Abortion

28 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I found out I was pregnant because my breast started leaking milk. My mom and husband were around me when they started leaking. Then we started walking to a room with another women and family members. And as we all gathered there someone was making an announcement about women who were pregnant and ask us all if we were planning on keeping it or considering abortion because it’s bad timing or we couldn’t afford it right now. And my brother in law spoke up and said “hell no!” And my sister in law raised her hand. And when they asked me I started crying and said we couldn’t afford it right now. And my husband grabbed me and held me as I cried and my mom came over and hugged us saying that it was going to be ok. Then she whispered that she felt bad for my sister in law because her husband (my brother in law) said hell no to abortions when she said that she would be open to getting one. And then my husband, me and my mom started walking away from this room and then I woke up.

13 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was in the house that I lived in when I was in my 20s with my mum and it was quite a big house. But in my dream, all the rooms, you could go in apart from one at the front and from the outside you could see it was a room but from the inside it was kind of blocked up. And in my dream I was in, there was a few bedrooms and one of the rooms wasn't in use and I said to Abi about moving her bedroom to that room because she'd get better internet signal and it was better than the room she was in, it was decorated nicer and it was just nicer. And she said she'd think about it. Anyway, for some reason I went into a room and she was in there with this guy that she was going out with before, had tattoos all over his face and he wasn't very nice but he was there and he was saying how they decided they were going to have a baby. And I was like, oh my god. So I then started saying, how are you going to look after it? Because neither of them had a job. And I was saying you need to be up early with the baby, you need to look after it, you can't sleep in late, you can't have a bad sleeping pattern because the baby has to have routine. And I was going through all the reasons and all the things that you have to do to look after a baby and they both sat there kind of saying, yeah we know, we know. And I was really trying to drill it home and I was getting quite angry because I thought this is not going to work out one bit. Anyway, I left the room and somehow I managed to figure out how to get into the blocked up room. There was kind of like a little bit of metal or something you had to remove and I went in there and it was really nice. It was decorated nice, the furniture was nice. There were all these kind of filing cabinets and I opened them and there were files in there about my family stuff that I didn't know. I was like what the hell, this is mad. And I then went over and I started looking at other stuff and it was about people at work and I was like, oh this is weird. And then I heard somebody outside the door and I thought, oh god. And I went and stepped by the door and I could hear somebody on the other side talking and I thought, oh no, somebody's going to find out I'm in here and I'm in trouble. And it was one of the managers outside of work and they were trying to push the door open and I was on the other side holding the door shut and I could hear them saying, I know somebody's in there. I know somebody's inside, maybe it should be inside there and I'd be just like, oh crap. Anyway, I was in there for ages and I thought, I can't just stay in here forever. So I thought, I'm going to open the door and she'll explain that I managed to get in. I didn't know what was in there but a lot of it's about me and my family, so I've got a right to be in it. So I opened the door and the manager was like, oh, it's you. And I was like, yeah, but it's my family. And then my cousin was there and some other people from my family were there and then people from work were there. And they all came in the room and it was really weird because in the window was the hip bone of a baby and it was really weird. It was like there was somebody in my family that had had a baby and it had died and the hip bone was in the window for some reason and all the files about my family were to do with this. And I was saying to Abi that this is what happens. It was almost like me trying to tell her not to have a child, but then all the other files were about my family. So I was like, I should have known about this room the whole time, so I don't know why I wasn't allowed. And then I started looking at the files of work and I was like, all these letters haven't been opened. They're letters that should have been opened. They're all about work and things that we should have done. And I think that was it.

2 Sep 2024

Dream

Snuck into a gang hideout, was kidnapped and tortured for a bit, then they tried to rape me, but they realized I liked it cuz I’m gay, spent the rest of the time there naked and being fucked, a couple of times they let me out but threatened bad things if I ran, most of the guys started being more friendly to me eventually but the least kept his distance, somehow one day I snuck over the green hill field next to us and saw a memorial for fallen veterans, I started bawling uncontrollably and one of the dudes took me back to the hide out, when they questioned me I reavers k was best friends with all of those dudes, but when I found out I was gay I distanced myself from them, they found out years later and where mad at me cuz they still considered me a friend, we were going to try to recconect when they got back but they never did, the leader finally looking at me duduces the real reason I’m here and never ran away is because I’m homeless and I confirm it, I tell them at least here I’m safe from the cold and get fed, I saw another guy lose his toe cuz it was so cold, they finally give me my clothes back.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was pregnant and I was with mom and we got in a huge fight I don’t remember what about but some guy got me pregnant and I was like no way can I have this baby and then we were talking about getting an abortion and we were in line at some fast food restaurant and in front of us was one of moms coworkers and she was really nice but was saying her and her family are moving to Indiana. There was a lot more that happened I think but I can’t really remember it all

