Sense

16 Jul 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt of hundreds of beautiful symbols, strange occultic things that make sense to me. In my dream I sat down and said "this is the only time I get to see my subconscious". 😳

17 May 2024

Dream

My old boss that got fired was hired back on. She asked me how work was without her there and I told her it was way better. She was incredulous. She asked me how that could be possible and I told her that the new director is able to listen to opinions other than her own, she comes up with solutions that actually make sense and when she helps us out it actually helps instead of just stressing us out more. She told me I was being a bully and just trying to make her look bad. I told her she didn’t need any help looking bad. She told me even thought she was my boss now she could let it go and start fresh. I told her there was no need and I quit.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

i had the clearest dream of me being in my exs neighborhood talking to her friends in her house after just walking in and i was just asking a bunch of questions. her friend spoke about how she was hanging out with the guy but they gavnt done anything intimate like kissing or anything and idk in my head i kept having a recurring thought of me being at a gun range shooting at pictures of me and her but not like shooting at us, i was shooting at targets next to us and i noticed i shot at the ones of us being together and not the pictures of what i took of her if that makes sense. weird dream but it was so vivid. i was asking questions but i wasnt asking the right questions i do remember asking one of the people at the house if they could talk her into coming outside and talking to me for closure or just to talk to her but it didnt fall through

5 Apr 2024

Dream

April and I were in a room with many of the older friends and family members who have been important in our lives. There were also a lot of other people I don't know know. This was some kind of sharing session because people were talking about things that had happened in their lives, and we were all sitting faci g one another. Diane (my first mother in law and the grandma of my first son), Diane's friend, who we call Auntie Kathy who has helped April and I a lot with the kids since my first wife died. Kathy, who is sitting next to me gets up to talk to someone and a large man sits down in her seat. I try to tell him that someone was sitting there but he considers it fair game because Kathy had gotten up. People in the group start to share about loss and my turn comes up. I tell the story about TJ's death and Kathy who is now across from me begins to cry. It feels like, in the dream this makes sense because she helps us because she lost her husband to. April and I cross the room to hug her. She is not family by blood, but by loss. (This may or may not be true in real life, I don't know her family situation. She is retired and has no children that I am aware of).

