Observe

2 Apr 2024

Dream

I was at a hospital for high risk and special needs kids. I don't know if i was one of the kids or just there to help. It was all so new to me. I'm pretty sure I was there as an adult to help, but I was just observing for the day. We took the kids to the zoo for an interactive day. We all got a special tour of the facilities and even got to watch them feed the hippos. They gave the hippos watermelons and it was amazing to see them crush the melons so easily in their mouths. The even let a few of us toss the melons into their mouths. It was so cool! The dream shifted and we were back in the hospital. Apparently they had a second of the hospital where they kept some dogs for the kids to play with every so often. One of the new dogs was having a hard time adjusting to the environment and one of the men caring for them asked if I might be able to help. He took me to the room they were keeping her in. It was just an empty room with hay on the floor and a food and water dish. The man said she's too big for the standard kennels so this is what they came up with. She was a russian bear dog who was donated from a shelter that aslo couldn't keep her due to her size. The door to her room was one of those doors where the top and bottom halves can open separately. The man opened just the top half so we could look at the dog. When I saw how massive she really was it was no surprise they had to give her a whole room. She was about 4ft tall at the shoulder and so fluffy it was no surprise why they called her breed bear dogs. She had so much energy and seemed very agitated and even came over to snap at us as a way of saying to back off. I explained to the man how they could improve her living situation to make her more comfortable and explained that she'd need A LOT of play and exercise daily if they wanted her to calm down enough to work with the kids. I suggested we got another man to help us take her on a walk to get some energy out and then do some light training while someone else upgraded her room. The man said that was a good idea then called for some help with the dog. I knew we could train her, it would just take time and patience. I was just watching her pace about the room when I woke up.

30 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a party on the top floor of a fancy contemporary bachelor pad/hotel. We were probably on the 4th or 5th floor, but it was the top floor. The party was full of rich/snobby self absorbed people. There were lots of windows and the location was tropical. You could see over the tropical jungle treetops from the party. Outside on the balcony there was an infinity pool. At the party I felt that everyone was focused on the worldly pleasures, but nothing of spiritual importance. I felt out of place at this party and was just observing everyone. It was sunset and I went out on to the balcony to enjoy the view. I saw the orange sunset glow in the reflection of the water in the infinity pool. I looked up from the pool and realized that some of the orange glow was actually from a nearby volcano that was erupting. Everyone seemed oblivious to this so I alerted everyone and people started to panic and go toward the elevators. The elevators didn’t work, and the lava was heading toward the building. So we attempted to escape down the stairs, but when we got to the bottom of the stairwell, there was lava coming in. In this moment I knew there was no escape and that I was going to die. I felt like I failed and I alerted everyone too late.

