Squares

5 Apr 2024

Dream

I remember one of the first dresms was inside my backyard Inwasndoingnsokerhint where inessntrtijgntongonogrrbthrnbrifkneslln but then after that I went to the table at the end of our backyard with my mom to spray paint on my clothes and a police helicopter dropped red paint all over me for some reason, I had to leave the house in the car to a grey day concert that my sister was talking about in the car there were so many people staring at me with the red spray paint but Indidnt care on the freeway the entire time that we’d do so I got into the car rolling the window down I remember when I went into the lobby area for the freeway race there was other people inside the girls locker room/ lobby aka preparation area and I had my things set down there next to tape so then I went and kept talking to people inside the locker room waiting going back and forth, and then when I got back in there was someone who I used to know before who was In my past but I didn’t care about them and then they came over to me trying to get my attention through doing things negatively, but Injust didn’t respond and got my stuff to change and get ready to go, while I left for one minute to the bathroom when I came back she was asking me questions like “Why would you do this to my own things huh? You care so much about myself that your a lesbian dyke reorganizing my shit.” and it was just my things coming back covered with tape on it next to hers which she purposefully stepped on to gather onto her clothes and my bags open which she unlogivslly somehow equated to me investigating her stuff , she was trying to get everyone else’s attention on her to create a problem, but then i responded calmly explaining how I don’t really care and that those things is clearly a problem with herself that she’s trying to projecting onto my life to make herself feel better about from putting me through making me look like i’m harassing her as the victim , she basically got upset from my non chalantness and everyone else inside of the room realized the situation from how i responded and just started ignoring her and acting like she was crazy, I didn’t care and I went out onto the kayaking boats on the freeway and while I was there, and inside the boats on the freeway she got next to mine and started saying in public “I’m still upset because I can’t believe you tried to steal my stuff” and then in response to that I started screaming since she was trying to get me evicted that l know she’s just lying about it when I only had my things next to her and had tape on my own yet she’s still trying to cause a fight about it because she’s determined to try and get me out because you just want to fight she hasn’t been relevant in my life for years and is still trying to live off of that to take advantage of it, when I said that everyone else was like “Oh girl. You should fight her back, Because if that was me.” and I remember instead of fighting defending myself to listen to them which got skyla to shut up and got them in trouble anyways while we were on the kayak boats after we accidentally got onto a escalator exit ramp that leads to the inside of a mall, i went inside there and there was a square room and as I kept progressing I was just in my thoughts relaxing but then I saw a girl who was crying in the middle of the escalator outside of the escalator on the sides of the room and I saw she was hurt so i went to her and hugged her saying “It’s ok.” and she kept crying, but then eventually after hugging her for a while after resting on my shoulders the entire time she said “You’re arms feel really strong.” and I got off from hugging her and she said “Oh your not the muscular man I was thinking.” and then I said “Yeah it’s because I have spray paint all over my hesd and body, but i’m ‘spanish.” I walked off smiling and I saw her happier and then when I went off the kayaking and down the escalator inside of the malll outisifenthe ecidt, I saw a group of my friends there ordering food and as I was trying to go to them to rrr was this man at the msll who was a security guard who I knew before that’s always trying to cause problems with me and to all my friends so he stood next to me and was about to do something but then he looked forward and saw the tripe double cheeseburger 49 he was obsessed with and he couldn’t stop staring at it so I just slowly left at the car for when we were going to the grey day concert my sister said, actually first what happened is we were all inside of this big bike neighborhood and it had a zoo inside, this neighborhood was for really good people in a community made by those who were well off, and as I got lost, before I got lost running out and going away from the people who dictate that I remember I went inside the original place and they said that we are a nuisance, as our family used to be one of the main leaders for that but now we’re in deep poverty which is ruining our reputation and image, and the image of them, so they couldn’t have us there but we’re deeply disgusted and dissapointed, and I said to them but does that dictate anything about us, and when my aunt was begging them around community she said yeah it does so i started going inside the place since this was the enterance to the community to find a way out away from them and I saw on my own a bunch of neighborhoods with people running bikes on each house, yet I was just trying to find a way out, and eventually when it got bad to a point where ai didn’t have much time left, I had to take someone’s bike to get out but I felt too bad stealing someone’s bike so I instead of ran all the way around the zoo area to find my house and get out of the dead end, and I did but it was behind and outside of the community entirely and when I got back we were in such poverty some homeless man tried stealing our car and things, so instead of pushing him out what I did was cooperate and say “Here instead of taking those things why don’t you take this,” and gave him 3 things and as I was gonna give more I said hold on and went back to the kitchen to grab pepper spray and a knife and came back spraying it to him to get him out with just those 3 items and he ran off but yet still broke the car door off our car and was so determined, but eventually we spoke through to him and he went up to us offering to help and then as we were leaving he just started stsying there helping out with the house too, and as I went into the backyard that’s when the spray paint thing happened etc, in the car with my mom once me and my sister got dropped off to the end of the freeway we were supposed to wait for my cousin and my aunt and mom to take us but what ended up happening is my sister had to take mom and my aunts car t the place but my cousin who said she was coming was apparently about to kayak me there, so waiting for her I looked everywhere on both sides for both the boats but I couldn’t find her, and I didn’t message her thinking communicating would send me back even further on time, so I just looked and after that I found one of the people from my school so I was going to get alisha and me to go into a kayak there on the freeway but then I went to the bathroom to check if she was there but then I saw someone else inside thet bathroom with their own stuff sitting half naked with shit in front of them and they were telling me about how they had a horrible day right now and were almost violently shitting inside that tub but I didn’t judge them instead I tried being understanding and said that sucks from how hard it’d be for them and that I thought they were actually my cousin at first but they were looking up to me having a conversation and then when I came back out I realized the kayaks were gone so i tried to call alisha but realized she had to go to the grey day concert without me so I was left back and abandoned by everyone else who was going to take me to there

