Fog

10 Sep 2024

Dream

There are around five phases to this dream The first one is a dream about me being on an airplane It’s kind of cloudy and I’m at an airport at some misty foresty place Somewhere in Romania or Bulgaria I don’t know I just get the feeling that it’s in Europe And the plane does take off ones but then like lands almost crash lands back on the same airport like moments after they take off And when they do land this time around I’m at like Taiwan or some Jeju island-looking place The second dream is that I’m on a helicopter And I’m flying above some island, I think the god calls it Oki-no-tori-shima Island, or Minami-tori-shima island Or Ogasawara I don’t know somewhere remote But from the looks of things I’m at Shikoku(四国), Seto inland sea(瀬戸内海) The helicopter just came back to this Inland region from the remote Japanese island, I think I see an artificial or like artificially/naturally connected island(much like Enoshima, Itsukushima shrine or that one sacred rock thingy in Manazuru), the kind that you can go to via walk during the day but you can’t during the night because of the tides It’s sunny here and everything is peachy, it’s Seaside town, there’s hostels I can see inns I can see the docks to the small fishing boats I hear seagulls, and I can smell like some kind of tropical fruits, or some citrus fruits original to the region I think we’re eating it at the bay or in the helicopter Once we take off again we’re engulfed by clouds because the bay area is directly adjacent to some low mountains(like Kobe) Scene changes and now I am at Gotemba, near Mt. Fuji I think this is right after we got through the cloud via the helicopter past the mountain regions and all So I just basically teleported from West Japan to East-Middle Japan No I’m on a car and we’re driving through the fog, there’s needle-leafed trees and a bunch of deciduous trees; a mix of both We arrive at this Michi-no-eki or an udon restaurant at the base of the mountain bordering Hakone and Gotemba, or the one closer to Mt. Fuji(idk which) We stop the car, we as in me, Blade, and someone else(maybe Kurapika?), and go in The place is kind of crowded, and the staff comes to tell us that we’ll have to wait So we wait Scene switches and now we’re back at the car Maybe this is after the meal, or maybe we didn’t wait and came back after all We’re driving down the long winded road leading to the Gotemba city Now I’m some kind of like a fairy Apsara hybrid? I am basically seducing the standoffish, depressed, dead-looking(because he did die once in-game; then turned into an immortal via being fed mouth-to-mouth the flesh of an immortal monster by his male lover(both of these characters are heavily coded to be queer)) emoass that is Blade I don’t fucking know man I don’t know what’s happening but somehow this whole conversation turns into a discussion about enlightenment, Vishnu, samsara(what the fuck dude what is going on)(I mean the game did incorporate heavily some Buddhistic and some Hindu concepts into its world making when it came to this particular game region that he came from. But still why the fuck am I activating his kundalini) Somethings similar happened with Kurapika(since switched and now Blade is the driver) And I’m just like ‘dual cultivation partner’ or the ‘yogini’ to their journey of self-realization I don’t fucking know Apparently already got it(the self-realization) or whatever and that’s why I’m an apsara(?) Oh my god so fucking weird Why am I seeing train platforms Also we’re at Ueno station now, but it’s somehow placed at like the base of Mount Fuji

