Suicide

6 Nov 2024

Dream

In my dream my crushes friend kills himself. My crush gave up some gray joggers and they arill had a pencil in them. My frind end uo getting the pants.. She then gave him bsck the pencil. J end up walking a way because i thought my mom was outside but she wasnt. So i went in the office to wait on my mom. On of my crush friend came to get a tardy, but ends up running away for some reason.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

I was at my cousins house and woke up to answer the door. My boyfriend and I were asleep in the middle bedroom. My ex husband was at the door when I answered and said where is he? He barged in looking around. I tried to stop him because he had a gun. He went to the middle room and I tried to keep him from shooting my boyfriend. I tried to take the gun away. My ex husband shot and killed my boyfriend then he killed me. Then he killed himself.

11 Oct 2024

Dream

I had dream of my deceased ex husband that he was beating me and angry and destroying my car with a hammer and killing a baby that I adopted by stabbing it and after h did all these horrible things he wanted me to forgive him and I told him I would not and there was no going back to being married I confronted him and he said if I didn’t take him back he would kill himself and he did he stabbed himself infront of his family and they still blamed me after they knew he beat me and abused me and killed my baby and destroyed my car I got the chance to run away and I did I went through crowds of people and I was homeless and all of the sudden people started donating money to me enough to stay in a hotel and buy a new phone because he also destroyed my phone so I couldn’t communicate and as I was on way to get to my destination 3 boys started following me and one of them tried to rob me and I told him No he would not rob me I had been through enough and I told him if he tried I would hurt him and he tried and stabbed him and kept running away .

13 Sep 2024

Dream

So I was in this old house which I already knew and I was there with my friend and we were joking with each other like we were making fun of things together. And then her friend came to the room and we were making fun of him to but he didn't like it and then he fell on the ground and the other women started to kick in his stomach and he started throwing up blood. Then he left the house and we went outside to check up on him and we found him in the forest next to the house where he hang himself

8 Sep 2024

Dream

time and time again as different women I lived out being stalked and raped and fighting for my life to get away from my attacker, only to end the same way. Each of them jumping off a building trying to kill themselves to escape him. One girl attacked him with knives, hitting him, and she even grabbed a pizza cutter and rolled it on his back over and over again trying to get him off of her, before she inevitably decided just to jump out of her window. Somehow, it ended up being me, myself at one point with my little siblings all staying in a large house. The attacker cuts off phones, internet, and anything else as forms of communication. Somehow.. a man comes into the house while he’s sleeping and helps us to find a way to escape. By doing something to the car, the man is either killed or left behind while me and my family run out of the house screaming for help. The man wasn’t far, and runs to us crying and helps to scoop up my family. I returned to the house, and the attacker was no where to be found. For whatever reason, I also had a flashback dream like I was in a video game reliving memories. This mother slowly lost family members one by one. Her daughter from jumping, her son from some tragic accident on the farm, I’m not sure how her youngest daughter died, and it seemed like she lost her baby. She decided to re-marry, and on the night of their wedding she, her youngest daughter, and her husband all sat on the bed talking. She mentioned to her husband that he had to be careful when waking up in the night, and in unison her and her daughter look at him and warn him to “stay away from the fireplace”. Inevitably, the man wakes up in the middle of the night, and wanders looking for his wife who has left the bed. She’s gathering every one of her family members into the fireplace, although they are all already dead, including her youngest daughter who was only a ghost. Her new husband ends up in the fireplace, by no will of his own, and as they’re engulfed in flames, the scene changes to look like they’re in an old pioneer cabin, and the walls and everything else is on fire. The wife holds her baby, and her daughters and her son are both sitting there with them as the man dies. I woke up at that point. Like I was the one in the fire with them.

4 Sep 2024

Dream

I was hanging out with this Indian dude and his wife was cheating on him with his best friend and he found out so she killed herself and he was gutted as so we went to console him and for some reason I was half naked so he made me put on a couple of sheets which was undistinguishable and he had a kid he needed to look after so I was telling him don't teach your kid anything and look how joyful your kid is and let your kid teach you lessons on how to be joyful and make life fun the whole family was there for him in the hot they were all chilling out with him and he built a big fence gate to the kid and was playing with his kid and I was chilling there and I was gonna pay for a $100 message and then I woke up