23 Mar 2024

Dream

I went to a band concert my daughter's band had. There was two of them. The first one was with one teacher and it wasn't great, you could tell the kids weren't into it and didn't enjoy it. I very much enjoyed watching her play. The first concert was outside. The second concert was in a gym, at my old school. It was a mother's day concert and all the kids were giving gifts that's the school purchased on behalf of the child. I kept waiting and waiting for my gift but it didn't come. My sister was telling me she was sorry that my daughter didn't get me anything and maybe next year would be different. I never got to see my daughter during the second concert and I felt really sad. Then I got up to go to the bathroom. It was this bathroom that had no finished floor so it was just wet dirt. When I got into the bathroom there was a friend of mine doing homework in there. There was a window with no screen and no way to close it, just a cut out square. The view from the window was the highway. As I was looking out the window roller blades and skates were thrown from the overpass down to the underpass. There were police already around there and they went to move all of it before an accident happened but an accident did happen. The police were hit, dragged, thrown and tossed by cars. I saw three officers moving on the ground and one was not. I did not help or call 911 as there was already help and emergency dispatch there. When I turned from the scene I noticed worms and all sorts of worm like small creatures on the ground. I remember thinking that it was disgusting and how gross it would be if they held prom there. I noticed the toilet had no toilet seat cover, it wasn't a toilet bowl but an actual humongous bowl and no handle to flush. I really had to pee so I went. I checked the scene outside again and everything was like it never happened. I noticed a tickling inside my leg so I looked down and this whitish translucent creature was burrowing in and out of my leg. I grabbed it's hind end when it's head was burrowed into my leg and I tried to pull it out but it was like once it was under the skin you could not forcefully remove it. I asked my friend who was just watching this if she had any tweezers in her purse. I dug through her purse in a panic and found some and all these other weird tools. When I put her purse down and looked back at my leg I noticed these big bruise like welts where this creature was burrowed and more were burrowing in my leg. I was waiting for them to come out but they wouldn't but I kept waiting and they watching them move under my skin.

17 Mar 2024

Dream

So this one starts in a bathroom. Me and my cousin are sitting in an empty bathtub watching a movie on a TV. Then some foreign exchange student-like people enter and I decide to leave the bathroom and go welcome the kids in the portal room. Time skip, by the way I'm frisk now, I'm in a kind of emptyish town square and it's night and I see a child. This child doesn't notice me and goes walking into some woods. I follow the child for some reason all the way until she gets lost and starts to cry. I comfort her and take her back to her house and her parents are thankful that I brought her back. Then time skip again im hanging out with some of the main characters from Steven universe (I replace Steven) and we're traveling to different planets. I keep seeing a spore-like space map that shows what planets we've been to. Also (spoiler alert) I am aware that Garnet is a fusion but I'm not really supposed to know. Part of our adventures (the world is Minecraft at this point) involves going into a ravine and I'm just exploring my myself when I discover a nether-like area. I run for my life because I'm not prepared for all th Mobs that come pouring out. We defeat the mobs and stuff and go on more adventures but I don't remember them too well unfortunately.

