Dream About Izuku Midoriya And Throuple Living Together

I had a dream about Izuku Midoriya just now. And I NEED to write it down. This feeling in my chest is so heavy and I don't think I'll be able to alleviate it until I've written SOMETHING about the dream. Izuku and I were really close. We met in highschool, fell in love... I did everything I could to help him. We went on car rides and sometimes he would pull me up in the air and propel me around with his quirk. He became a pro hero, and I became a teacher at U.A and an Underground hero by the name of "scramble." Things were good. He and I had started living together, and we brought Uraraka into the relationship as well. I would make them both lunch, breakfast, or dinner, and they were off. Then, I would get up and get ready to go to work, being a teacher wasn't fun, but it was gratifying. I loved my class, and they loved me. Pretty soon our little throuple decided to buy a house. We agreed that the attic would be my study/chill/work space. They didn't intrude on me there, but there was a lovely wooden and rope ladder. The rungs were made out of wood, and the sides were made of rope. That's important, because something happens to that ladder later. I can't pinpoint the exact day that something changed in Midoriya. He started drinking, and smoking... often. Raka and I tried getting him to stop... but he wouldn't. Saying things like "Being a hero sucks, can't you just let me have this one thing?" We didn't like the change, so we got together class A. Told them what was going on. They confronted him too, and he snapped at them. "Do YOU have one for all?" He asked. We all shook our heads. "THEN SHUT UP." We dropped it after that. But he was wasting away and we all could tell. Muttering under his breath that it would all he better if he were gone. Eventually, he came into my space. Wrote me a FULL letter. Detailing how he's been feeling, he told me that he loved me and wrote all of the memories we shared into the paper. Everything, down to the last hair out of place. It suffocated me because I knew something was happening. Then, at the end of the letter... he said "Now it's time for me to leave this world behind, and join the other One For All users within the quirk. Don't worry. I've already passed it on, I'm not stupid." He went on to detail the kids name, and where Ocha and I could find him. Then he said, "Thanks for everything my love. Don't tell anyone, and don't try to stop me. By the end of this letter, you would have been too late." I raced towards the ladder to see that it had been cut and the only one who could get me down safely would be Ochako. So I screamed, a guttural, broken scream and curled in on myself. When I woke up, that panic didn't go away. Hence why I made this.This suffocating feeling isn't going away, holy shit. Holy fucking shit. I need to go back to sleep damnit. Holy fucking shit. Izuku... goddamnit. Motherfucking shit.