29 Mar 2024

Dream

There I was. Impaled through my stomach and out by back by one of the needles that was sitting at the bottom of this abyss I was knocked into that now has my blood dripping on it covering it in my blood. My limbs are twitching as I'm stuck around the needle point as my body is unable to go further down towards the bottom. My eyes pour blood the same time my mouth is throwing it up. I saw from a different perspective this time. This time I'm looking up at myself. But as bad as it is it couldn't possibly get any worse. That was a lie. Sooner than later I see a train falling right above me. And at the right moment, I woke up. I rose up quickly dripping in sweat and tears looking like I just been baptized. I found myself clenching my pajama shirt in between my stomach and my chest where there was excruciating pain. But it was only a nightmare. So why am I having this pain? This feeling was familiar to me… could this be another one of my prophetic dreams? If it was than I need to figure out what it means. Quickly. I laid back down questioning myself. How did I end up in that situation? Well let me tell you. I'm standing in front of an abyss. In between this large rigid train track that goes across this petrifying hole that leads to another side. I tried to run to the other side of this abyss but I gave up to the thought that it wasn't going to end. I closed my eyes and I somehow ended up in the same spot to begin with. “this place seems scarcely familiar..” I whispered to myself afraid that I would attract unwanted attention. I examine the place trying to look for certain things that could possibly ring a bell so that I can remember where I am and how to escape. And this is what I see. I looked in front of me and there is a train track that has no support holding it up above or below. I looked down and I saw a corpse lying on the train track where its ‘used to be’ head was. When I looked over to where the rest of its rotted head has been scattered to, I get startled to the sight and jerked backwards falling having tripped on the boards of the track. My hands start to shake like they were having a seizure and my heart was already starting to beat up against my ribs trying to escape and leave me making my breathing pattern irregular. Soon I get up and back away quickly from it and turn around ready to run away from this place like a headless chicken. But alas I am stopped by a brick wall that was infinity high. I immediately run to get around it but the deeper I got thee more ominous that place got. I started to feel my tear ducks fill with salty water as I become frustrated and terrified I was with this place. I close my eyes to release the tears and found myself right back in the middle of the train tracks. I continued to keep looking around and I eventually see an old abandoned gas station with one street light flickering and shining over a figure that would sometimes appear under the light and a sign written in blood, ‘Only the true special ones make it home this way’. I tensed up at the sign as another dead corpse lying on the side of the sign. I felt offended by the sign saying ‘only the special ones’ due to my narcissistic side. It was like it was taunting me saying I wasn't. But I am special! “What makes me different from the people that survived?” the next thing I knew, I see a train coming right for me on the tracks right when I began to start hoping on the boards. Still on land I watch as the train speeds my way as I stood there as numb as a block of wood. But right as it seemed it was about to hit me, I stupidly cross my arms in front my face and lower myself into a stance ready to accept my fate. My eyes teared at the thought, ‘Maybe I'm not special…?’. I closed my eyes tight enough it felt like my eyes were being pushed in by the lids of them. I stood there and opened my eyes hesitantly expecting a harsh impact, I felt nothing but strong wind. I stayed in that position for another half a second before fully opening my eyes with confusion. I could see the train around me as I went through it. “ghost train..?” I asked quietly before falling to my knees as the winds stopped holding me up. After another second I stand up again from my knees regaining my confidence despite this ungodly place and ignoring the fact that something was waiting for me on the other side. I begin hoping on the boards risking my life with each hop. It wasn't until I get to the middle of the huge abyss where I missed a step and fell in between the boards. I immediate reflex was to hold on to something so I don't fall in. I grasped onto one of the boards that was thankfully not far away. I couldn't bring myself back up due to the many trains that were passing by and possibly knocking me off the track, so I had to reach to the next board like I was playing on monkey bars. Once I finally reached the end of the abyss, I climbed up onto the land and unlike the other side I felt grass in the ground so I knew I was making ok progress. Still being the darkest, gloomiest and most ominous place I've ever seen in my life, I am still cautious to this new sight. I stood up facing a forest with very tall thin grayish brown trees with dull grass. As I stood up as silent as a white rabbit hiding from its prey, I observed the forest regretting having gone over here. Until I heard a faint whisper and rustling leaves behind me. I ran. I ran as fast as I could. I tuned around to see if I've gotten far from whatever that was, but it turned out I didn't get far at all. I stopped trying to run and stood looking behind me. Nothing. I figured I could continue finding my way through this forest but as soon as I turned around I meet this thing with a safe for a head wrapped in thorns and an apron covered in dirt and blood along with its hammer covered in mud blood and other disgusting fluids you could ever think of. It already had its weapon held up high as I stood there and before I could process the moment, he swung his hammer and I fell in the abyss. I'm falling and paralyzed and afraid. This is where I've met my wits end. Even though I can not move or scream and cry bloody murder for help, I can still feel this pain that has impacted me. It felt like someone dropped a wreaking ball wrapped in sharp wires cutting open my skin while releasing its disease through my sore body. It felt like someone injected a poison in me that also had small crystals inside of the killing substance just to tear me apart on the inside as much as it is on the outside. As I'm falling the river of tears, blood, and a black tar like substance flow out of my eyes, nose and mouth. I see all the lost souls, dead bodies, blood, and organs spread out everywhere. My perspective changed in this dream changed so that I could see myself falling from a distance. I see that as I fall I managed to turn over facing the ground. The perspective changed again and now I see that my face has gone pale and I could feel my heart giving up and my eyes changing to a cloudy gray. And there I was. Impaled through my stomach and out by back by one of the sharpest infectious needles that was sitting at the bottom of this abyss I was knocked into. My limbs are twitching as I'm stuck around the needle point as my body is unable to go further down towards the bottom. My eyes pour blood the same time my mouth is throwing it up. I could still see from a different perspective this time. This time I'm looking up at myself and the train falling right over me behind me. The fastest second went by and the train finally fell on me. Scattering my insides out. Squirting all the fluids out my body. And splitting me in half due to the pressure put on my body while still on the needle like a kebab.