17 Mar 2024

Dream

i was living in this apartment with my family, on the top floor. it looked like one of the apartments i lived in as a kid in the waking world. we had some weird neighbors, but didn’t think much of it. few days later we hear a bunch of commotion going on outside. so we open the doors, and the apartments around us are a different color. they were green, like that ugly forest green color. we noticed a strange man on a latter trying to paint the apartments with a paintbrush. we closed the door and opened it again a few minutes later, and they were brown. we saw the man walking weirdly into the apartment complexes across from us. the apartments form a square in the middle, so that’s all grass and mailboxes in the middle of it. we decided to go follow the man and see what he was up to, and it was like he was possessed. in the waking world, in the sims 4 one of my favorite packs is strangerville. the way the sims get possessed by the motherplant is how this guy was acting like in my dreams. it was so weird. anyways we followed him, and ended up at a floral shop. then it changed into a gas station, and i saw that red car, and the numbers 11, 12, 13, 15 and maybe 10 were in white by the right tire. the numbers were kinda small but you could easily see them. they were scattered around like a word puzzle but in the same area. i then ‘woke up’ in my dream telling myself i need to memorize these numbers when i woke up, so i got a little notebook and pencil, and wrote the numbers down along with the color of the car. then i actually woke up in the waking world.

14 Mar 2024

Dream

I square all glass mall building. With glass floors and walls. Feeling of wandering. Multiple floors.

13 Mar 2024

Dream

Please interpret this dream for me. To clarify, I am a 17 year old female and I felt like I was throughout the dream. Another clarification is that I have no clue if this was a nightmare, but he did have scary elements to it that even spooked me inside the dream. This wasn't a lucid dream, but I don't want to deny it is either. Here's the dream: I woke up on a couch grey in a room. There was a door and it was closed and there was dude that familiar, but I don't recognize him. The 3 walls were covered with curtains and they were made of glass except the wall with the door on it. I think I even saw the city from there. It had red lighting, but I couldn't see LED strips or a light source anywhere which was weird. It was just a square shaped room and there was white countertop that stretched from wall to wall. The countertop was only on the right side of the room. I saw my mother laying against it and it seemed like she was sleeping. I was hooking up with this guy and I was on the countertop. He mentioned to switch rooms for more privacy and I agreed. I felt comfortable anyways and the guy seemed friendly but I had a feeling that he may have been a pimp, not too sure if he was my pimp though. He was wearing regular clothes and I was wearing a top and shorts, but I didn't look down to see what I was wearing exactly. I walked out of the room with this guy into a hallway. It was a small hallway in width, but the ceiling may have been 8 feet tall at most. There were other doors not opened and there was a door at the end of the hallway that did have a light..a green or red light coming from it, assuming that was the exit but I didn't go towards it nor did I feel the need to. We moved to the room next to the room that we were originally in. In the second room had two besides and a window in between. I had one of my bed set furniture in this room. There was a woman on one of the beds and we joined here. The guy was in the middle while we cuddled with him. We talked and then he told me Justin Bieber was there. I got excited and got off the bed. The dude left the room and the door was wide open. I heard something ringing from within the bed. At this point, I had five phones. Three phones were on the counter of my dresser and when I checked the mattresses, and yes there were 5 mattresses, I found my other two phones which is my current phones irl. They were ringing, but I didn't see anyone calling me, it just showed the home screen. I then walked down the hallway and I walked into this room and it looked like it was backstage of a concert. There were sofas, random (I assumed to be) celebrities, mirrors, lights, and it just looked like a normal group dressing room. I know looking in the mirrors we're not a good idea, but I did look into the mirror to fix my hair, and it was one of the most gross things I seen in my life. I started to panic and I was having flashbacks of some sort. Nothing in particular about these flashbacks, but it looked that bad. When I looked at the mirror, my eyes were taking up 90% of the mirror and they were severely droopy to the point of seeing the insides of them. My eyes were red and I could see the tissue inside them and it wasn't a pretty site. After a minute, and I was staring for that long, I turned around and there were more mirrors which I happened to look into by accident and one of the mirrors looked normal but it was overly saturated and then I looked away from that mirror and the last mirror I looked at was still very eery but not as bad as the first one. I got out of that room and my heartbeat was pumping. I was very terrified about those mirrors. I went back to the room I began in and closed my eyes. I never got to meet Justin Bieber in that dream by the way. I woke up from my dream.

12 Mar 2024

Dream

It was a dream in which I was in a place near some water. My child and others were there. A Buddhist monk showed up with a bell that housed a rattle snake. I was told the bell controlled the snakes. Then at one point the monk squared off with me so I in turn squared off with him and raised my palms towards him as a gesture to say that I am prepared however don’t want to participate in combat. The monk raised his palms towards me and I could see blue energy begin to emit from his body that began to transfer to mine. It seemed almost electric. He transferred his energy to me rang the bell then left. That’s when I woke.