2 Sep 2024

Dream

A lot happened in this dream. It starts off with me and my little sister at the gym working out. I tell her that I need to go but I can’t find my car in the parking lot. I think it’s been stolen and I find it a couple stores over, nothing has been touched. Then the dream shifts into me taking a little baby from one of my high school friends mother. She is kind of frantic and I remember a intense feeling of needing to get the baby into one of the car seats in my car and leave the place I was at. I needed to get the baby away. Then the dream shifts again and I’m seeing my best friend who currently doesn’t live around me She is showing me her positive pregnancy test and she is in shock. I am so happy for her because she has her tubes tied and while it is not impossible for her to get pregnant it’s a little more rare for it to happen. We are both happy for her and hugging her and her two sons she already has. Then the dream changes again. I’m lm back in the car with the little baby and I’m getting to the current house I live in. It’s dark outside but I’m looking around before I hurriedly get the baby out of the car. I rush inside with it and I lock the dirt and go take care of the baby and put it in a crib. I then look outside waiting for my older sister. She is across the street walking her dog, but this dog I’ve never seen before, in walking life she doesn’t have this dog. She is also walking one of my dogs. I see my dog run up to the back door and I let him in and I waiting for my sister. I hear her calling a name, I assume the dogs name, and then she runs to my front porch and then I go still as I see this colored fog. I know it’s what we are nervous and scared of. The blueish green fog creeps along the outside of the houses, looking for someone or something to look at it. My sister stares straight ahead through the window at me and doesn’t move. I stare right back at her. Not leaving her. This fog starts circling her slowly and I can see my sister flinch but she doesn’t say anything and she doesn’t move. Then this fog slithers off after a minute but I goes up towards the street, I shake my head slightly to let my sister know that the fog hasn’t completely left yet. In the distance there is a dog barking. The dog my sister was walking. Out of my peripheral vision I see the fog moving on the street and then another light comes on the street. I hear screeching tires and car horn and a yelling. My sister and I don’t move yet. It gets quiet and I see tears running down my sisters cheeks. The fog leaves I step outside to whisper to my sister but something catches my attention on the street. It’s the dog she was walking but it was now a whiteish grey ghost, running up and down the street wagging its tail looking for something. I turned towards my sister with tears in my eyes. Then I wake up. Now this was not said in the dream but in my mind and hear I knew that in the dream we called the fog the bogge and what it does is try to get you to aknowledge its presence and talk to it or make eye contact with it so that it can get you to do things and see things that it wants. Sometimes it will kill you by making you do stuff and other times it doesn’t. I think what happened on the street in my dream was the dog was chasing the bogge and the bogge let it into the street where it got hit by a car and died.

30 Aug 2024

Dream

Clouds race I sat in the back seat of the car, my father drives and controls the car, my father wants to go up to a place, but we have to walk up the stairs far away. My father does not want to walk up the stairs, so he rides his car to a very small road, in the small road was a truck, the truck fell down to a white fog bottomless pit. After the truck fell we speed up, I was worried that we would fall, I tell my father to slow down, but he said that "Challenges are meant to be fought, that's what your grandfather used to say". We then reached a toll station, but didn't pay the toll station any fee, so we went more faster, but then the road enlarges and then the road goes downhill, me and my father then go downhill super fast until it all flashes, that's why I woke up from my dream.

20 Aug 2024

Dream

Dreamt there was this horror movie called “The Chain” that became real life where science became advanced to the point scientists learned that life just reincarnates the moment you die and that some people weren’t reincarnating on earth but were going to go to reincarnate as god like beings in another galaxy. Some groups that were stuck reincarnating here on earth for a while bc of their sins figured this information out and found a way to infect the world with a virus that kept even the people that should be finishing their reincarnation here on earth from leaving. So all the infected people were like these evil zombie things going around trying to infect and brutally murder other innocent people to force them to reincarnate backwards from where they should be. The sun in the world stopped shining and a fog covered the earth stuck in a endless cycle of evil reincarnations. Life became a real life horror movie. I watched in kind of from afar as this group of people hunted another group of innocent people in a trailer like apartment. I kind of kept going in and out of being one of the characters being hunted and watching from afar. In the end, I just started running away and this evil zombie character was chasing after me and I could feel my spirit being born as an embryo in the next reincarnation as they tried to hurt me.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

Inside my kitchen I’m filming a movie of a concert show taking place of some pop star, there are green and purple lights as well as fog machines. After the shoot I in my back garden and see the cinematographer Robert Elswitt. I impersonate the director Paul Thomas Anderson and start talking to him. We bounce a basketball to each other off a wall and he starts talking about this weird fungus. I see a vision of this fungus in a test tube as he’s talking. It’s orange and like a thick goo which breaks down into smaller balls which eventually melt away into several miniature human skulls. He tells me that this fungus is the source point of all human DNA. In this dream I’m investigating a murder that happened in 2006 and I ask Robert if he knows any details. He says he doesn’t know. My Dad comes out and tells us we’re being too loud and we should finish the game. Robert bounces the ball onto the grass where it stays. I go over there and start digging in that spot and see a barrel with a dead human body inside, the murder I was investigating.

29 Jul 2024

Dream

I had only my shirt on with 2 other boys and there were 3 girls with only shirts on. Then we were learning sex ed in my backyard. While everyone was talking, one of the girls and I had sex behind my shed. After all of that, I put on pants, everyone left, and the girl gave me a new phone that looked like my old one. Then my family and I were driving threw to drop me off at a friends house. My friends and I found a secret lab in the woods. It was foggy a brightly white. We went in and it worse inside. A giant scientist tried to catch us but we flipped switches to turn him back to normal and shut down the lab. We ran out, it wasen't foggy anymore, and we hid in a bunch of trees. Then other kids showed up. My trees branches started falling and then I fell down too and that it for my dream.

