Disappointment

31 Oct 2024

Dream

Nefer and I went hiking trying to find a pond. We had our towels and everything. We saw a group of people on a trail and decided to follow. We came across this area with tall grass on a hill but no pond. I decided to just take out my towel and lay it in the sun and take a nap. When I woke, Nefer was gone. I went to find him and he was in this nearby house with this guy and they were smoking drugs. It looked like those retainer cleaners, circular tables that dissolved upon impact. I was upset with him and this new fellow he hadn’t told me about. He was nonchalant about the whole situation. I told him we needed to go but he put another tablet into the pipe and held it to my face for me to inhale. I thought I heard ringing in my ear from the drugs but it was actually a fly, stuck in my right ear. I threw it out and we left. I can’t remember how, but that that drug dealer was also a cop and he arrested us. My parents had to come bail us out and we’re not happy. What’s weird is the cop disclosed to them that he makes the drugs. Then I woke up.

29 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I had a mental breakdown and I started smashing and throwing everything that was around me in a public space afterwards in the dream I felt bad and my mum was so upset and disappointed with me

24 Oct 2024

Dream

Another very deep dream. I was with someone and we were really in love. I made a kind of a treasure hunt for him to go on. We went on it together kind of. It was like actually the treasure hunt was on a T-shirt, but there were other things planted around what felt like a school environment. We decided we were gonna be together and we made plans to be together on a Thursday night. Then I remembered that I had plans on Thursday. I was a plus one on a ticket to see this band that was like a mix of Simon Lebon from Duran Duran and some other bands. The other band was The Clash. I had been given the ticket, but it was. I was also gonna be on a like a date, but not a date date it was like they had an extra ticket and I was gonna get it and be sitting next to this person, but we didn’t know each other. Anyway, somehow it was Thursday and I told my boyfriend I had plans that I completely had forgotten about. He was upset. I was like, “oh shoot I’ve got these plans”. I think a family member had set me up with getting the extra ticket. Then suddenly it’s Thursday and my boyfriend and I are standing outside of the event hall and the guy that I have the ticket/date with shows up. I said, “hey I’m your plus one.” He was a very snarky little man who was full of himself. My boyfriend‘s attitude completely changed. He ended up introducing himself to the guy, who was a small, thin man. Then my boyfriend went into this story about it being the anniversary of his father‘s death, and he got very emotional. He basically made me choose between going to the show or being with him and I chose to go to the show because it was Simon Le Bon from Duran Duran. But then I got really upset that I hadn’t chosen my boyfriend and he got really upset that I hadn’t chosen to go with him. And then I became really desperate to prove to him that I loved him. A messenger came to me and told me that my boyfriend wanted to see me in a room 138 or something like that the ballroom that the event was happening in was taking a long time to kick off. So I tried to find him and when I did, he told me how upset he was and How I had to choose again. So I went about trying to find the man with the ticket and let him know that I wasn’t gonna be joining him. So then the dream shifts and within the same facility I was invited to I was having lunch or dinner or something with Cassandra. I think it was Cassandra my stepsister. We got seated at this tall table where the table was taller than our heads and so we could see each other from under the table and we each got a glass of wine and I knew that I was sober, but I tasted the wine, but then I had to go because I had to fix the situation with my boyfriend. When I finally made the choice and caught up to my boyfriend, then everything shifted again and he was so like disrespectful of me like I needed help and he wouldn’t help me like with the laundry. The washing machine was really cool though. The basket was small so you couldn’t put more than three or four items into the basket, but you could see through it. You could see the laundry go through its whole process like after the wash, it would drop the items being cleaned down into another section and then you would use that to dry the clothes and it was really just kind of cool. It was like almost a giant portable washer dryer system. Anyway, Cassandra wouldn’t help me. My dad wouldn’t help me. It just became really frustrating. I had no support after I’d given up the ticket. The atmosphere of the dream was very like solid with gray tones. At one point my dad and I had gone to this market. It was very sparse though. It wasn’t like a market like I’m used to. He could only pick a few items and oh we got to the checkout and the checkout lady completely skipped to my dad‘s order. So she had to pull his one item out of this order that somebody else had made and check him out. He may not have been my dad. It could’ve also been, I don’t know, either my boyfriend or another relative but it could’ve been my dad too.

23 Oct 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that I had hundreds of gold items and suddenly realized that selling them would solve all my stress. I was so excited and relieved. It was a lucid dream. I woke up feeling so disappointed.

