Memory

16 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a big store that looked like Walmart. There were a few familiar faces who apparently worked with me, one of them being an ex-friend named Rosa. As I was sorting SIM cards, I run into a guy and a small child (toddler). He looked very familiar, I knew him from somewhere. He says hi to me and he tells his little one to say hi as well. We have a conversation and he tells me that I am the mother of his little one. I got caught by surprise because I didn’t remember ever birthing any other child but my son Issac. He looked a little hurt and asked me if I didn’t remember a few years back when he got me pregnant. Suddenly, I got a flash of memories. In the memory, I remembered that we had a one night stand and had an accidental pregnancy. I let him know about the pregnancy and that I was going to abort. He begged me to keep his child and told me he would take full responsibility and not ask anything of me. He just really wanted a kid. I was hesitant of keeping the pregnancy but he kept insisting, so I decided to have the baby and give up my parental rights to him. When I had these memories, I felt extremely guilty that I had a child, gave him up and forgot about him. I went over, introduced myself to the boy and gave him a hug. He looked so much like his father and looked only a little bit older than Issac. I let dad know that I was sorry for forgetting about our child and that I wanted the opportunity to be in his life because he deserved to have a mother. He seemed surprised by it but was open to it and then they left. I started to think about how I was going to break the news to my family, Issac’s dad and all my loved ones. Nobody knew about the existence of this boy and I had forgotten about it myself. I wondered how I was able to block the memory out of my mind for so long. I knew I had to make things right, let all my loved ones know about “my first born” and make up for lost time with this boy.

10 Jul 2024

Dream

I was at the park next to the primary school I’ve attended, the sky was cloudy, the air was warm, and yet I had on my grey hoodie with jeans that had folded a little above my ankles. I sat there watching other children playing, there was this one special playground activity that looked fun if you put your mind to it, though it wasn’t desirable plus it was pretty high in the air where someone could easily fall off of. I pictured my 7-10 year old self playing there, with some girls whom I wish I could’ve connected with back then (when I think about them now, I mean) just knowing I can’t change back time.

9 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a war with this guy that wanted to erase his daughters memory and everyone else's. He sends out goons trying to stop me, I took them down fast, and I stole his memory remote. He decided to hypnotize my mother into giving me donuts outside. I ate them and it became suspecious. I ran away and then saw a mysterious guy sitting at a desk that told me why he wants to erase his daughters memory. I was all due to a Christmas event that traumatized her. When the stranger disappeared, goons came along and tried to get me. I grabbed a gun from one of them, I shot, I missed them, but I think I shot the father or the daughter.

8 Jul 2024

Dream

I am barely waking up from my 'main' dream and then I feel my eyes closing again and I fall right back into a deep sleep. I feel like at the same time I can see all of my surroundings in real time around me in real life, I am also just not seeing anything as far as dreaming it is like a shade of blackish dark grey. I hear a clear woman's voice and a clear man's voice, neither of which I recognize. Immediately I feel like I know the situation, being the lady acting seductive and friendly/charming in attempts to lead the man somewhere she can kill him. I had barely heard the woman start to speak when I felt like that was the situation at hand, as I listen to their conversation, I am hearing another conversation/interaction with them from what sounds like sometime in the future from the conversation that I am hearing a little bit louder and clearer, first. As I hear one (more dominately heard) conversation with both their voices I am at the same time hearing a (less dominately heard) interaction between the same two ahead in the timeline of the other conversation. Throughout my listening, it seemed like my first suspicions/feelings of the situation were true and quite accurate as with the beginning conversation sounding like their idle chat the led them to (in the other interaction) what sounded like her murdering the man. I didn't hear any screams but I could hear some slashing, and objects being interacted with, and silence from the man, no longer hearing his voice at all. The dream felt short and this was a first that I didn't necessarily see anything and couldn't move but could vividly hear others speaking to each other like in a movie where it already happened and it's like watching a memory through some perspective, except also the first time I heard both interactions/conversations from two ends of a timeline between one bigger event involving some characters or people or something at the same time.

5 Jul 2024

Dream

All through last night and this morning I have had a recurring dream whereby upon my awakening, there would be conditions to my waking state. This happened at least four times that I remember vividly. It was strange because upon waking up I could not think of anything I had to remember that held such importance in the dream

20 Jun 2024

Dream

I had a dream where it looked like I was in my partners bedroom, (It was not my partner in real life though). I was getting ready for a wedding until someone whom I do not know interrupted my process by asking me questions, something along the lines of “do you really want to do this?” In my dream it made me think about my partner and how the relationship effected me. I felt like I had lost memory which started between the time I started dating them all the way up to the wedding, in my dream I immediately assumed I was on drugs which lead me to forget. The room started to look messy and I began to change my mind and the person who originally questioned me brought up another different person who likes me who arranged a secret wedding to take my hand instead which I started to quickly rush to get ready for, scouring my room to find any rose themed accessories. I assume I knew the person who arranged the secret wedding.

