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8 Apr 2024

Dream

The year after my grandpa passed away, in 2022, we were in our new trailer, me and my grandma, because we basically had to move out of our house that I grew up in forever by January. I had a dream. I was laying on my blow-up mattress, because that was my bed at the time, in my new room in my trailer. I was sleeping on my blow-up mattress. Then suddenly, I was asleep. I remember in my dream, I was at my grandfather's sister's house, in the back room where my grandfather would always sleep and stay when we visited there. That room that he stayed in, I have always been afraid of that room. For some reason, I have no idea why, but I always was. The fear. I never felt safe in that room. So, in my dream, I was in that room he used to sleep in. The room I was scared to be in. I remember the door being open, wide open. It was nighttime. I always watched TV at nighttime. Since the door was open, there's a hallway. One side of that wall, of that hallway, is a huge closet. The closet doors was a huge mirror. So, it's pitch black in that hallway. I cannot see anything. It's dark. It's black. It's scary. Then, I remember the whole room going dark. The TV was not working. I was trying to change the channel or something on my TV. It was not working. The TV went to TV static. I don't remember if the bedroom door was closed or open when the whole room went black and the TV was not working. Then, I remember my whole body. I don't know if it was in a blanket or not, but since I sleep on my back, my whole body was turning. Slowly turning. Slowly turning into a full circle. Slowly turning. Halfway before, whatever it was, I was going to see. I don't know if it was going to be a demon or whatever, but I woke up. I woke straight up from that. I woke up gasping. I wake up and to the left of me in the bed, a swoop of black. Like a swish of a black spirit or something black flew by me and disappeared in the room. I remember still not being able to move because I was paralyzed. I felt like I was paralyzed. I was not able to move, speak, nothing. Completely in terror and fear. I finally was able to move maybe after 15 to 20 minutes. Then, I was crying. I was bawling my eyes out. Completely scared, shitless because I had a night terror a year ago in my old room. Now, a year later in my new room, I am having a night terror again. I have no idea if a horrible spirit was following me from my old house that just happened to follow to my new house. I do not know what it was, but that was a very scary time for me. Thank God, now, in the year 2024, in my own place that I own, my own apartment, night terrors are not happening anymore. Thank God. I do not know if it was a trauma from back then or what, but it was very scary. Very scary.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

Two or three months after my grandfather passed away in 2021 of November, I had, well, his family was in town, and his wake, his funeral, everything, them basically destroying my house and taking my home from us was horrible after he passed away, and a family friend of ours that is very close to me, she has special gifts, she hugged my aunt, that is my grandfather's sister, and she said she felt darkness, she felt cold when she hugged her, and it kind of shocked her, and then after that, after hearing that, I don't know if it was the night of or the following night, after they all left town, his whole family left town, I had a night terror, I was in my old bedroom, laying on my bed, I felt like I was awake, actually, a black cat came into my room, which is odd, because I don't have a cat, so, that was pretty odd, because it literally felt like I was awake, like I was just, you know, my whole room looked exactly the way it was, like I felt like I was in my bed watching TV, black cat came into my room, then weirdly transformed, and then I ended up with a woman sitting on my lap in a white gown with dark, long black hair, her black hair was covering her face, so I did not know what she looked like, she was sitting on my lap, I sleep on my back, when I'm sleeping, so she was sitting on me, I remember vividly shouting, yelling, screaming at her, get off me, what are you, why are you on me, but then I realized, I cannot open my mouth, my mouth would not open, I am screaming, trying to get the words out, but it's just in my head, I'm screaming in my head, God, get her off me, get her off me, who is she, get this demon off me, Lord, I don't know what to do, I can't speak, get her off me, I'm freaking out, I am so freaking out, and then I remember wanting to move, but I could not move, it was like I was frozen, my arms would not move, nothing would move, it felt like my eyes were open, and I was screaming in my head, because my mouth would not move, nothing was happening, she was still sitting on me, and then I remember waking up, waking up from the dream, which felt like it was going on forever, and I remember after waking up from my dream, I could not move, I could not speak, for a whole 20 minutes, after the 20 minutes I could finally move my body, and I just started crying, uncontrollable crying, I was shaking, I was trembling, like my anxiety, and my, I basically had a nervous breakdown, because it was so scary, I was so paralyzed with fear, and crying, because I did not feel safe anymore in my house after this, it was horrible, it was absolutely horrible.