21 Jul 2024

Dream

1. a. Walking by the ocean and being talked to in the head Pink seawaters; radio is on, it’s misty, and the tides are full but the sun has just come out and is about to set at the same time, Coach in a neon green life-saving vest b. Walking in the water of the boat dock made of wooden frames, the tide is low but is about to be full, jellyfishes and sunset 2. a. Collecting stuff like dried flowers and such in my house without being found by dad, going out to hang with old bestfriend Maka and such in the game center and Animate/Bic Camera thingy at Takadanobaba b. Excusing myself after a lunch with them to go collect some items around the electronics shop in the mall’s building We agree to meet at the next destination They come around soon enough and pass me by with ‘hi’s while I look for the stuff Displays of Mt. Fuji and all sorts of documentaries and ads for games on the TV screens as the narrative voice in my head instructs me to collect the items

11 Jul 2024

Dream

Wandering about in the foggy Hakone regions, mostly near Lake Ashinoko Having sex with my father, being chased around the plain filled with pampas grass and patches of grassy autumn fields Scene switches and now I’m on a highway bus, on my way to the observatory/museum/community centers on some high altitude areas around Mt. Fuji I’m with my best friend Maka, whom I had bonded over our shared (bad) experiences wtih our bossy and bullying classmates back in middle school We arrive, go through some sort of an attraction/projection-mapping show in a mini-theater, with the 3D glassrs, swinging chairs and water spraying and stuff to make the whole thing immersive It was about some planes or the people who had built the first electricity line on Mt.Fuji or smth like that Pioneers either way Once we’re done and get out, we’re free to roam and wander for the day We decide to go to the nearby aquaduct/dam/marsh/park, either way close to the waters and the untouched nature Me and my besfriend walk through narrow paths in nature, have a little picnic by the plains, gaze in awe at the marshlands, its autumnal-wintery-summer vegetations somehow coexisting in the same area On our way to the ancient aquaduct we see rainbow in the sky, and the sunny rain The whole classmates who are there rejoice, as they’re a rare and lucky phenomenon, a sign of auspiciousness

9 Jul 2024

Dream

I dreamt I had an interview at a university to become a professor. In my waking life, I was a professor of English for twenty years. I drove to the university, which was in Ohio, where I grew up. In my waking life, I’ve been contemplating both teaching and moving to Ohio. The interview was just a casual discussion while the professor who interviewed me taught her class. I then had to go to another meeting with someone and when I arrived that lady wanted me to participate in a ménage a trois. I declined. I went back to my first interview, and noticed it was dark and foggy out. I asked my first interview professor, if she had parked behind the area where we were and she said she did and I asked if we could walk out together. In my dream this was at the University of Findlay. It seemed, however, that this professor who interviewed me was from the University of Toledo, where I attended school for my BA and MA. The professor who interviewed me seems familiar and bright a sense of peace to me. She was comfortable. I don’t know her though.

9 Jul 2024

Dream

On a trip Trip gets disrupted by some kind of an ambush/burglary/robbery Almost gets killed Is spared, the rest of my family members are in captivity or killed Getting lost in a forest, cloudy, thick fogs Sephiroth finds me Almost gets killed Something something too pathetic to be deserving of my blade Gets trained by the guy in some mountain cottage Car drives slowly through the pebble paths in the forest Pinecones, loghouse villas, family dramas Almost gets killed in the throes of explosive argument-turned-physical-fight(abuse) House becomes casualty of the lightest of Sephiroth’s fire blast Is walked into by said guy while my father is putting me in a headlock Again, somehow is getting the masamune to my throat as he gives one of his ‘hmph pathetic’ speeches