9 Jun 2024

Dream

The dream starts as I'm sleeping and my mom walks into my room and wakes me up. She was wearing my shirt and her hair looked long and her face looked very young like when she was younger in her 20s. She had long/short blonde hair and she was SCREAMING AT ME. But her face was weird and her eyes showed guilt but then it showed she was ANGRY. I can't remember why or what happened but it was switching from my mother acting like how she is currently and she was wearing and looking like how I saw her when she was younger. And I said to “give back my shirt.” “that's mine?” and I reached for it and the shirt got all wrinkled and she gave me a DEVIL look and stole my phone. I said “no you can't take this from me this time! I paid for this.” she looked angry. I took back my phone out of her hand. The whole time we were fighting. I MEAN she was fighting me. She was trying to take something from me and I didn't understand why? Or what she is taking from me? But the phone she didn't get. I have been remembering stuff from my past and dreaming of seeing my old self and living through my old life.

29 May 2024

Dream

Dream One Abby told me she’d help sneak me into this bar so I dressed up and we went. My parents freaked out and we left early. - [ ] I pretended to be this girls sister by playing dumb after she sprayed me with some kid of potion and it actually worked. - [ ] I jumped out the window and accidentally broke the pillars to the floating city which made it fall to the ground. Monsters started infecting and eating many of the citizens. - [ ] The girl that I had played dumb for actually got infected and was gonna hurt me but once I played dumb she let it go. - [ ] I was in some kind of competition with a girl that looked like Olivia. We were separated and partnered with two guys. Whenever I moved my hair from my face guys would be like oh shit and start to fall for me. In the end I think we got second place. Me and these people received knights that fell from the sky. - [ ] I recalled the story for one of the guys knights trying to figure out why some was happening. Before it did. While I was recapping a shadow was cutting me off to tell her parts of the story I didn’t remember or that didn’t actually happen.

20 May 2024

Dream

My God Brother , Calvin,who died December 2017 was in my home. This is the house me and my husband bought that he never got to see. I was standing on the side of my island next to my mom who's back was too me. When I noticed him I felt like I could sense his twin brother,Kirk, walking behind me into the laundry room. I yelled out Kirk. Calvin looked at me and said I'm not Kirk. I said "I know that I know who you are Kirk is in the laundry room." He kinda disappeared and appeared right in front of me. I was sitting on the sectional. He looked at me in my face and he said "She doesn't recognize me." I thought he was talking about my mom. I said "I'm sorry , I'm so sorry. I love you." The dream right before this one was me and My oldest niece. She died in 2022 . I can't really remember mu h of the dream with her but I know we were talking and laughing in been. I then had another dream after both of these and I dream of Calvin standing in a room that felt like mine while I laid in bed with my husband and he told me he just pops in to memories, He asked me Guess where I'm going next.

7 May 2024

Dream

I saw a dream of my neighbour house burning in fire . After some time my house started burning in fire and everyone was inside the house and I was worried for every one but after some time the fire slowed down and ended. I saw my dead paternal grandmother in dream she was happy. She was just like how I saw her 6 years ago . She showed me a picture of her with my uncle's when they were kid . It was a nice memory picture but the picture was colourful instead of black and white. I was in my parents room the was also 6 years ago one . There were all my family members in the room and I also saw my dead great grandmother. I was happy to spend time with them . They also showed old pictures of our house it was pretty. I also saw a kdrama dream actually at night I was watching a kdrama . In that dream like the main character was kinda sus after some time the main character birthday was there and got suprised by a cute cat cake and he picked a lighter to burn the candle

22 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamt about traveling... I drove a long journey,days to get to this beach, I've been there before in my dreams. This dream my dead best friend Jeanne is either in or the journey is done in her memory.

19 Apr 2024

Dream

My dream started off with my family and I doing mundane things in our house. We cleaned and did the dishes. After that, my extended family came to visit us and put up our Christmas tree. After the tree was set up, my sister, mother, and I went back to the kitchen to do more dishes. We listened to a song while doing the dishes. The song was about a guy who cheated on his wife while he was drunk. The three of us started talking about it before I realized that my dog had both pooped and peed in the house. I get annoyed and yell at the dog before cleaning it up. After that, my mom, my sister, and I all went to the grocery store together. Once we got there, I went to the “Kid Area” while my mom and sister went shopping. The kid area looked like a classroom, but it had personal items in it. Such as: family photos. After a while, I leave the kid area and find a podcast room. The podcast host was interviewing the guy who sang the song about cheating on his wife. I join the podcast and talked to them for a while. Since both of them were boys, they started talking about girly tropes the second I joined the podcast. They said that girls hate it when boys get a strike in bowling, and that they should aim for 13 pins specifically. I told them that’s not true, but they didn’t listen to me. I left the podcast room after that and went back to the kid area. Once I got there, I realized that I left my phone in the other room, so I went to get it. The guys went silent when they saw me grab my phone. Suddenly, my mom texts me. She asks me if I could find that one picture of her, my dad, my sister, my uncle, my great-grandmother, and I, where we all together and having fun. I said okay, and asked her where it is, but she never replied to me. After a bit of searching, I find the photo. It makes me tear up a bit because of the memories it held. After that, my sister and my mother take me home. On the way home, I ask my sister her top 10 reasons to never date someone, and she started listing them. Her number 1 reason was if they had ever been to jail. After that, we started talking about things you could get arrested for, and how long there sentences were. Then, we arrived back home and went inside. But I woke up right before dream me entered the house.