4 Apr 2024

Dream

My wife and I were sleeping inside some type of group facility. We woke up and we had to wait in line to use the restroom. The facility had designated women's and men's restrooms. My wife put her arms around me and hugged me. She was telling me the reasons why she loved me and it sounded like she might have been repeating something from an audio book she was listening to. I embraced her back by hugged her and keeping arms around her while we talked. We embraced for a moment and then she went into the women's restroom. Right before I was about to enter the men's restroom, I saw my original work mentor. She's about 20 years older than me and already retired. She was waiting in line to use the women's restroom as well. I did not see her husband. I said hello to my memtor with my mouth covered in head slightly turned away from her. I was trying to indicate to her that my breath smelled and I didn't want her to smell my bad breath. I went into the men's restroom. My mentor really had to use the restroom and did not feel like waiting for another lady to exit first the women'srestroom. There was not a wait to enter the men's restroom, so she followed me into the men's restroom. I started to brush my teeth and she sat down on the open toilet next to the sink instead of using a private stall away from the sink. For some reason I didn't have any underwear. I had a long "wife beater" t-shirt on. She was talking to me while I brushed my teeth. She was making small talk asking me how things were going at work. I didnt have any underwear on and I had a slightly morning penis erection. She could see the forn of my penis under the t-shirt and a little bit of the base of my penis. The majority of my penis was hidden underneath my t-shirt. She was sitting on the toilet at eye leve to my penis. She noticed my penis and stared at it briefly before we continued to talk. She asked me how I was doing. I told her fine and then I asked her if she knew that our other colleague Robin was retiring in 2 weeks. She thought it was odd that Robin was retiring.

3 Apr 2024

Dream

I had a really jumbled up dream. I'm not sure if it was actually one dream or more that I'm just all remembering together. So in one part I was at the airport waiting for a flight and I was with my friend Katie and I can't really remember the details but it was like I was in the airport waiting for a flight but I didn't actually have one booked and then I wasn't sure how I was going to get it booked and then I tried to ask a lady where I go to book a flight but she didn't want to talk to me and now I'm remembering that at one point I wanted to go to Chicago but at another point I was supposed to go to New York to see my friend Brian but then I realized I had wasted too much time and I really couldn't go to New York and get back in time. And then the dream morphed, or maybe it's a different dream, but I was in a new place. I think it was in Spain because a lot of people were speaking Spanish and it looked European. I was my younger self like in my 20s and going around the city and going to different little coffee shops and restaurants and cafes and different places like that. And at some point I met a young man. He was really skinny and had long hair and was super kind of crazy and danced a lot and I was really really attracted to him. and we were going around the city just having fun and enjoying each other's company and then somehow we ended up at someone's house and we slept on the floor and we made love and it was really fun and in the morning he had to go and I was hoping he would call me but then I went with the girl and for some reason my son at his current age 17 was with us and again we were exploring the city and looking at bookshops and riding these weird buses and just doing all kinds of tourist things and we were having fun for a whole day but I was disappointed the man didn't call me. But on the next day he did call me and so he joined in our adventures around the city and there were all kinds of things happening. We went on some strange bus where we were on the upper deck but we were driving through an area that looked like a Chinatown and just dropping into weird little bars and nooks and crannies in different places. There was one place where people were sitting on these cushy chairs and like one woman was reading and a couple people were talking but there was like a monitor for the room who said yeah you can come in here and hang out but you have to keep moving at all times and I noticed the woman reading the book was just doing some interesting hand movements the whole time she was reading. There was also a part where we were hanging out in a bar but we were in some kind of uncomfortable chairs and just having drinks and having a good time but then these people who were in a back section that had these are really really plump comfy chairs and couches left so we moved back to that section and it was like really comfortable and homey and again we were just having a really good time. There was one part where the young man I was attracted to was hanging out with us and there was another guy there and they seemed really really close and I figured out that he must be gay or bisexual and I was really fine with that I just was a little jealous because I really wanted him to be with me. It was a very expansive, complicated, and realistic dream. but overall super super fun and reminded me of something I'd like to do like travel and hang out with people and just be kind of crazy and have a good time It was one of those dreams that was so fun that when my phone started beeping at me I really really did not want to be disturbed and leave the dream and I even turned off the phone and tried to go back but it didn't work.

