Present

21 May 2024

Dream

I was going to and from my ex house, cleaning everything and he was not present. Construction was happening throughout the whole building. I cleaned a whole pile of dirty dishes and had put cold pizza in the oven to warm up. The whole time I was thinking, did he actully died? I was referring to my ex.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

I was attending a woman’s wedding that was my friend in the dream, but someone I’ve never met in real life. I was very encouraging to her and offered my help with enthusiasm. Underneath my desperation to help her was a deep headache. She was marrying someone I had been crushing on at work who I had met in real life. The next thing I remember is the wedding being called off. The groom that I found myself smitten with was boarding the carriage alone. I was running after him determined to confess my infatuation. I had taken the brides bouquet to present to him, but it was only stems. There were no roses attached. Still he accepted the stems. Then with an expression of regret, told me he wished he had accepted my affection from the beginning. With my gift he left.

29 Mar 2024

Dream

It was Christmas I had to work but we were not at work just at a house with coworkers. I wrapped presents board games. We never exchanged the gifts. I told my boss that I was sad I didn’t get to spend the holiday with my family.

24 Mar 2024

Dream

My dream was about me and i was collecting people for my birthday at like a local whole Foods looking place. I ran into Victor in the bread aisle and I invited him to the birthday party and he was like oh I have to go home first and grab your present, we were still dating in my dream. So I was like ok and I got in his car and we drove to his parents house. He told me on the car ride over that I didn’t have to get out of the car, but then we got there and he started insisting that I come inside to go say hi to his parents. So I go up to the door the door opens and it’s his parents speaking in full English and giving me hugs like we were old friends. They were asking where I’ve been and why we haven’t talked in a while and it was so strange. And I think in the dream I fell asleep while standing up at the doorstep because I woke up at my parents home and Victor wasn’t there. I checked his location and it showed that he was in New York. I asked my mom where Victor went and he said that his friend needed him up in New York, and to give me my present and say happy birthday to me. And I remember that I started bawling, and I was so mad. I started dialing his number and like saying over and over like we’re done we’re done we’re done like I was in tears and that’s when I woke up.

22 Mar 2024

Dream

I remember being in an argument with someone close to me. It felt like it was over something really petty as well. But so much venom and anger just seemed to be present in the moment it was kind of concerning.

22 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a 3 part field trip to a retail store, a restaurant, and this obsidian cliff over a small beach. The retail store was just that, however me and a bunch of children were offered carrots, rice, and this fancy dip that complied with my dietary restrictions. I think fairies were there from the show Fairly Odd Parents. Next I was briefly at a restaurant which had some familiar adults sitting at a table. I remember ordering and drinking fake alcohol. Last was the small cliff side, which was made of a sharp glassy black rock with the underside being more brittle and slightly more colorful. It was quite pretty. The tourist part had the edges blocked off for safety but a girl convinced me to go down with her (this was allowrd but not for our class) so she could take pictures and I complied. I got scared about halfway down and hesitated to go further. Then an alert told everyone on the beach side to climb back up. And all at once these professional climbers scaled the cliff side, shouting ‘Like cyclists!’ as they jumped the safety barrier at the top. I got anxious since I wasn’t wearing climbing gear while everyone else was. However I tried anyway and did quite well, jumping with the masses over the barrier. I then had to go back to class where everyone was tired from the field trip and the sky was dark. There was a girl I liked who accidentally showed a bit of her breast in her tired motions, unaware that I saw. This made me quite happy. It was then time to go home, and I stepped outside of class to head to my bus. This was supposed to be high school due to the people present however the environment was my college campus. My bus was across the pond in a swampy area. I waited in front with two familiar people from middle school, when I saw an old friend walk by, his pants slightly on fire. A lighter then falls out of his pocket, which I run to and try to give to him. He however, is stumbling around, breaking a small tree and collapsing to the ground in a delirious state. In real life I recently stopped being his friend as he never valued me. As I approach him he threatens me with a lighter to my surprise, before I had him his lighter. He then gestures me away before telling someone on his phone to fuck off, which I thought was at me at first. I then return to the swampy bus spot, where I explain what happened to the two people from earlier, thinking he is on a bad acid trip. I wake up after this.