5 Apr 2024

Dream

This dream was very different. I had this dream 2 to 3 years ago but I still remember it as clear as day. I see myself floating in a white void with gray smoke like swirls being the only thing in the void, besides me. I'm just slowly drifting while in a deep sleep, but I can feel that I'm at peace. Sensing myself at peace, it was the greatest feeling. While still dreaming I suddenly start to hear someone call my it sounds like whisper is at first but then it starts to get louder and louder. eventually this makes me open my eyes so I can find who it is calling after the third time my name gets called everything goes black then I started the first blink was nothing but a bright light and blurred visions, second blink the light is brighter and the blurred vision start shaping like people. the third blank was when I started hearing the voice calling my name but it was very muffled. Before I got to the 4th blank The voice started becoming more clear and when I opened my eyes to faces started to appear. I wake up and what looks like a surgical room with two mercenaries trying to wake me up and guided me through a mental wake up. well they were doing that all of these doctors and scientists were around me unplugging neuro plugs from my skull and spineI making sure my vital signs were okay. One of the mercenaries was just messing with me which kept pissing me off while the other one was making sure he didn't have to step up and do something since he thought my Powers were out of control, even though I still didn't know what they were. After I get cleared from recovery I get sent to bed with a group of people and we walk to our one room that was filled with military like bunkers. We all get to bed and I keep getting questioned with what happened while I was in my simulation that needed so many extra mercenaries around me. but I just tell them I don't know, roll over throw the blankets over my head and go to sleep. the next morning at 0500 hours, a hurricane alarm goes off and we all started getting up making our beds getting dressed. A tall fit Asian man starts playing music from his clock radio to get everyone excited for the day. We're almost done getting ready all together then a woman wearing a white medicine jacket with a clipboard starts calling out our names to make sure no one's missing. After she's done doing a roll call we have to put these metal electronic collars around our own necks then we line up single file and go to the cafeteria to eat breakfast. When I get to the cafeteria there's a whole bunch of adults and children there but only from the ages of 6 years old too 34 years old but we were all divided by different categories. After we finished our breakfast me and the people that are sitting with me got brought to a room that looked like it was set up like one of those chairs from The matrix. Asian man that was playing music in the morning to wake everyone up sat in the chair and all these people gather around and started attending to him. I then go with the woman in the doctors jacket and get taken to an examination room. I'm wearing a white gown sitting in a chair while I'm getting poked and prodded at quite different scientists. They are trying to get me to activate my Powers but I was having a difficult time doing that. I'm doing a physical exam and due to boredom I look out in the hallway, but to my surprise I see a group of children that look like they're around the age of seven and nine being led by men with guns. That's the last time that I ever see those kids. It's the next thing in the dream I start getting into an argument with the lady in the white doctors jacket telling her that we need to stop what we're doing because this is becoming excessively wrong, but she just ignores me. The next day in the dream I noticed that the bunk beds in the rooms are becoming more and more empty and in that morning of breakfast time I'm talking to a tall muscular Asian man named jet, a blonde Russian girl named Anaya, you're handsome but scruffy brunette man named Jackson, and my cousin Tony, trying to convince them that we need to get out of here and take the kids with us and without hesitation they were in with the plan. The next day in the dream we're doing our usual stuff and I notice these twins that are new to the groups. One twin is a girl and the other twin is a boy and the girl carries around a gray rabbit with her at all times. When I saw these twins I started feeling worried and angry. When our scheduled examinations were over I had a conversation with jet, Anaya, Jackson and Tony and we planned to leave that night. Thing skip forward to that night and we're all running down a pitch black alleyway with the kids we tried to escape with. The female twin with the bunny rabbit trips and falls from trying to keep up with us. Jet sees her fall and immediately runs back to try to go get her. Jackson is losing his mind Aunt jet when he turned around to get the girl because we were in a very specific territory that we were not supposed to be in. this area was worse than the place that we were running awat from. I keep trying to tell Jackson to calm down and to make sure the other kids hide at least while jet gets the girl but as soon as Jet got within arms reach of the girl these Bright lights like there were multiple cars lit up at the little girl and Jet. This weird gang of super mutants came out from the lights and almost killed the girl and jet. I got scared worried and heartbroken because of anything happened to those two I would have been lost. I hear guns finishing loading and saw them aiming at jet and the little girl I screamed out loud to make it stop then everything went pitch Black. We were still in the alleyway because I heard jet running towards me with the girl and he whispered in my ear thanks for saving me. Now that we got rid of this crazy gang we all made a run for it we're trying to go to the ocean but at the nick of time we get caught by the people who were trying to experiment on us. Helicopters and military grade everything just started popping up out of thin air surrounding all of us. They take us down one by one and make sure that we couldn't speak or touch anyone. They had us locked up as if we were the most dangerous beings on the face of the Earth. The next day I am so angry that I'm just screaming and yelling and fighting with every person that is a part of this facility to the point where they had to put a specific collar on me that continuously injects me with a sedative. When Anaya saw this she was not happy about it at all and kept finding a way to stop the collar from activating but when the white jackets found out they killed Anaya and locked me in a water tank with an oxygen mask and a straight jacket. I can see through the glass as if I'm looking through a window and I noticed that they were going to take the twins. And when I saw that they were going to take them my eyes turned white with fury, I break the tank that I'm in and then I start to absorb every ounce of water within a 10 mi radius formed it into a 87 foottallbody and start attacking everyone while I was slowly walking to the city. At that point I had lost full control over myself because I was full of sadness and rage. The last thing I remember seeing this dream was the government response teams pointing every weapon they owned at me firing them at me and watching all the bullets tanks and missiles turn into dust as they try to hit the water body that I had stuffed myself into

3 Apr 2024

Dream

years ago i had the dream where i woke up in my dorm room and had motherly senses that there is a baby in my room. it is like i had mother instinct and got up to grab baby boy from the crib beside my bed. Years after years, i had the similar dream where i saw a toddler boy with dinosaurs jacket at the birthday party. i got the instinct that he is same person as a baby boy i saw in my old dream. he called me his mommy.