6 Mar 2024

Dream

So it started on a town square there were people jumping out of a small house, because of a fire. I walked over the square with my friend to the cornet with both put out or shoes and started running bare foot. Somehow we got blamed for the fire so we had to run from the Police. We ended up seperate I ringed the bell of a random house and the person that opened was someone from the police. He was black and he was muscular. I ran into his house when I saw the police coming down the street I begged him to not say anything and he helped me hid just outside under his window sill. I heard the other police man talking to him about me questioning him if he saw me but he said that he didn't even know what happened in town. When the police man was gone I started running into a grass field that's were I saw my friend again. We ran togheter into the woods. (I saw the same woods in another dream to, it was dark and a lot of green and there was one small Graveyard. Then I woke up and fell back a sleep and then I dreamed about that I was founded innocent and went working again at the same place I had my first job in real life.

5 Mar 2024

Dream

So we were going downtown to go to the Deluxx Fluxx for my brothers birthday. I invited Juan, and Jalen. The DF looked different. It was more of an open space on the outside than usual almost like an underground club in the mall type of vibe.. but we were there a little early, I can’t remember exactly why we ended up in a space where we were at n a big house, but the house was kinda filthy, but we made it out n and we sat around and waited. Jalen was there at this moment idk where Juan was but i don’t think he’d shown up yet sooo i decided tho explore the house. I was again, pretty big, but dirty it had the same potential to be an amazing house. I went there the basement and there was water on some parts of the floor, the clothes piled up lighting kinda dim and it had like a mild smell. But it wasn’t too pungent or bad, just smelled like dirty clothes. Jalen was following me so we could explore together we came across this living room, connected to a living room, which felt like one of a few in the home, and I then morphed to being the front security for DF and my dads there at the same time and there’s a group of people trying to rush through me without showing me proper id and wristband. But my dad was behind and forced those that didn’t listen to get in line and follow rules. Now I remember looking at the wristband colors and they were neon orange. The line got down quickly, then all of a sudden, this little girl, comes running to, almost threw me but I saw her in enough time to grab her and slow her down. She was carrying an armful of purple, blue and green wristbands but not from Deluxx Fluxx… it was for another place inside this “mall-like” setting we were in. . When I took the them from her she started to cry, and throw a bit of. A tantrum obviously she was underage. I handed the wristband to my dad and he was confused asf lol but took her to the place ehewee the wristbands came from I just recall the colors. And there were different printed font on each one . But anywho I switch back to the house and I was completely nuude… Jalen was too, as we explored the house a little bit more . In that living room we were in was connected to a bedroom. Now the bedroom was semi decent and clean the living room was ok. I was too focused on where my clothes went. I could hear from outside that space we were in my, siblings talking but the room looked secure the windows were covered we ended up on the bed, just talking I can’t remember about what. But I remember feeling so uncomfortable being fully nude like that in front of him . I ended up walking into the connected living room around the big square wooden table and white couch as I walked around the table I remember feeling like this floor is like fake or unstable like I’m going to fall through the floor. Boom I was back at DF for a second and it was this group of people coming out. Particularly this heavyset white girl who was talking to me about how much of a great time she going to have and she’s so excited… but I’m kinda confused because the club should be packed, and I swear she was one the stood out firing that rush of people earlier. Anywho I check everyone’s creditials and allow them inside.. boom we’re back to the living room so I’m walking around trying to figure out what I’m feeling under this floor. I’m not sure how or what triggered it, but a part of Jalen and I conversation triggered the floor begin to sink.. are same time I’m paying attention to the sounds, and I heard my dads voice outside the room. As I’m like sinking with the floor but not enough to where I fall through because it stopped at a certain point. (Think an artist coming up from the bottom of the stage to perform) . I could still see the bedroom parts of it and I was trying to climb naked out of the living room space. Now at this moment I don’t think that Jalen is aware from what I remember he was laying there nude on his back but eyes were closed. I started using my feet and the things around me to climb out I used the couch as a boost and gout out and back into the room. I did it after like 4tries. I got back in the bed and he was still laying there and he looks at me and we continue a small conversation. I hear my siblings and dad all outside talking and then I guess he hears them too and kinda panicked for a second. We gave no idea where our clothes are even though we were just talking, it got a little weird lol. So we ended up playing around like wrestling and we both rolled off the bed and laughed. As we were on the floor in front of the brown nightstand he kissed me and said he had to go. K, I was kinda wanting to leave too so I was ok with that. As he stood he grabbed me and put me back in the bed, and he went through all the drawers and closet to found some clothes to throw on. And gave me something to put on too . As he puts on his last piece of clothing the door swings open and I’m walks my family members Micah, Tony, Kayla,Kyla… I noticed Micah see me as I was nude but like with Tony she was trying to explore other parts of the house but keep Tony from looking at me. He was definitely talking a lot but Kayla and Kyla saw me immediately and came and pith the cover over me from the bed in the meantime then handed me the clothes Jalen had set out to hand to me but it wasn’t the original outfit. It was a new, more fancy one the complimented me great. I looked at Jalen as we tried to be incognito. And skip out the door but he turned and looked at me, and blew a kiss and walked away and out the door. Zip back to the home a bit later and family is there, music is playing it’s dark but it’s a vibe . I was talking to my dad and we were rapping songs together with everyone and reminiscing. Me and my dad started talking shit, which lead to us laughing and then racing around the block and rapping different songs and laughing all at the same time. It felt like it was a music video being shot.

