Guilty

1 Apr 2024

Dream

I had a dream about meeting friends in different places. I don't know if I was in a relationship but I felt free in a way. I didn't feel guilty about my trip either.

1 Apr 2024

Dream

Dreamt that I was feeling unsure of myself and the decision I chose. I was pregnant with my ex boyfriends baby. It finally clicked to me the responsibilities and challenges it would come with, and how my life would change forever. I knew abortion would be the smartest idea but I wanted to keep the baby because he was created with a person I love. I felt guilty for wanting to keep the baby but also it not being my ex boyfriends choice. And him being down or his life ruined because of the choice I wanted. It was a piece of him I didn’t want to let go because o found love in it. I laughed so hard I peed my pants a little bit so I had to go find a bathroom, it was funny. Started exploring cool dreamscape architecture. Slid down a steep hill. Landed in the city near a gym. Went inside. The basement was a library but also had research rooms. They had a psychology experiment room dedicated to studying the archetype of teeth in dreams. One of the research assistants looked familiar

31 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a dance class, with Thai girls and guys I was the only one who wasn't Thai, we had to dance in these high heels and pretty outfits, but I had a hard time with the high heels, and I fell a couple of times, and the end of the heels were slippery, which made it extra easy for me to fall. As I was clinging onto a railing in the middle of the dance class holding on for dear life not to fall, everyone else looked so serious and so professional, they were dancing so pretty. As i was trying to have my balance back, I saw a bird, it was relatively big, but not too big for me to hold, he had these sharp wings at the end, and he looked so pretty because he was almost colorful. He also as a facial features he looked like a Phoenix. The bird was flying over us (the dancing people) and the dance master got able to catch him, as he watched him I was so afraid the dance master would harm the bird or kick him outside as it seemed he had nobody, he was all alone. I begged the dance master to give me the bird, while struggling to move with the high heels. I wobbled over to the dance master and said please give him to me, and he did. I was so happy but the bird was fierce and wanted to fly out of my hands. He was so soft and cute. I brought him into the backstage, where people change their clothes. I held him there and stroked him, he was calm with me. My two twin friends came and saw the bird, me and them fed the bird. We were so happy that he was doing fine. We fed the bird too much, that he ended up passing away. I started crying, I tried to do CPR on him, but to no avail. The birds soul was already gone. I made him a nest where i could lay him in his last resting place, still feeling guilty for not being able to take care of this animal. I looked at him one last time, I was sure he wasn't dead. I couldn't imagine that he died. As I looked at him, he looked dead. I went home with my mom, in the car I was crying out to my mom how the bird died and how incapable I am of taking care of such a little animal. Guilt and pain was taking over me, as I cried as if someone of my family members died. It was that deep, the bird meant so much to me, and he was gone. And I was the reason for that. It hurt me, the pain of the bird leaving the world so early hit me like a truck, even more than the guilt that was washing up of me. I loved that bird. He was my companion and my best friend, even though we had just met. He meant a lot to me. And I was the reason for his ending. I just wanted to feed him because I thought he was hungry. And we overfed him until he passed. I feel horrible the pain is unbearable.

25 Mar 2024

Dream

i had a dream that one of my friends hacked the school system and the system got shut down, then someone accidently died so we had to help bury him and i was very scared that we were going to get caught. next, i talked to this girl who was suspected to know things she shouldn’t, because of a tiktok that she made. they interrogated her, and found her guilty even though she didn’t know anything.

25 Mar 2024

Dream

Dreamed I lived on a planet that was attacked by aliens. At first I had help and was gathered to a high ranking officer's compound where they gave me a huge room and said I'd be safe. However, everyone was alarmed and the refugees were worried they'd die. I was in the big room when a couple of maids came into the room. Suddenly we were attacked by two green pugs and two white ones, but they had long alien tongues that tried hitting us. Somehow we killed thtwo green ones, and I had to dodge the attack of one white pug and then had to choke out both pugs, which made me feel guilty. After that I had a plan to fight the aliens. I went downstairs and told someone but no one believed me. I left to do it on my own and found something like a futuristic motorcycle. I was attacked by a huge bot and it was really sad and kept running after me and shooting grenades at me. It finally self destructed and took out the door of a shop I was nearby with it.vI got out unscathed and went back to the high officer's building and talked to a lady. She told me it was my ex who sent the bot after me but since I survived, I was fine. I got angry and started yelling at them when her said it didn't matter because she had like billions of dollars through her buisness. I was like good for you! I was almost murdered because you helped my ex! And she goes, "Well what if I pay you half a million dollars?" And I think for a second and say "Can you give me a pension?" And she says "Abolutely! Just talk to my coworker!" And I calm down and say "Sure, I suppose." And then I wake up.