2 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamt I was visiting another family that I don't know in waking life, but in the dream they were part of my group of friends. We had all decided to be part of a Christmas gift-giving tradition where each family drew another family's name out of a hat to buy a gift for. We were visiting this other family at their home. There were about 20 children, all homeschooled and they were also self-sufficient, growing all their own food. They lived in a decrepit house, and there were piles of spare parts and broken items in the dirt all around the house. The mother gave me two very prickly chayotes, and yelled at me about how to hold them without getting painfully spiked. I was uncomfortable and wanted to leave, but the mother called me back, reminding me that she still had to give me the gift. She had laid a dirty piece of tattered cloth on the dirt, and was piling odd objects onto it. She had decided to give me an object for each letter of the alphabet. Most of the items were broken, or were fresh produce from their garden. I didn't want to take anything from them, partly because it was so dirty, but also because they seemed to have so little. I just wanted to get away.

30 Mar 2024

Dream

My step dad was diagnosed with a High blood pressure problem, similar to my real life diagnosis. He was very worried about having a sudden stroke or heart attack. I told that i felt that same fear when i was initially diagnosed and it plunged me into a depression that i am still in. In my waking life, my step dad passed away about 20 years ago. In the dream i started to have a real fear that he was going to suddenly die. The house we were in was unfamiliar, but it was delapidated with damage. Particularly the outside. I kept wqntinh to sit down and tell him thst i thought he was a tough but good dad for me, to make sure he knew, but i felt lile i would need a strong dose of alcohol to get it out, and i couldnt seem to get that. In the yard outside was some event that i was unsure of. Mostly younger people, maybe late high school or early 20s. I went outside, it was hot so i was trying to find a shade spot to sit, and i sat down and was overwhelmed by emotion and started crying. I thonk out of both fear and frustration, and i couldnt keep it quiet so it drew attention. After returning to the house, it was decided that the event was over, sobit was time to ckeam uo the yard. Concerned about my step dad laboring too much i went out to try to help and minimize his work. At first it appeared to be just taking down strings of lights, but looking around it appeared that there were these large metal structures everywhere. The kind that we could not take down.

23 Mar 2024

Dream

for some reason tyler and i and these two other girls that were friends with him and each other went on a road trip and we were all supposed to stay at this really fancy hotel with traditional large rooms and decor etc. we all get there and while the girls go to check in i'm repacking my lil bag bc i threw everything out looking for my lipstick and pen but while i'm leaning over the seats to head grab some stuff from the floor mats this mf comes up behind me and gets HANDSY so i giggle and make some snide comment i don't remember now lol BUT with bag packed again and lipstick on i shimmy down and out of the backseat. i think u asked for a kiss but alludes to my lipstick transferring so i kiss the excesses on my jacket sleeves some reason and makeout briefly before joining whoever these other girls are. first is room 19 i guess where we are moved to room 20 for a reason i don't recall. we knock on the door and some woman is like occupied wrong room so we are very confused but she's says this is actually suite 21 you're next door and we blindly follow for some reason. suite 21 a was oddly small for 4 ppl but the random girls settle in regardless. i think i wander around the area of not only the lodge but the nearby collection of businesses and restaurants but i come back and everyone's outside of "suite 20" where it unveiled that miss girl from "suite 21" switched the numbers but left something with her name on it welcoming her (it was none of our names i guess?) so we storm over like aight get out and her door is unlocked so we like go in lmao and then it gets wEIRD with the boss battle + her minions energy (said minion is an animal i think cat) but we defeat them and her and the front desk lady comes up in time like what happened? but keeps walking. i cut my nail rly bad (like in the middle of my nail bed) in the process but we all move to the initial 19 suite anyways which was still a nice room. other miscellaneous moments and comments happened but i don't remember enough to include :( i do remembering having fun makeup (white lashes / mascara specifically and colorful makeup) and wearing a risqué but similarly avant garde fit that i throw a big jacket over when we all walk into the hotel bc i saw a creep.

21 Mar 2024

Dream

It was a Friday and me and my friends were planning on going to Nando's but I had a pet cat which I don't in real life and it gave birth to so many kittens like a lot like over 20 and I was in a rush to get ready and when I went back downstairs to check on the cats they were all gone and I wasn't in my house um I was in a huge house and The garden was really big, so I went out to check if the cats were there, and the cats had, and I saw all of them, and the cats had grown a lot, and they were at their cutest stage, so still a kitten, and I couldn't hold all of them to take them inside. So I went and got a washing basket, a green one, and I went outside and started picking all of them up. They were in like a big hole as well, but they were dotted everywhere, and there were so many, and I also found a puppy and a mouse, and I put them in the basket, and I was still in a rush, and it was midnight, so I didn't make it to Nando's, so I was really upset, and I looked in the basket, and one of them was squished, and it died, and I was really traumatised and cried for hours.