5 Mar 2024

Dream

Me and my auntie and cousins were on holiday in the Baleriac Islands, Spain. We were driving in a red car along a winding grey and yellow road and looking at the scenery out the window, which was of a blue sea and white/ beige rocks with shrubs, sparkling in the sunlight. I thought the place looked familiar, so I asked auntie Vivien if this place was Menorca, since we'd been there before. But she shook her head and said no...I think this place is called Marina? And then I remembered where she was trying to remember and I went oh...you mean Minora? And she was like, yes, Minora, that's where we are, even though a Baleriac island called Minora doesn't even exist in real life. We got to our hotel, got out the car and went to find our room. We went in our room and it was really weird. The room was square and very small, there was a bed and a bunch of dark wooden tables, and there was a lot of furniture in the room so we had to walk sideways in it. We went to our balcony (which was actually just a window with a railing) opened the window and looked at the view. The view was of the Viking Bus Station car park in Lerwick, and it seemed like we were above the Raba restaurant across the road, which was really weird since we were supposed to be on holiday in 'Minora'. We then went down to the ground floor of the hotel and out the door, and it was true, we were standing outside the Raba restaurant in Shetland. We were all really disappointed and confused as to how we'd ended up back in Shetland, but then we just had to go with it, and we walked down the road towards the street.

1 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream that i was in my old apartment with my boyfriend. We were in the room with the door closed. It looked dreamy like, sunny outside. Then i hear someone running up the stairs stompingly and bust through the bedroom door. It was my boyfriend. The one i was with was pretending to be him and ran. I caught him before he could run out and he turned into this small fairy lady. I said what are you doing? She says I’m trying to help you. I said are you really trying to help and she shook her head no. It then kind of just shifted into a podcast looking situation on zoom or something with her and me on our own squares and then i woke up.

29 Feb 2024

Dream

It is Christmas Eve and my family are all staying in this mansion including family member I’ve never even met before, possibly there are hundreds of us here. I am staying in this room with an elderly woman but I know I have to leave soon because I’ve agreed to film a music video with Haris and Colleen. I leave at 11 and stand in the middle of town waiting for someone. There is a fountain in the middle of the square and the place looks a little Italian. I see my girlfriend Colleen and walk up to her. We hug because it’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other and I lean in for a kiss twice but can’t seem to reach her lips. She tells me it’s a little awkward to try to kiss without asking first and so I ask if she wants to kiss me and she says yes so we do. It is apparent Haris is not going to show up. We walk holding hands and intense feelings of dread wash over me from being out so late and I tell Colleen I want to kill myself. She says I always do this shit and we sit down at a coffee shop which turns into a car driven by Colleen’s father. He keeps asking my me why I’m feeling down and it starts to get on my nerves until I snap at him. I tell ‘It’s because I was raped when I was a child!’ He is very shocked at this and calls me a slut for having sex at such a young age. Colleen is begging him not to be angry with me and keeps saying she didn’t know. Somehow we get out of the car and are back outside the mansion which looks like Stranmillis College. Pop singer Charli XCX is with us now as we climb up the steps of the building. I ask what time it is, hoping it’s only 12 but Colleen shows me her phone and I can see that it is 2 O’clock. She tells me specifically that it is 2:32 am. I go back inside alone and my arrival wakes people up starting with the elderly who walk around in confusion making lots of noise. A great number of people are all in a big room with me now and I see myself opposite me like in a mirror however she has slightly shorter hair. I realise that there are duplicates of people and something is very very wrong. I see my Dad and non verbally try to communicate this by pointing but my double has gone. I guide him through the house trying to find doubles but everyone keeps scampering away in a very quiet manner like bugs. Although we don’t see my doppelgänger again he realises too that something isn’t right and we run down the staircase out of the house.