17 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream it was kind of too further was very bad. I don’t remember it was a war like bombing in the city or it was only the storm or tsunami or something like that but it was every mirror in the town and I was around. I didn’t know where in the town is Safe when is coming to be if the sea comes it comes like a tsunami or bumping in the sea, the water coming into town so very safe or where or where they are bombing from sky or something happen where is the safest place to go? I was so worried about my family to take care of them and I remember I was thinking about my sick brother who has passed away in a break time but I didn’t remember that he was passed away so and he had he couldn’t walk when he was alive so I was thinking about how can they help him? And where is the safest place running around and thinking well to go to them to if something happen then I can help them so I want to my uncle‘s place. I didn’t remember much there but I was looking for my mother and my brother and another way to get to find my mother my mother also passed away no break time and my grandmother also passed away in my aunt passed away but they were all alive in my dream and I was thinking to help them so when I there is some storm or bumping came so I was trying to find out what happened to my family and trying to look for to find my brother and my mother and my grandmother was why I was looking for them in that chaos. I found my aunt was laying down and seems like she’s still alive but she was just laying down and then and I was looking for my mother and they heard my mother was screaming. It seems like there is something happened to my grandma so I was super stressful and I was trying to find them. Where are they too? If I can help them, so I was thinking, how can I help my brother? It was coming so some myself was floating in the floor to try to just breathe and I think how can I have my brother and maybe I should just put him in a carry him in my back, then they can just help him to survive and breathe so I was thinking and floating in the water and the other side I saw myself in the in the room with a toilet I need to go to So instead of sitting in the toilet. I open my leg and like the doggy way I was pissing. I found that is fun. It was while I was pissing. I saw someone was sleeping in the same room with a toilet in but I could stop because I really need to piss and it was a long and it seems like it’s never end to take long time until my peace was finish and then I wanted to clean up myself and turn around. I saw someone sleeping there so I started to talk to her. Why he’s sleeping dirty is the toilet and bathroom is a public why he’s there and he said he has rented that place so I was a bit stress or talk to him. No, it’s impossible and then I found out the owner Landro trying to make money even of the toilet so disappointed by the land road and didn’t know what should I do so it was complicated to the World Cup.

4 Oct 2024

Dream

I gave birth but I wasn’t pregnant. I had a c section. I was at university and went to a home where there were friends and a guy I admire. This guy didn’t care about me and it made me disappointed. The c section scar was HUGE it took my whole belly and chest tremendously thick. So I asked them if it was normal. I descridbed the scar and then I was chocked and fainted. While unconscious I screamed and yelled my lungs out. An old tutor who’s dear to my heart came to help but a friend told her to leave me alone. After a moment alone my friends from university came to help and brought me safe. I kept apologizing for screaming. A teacher cried and I was at my old middle school it was linked to the hospital I work in

3 Oct 2024

Dream

In this dream I was at a convenience store and I ran into two childhood friends with my youngest son Alex and they were talking to me and they identified who they were. I didn't recognize them at first and they wanted to get a picture together. One boy wanted to go get his mom so she could take the picture. I asked Alex to come in from the car so we could take a geoup picture. The convenience stores was connected to a Concert venue and there was a concert going on next door. I was getting snacks for the drive. I grabbed some candy, I also picked up some aspirin and something powered drink mix, but it was too expensive. They were each $6, so I put them back. The Tylenol rang up in $34 and then he said there was a coupon which dropped it down to 17 dollars, so I kept it. The mom finally came down from her room and we took the picture together with his mom doing the honors for us. After we were done we wished we would have gotten a picture with just the boys and Alex instead of me being in the picture. My two sons and I went to go visit a church and it was my Old Salem Baptist Church from my childhood. We were sitting in the balcony, but Anthony stayed downstairs on the main floor. Alex sat with me and after a while Alex went to go sit down on the main floor too. I stayed up in the balcony and was enjoying the service. The singing was beautiful. then it time for the offering and I had a couple of big bills, a $1 bill and a $5 bill. as I was walking towards the collection table for the offering, I was trying to fix my clothes cuz my suit coat pocket was sticking out. I put the money on the table next to the collection plate and the stack of money fell. I thought I'd give it a $1 dollar bill instead of the $5. So I held up the line a little bit while I was about to recheck my wallet to see if I accidentally grab the wrong bill. Then I realized that the pile of money had fallen over so everything was okay, I saw a $1 bill and the $5 bill I had given. I continued to walk around to return to the balcony. I man said to me, the food's going to be really good after the church service. it smell like it was in like was smoked ground beef or pulled pork. I said yes, I would eat. Then I went home which was really weird because we're on my father-in-law's property and our living quarters were like small shack built similar to a slave housebon a plantation. I was going to go and relax for a little bit and then go back to church to pick up the boys in Omaha. Christi was still sleeping, but in another shack on the farmland. I was changing clothes first in my shack and there was a window facing the road. I had to step back a little bit into the shadow because I didn't want my nephew Zane to see me changing clothes. Christi's dad, my father-in-law was getting one of the horses out to ride but then another horse escaped because the fence was left open. so he was riding and trying the lasso the horse to guide him back into the fenced in area. The first couple of tries the lasso missed and then on the third try he got the horse and was able to secure him and get him back in the enclosed area. I went over to Christi's Shack and she was just getting out of bed. I asked her if she wanted to go to the movie with us and she said, no, why don't you guys just go. that was a little disappointed in my dream. I decided to make the movie a guys outing. I had to go and pick the boys up from church and I was trying to leave before they would call me to come and get them.

