The intensity was notable, especially when I found myself crying under my mom's blanket, seeking comfort.

The dream felt quite realistic, reflecting my recent vacation with my class and the feelings of isolation I experienced.

The dream was vivid, particularly the details of my mom giving me a puppy and buying me swimwear.

Cecilie, your dream reflects a deep emotional landscape that resonates with your recent experiences and feelings. The setting of a field trip with your classmates symbolizes a shared journey, a rite of passage that typically fosters connections and camaraderie. However, your sense of feeling left out and depressed indicates an internal struggle that seems to stem from real-life feelings of isolation. The fact that you felt excluded while others were having fun highlights your current emotional state, especially in light of your recent illness that prevented you from fully participating in social activities. This separation from your peers may have left you feeling not just physically unwell, but emotionally disconnected as well.

  The presence of your mother and sister in the dream, yet in a separate room, suggests a yearning for familial comfort and support during times of distress. Your instinct to hide under your mother’s blanket points to a desire for safety and protection, revealing how you might be seeking solace in familiar relationships when facing emotional hardships. The juxtaposition of your classmates' joy with your own sadness speaks to a common feeling of being an outsider, which can be particularly pronounced during transitional phases in life, such as your current age.

  Your mother presenting you with a puppy symbolizes a longing for companionship and unconditional love, suggesting that you are seeking affection and joy during a time when you feel vulnerable. The puppy, a creature often associated with loyalty and playfulness, may reflect your desire for a source of happiness amidst your feelings of loneliness.

Classmates

Puppy

Dream About Feeling Left Out And Puppy

I had a dream in which my brother Tony and a few of my cousins and I were shopping in a mall. There was a rack of clothes with white turtle necks on sale as well as 90s vintage clothing such as wind breakers and cross colored clothings. 

In another part of the dream, we were either in a hotel or still within a really nice mall. We were in the corridor of the mall and there was a really nice and comfortable looking brown turtle neck and a pair of jeans lying on a white chaise. On top of the clothes was a letter with my name written in it, and a $25.00 gift card I could keep if I were willing to leave a review of the clothing. Initially, I was asking my Uncle Wayne if he wanted to leave a review and receive the gift card. I saw how the excitement was growing on his face as well but before I could even finish my sentence, I immediately changed my mind. I said, “Nevermind. Nevermind. Nevermind. I’ll do it!”

I took a closer look at the turtle neck. It was soft and the material was warm. It was comfortable looking and would match perfect with my skin tone. The jeans were tailor made. I had never seen a pair of jeans like those in my entire life! They were stitched and pleaded well with a flap that had several buttons that would cross over the zipper. The pants were 90s inspired yet futuristic! I was elated! One of my Aunts was in the corridod as well. I told my family members that I use to leave reviews but I stopped. I had actually forgotten all about them but I thought to myself in the dream that I wasn’t going to give away what God had blessed me with or let it slip out of my hands. I remember thinking how I also was use to giving my blessings away without even thinking twice about it but then I realized how much of a disservice I was to myself. Of course those who were on the receiving end of the blessings I was giving them never declined my gifts but this time, I wasn’t giving my blessing away. If I recall, I also got to keep the clothes if I promised to leave a review!! I was overjoyed because not only do I love writing, I loved the clothes. While examining the clothes further, the wheels in my mind were already turning and I knew the descriptive words I would choose in my review.

My Aunt found another piece of paper that confirmed I use to leave reviews. She said, per the paper, I earned over $3,000.00 doing reviews. I has realize how much money I had earned. One of my cousins said I earned more than the average person earned in a year or half a year. I just thought to myself, after waking up from the dream, that the letter had my name on it which further confirms that it was for me. 

In one more part of the dream, I was in a house with my grandmother who we all call Mama and other family members. Mama said she would be visting Tabernacle Holiness Church on the 2nd and 4th Sundays  (the church where I attend and where my father has been the Pastor for several years and where my grandmother attended before she went to Heaven).  She said she would visit St. Paul Holiness every other Sunday to keep an eye on Yvonne.