16 Mar 2024

Dream

A former best friend (we have drifted apart) had told me last minute during a conversation in a supermarket that she was moving to Australia, and when I asked her when she was moving, she said in two weeks, I was then angry with her for not telling me sooner, and walked away in a huff. Then the scene changed to my childhood home back in Singapore - 7 Jalan Remis - where there was an alien spaceship hovering above. It was trying to monitor people inside their homes through the window and there were herring lights on the spaceship. I close the curtains to try and stop it from observing us. Then it sent an orb down into the house and it was very keen on my baby and I put obstacles in the orb’s way so it wouldn’t get to the baby.

15 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at my aunt Mays old house in Union. Mom was on a lawn chair facing the opposite direction of me. My cousins Marcy, Peggy and Robert were there. I was observing a light in the night sky that was twirling around like a laser. I seen shooting stars falling behind this object. As it moved across the sky I seen an orange nebula and I was taking pictures and video of this beautiful sky. Eventually got my mom to turn around facing towards Ohio which I believe is west to look at this beautiful sky. It was a true starry night.

10 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a huge strip club with pink and blue neon lights and loud music was playing. Guys were carrying a girl with clear pleaser heels on for fun. I was someone who observed what strippers do and wants to become one.

25 Feb 2024

Dream

For context, in real life yesterday I got into an expolsive argument with my boyfriend yesterday over him not listening to my feelings and him trying to control the situation. I started the fight but in that realized I’m overplaying my part. So eventually I gave up. I had a dream last night after this fight that I reached out to my ex the sexually abusive one, ig on impulsive or something. I told him to come get me and he came. When I came downstairs to the lobby of my apartment he was there “mingling” as I put it. I saw him and said look he’s mingling, to ig express how different we are. He was playing cards with some ppl I don’t really know. Then my boyfriend showed up and observed our interaction between me and my ex. I had a conversation with my ex and he seemed to be more mature mannered when we spoke. He said he tried to call me. For context after we broke up we would try to get in contact with me from a bunch of random numbers and instagram pages. I was thinking how could I get away with my ex without losing my boyfriend but then my boyfriend said my love are you ready to go and I said yes. Then my ex said goodbye. I know that realistically that my ex is not mature mannered or respectable.

17 Feb 2024

Dream

A woman I didn’t recognize was struggling with a heroin addiction. I wasn’t directly involved in the dream I was more like observing it in third person. A woman I work with allowed the woman with the addiction to stay in her home to attempt to get clean. She kept relapsing but slowly began to make steps in the right direction.

12 Feb 2024

Dream

I observed a white 3 feet x 1 foot casting that I made in metal grid. I was pleased with the result. It didn’t seem to have a purpose.

