Clutter

5 Jul 2024

Dream

I dreamt that I was with my family, my father, brother, stepmom, and members in a house or vacation rental. With each day of our stay at the rental, there was an accumulation of clutter such as boxes, bags, magazines, toys, books and luggage, carry-on, etc. As time lapsed only a path remained open to allow for movement within the house. As the clutter accumulated, so did my anxiety and frustration grow the unhealthy environment. In another part of my dream, I was driving at night on a busy thoroughfare. My father was sitting on passenger side, making unhelpful comments about me to which I got very angry and snapped back at him. The dream seem to continue with another part where I had returned late from my summer vacation. I was reporting to work very late, long after the initial meeting had started. I didn’t know what to do or what was going on, and I felt embarrassed. There was a college class I was taking and I knew I couldn’t or didn’t have the first paper that was due that day.

4 Jul 2024

Dream

I had a dream that my deceased mother was actually alive and was sent to a hospital out of town and I had to immediately leave to go to her. During the time I lost my luggage, lost my phone, and wrecked my car. A coworker was there with me and let me stay at her own mothers home, but the house was a cluttered mess. Eventually I get to the hospital where my mother is supposed to be, but they let me know she’s not there. I finally make the realization in the dream that she was actually dead and the whole situation was not real and that I must have been in some form of psychosis.

1 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in my current home but it looked like one of my childhood homes on the inside. I was living with my ex husband but cheating on him with my current husband. My ex husband was cheating on me with the woman he actually cheated on me with. I was sleep in my room and my cat midnight laid on my back so I thought until I got up and realized it was a different cat. It was a bunch of cats in various rooms and a lot were kittens that I believed my cat moon had. It was cats everywhere. Some rooms had boxes in them stacked up. It was a lot of clutter. I argued with my ex husband about helping pay the bills after he revealed he spent over $700 in gifts at a Michael Kors store. I knew the gifts weren’t for me and assumed they were for his girlfriend. I kicked him out of my room telling him to leave. He just grabbed his stuff and went to the next room. Two ladies showed up to talk with my daughter to evaluate her for school and say happy birthday. I grew angrier knowing my ex husband was still in the house and I snuck to the other room to yell at him and keep him completely out of the house. As he was grabbing his things the ladies completed their assessments with my daughter and we went downstairs to a surprise social distance birthday party for my daughter from teachers at her school.

14 May 2024

Dream

Am at what looks like a hybrid of my grandma’s house, the dingy apartment my late mother and younger lived in when I was in Hakone from around the 9th grade or so, and another house I lived in until I was around the 8th(I lived in Tokyo so I’d visit them every now and then) Am hiding away from my father, my mother offers me a room to stay in until it’s over The room is identical to my room in the second house we had in Hakone but rarely felt “home” in due to the fact that 1. I couldn’t keep my locks on, 2. Most of the time my father would use it whenever he’d come and visit and 3. Even when he’s away to Tokyo for work my mother would have me sleep with her and my brother in the same room because “they are my family” and “families spend time together” and “I have my own space to be alone in back at Tokyo anyway(I didn’t; I basically slept in the same room as my father there, had no privacy unless I got back from school earlier and he was back from work late, and even that was rare because after COVID he’d have a stay-at-home job) At where the cloth-hanger was in the Hakone apartment I see a vision of some sort of a saint or a bodhisattva After that my grandmother(the mother’s side’s) comes in and sorts the clutter in the room out and such My mother is also in the room, offering prayers to the ancestors by the Buddhist altar A small artwork done by a child is being hung on the wall right beside the space in the wall, along with a portrait of a bodhisattva statue Mother says that ever since I was little, monks would remark that I’m being protected by the Acalanatha, and teachers say that I’m blessed by Manjusri themselves And then a thought about Princess Suseri and Princess Toyotama two of the Shinto deities a guardian deity identification has brought my attention to as potential matrons, comes to mind I wake up

3 Apr 2024

Dream

I was at work but I wasn't at work the environment was totally different. All the rooms were filled with clutter and lots of different items my boss told me to go and find a calander and I kept having to delve deeper down the floors to find one. When I finally found the calender it was really old and from the year 1995. Then I was in the countryside and I started a bike race one of my friends but it was really competitive and a lot of it was up hill and a struggle. Also the race was super long and I can't remember who won if anyone of us did?

29 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream one night where I was in a post apocalyptic world. The area I was traversing in was a mixture of various places I knew throughout my life with an empty backpack. I was by myself and the buildings around me were beat up, abandoned and neglected. I went into what used to be a verizon store and searched through some of the dusty clutter inside. I ended up finding a first aid kit and a bible. I picked up one after the other and examined them before putting them both in my backpack and leaving.

28 Mar 2024

Dream

Walking through public showers/bathroom that had a door in the corner, when opening the door it led to a zig zag style hallway that I recognized. The hallway red carpets, dim light, and clutter of boxes and clothes and just random clutter everywhere, and red walls and a lot of doors. The walkway was endless with no way to reach the end.

27 Jan 2024

Dream

I had been asked to get the grandparents house together for some people who were coming by. They asked me to hide certain things in the garage, like a yellow hard hat and some boxes. I wasn’t sure why, I thought it was simply because they didn’t want clutter detracting from the simple narrative of the home. I was in the process of following these instructions when the people show up. They are wearing yellow hard hats and gloves and bringing stuff similar to the things that were hidden. I am not sure if I should conceal what I’ve been doing, or conceal my presence altogether, but I decide to hide behind a large box in garage. It is no use though. A young man comes toward the box and says “hello’”. I emerge from behind the box and greet him. “we are just dropping a few things off for you. Do you need a rug?” he hands me a soft woven door mat” “I think we have a welcome mat already.” I show it to him.. “Oh, no. This one is to wipe your feet on.” he positions one on the porch and the other in front of the door. Then he says “I was wondering if you’d be interested in coming to our church? “We already go to church.” I reply, but thank you. I confront the grandparents because I feel like I’d been set up for this encounter. I ask why they wanted me to meet this guy. To which the grandmother says , “I was just trying to get you to go to church. “we have a church” I tell her. She looks frustrated, “I mean a REAL church.” thus revealing that when she had visited she had not been impressed with the informality of what she had seen. “Oh” I say, “You’re one of those”. I continue, “I suppose you need the architecture, and the windows - have you forgotten that Jesus said, “where two or more are gathered in my name, I am there in the midst of them?”

1 Dec 2023

Dream

I had a dream that I awoke from a nap and there were men in my garden, doing the gardening and clearing out any clutter and I went to speak to them to ask why they were their and my ex had sent them to tidy up the garden because he's buying my house and I informed them he hadn't bought it yet and shouldn't be on my property

31 Oct 2023

Dream

I don't remember pretty much anything from my dream. I was back at my old school in a way and I made a new friend. My brother was also in this dream as like a role model, though I don't remember what he did. My new friend was just like me but better. She was everything I aspied to be. I was struggling with a lot of stuff. Just a bunch of little stuff that was cluttering my mind. I was just mostly confused through the dream. Anyways I reunited with my childhood best friend and after a day of being together I decided to update her about everything in my life she missed SCINCE I went away. I was exited to open up about my life and how I felt in recent days. But I never got to bc I was popular and kids were talking to me left and right. Regardless, for some reason I was headed back on the plane to travel across the country back to the North I think. My bags were all packed and my ticket was around my neck and I was just thinking about how exited I was. I woke up.