26 Jun 2024

Dream

I am a lone vampire wandering about in Japan, mainly the mountainous regions, the lakes and the oceansides(around nature sites) There were a few people both in my head and irl(of the dream) that would police me about where I can go, for how long I may be out and such and when I must come back to the inn their travel group have booked for the day and such I would comply with them while I was in Hakone, but then when they would start to go around the mountainous areas in the Izu regions and the Mt. Fuji area I would start to ignore their instructions and go on my own I would take mountain railways that ran amidst the foggy slopes in their summer hydrangea season, take buses around the Mt. Fuji regions singce there’s not much convenience in the train systems, and wander about once I get off at whatever stop that seems to be in the middle of whatever idyllic scapes I fancy First I saw some scattered buildings but it would soon give way to the increasing altitude and the lack of flat areas and plains, the roads surrounded by trees. It’s a bit foggy now, and the leaves are brown. I would soon fall asleep in this dream, and when I wake up I’m walking around a lake Rusted signs, a turnpike in the distance, a Michi-no-eki(a rest stop that serves as a souvenir shop of the local merchandises) with scarcely a car or a bike because of the cloudy weather I would start to walk around when a man’s voice calls to me from a car that just seemed to have arrived, accompanied by several other younger people’s noises hastily trying to get off and take a break after a long driver The man seems to be in his fifties or so, looks youthful. His stature imposing but graceful, his hair long, fluffy, rich and silver, a portion of it tied up at the top of his head with a red silky ribbon; he’s got an air of youthful virility, grace and the old wisdom about him, a balance I’d like to be able to embody, if not just something I admire I recognize his face; it’s Jing Yuan, one of my favorite characters from my favorite game, Honkai: Star Rail He asks me if I’m out alone(I looked like a young boy with blond, fluffy long hair, a frilly cravat and an overall Victorian, vampire-like get-up) I ask him where he is going to and such He states a destination(which I couldn’t hear) and I would say that I’m going to the same direction(I think he said he’d pass through the Fuji city or something and I said Fuji-Atami) He smiles and says something like ‘ah, a (something along the line of what would be the equivalent of a 同道) then. Care to join us for a lunch break?’ I oblige and we eat warm udons and sobas in the road rest building, looking over the lake and the mountains while the kids(all of them are young adult/adolescent characters from the same game Jing Yuan is from) play around and explore We would converse about many topics, mostly of our trips and what we have seen, how this trip is the first time in Japan for them while for me wandering is a part of my routine When we would start talking about the interesting things and the local legends and the cultural myths and such we heard of around the landmarks and such we visited(separately) there is one that came up in particular that somehow sounds relevant to my own self It’s that of a clocktower, and a boy that lived in it The monument itself is a mere 5-meter modern abstract art piece the man(Jing Yuan) saw in a city he visited; the story is from the local landmark that had been barred tourist entry due to how decrepit they became over the years It prompts me to share my desire to go and visit the Alps and the surrounding regions, how I feel that something there must have to do with my origins He seems curious and asks what I mean by my origins(he doesn’t know that I am a vampire, it appears he takes me for a strange kid in a dated fashion and an antique tone of speech) I try to speak but I zone out from a vision I get caught up in, slightly dissociating He worries slightly before telling me that I don’t have to talk about it if it taxes me so I shake my head and tell him a little bit about my life: that I have wandered for as long as I remembered, how know where I grew up in and the family, but they are but specters in my mind that occasionally haunts me with this urge to go and search for my true home, how it my intuition seems to point toward the lakes in a steep mountains of Europe He is intrigued and asks why that could be,commenting on how it explains my exotic get-up and such

10 Jun 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was in a foggy empty place outside someone. Like a waist land. It is night out. Now I am arriving at a street. I am crossing the street. There is a mailbox right in the center of the street on my right. It is odd to have it right in the middle of the road. It’s directly in the center of the road. Like it is there on purpose. It looks almost like a shrine. It is a large fat while male box that is very low to the ground. It may be a foot off the grown. It looks sort of like a wooden cupboard with about 3 doors or compartments. I don’t know what this is. Now I go back to crossing the road. I am at the other side of the road. There are some houses here. Maybe a row of houses directly off the road. I am drawn to the house directly ahead of me. It is old wooden. Broken down. The whole frame is there but there is no pait on the walls. The house is very old. I go inside and there is nothing here. The house is totally empty. Except one thing. There is a shadow in the shape of a woman. It’s a deep blackness. It is very clear to me that I am looking at a black hole or a shadow in the full size and shape of a woman. Shadows can be tricky things but it is clear that I am looking at a woman. Or a darkness, a hole in the shape or a woman. It has a kind of presence to it. I am curious about it. Drawn to it. I get closer. Now suddenly I am outside. It is bright day time. The grass is green the sky is blue. I am walking around but some of the grass is “infected” and I am trying to avoid the infected grass.