10 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in this unfamiliar house with several people. For some reason the house was locked and we couldn’t get out. When we try to get out I couldn’t. At some point in the dream we found a way to unlock the doors in the house from the inside out. At that point we needed to go to the other side of the house to turn on this water system for something. We were able to connect with a couple of neighbors who were willing to hear us out and grant us access through their house to get to the water system. During this whole time there was another of the part of the dream where I was undergoing IVF just to see if I’m able to conceive a child. My friend Tia was also with me who was also going through that process with her husband. In real life they went through that process to conceive their first child because of male infertility. This time around they were having a difficult time. The process included meeting up with a group of women to do a few things as part of this process. I didn’t expect to get pregnant I just wanted to try it out to see if I’ll be ok once I officially decide to have children which I would prefer to be partnered by then to take that route. At some point my friend Tia was hugging me and touched my stomach and can feel a heartbeat. I told her no I’m not pregnant and then suddenly I started feeling it to. I started to get very anxious because I wasn’t ready to become a parent and I was worried because somehow this child would be my abusive ex child as well. I broke down and my friend consoled me knowing I do not have kids with this man. I told her I would have to hide it from him and from the child and become a single parent or get an abortion. I was very conflicted cause being in my 30s I knew I want to become a mother but not with my abusive ex who I’m currently going through the criminal court case system to hold him accountable for his abuse towards me. I did not know what to do but I felt a significantly leaning to get an abortion because I didn’t not want to have a kid with that man. I was also hoping making that choice won’t impact my ability to conceive again when I’m in a healthy relationship and feel more ready for parenthood. The dream ended with us trying to get to this water system through a neighbor’s apartment. The neighbors we connected to were all kind to us. One woman in particular invited me over when I started to tell her what I was going through with the pregnancy and she had so much compassion for me. We bonded in that way and later on we all ate some food and hung out. We were also very happy to finally be able to get out of this house that we felt imprisoned in because we couldn’t get out of it initially.

30 Jul 2024

Dream

A friend and mine were supposed to be hanging out I drove to him to link up and he went to the Chinese store then I never saw him. Then I saw my mom and she left with my aunt and her friend anette. Then my mom, aunt and her friend left together in one car instead of 2. My mom and her friend had their scooters. Then there was another part when I saw my girlfriend she was getting settled in her apartment and was listening to music in her headphones so I left her alone to settle in. As I went to settle into my apartment this black joy was rude and shoved me to get by and didn’t say excuse me or acknowledge that I was even there. Then when my girlfriend and I linked up we were walking outside and she told me about her abortion she had with her boyfriend Jason at the time and how much it was to have that abortion which was about 600$ I then asked her if she regretted it and wish she would have kept the baby instead and she got emotional and said yes. As we were waiting for the bus there was a group of black school students and as I went by to get my book bag since I had stepped away to talk to my girlfriend as I left to go back to her one of the students decide to lift my leg and grab my leg I told him to get off and he wasn’t listening no one helped me I got so angry and pushed him back and hit him his head fell against the pavement and I cursed him out telling him what the fuck is wrong with him and I cursed at him in Spanish too. There was another scene were I was helping a friend with babysitting and the baby needed new clothes so I washed a one piece since it was soiled by some other kid and the baby needed something.then I gave it to her to wring it out and give it to the baby to wear. There was another scene were I saw 2 kids playing against each other at a game machine and the bigger kid kept thinking he would keep winning but the smaller kid beat him then he cheated and did a rematch and the small kid still beat him again after the rematch and won all that coins from the game machine.