28 Sep 2024

Dream

Me and girls were competing on the TV show for something and then suddenly I was guy who was getting kidnapped by some man. This man killed people. I saw him hang a wan upside down and murder her. His ex victim was a little boy, he fed the little boy food that had a sex drug in it to make the boy horny. The boy warned me he's acting nice and to get out before he poisons me with his food. The man came back with a bag of take away and a smile on his face. I tried to escape but anyone who was entrapped when we got outside a few feet in his yard, we would burn from the acidic rain in his yard. Eventually the boy found a way to escape via an umbrella and we escaped his clutches. My boyfriend picked me up and he drove me to new Orleans where his family was. He brought me back home and then back to his family and he seemed upset with me in the second trip. I told him to take a wide slow turn on the curb and he didn't listen. My brothers and his brother was also in his truck. In his family's neighborhood was an old apartment complex named "the Cherokee palace," (very specific), I saw it was very affordable at 399 a month, but I saw it was outdated and almost unlivable. I was disappointed by the online pictures and the fact the owners warned of mold. My boyfriend was upset and left his family's house to get fast food even though they were cooking there. It started to rain a thunderstorm and his grandmother warned of a bad tornado and that he needed to come home soon.

27 Sep 2024

Dream

There was a 'monthly check up' on how our new house was going by our realtor. I thought we cleaned our house immaculate but then the realtor took us to a side of the house I completely forgot about. It looked like a whole grocery store, with a checkout area and a gardening store area. This area was completely disorganized with products all over the floor and customers waiting to check out. I immediately help the customers check out as I remember that I told the realtor and my family that I wouldn't mind taking care of this area, and would love the responsibility. In reality, I was not prepared for it, and did not have the full energy to take care of all of it. The realtor said it wasn't as bad as she thought it would be, despite no one taking care of it. After the realtor left, I was deciding where to put everything. She gifted us a glass table, and even though it would fit perfectly in the middle of the yard, I was so scared that it would be broken by the weather. We wouldn't have anything to cover it, so it just sat in a corner while my boyfriend and I debated what would go there instead. He said it would be fine and to just put the table out there, but I knew from experience that it would break and that I wouldn't want the gift to be ruined before we got to even use it. Also I went to the gardening area, and I went to happily work on that, when all of a sudden cockroaches, spiders, and ants all got into my hair. I felt gross, dirty, and with no energy left to continue, I gave up. I was hard on myself for taking on too much responsibility, but I honestly thought I could do it all.

25 Sep 2024

Dream

I was home in the living room, and my mother’s ex fiancé was there. My mom and little brother were there, and it dawned upon me that her ex was staying with us again after him and our mother split in 2022. I felt a mixture of surprise, disappointment, and discomfort as I didn’t really respect him that much especially for the things he did that led up to our mother ending things with him.

3 Sep 2024

Dream

I went out with my niece and my brother in law. I was apparently drunk driving and got a speeding ticket for going 69 mph in a 55 mph zone. Somehow the cop never noticed me being blackout drunk. I did not remember the drive home or being pulled over, only from the retelling from my brother in law. When we got home, my husband was disappointed and stated he told us we should not have gone out.

30 Aug 2024

Dream

dreamt that our class do a analisis like a name analisis or something i don't really know and then the analisis said that im a person who hobby is dissapointed other people, so im konda anxious because in real life today i have a competition, so im anxious i afraid that i will lost