15 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a work luncheon after I resigned from a higher level position and the boss completely ignored me. There were a lot of people present and a lot of different foods.

7 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream last night where I went to a neighborhood that was predominantly creative and I saw that I had to work with other people on something creative maybe like a photoshoot and then I left my car outside but when I went to my car I saw that the front plate was ripped in half and then thrown on the floor, I wondered who did that and I realized they did that because I said I was into findom and I am serious about my money and I aspire to have a lot more money I wanna be a millionaire and I made that clear to them and I think they became jealous of my money ambitions and they wanted to destroy my car, so I go back into the house and I realized a couple was watching my through their window, so next I go inside I see people are working on the project and I saw my mom was there but I’m disowned by my mom so I’m not close to her, I then saw Andy Schumacher there and he had a knife in hand, I saw him stab my mom in the belly once and I was shocked I saw the blood on the knife and I was terrified and Andy stabbed my mom with the knife two more times and then I saw my son was there present so I took my son and I told him someone stabbed your mom and I left with him. I remember I didn’t want to get stabbed so I left

7 Mar 2024

Dream

Hi. Last night I dreamt that I was in the hospital I have a wound on my hand IRL that has been hurting and I dreamt that I was in the hospital because it had bubbled up into a cellulitis and I needed treatment to bring down my fever and stop the infection. When I was there a man came into the room who was dressed as a doctor but didn’t seem to act like one. He was telling me that I needed a procedure. And started to exam me but he was causing pain. I suddenly realized that he had shut the door and that it wasn’t usual for a doctor to do that especially not to come in to a female patient’s room without a nurse or resident or someone else present. And definitely not with the door shut. I’m not sure if I had the dream a bunch of times or if I just kept rewinding the tape in my mind to try different approaches to get out of the situation. At one point I called Room service trying to get 911 at another I pushed the call button and “Doctor” ran out in the hallway and told them not to worry that it was in error. At one point a nursing assistant walked in but she was new sans didn’t know the doctors and who belonged and who didn’t. At one point I ripping off my IV and he was trying to inject it with something. I couldn’t tell if I was psychotic and he was a good doctor or if I was legitimately afraid for good reason and he was trying to kill me. At some point in one of the dreams a police officer came and said that someone was using a list of patients and their regions to attack Jewish patients .

2 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream I went to the beach with my cousins, my two brothers and my 2 sister in laws. We went during the day and stayed until night. During the day we hung out on the beach for a bit I saw the sand and ocean and it was crowded. We all drove in the car. There a bunch of people. Then we all decided to go to the boardwalk and do some shopping I was doing some last minute Christmas shopping I got all my presents and then we all came back to the beach but this time we hung out in this barn just us right on the beach and we started doing these drugs it was like a tar kind of substancs that you could either smoke or eat. I don’t know exactly what it was but I remember thinking it was shrooms or lsd. Everyone took some I took a little because it was my first time and I didn’t want to overdo it. It started kicking in and I went onto the beach it was nighttime I was watching the moon and the waves and looking out at the people. I started getting high and everyone started looking like a painting. Then my mom called I answered and she was asking what I was doing I told her we went to the beach and I did some Christmas shopping and now we’re hanging. And then I hung up with her and went back into the barn. And saw everyone. My cousin and brothers were really high and I kind of wanted to be on their level so I took a little bit more and then the dream ended

1 Mar 2024

Dream

False awakening i was being too much into my own head and needed outt; what i needed to do was be penetrant more/present. Remember reach from halo ;).

29 Feb 2024

Dream

Feeling like i have to rush through things sometimes; i turned off time sensitive notifs for my reminders app, rn i gtg be present fully cus i need to get rest for school/get ready.