Yvonne is a twin. She is one of 12 kids my grandmother gave birth to. My grandmother said (in the dream) that Yvonnes husband (Sam) was treating her really bad. Mama said although Yvonne would post positive messages about their marriage on social media, it was the total opposite in real life.

In the same dream, Pastor Holliday (Mama’s sister who is also in Heaven), and I and a few others were in a house or church like setting. Pastor Holliday pulled me to the side to talk to me about a couple’s marriage. It could have been about my aunt Yvonne. Pastor Holliday said how could someone say they love someone if they treat them bad. I agreed with Pastor. I was also thinking how could they say they are a believer but yet treat the one they say they love that way. 

My cousins & I then started playing some fun card games. They aske me where I had gone. I was happy to let them know that i has been talking to my pastor…Pastor Holliday.

Now that Im awake, as I reflect on this part of the dream, after I questioned how someone could be a believer and treat someone they love that way when love is the greatest gift, I also thought in the dream how could someone be same sex attracted and a believer. I then realized that perhaps that part of the dream wasnt about Yvonne but me and Ralph. In real life, Ralph has been dealing with a bout of depression for the last few weeks. He had to step away from Tabernacle because his views about sexuality was changing and he also felt the weight in the church while he sung. Leading praise and worship in a small family church where 3 family members passed away in less than 3 years was challenging to him. He was also dealing with his own internal challenges.

He had been talking about leaving for months (we both had been) especially after Delvin passed. On Easter Sunday, he had written a text message to the praise & worship members that he was stepping down or away for awhile after missing a few Sundays, he called me distraught. He felt he was disappointing everyone. I came to the house we purchased together where he lives and comforted him. 

I know he’s dealing with conflicting thoughts about faith, freedom of expression, and sexuality. He said in a text message a week or so before, after he and I got into a disagreement, that he wasnt in the right head space to be in a relationship. He said it seems as if it wasnt working out and that we should both heal & work on friendship. He said he didnt know what the future holds but we needed healing. 

Fast forward to the last 2 to 3 weeks. Ralph use to text and call frequently but that changed likely due to depression. But i promised him while he was crying on my shoulders that i would be here for him. This past Friday he had to sing at a church at 7:00 PM. He texted me when he left & when he arrived at the church.
10:00 PM arrived & soon it was 10:45 PM. No text messages. I relented and texted him at around 11:00 PM letting him know I was checking in him before falling asleep. Within 25 seconds, he called and said he left church & went with Ashley (a mutal friend) out to eat. He handed the phone to Ashley and she was happy to speak with me. He said they were about to leave. I said i was just checking before going to bed.

Honestly, I was disappointed and angry at Ralph. He didn’t think to at least text or call me after leaving church. Im trying to give him grace but its difficult when i feel as if im being disrespected. I fell off to sleep and woke up to a text message letting me know he made it home. It was well after 2:00 AM. 

Saturday he texted me good morning. I swallowed my pride and texted him. I wasn’t as engaging as i once was with him via text. Admittedly, I still feel some sort of way. Apart of me wants to throw him away. Another part says to pull away but don’t throw him away. 

Perhaps I need to continue being loving and kind because love is the key but its difficult. How can I question my Aunt’s husband’s salvation because he’s not loving her the right way when perhaps Im not loving Ralph the right way. If we were not ever in an inimate relationship, perhaps it wouldn’t be so hard. I gotta give grace even when Im hurting. I gotta try & understand him even when I feel overlooked and disrespected.

Church

Family dying

Game

Money

Dream About Shopping In Mall And Family

Relationships

Ex-partner

Foot racing

Left Behind

Move Out

New Friend

Past Home

Pistole

Seeing Dead Relatives

This dream symbolizes sadness, hopelessness, and a feeling of being overwhelmed. It may indicate that you are going through a difficult time in your life and are struggling to cope with your emotions. It may also suggest that you need to take a break and focus on self-care.

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