3 Feb 2024

Dream

I was first in london, it was evening time and everything was very lively. Then I was in Birmingham... so we were staying in spires service apartment... I wanted to the canal side... so my mom took me through a shortcut which consisted of crossing a building.. the building was super gorgeous... It had a floor full of books... after going to the other side, I bought boba tea and then went back to that building and went to the floor of books... I started reading them and then I observed the other floors. I was in love with a guy named aarav... every evening we were going out.. I used to share everything with him, but he usually spoke less as compared to me. Then one evening we went to a church in Indiranagar after pizza... I sat along with aarav and the church priest told everyone that we have finished only 1 verse of Bible.. and she started reciting the other verses of Bible and I told aarav that "I can't understand a thing", he was like "yeah love, me too". Since we were Hindus I asked the priest whether it was okay to come in with our shoes on, then she was like it's your wish... me and aarav kept our shoes out of the church and then came in.. While going home.. I was sitting behind aarav on his bike. Then I was like aarnav, why do you pretend to be aarav.... he told me that because he is your imaginary lover, and I want to be your real lover. Then I asked him... so you love me? He did not answer... we went into a cabin, I saw my parents eating pizza... but I followed him to bedroom. He pretended to sleep, but yet again I asked him the same question.

1 Feb 2024

Dream

I don't really remember the dream because I fell asleep after I woke up and so I kind of forgot. I do remember I was leading a small group to travel somewhere and we had to find a mode of transportation. I went inside of a building and I realized we could travel using train tracks and I was observing how the people inside of this building were traveling and decided to copy their method. I grabbed a crystal or a rock of some sort and that generated a cart. We couldn't all fit so I was trying to show my group how they could do it themselves so we could all go together like a caravan. And I think something happened where things were starting to attack the place that we were at and we had to leave and I woke up.

31 Jan 2024

Dream

I can’t remember too much about how the dream started, but I was in a child’s body. It seemed like this child was native or definitely not from America. He was being put into a very stressful situation and was being forced to leave his home, but I was this kid. I was with the kids family and we were all running away. We got to these clear blue crystal clear waters that were beautiful but we were warned by a man near by that these waters are dangerous and we must pay a fee before entering and enslave ourselves to him. I remember just not caring, I was like, what’s the worst that can happen? The water looks fine! I dive right into the water and I can even see clearly in it. I stand up and do worry about alligators or snakes in the water but I don’t see any still so I continue. There’s a jungle around us and palm trees, we are definitely somewhere very tropical. Beautiful weather. But as I walk through the shallow waters the sand underneath is hurting my feet but I keep pushing through. At this point I’m not sure where the family went, but I end up in a dark and abandoned castle. I’m stuck in behind some bars in some sort of jail cell but in the castle, some man then comes in and is threatening me and this other girl there and some of my sisters saying we will never escape. We do end up escaping and I turn back into my normal self. The castle ends up being my moms and my stepdads but it’s strange because it’s dark and unkept which is nothing like them. They then tell me they are off to run errands and I say okay. I go to “my room” but there’s barely any light coming in and again… it just looks abandoned- I start thinking this can’t be my room can it?? I look out the window and I see the glorious weather and the crystal blue waters. I then have the urge to go to the bathroom. As I step into the bathroom and use the toilet I start thinking to myself that “wow I’m taking a very long time to pee” when I look down beside me to the right, there is a pile of dark towels… for some reason I relate the dark pile of towels to being someone I knew in middle school and the pile of towels starts to move!! I then go “Alan is that you?” So I hurry up and finish up in the bathroom and the pile stands up and morphs into Alan. He then takes off his hoodie and he says “yes it’s me” and he starts towering over me demanding sexual pleasure. I start to panic and hyperventilate…. It feels very real. I then find my voice and I start yelling at him and I tell him to back off!! Leave me ALONE!!!! And he listens. Before I could see his reaction I run out of the bathroom and into my room. I’m still very uneasy at this point and I lock my bedroom door. He tried to get in. But then I notice that I didn’t really lock the door and there’s clothing, and random things on the door blocking it. I keep thinking I have to move this stuff quick and then lock the door before he gets in. The door isn’t really strong anyways but I finally make a clear pathway and lock it. I start wondering around the room and observing how dark and messy it is. I then find a hallway attached to the other side of my room and I walk out and I see him standing there. I am frightened again I run back into the room and lock any other doors I see attached to my room. I realize there’s 3 doors total and I lock all of them. I hear my mom and the rest of my family come back home and I warn them someone is here that is unwanted. Then I wake up.