4 Sep 2024

Dream

I was visiting Paris with my family, but I had gone off to explore on my own. The sky was all pinks and oranges and as I walked on a bridge over the Seine it was so picturesque. At a gathering for some kind of public figure, maybe a comedian or motivational speaker, a member of my family had gone missing and was up on top of a hill. He was a little boy at the beginning of the dream, but when he came back he was a young man. The crowd, led by the speaker, sang The Battle Hymn of the Republic to draw the boy back to us, and eventually he came back. The crowd swarmed the speaker in gratitude but I was confused because I didn’t think I had a brother. People kept telling me I did, and I felt guilty that I didn’t remember him. I especially didn’t think he was because he was much darker-complexioned than I am. I said, “well, I’m going to whoop his ass anyway, even if he’s not my brother!” As we walked with him back towards our living quarters, I expressed my confusion to him. He seemed sheepish and embrassed about the whole ordeal. I understood that he had been suicidal, so I pulled him close and asked him if he still was. It seemed that he was okay now. Suddenly I realized that he and I had the same olive complexion and a huge, curly reddish afro. He was definitely my brother after all. At the end of the dream, the family sat around playing video games on their respective phones.

22 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed that my brother who died by suicide in 2019 was outside my house with a gun trying to sniper me. I was running and hiding from him. He was outside the windows

20 Aug 2024

Dream

I was being chased by weird colorful monsters and I had to go through like their building I gave up on that then it went to where I stayed at this house and they had pet cows and my dead aunt was alive in this dream and so there was something weird going on with the cows and it was creepy and it was some type of syndrome that happens to them where they freeze up and stand up really tall and then their guts fall to the floor and it just smelt awful I had to see it then I went on a date with this girl at a beach even tho I had a girlfriend we were crab hunting but instead we found jars of small holographic mushrooms and fairy stuff hid under the sand in a box then she invited me back to her house she really liked me but I had a girlfriend and didn’t tell her and I didn’t do anything with her why ghosted her then it went to a different dream I lived kind of around a forest and it was common for people to hang themselves there and I got off the school bus and saw a man in a tuxedo hung and I freaked out and walked home it felt like I was panicking I told my mom and uncle about it and we went back and the hung mans pet cat was also hung the smell was awful and I accidentally touched it and it felt all oily and then it made me overthink like what if this is a sign I need to kill myself we kept finding money on the ground and then we went to an icecream shop and we were low on money and my mom got a chocolate milkshake I wanted a peanut butter ice cream cup but the dream ended there

18 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed that my friend was getting married to a rich and good man, and on the wedding day she didn't invite me because of the money, because she had a strict family, and on the wedding day I wrote on Instagram why she didn't invite me, and the next day she she was at my house and I was crying out of frustration because of my fate, and we talked, and she bent down for a few minutes at the house and her groom gave me €205 for the trouble and my uncle who is from the CobraKai series, Daniell Larusso he saw me and wanted to go out, and my friend's groom had an argument and it was resolved, and then my friend came and we talked to her, in the evening we hung out until the corner of the road and we had a good night, after I I climbed on a rock of electricity and I turned it on and all the light went out and my uncle and my relatives came and scolded me and on the third day I went to where the trains were going and I was watching how the trains were going, and I wanted to kill myself

15 Aug 2024

Dream

I was teaching at Nordhoff. My old classmates were there, but they had gone off to do something else. I was in Hoj’s classroom and was playing piano for a talented student who was singing. It was the last day of school. I saw some of my Redlands classmates and professors there too; specifically Angie Quigley and Melissa Tosh, but Tosh didn’t seem to recognize me. There was a football game going on across the street. We sat around and discussed geopolitics; one of the professors expressed her sadness over Gaza. Suddenly we leapt up as the football game ended and our school won 1-0. The scene shifted to the curve right before Black Mountain Ranch in Upper Ojai. The bridge was broken and there was a construction crew. My mom, my sister (who was a boy in this dream) and a tiny baby brother who could fit in my hand approached. My sibling almost fell down, but then the construction crew saved them. Suddenly they took off running and I knew they were trying to commit suicide. I tried to chase them, holding the baby so tightly in my hand I thought I’d killed it at some point until it began laughing. I think at one point I saw Ben Affleck jogging down the highway and asked if they’d seen my sibling. The dream ended with my sibling following a family into an orchard where there were several cops, and drew a gun, trying to commit suicide by cop. I wrestled the gun out of their hand and handed it to someone else, and everyone was trying to diffuse the situation until I woke up.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

I killed myself, or atleast I tried. I woke up in a hospital and looked everywhere for boyfriend to apologize for being so selfish