2 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in the house a grew up in. I felt like something bad was going to happen or like someone was coming for me, I felt a sense of impending doom. I looked out my window and saw a white van pull up my driveway. I started to close some of the blinds so the man in the van couldn’t see me. I realized my window itself was open so I moved the blinds aside to close the winds and the dude in the van got close to the window and said it was almost like I was helping him come into my house. He had a gun and I knew he had bad intentions. I locked the window and quickly ran downstairs and told me dad someone was trying to break into the house and hill us. I think he went to my room to see the man out my window but the man appeared at the window next to me after I switched rooms. He was smiling at me and I knew I wasn’t going to survive.

30 Mar 2024

Dream

I was dropped off in Seattle and I had amnesia and I had no idea why I was there. I wandered certain areas that seemed familiar but I couldn’t point a finger as to why. I walked around a down town area, where there were people eating outside in patios aside restaurants, shops and even a park with swings. Then I found a phone and called a number I remembered, then called someone which was my husband and he explained that he was there too but he is in a work meeting. Then all made sense.

28 Mar 2024

Dream

I went out with some old friends of mine and we decided to go to the city where some party event was taking place, something that allowed for drinking outside in crowds so probably something like St. Patrick day or our own version of Mardi Gras, anyway the weather was nice and I decided to buy drinks (I don't drink alcohol because any ive gotten a small taste of usually tastes bad, but I've thought of it now that I'm of legal drinking age) so I went to a store and bought a case of Whitelaw which is the only beer in real life I remember not hating the taste of, I bought a case of it for me any my old friends who were a year younger than me so it wasn't legal for them to drink but I let them anyway. We hung out in the city for a while mostly at the park drinking, I only drink one can but it lasted a while. Then we went to the parking ramp where my car was to go home and then I found some other people there and they invited me somewhere but I had to buy a ticket to get in, it was like a comedy show or roast or something, but it was really bad and unrehearsed but that's what made it funny was the parts that made no sense, and then I was brought on stage to do a part and the stage was half a room rather than a stage, but the room kept changing and all the rooms had weird Christmas trees, like they were all odd shapes and sizes and colors rather than a normal nice Christmas tree, so I started improving saying stuff about the trees and it was funny but the host was laughing on the side of the stage and it made me laugh a bunch too, and when I got off stage he did a couple more bits for the small crowd before mentioning this was the pre run of the show, the real one was the next day, so I basically bought the ticket in twice, and then he walked away to get lunch and the small crowd including me just sat and waiting for him to come back. Then I woke up before he came back.

26 Mar 2024

Dream

It started where my friend and I were moving in together with her daughter who is 6. She has a very controlling boyfriend who drinks a lot. I remember in my dream he wasn’t happy she was moving in with me. At one point he was talking to her daughter when my friend left the room saying, “ you’re so bad. Don’t make your mom want to die…” just really horrible stuff. He didn’t know I could hear so I went and told my friend. My momma who is now in heaven came into my dream looking at me, mad at me with this piece of paper that made no sense insinuating I was on drugs wouldn’t believe that I was okay while I was telling her I had to go to work. I slapped her on the head trying to show her what she was reading was wrong and we just got in a huge fight. I made myself wake up at that point.