13 Mar 2024

Dream

i was at my cousins ‘house’, it wasn’t their actual house but in the dream it was. i was hanging out with my youngest cousin, and we were just chilling on our phones talking. i don’t remember what we were talking about. we were both charging our phones and ipad though, and we had to share one power strip to charge our phones. he didn’t have a phone charger so i let him borrow mine. the power strip kept moving from by the wall, to under the closed door. the walls of the room were white, and the floor was a light brown wooden floor. it almost looked like a beach house. anyways the sky turns dark like it was nighttime in the middle of the day. i jump up and run to the window and say “omg i forgot about it! the lunar eclipse!” and my cousin says “you’re really recording this huh” and i said “yeah why not! this is a once every 20 years or so event. might as well”. the time was 3:14 when it happened, and i believe the date it was in the dream was 3/14. there was 2 windows in the bedroom, the one i was recording out of was a view of the city, the house we were at was on a mountain. and when it turned light outside again, i went over to the other window to finish recording and i said “man i completely forgot about this window, this would’ve been a cooler shot.”. the other window had a view of a mountain with snow on it, and kinda behind it on the side was a little village, it was so cute. the sky was so pretty when it turned dark, you could clearly see all of the stars in the black sky, and you could see orange hints of the clouds that were passing by. it was beautiful.

9 Mar 2024

Dream

It was time for everyone that came to the desolate town to leave, we were boarding in the evening when the conductor asked if some of the adults wanted to wait for the next train because there wasn’t enough room for everyone on this one. So I made the decision to stay back and take the next one, my kids went with my mom and aunts on the first. There were about 20 of us waiting for the next train including some of the women I met on my ride to the town, the weird guy laying on the cot, my best friend, and some other people. We ended up waiting for hours, until about 9pm, the train that came didn’t look like the average train, it had two go car looking seats per row that you laid back in and went as fast as the speed of light. We got to our destination pretty fast, even beating the first train back home. “Home,” wasn’t our actual home though, we had no idea where we were. I even waited for the original train to come, which it did and as my family was getting off they didn’t seem to feel we were at the wrong place. Everyone recognized where we were except me. As my family was getting into their vehicles, I decided to ride with my best friend and we stopped at this store, reminded me of a Walmart, but when we walked in it was a school, a supermarket, and a McDonald’s all in one. The school and McDonald’s was celebrating a Native American tribe and made food that’s popular in that tribe. It was pretty good food too.

3 Mar 2024

Dream

My dream wa that instead of my parents renewing their wedding vows this spring like they planned for their 50th wedding anniversary, instead at the ceremony I come to find out that my dad had divorced my mom and was getting married to a horrible woman in her 20s. She had short platinum blonde hair, very skinny but conventionally attractive and she was a complete tyrant. Stamping her feet, screaming at everyone and even demanded that my dad moved her and himself into a mansion. It was a gorgeous house but it was so sad to see my mom still taking care of my dad while he gave attention to this horrible girl. She had traps all over the property and everyone seemed to adore or fear her. She destroyed my and my mothers clothes and would add salt to the wounds so to speak by saying nasty things to us on the side out of earshot of my elderly dad. The ceremony was al blue and white. I decided to stay outside with the cats instead of watch. It was heartbreaking.

3 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a large recruiting convention. I was with my team and my father had been at the one the year before. And Larry Anthis who was my church minister for a short time in my 20's and was the minister I disliked the most in my 13 years in church. The hort time he wasn't at this recruiting convention the person who was our corporate head met my dad and was very impressed with him. I was having a meeting with about 7 recruiters who I'd worked with and we were made aware that taught imes were coming in the economy. So I asked this small group to asked themselves 2 questions did you pick recruiting or did I pick you? Was a career choice or did you get here by accident? The second question is how many of you have a sales background? How you answer these 2 questions should help you determine if you should stay or get out of recruiting. Out meeting was happening during a very cloudy and rainy day in an abandoned tennis court. While out meeting was taking place I saw Jim Halpert from the office. I saw his Dad walking towards the convention and he was wearing a bomber jacket. I ran into Jim haplert and told him I had seen his dad coming to the convention and he looked cool. I told him my dad met the head at last years convention. I told my group of 7 recruiters that I was top salesman of the year at 14 years of age. I said this to let them know I'd been in sales most of my life. There were more women than men in group. Some were Indian women some were Caucasian women and then a few Caucasian young men and some older men as well. Some had worked in recruiting as long as I had but didn't have the same experience.