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14 Aug 2023

Dream

At some point in my dream I remember being in some sort of huge odd store, sitting near a group of people who were friends with one another. I, sitting near but not too close to this long crowded table just look around aimlessly in confusion and trying not to make anyone of which I don't know personally uncomfortable in any way. Every now then my wandering eyes notice another person sitting in between everyone on the opposite side of the table of which I was positioned; staring at me almost intriguingly, observing what seemed like even my every detail in behavior or something. I on instinct get very nervous and awkward and immediately redirect my gaze elsewhere trying to think nothing of it, only for this to happen a couple more times. Soon after a different person from the same side of the table as I but positioned farther off, gets up and walks towards me giving me their full attention with a genuinely bright and warm smile. I redirect my attention in reciprocation and turn my body and gaze towards this person as they get closer and they start making many gestures with their hands, never speaking once during any interaction yet displaying such energetic and friendly energy. I try my best to understand and communicate anything lost in translation. Nearly less than a minute of this and I finally figure out that they are telling me to turn my chair facing towards a wall I originally had my back against before; I swiftly do as instructed, confused. I notice as I do this the person from before upon me being approached by someone else, also moved their chair still opposite of me but only a little farther the other side of me still keeping eye contact. Immediately after I am turned sitting, facing towards the wall the person who gestured me to do so returns to their seat and the previous person from before stands behind me with both hands to the wall over my head almost trapping me. This instantly caught me off guard especially with their chest against my back, (I am not very fond of much physical touch or affection and get flustered and awkwardly tense easily... I do on many specific extents tolerate specific amounts of this or just genuinely don't mind too much in some cases with some people even in just as a compromise; as to most people, such things are very natural, normal, comfortable and or comforting, so I do try my best to find a way to meet in between and create a middle ground). I instantly feel flustered, embarrassed, confused, nervous, and awkward. As I don't know how to react, I awkwardly laugh hoping no one could see my face. The next moment is almost the perspective of watching what happens after this, through the eyes of this person; they start to run their fingers through the top of my hair calmly. As, this is one of my many insecurities I quickly try to explain that my hair is overly greasy, oily, damaged, disgusting even naturally with possible skin and scalp conditions in hopes they'd be discouraged from doing so, and maybe not think as less of me and my unfortunate hair struggles. Although I'm pretty sure my tone of voice whilst saying these things made it obvious of just how much I am self conscious of this especially when many others also expressed this😕. Yet even so they remained somewhat calm yet sounding and seeming slightly defensive tone while expressing their response (I genuinely couldn't hear their words clearly for whatever reason but would feel bad asking for them to reiterate). It sounded as if they say something along the lines of not minding any of this or that no one else would know (of what specifically, I still don't know) and showed this by lightly touching and hanging their hair above mine. In a blink of an eye they are lightly resting against me, hands to the wall again, and their body draped over mine (similarly to before). I turn and see the table, of which some people turn their attention towards us, the person who made the gestures before notices as well and makes an amused grin. I'm still not sure what to make of this and or why of all things to happen, it is this?

24 Jul 2023

Dream

It was homecoming, and I’m going to it with my sister and some girl named Katelyn. We arrive at the place it’s at, but it’s way before the dance actually starts, so my sister and Katelyn go inside, while I go sit outside, and text my dad making sure he’s bringing our dresses. A minute later Katelyn comes back outside saying she has to go find a green shirt because apparently her multi-colored top wasn’t allowed due to it being against fashion law or something like that. Suddenly we’re in Walmart looking for a green shirt, but don’t find one, so Katelyn walks out the store, headed to another one in hopes of finding this green shirt. In the meantime, I head back to where I was sitting, which were these warehouse type shelves outside the door that goes to the dance, and I pull out a book/notes for studying and doodle in the margins. Next thing I know, this guy shows up and starts throwing a rubber bouncy ball in front of me, and he then says, “You do realize how much it would hurt if you got hit by this.” And then I say, “I don’t really care, you wouldn’t hit me.” So he challenges me to let him throw it at me in order to prove his point that it would hurt. So I let him, and when he throws it, my arm decides to block it. He says, “That’s cheating.” So I respond, “No it’s not, besides I’m busy studying, like you should be.” He says, “You’re not even studying, you’re just doodling.” I say, “Same thing.” So he sits down next to me, and we start talking. I don’t remember what we were talking about, only that he was half Russian. Then I get up to go do something, and come back, and tell him to scoot over so I can sit where I was again. A little while later I’m outside, walking with this girl, and we’re headed to this house from the Forest Gump movie. When we get close to the house, we walk past a row of FBI vehicles, and the girl asks me why they’re there, to which I respond, “They’re here to protect the guy who lives here because he’s really important.” So then we’re walking to the backyard, and suddenly I see those caution tapes in front of us, and then someone fires a warning shot in front of us. So I just scream sorry, and we start walking away. Then this lady from the FBI chases us down and tells us why that happened. Then, we come up to this house, and while we’re walking I have a strange feeling that he’s the sister of the Russian guy I met earlier, but I never actually confirm it in the dream. Next thing I know, we’re doing some kind of excavation in a neighbors front lawn, and we find these pieces to different statues, that look like they need to be put together. The statues seemed like they’d make a Mickey Mouse, a dog (blood hound maybe), and something else that I don’t remember. Anyways, the FBI lady is too worried to actually put the statues together without backup, and then calls backup while letting me and this girl leave. Now I’m at a theme park really late at night, and it looks like it should be closed. We surprisingly get let into it, but only to the area with restaurants and a, looks to be, broken down Ferris wheel. My parents tell me and my siblings to go on the Ferris wheel, so we do, and it’s not like a normal Ferris wheel, but one where you have to hand onto the handle bars while you go around. Anyways, me and my siblings go on it for a while, with another girl who joins us, and then my dream ends.