24 Mar 2024

Dream

We go to a church then with my aunt. Then when I saw three batches of fish, I wrapped the two batch in a blanket and folded it. After that my aunt went to go and feed the fish then they realized that the other two batches was gone and when they found out that the other fish was dead they we're mad at me. Because I killed the fish unintentionally and made them pay for it, and second they paid to feed the fishes. My aunt was so mad at me qe just go home and I felt guilty. Then on our way back home, 4 pillars of smoke carrying a cargo ship then threw the cargo ship to the city river, causing a massive tsunami. And when the tsunami hit me I was thinking if it was a dream or not then when I kept thinking taht it's real I called out to god with all my heart. Saying like "Lord save us!" "Praise the lord!" And screaming his almighty name on the top of my lungs then. I woke up. After I woke up I go back to sleep again. And in that dream is the continuation to my previous dream. God heard my screams and crys, he reached out his golden hand and in his palm was me. He raised me up, to the heavens and there was a light from the gray and dark sky. A light shines through from the heavens and god was raising me up to the gates of heaven. After he raised me up, I was with him beside him. Laughing in his humor as he tries to rebuild the whole world as the tsunami all destroyed the whole world. There, I was getting to read scriptures from the holy bible and more, all with god.

23 Mar 2024

Dream

My cousins and I were at a family party. We were playing hide-and-seek like when we were kids, except we are adults now. We were playing it throughout the neighborhood. Most of my cousins hid behind bushes. But I ran into a small house with only two rooms. One of the rooms appeared to be a waiting room and the second room was an office. I hid in the office and shut the door. Nobody came to find me so I left. When I came back to the family party, everyone was eating now. I asked one of my cousins “Why didn’t you text me that you guys ended the game?”. She said “Oh I’m sorry”. Afterwards, I felt guilty about breaking into the small house for the fear there was cameras and I would be caught.

8 Mar 2024

Dream

There was someone being firty with me in my dream that was not my boyfriend and in my dream I let it happen and I don’t understand that. Fast forward I’m out in this area where I am sitting down with somebody and there’s a girl and guy in front of me with ramen noodles in her hair and I look beside me and the person I’m with got us McDonald’s to eat but I was mad because a teacher or man of authority was talking and I went over there and basically told them to shut up and then I was walking back and I felt guilty because I saw a girl and another girl gossiping not to far from them and I told that person that was with me about it.later I was walking around on the same kind of area before and saw that the railing moved so you could jump onto the floor on one side and the other opened up into a huge drop into a body of water and someone jumped off and I was going to but I changed my mind and struggled to get back onto the platform. The next stage of my dream I was around my father, sister and her boyfriend and my sister had a lot tattoos and she was shaped differently like fatter. And in that part of the dream her boyfriend had died.

14 Feb 2024

Dream

Dreamt I was on a walk with my ex boyfriend (we are friends now) but we were walking and talking and for some reason I kissed him. It felt real but i had instant regret and I fell to the floor crying. I am married and I am happy I just don't know how or why this dream occurred. I feel guilty like the cheating was real

13 Feb 2024

Dream

I was in in my fifth period AP European history class there was this hamic and this girl was laying on it and I decided to join her and laid next to her and put my arm under her head my girlfriend was out of the class and comes back inside to find me laying with this girl with this girl resting her head on my arm on the hamic I quickly got up to address to my girlfriend that I wasn’t doing anything and it’s not what it seems like she was trying her hardest not to acknowledge what she just seen while she was trying to hold back tears I felt so bad and guilty and I desperately trying to explain but couldn’t i too started to getting teary-eyed

12 Feb 2024

Dream

I dreamed I'm at some sort of festival or fair in a large gymnasium and for some reason I'm baking very intricate pastries. I am only making two, one for me and one for my husband and they're very tedious and time-consuming. So I finally get them made but there's all these kids running around at whatever event I'm at and I feel guilty so I decide to take the one meant for me and cut it into very very very thin slices so that each kid can try a little bit and then keep the other one for my husband. I give the little bits to the kids and they seem to really like it but they seem more interested in candy and Oreo cookies that are around at this event.

11 Feb 2024

Dream

this dream was a year ago. for context, at the time i got easily annoyed with the friend in my dream, and i always felt guilty about it. it started off with me and my mom on a boat (it was a medium boat with a small downstairs area) we were talking about throwing a party on the boat and talking about what to eat, when then it suddenly cut to my friends point of view. (me and my mom were no longer on the boat) she was in the downstairs area with the door closed. the boat started sinking and i could feel her drowning (my biggest fear is drowning so i was freaking out) but i could feel every single detail, such as not being able to breathe, etc. after she drowned, it cut to me and my two guy friends in a parking garage. one of them showed me his phone and said “hey did you see this instagram story?” and i look at it and its my friends dead body on one of the autopsy tables. it was really graphic and i could see her skin was pale and blue from drowning and i could see her skin melting? or falling off idk. i started having a breakdown in the dream, and that was the end. i sobbed a lot when i woke up.