Dream About Family Mansion Christmas Eve Kiss Confusion Duplicates

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It is Christmas Eve and my family are all staying in this mansion including family member I’ve never even met before, possibly there are hundreds of us here. I am staying in this room with an elderly woman but I know I have to leave soon because I’ve agreed to film a music video with Haris and Colleen. I leave at 11 and stand in the middle of town waiting for someone. There is a fountain in the middle of the square and the place looks a little Italian. I see my girlfriend Colleen and walk up to her. We hug because it’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other and I lean in for a kiss twice but can’t seem to reach her lips. She tells me it’s a little awkward to try to kiss without asking first and so I ask if she wants to kiss me and she says yes so we do. It is apparent Haris is not going to show up. We walk holding hands and intense feelings of dread wash over me from being out so late and I tell Colleen I want to kill myself. She says I always do this shit and we sit down at a coffee shop which turns into a car driven by Colleen’s father. He keeps asking my me why I’m feeling down and it starts to get on my nerves until I snap at him. I tell ‘It’s because I was raped when I was a child!’ He is very shocked at this and calls me a slut for having sex at such a young age. Colleen is begging him not to be angry with me and keeps saying she didn’t know. Somehow we get out of the car and are back outside the mansion which looks like Stranmillis College. Pop singer Charli XCX is with us now as we climb up the steps of the building. I ask what time it is, hoping it’s only 12 but Colleen shows me her phone and I can see that it is 2 O’clock. She tells me specifically that it is 2:32 am. I go back inside alone and my arrival wakes people up starting with the elderly who walk around in confusion making lots of noise. A great number of people are all in a big room with me now and I see myself opposite me like in a mirror however she has slightly shorter hair. I realise that there are duplicates of people and something is very very wrong. I see my Dad and non verbally try to communicate this by pointing but my double has gone. I guide him through the house trying to find doubles but everyone keeps scampering away in a very quiet manner like bugs. Although we don’t see my doppelgänger again he realises too that something isn’t right and we run down the staircase out of the house.