16 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a big store that looked like Walmart. There were a few familiar faces who apparently worked with me, one of them being an ex-friend named Rosa. As I was sorting SIM cards, I run into a guy and a small child (toddler). He looked very familiar, I knew him from somewhere. He says hi to me and he tells his little one to say hi as well. We have a conversation and he tells me that I am the mother of his little one. I got caught by surprise because I didn’t remember ever birthing any other child but my son Issac. He looked a little hurt and asked me if I didn’t remember a few years back when he got me pregnant. Suddenly, I got a flash of memories. In the memory, I remembered that we had a one night stand and had an accidental pregnancy. I let him know about the pregnancy and that I was going to abort. He begged me to keep his child and told me he would take full responsibility and not ask anything of me. He just really wanted a kid. I was hesitant of keeping the pregnancy but he kept insisting, so I decided to have the baby and give up my parental rights to him. When I had these memories, I felt extremely guilty that I had a child, gave him up and forgot about him. I went over, introduced myself to the boy and gave him a hug. He looked so much like his father and looked only a little bit older than Issac. I let dad know that I was sorry for forgetting about our child and that I wanted the opportunity to be in his life because he deserved to have a mother. He seemed surprised by it but was open to it and then they left. I started to think about how I was going to break the news to my family, Issac’s dad and all my loved ones. Nobody knew about the existence of this boy and I had forgotten about it myself. I wondered how I was able to block the memory out of my mind for so long. I knew I had to make things right, let all my loved ones know about “my first born” and make up for lost time with this boy.

29 Jun 2024

Dream

I had a dream that me and my younger sister got pregnant at the same time and my mom said only one of us can keep a baby so I picked my sister and I went to the office to get a abortion.

19 Jun 2024

Dream

Dreamt that was on a gurney en route to have an abortion. I was about 15 weeks along. The guy pushing the gurney was zooming through the hallways. There was no emergency. I arrived at the OR and he was chastised by the nurse. They put IDs on my arm. I do not remember the actual procedure but I know it was done. I walked back through the hospital and ended up at a memorial for my old coworkers father. I stayed in the other side of the room speaking to the of coworkers then went to her table. We hadn’t spoken for years. I walked over to the seat where her father was represented and kissed the figure there. I also spoke and kissed her mom. I made eye contact with her cousin who I used to date. He was also the father of the baby I aborted. I do not think he was aware of the pregnancy. I eventually went to speak and hug my old coworker. I stood there for some time and eventually started to leave. I bumped into her cousin and said hello. I got a generic greeting. I mentioned it to him and he snapped at me and said ‘we don’t know each other’. This was more likely in reference to me never meeting his family. I looked back. I didn’t see that he was with anyone else. I turned around hurt to leave.l

31 May 2024

Dream

I was in the desert. There were crumbling buildings and people walking around naked. Some women walked around with aborted babies strapped to them by their umbilical cords like a purse. Men were raping women in public and nobody cared. I was terrified and wished I wasn’t there. I was confused as to why I was even there. I hated it

26 May 2024

Dream

Dreamed that spider watched a compounding pharmacist and asked for an abortion through spelling on her web. So the pharmacist compounded the hormonal abortion pill for the spider Then my mom and I were at a restaurant in the mountains and this waitress was rude and made her cry while 2 other waitresses comforted her. I left a bad review Me and my cousins were with out grandpa and he was married to one of my dads ex wife’s and they wouldn’t make food for us so we went to McDonald’s often and I didn’t like their McDonald’s bc they didn’t have breakfast all day Then I was in this supermarket with my 8th grade ex and it was weird because there was an AI preschool there and it was causing trauma to kids.

23 May 2024

Dream

Was in the bed with my husband and my parents were in the bed with us. They were sleeping. I was feeling in my husband’s penis and it grew really long. We were going to have sex but were trying to not be caught. We aborted that mission and then the scene changed. Now we at a gala and I am wearing regular clothes like a plaid shirt and a neutral colored skirt, while everyone is dressed up. I get approached by my ex boyfriend’s wife who decides she just going to be in my way. We start arguing back and forth and I say “and that’s why your husband keeps calling me” and I go to walk off. I’m taunting her saying “aha you mad cause your husband wants me”. She had three friends were tried to jump in and I told them “stay mad her husband doesn’t love her, he loves me and always have. That’s why she mad”. I walk off feeling good and smiling.