23 Mar 2024

Dream

kind of about eric ig in another universe. briefly shows me / "toni" (short for tonisha i think) meeting and flirting with him for the first time in a theater esque situation at 15. similar shit goes down and i just don't see him after being reprimanded a few months before my 18th things haven't really improved. i'm in a sort of wayward teens program and we're on a field trip. i have a rambunctious beast friend similar to kayla who takes her daily meds but still acts weird. i've mastered the art of not taking i think we're visiting a hospital or living facility of sorts, and i'm aimlessly wandering until i see a familiar name somewhere. i realize he's staying there and don't really tell bff but try to but she's busy talking with one of the male wayward teens she likes. it's kind of a race to evade both building staff and the crew watching the teens but i make it shortly after some religious folks leave the room. i'm panicked thinking he's in hospice but slowly walk in. just by my heels he goes "toni?" i think he's "quenton" in this dream but we sort of awkwardly look at each other before he smiles and we catch up and gossip and he's fine i think just staying in an exclusive residential suite bc he wants to "find himself" and i guess can afford to. at some point things get hot and flirty and kind of weird in the you're still so beautiful but all grown up way but its so sexy to me lol. in the dream some actually ?? stuff happens and bff is there and i think i was just very in real life horny lmao so my dream had a porn like scene anyways it gets back to some sense of reality when again in the dream he leaves halfway through ~activities saying he'll be back and me and best friend cry like wtf but a more normal scene in this hellscape would be i fall asleep after and he says something i can't really decipher and when i wake up he's gone and the alarms are going off in the hospital again my dream gets crazy and there's an action sequence and the hospital explodes ?? but let's say i and some other patients from either program / facility escape without jumping out of a tall ass building. bff somehow makes it out too and she's pissed at me first bc her crush didn't make it out or got bright back to the state custody but we eventually shrug and kind of become street urchins idk if i have family or she does but we spend the next few weeks kind of making the city outside of the "dishonorable youth" program. initially im trying to find him but there are no leads and bff convinces me to give up. it hurts and i wander one more night in a shady alley that's somehow relevant (lmao i think its a college bar area near where he claimed to live during the catching up scene, suggestive / creepy comments and all) and these two east asian guys ask me what a sign says and i'm like "black cherry?" (it looks like a bar) they laugh and speak another language so i walk away and decide that's it, he's gone xmas eve comes, the day before im assuming my / toni's 18th birthday and there's a sliver of hope that there will be a Christmas miracle but im starting to wake up at this point so the last actual dream part was me standing in what was kind of like central park of ny all lit up and i was looking at this really tall light post that's bulb was super bright and i pretended it was a shooting star before bff is like let's get wasted my own ending i think is that i wake up hungover as shit with this guy snapping and going "hello?" and i think he's my shooting star come true on my birthday morning so im like "quin"?? and he says "who?" as the sleepiness leaves my eyes and he's just some college guy from a bar we went to. i blink before smiling and replying "ah, nobody" other parts in the dream that were probably "in order" before my own ending but i couldn't make sense of it in a linear manner include coming back to the hospital that's now in good condition with better security and we make a joke to the receptionists about the incident months prior which makes them confused first then surprised. i think we go the equivalent of jk, oh can we get these drinks? i also think i made note of not seeing his name on the visiting sheet as an option or something so it could have been during the "where's pedo" montage alternative ending i get some sort of real closure? it's been years of no contact atp and i think nye following my 21st and i see him at the event and he sees me. i don't feel the same butterflies and anxiety but just.. weird so i go somewhere less crowded to drink water and this time he followed me. vague small talk, some awkward silences, and then we both say im sorry. and he's like why are u sorry and while i feel like i have a reason i stop and frown and i just don't know. he goes you aren't because you don't need to be and talks about the regret of ruining my adolescence and that's why he ran bc while the night was fun and thrilling it wasn't right and wouldn't end in good for anyone. like how i'm on track in community college after getting my ged (which i mentioned during small talk) and he's in therapy and trying to talk to ppl his age *awkward pained but genuine laughter* we nod and look away nervously while ppl filter in and out of what's probably someone's penthouse kitchen. the ball drop is soon and he says my name and i instinctively look despite feeling ashamed be almost a dog on call, following every command. he says something goofy to lighten the mood but i interrupt and kiss him as the countdown starts. its brief but passionate and at five i go "goodbye, quenton" and run off to the glass/window walls as one approaches. bff is there with u troubled youth boy toy who's turned it around and she grabs my hand and i squeeze back as it's the new year. there's celebration and cheer and yelling and we hug and bff asks "so what's your first resolution" looking her in the eye with a smile and refusing to acknowledge the confused but all too familiar set of eyes i'm sure is on my back "to never look back" toast, cheers, etc noises as she looks confused momentarily but shrugs and smiles bc she may not get it but she /gets it/ and i do too, finally

21 Mar 2024

Dream

I just had a nightmare that woke me up from my sleep. I had a dream that the guy that I'm currently talking to broke up with me. We were doing just fine. The dream started off so happy, we were talking over the phone. And then I think a day or two passed and he called me telling me that it was over, that he was going to get with his ex-sister-in-law because she was more relatable. She had a child and I didn't. She was closer and I was far away and it just made more sense and it was easier for him. I was devastated. I couldn't understand how a man that supposedly loved me could just leave me like that without a real reason or changing feelings. I remember just breaking into tears over the phone, my heart breaking and me just trying to reason with him and him not budging. And before he got off the phone he started laughing with her. It was a three-way call I noticed and I was just heartbroken. But when I said goodbye for the last time he made fun of me and said goodbye boo. And I woke up from the dream absolutely crying and telling myself it's not real over and over. you