Dream About Family Guilt And Compassion

This dream was about

I was visiting my family and having supper at my parents house (mom and step dad) it felt extravagant my whole family was there my siblings cousins and I were all drinking then dinner was ready all the food was in metal To go containers and everyone lined up taking turns to get their food as I patiently waited in line my mom was in front of me in the line and my step dad was as well they began asking why I didn’t go to my interview and expressed I wasn’t trying enough to get a job my mom continued and further expressed frustration and feeling unappreciated I began to feel guilty and cry my mom asked me why I would ask her to reach out to one of her friends who was a doctor to get me a job at the place that they were working at I told my mom I was still interested and that I was sorry for for showing gratitude towards her for being so helpful I told my mom that she truly does so much sometimes even too much to help love and support me and too a point that although I may express gratitude for one thing she does I sometimes become a bit spacey when it comes to thanking her for other things she may do to help me I was still visibly upset and drunk I decided I was going to go to my room I shared it with my cousin who was also drunk but she had drank so much she was unwell and throwing up she was shaking from being too drunk yet she saw I was crying and was extremely compassionate she asked me if I wanted one of her soft blankets then proceeded to tuck me in and lay beside me I fell asleep and when I awoke I was in my bed alone I believed my cousin had left and felt like I forgot to eat dinner and talk to my mom in a sensible manner as I sat up to look at my surroundings I realized it was all a dream and felt confused that none of it really happened to me but quickly I returned to a sudden sleepiness before writing this dream down