Suicide

15 Apr 2024

Dream

i had a dream i tried to kill myself but got caught right before i died. there was blood everywhere and it happened at school and i was the school bathroom. the counselors found me and they were getting mad at me and i was hysterically crying. i ended up in the hospital and i felt so empty but eventually i went to a mental hospital and i got better,

5 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamt of a famous artist that recently died. I felt they wanted to manifest and ask for help. They committed suicide and were very depressed. I also dreamt of her friends and other people that died. Would they tried to communicate with me?

25 Mar 2024

Dream

I dreamt that I commited suicide. I was just given a pill of something from my mother and we sat down with my family to eat. I ate up all my food and suddenly my heart started getting weaker. I could just feel it stop beating slowly but surely. And then 3 hours had passed and I said to my mother "I don't want to die. Can I have my stomach pumped?" And she told me "Yes, you can." And I remember we went walking for a while before we got into the car and drove to the hospital. On the walk my sister Ida called my teacher and told me that i had swallowed 350mg of something. My teacher told Ida "Ida, you've got to understand that Sarah is moving up." And I started regretting that I had taken the pill. I remember being on and off by falling asleep. And when we actually started driving to the hospital another teacher named Sam called my mother. I don't think my mother answered the call but I remember we drove up a road and then I woke up. I can also remember that throughout the dream I very often thought "Jesus I have told you so many times that I can't take this anymore. And that I want to die. But now I realize that I just don't want to die anymore." I remember that I also thought that maybe Jesus would give me an option that if I met Him, He would ask "Do you want to stay here? Or do you want to go back?" And I remember always thinking that I wanted to go back.

14 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream about a bunch of people committing suicide. These people weren’t doing it out of depression or any negative feeling. Also they weren’t really dead, everyone ended up becoming rubber hose cartoon characters from the 1920s. They were just doing it randomly and acted like it was a normal thing. Eventually i decided to also commit suicide by throwing myself into a wood chipper.

16 Feb 2024

Dream

I was staying with my family. Instead of with my boyfriend in real life. We went to the swimming pool with my family. I was a bit late and so I wasn’t able to enjoy the pool for long. We went up the condo we live in. My sister told me I used to try to suicide oftern in high school. And had psychosis. Which was a shocking information to me when she told me cause I didn’t know that myself. I didn’t know I was delusional, I thought I was normal. My dad had a black leather belt on his hand. He said, he will beat me with this if it happens to me again. And I said, no. It felt everything was happening so fast. I couldn’t understand him. I had an argument with him. And for some reason he wanted to beat me even tho I wasn’t delusional. I ended up punching him in the face.

15 Feb 2024

Dream

The dream takes place in some kind of campground. My family is on a camping trip with another family that we know in real life. Me and my friend (from the other family) are in charge of setting up one of the tents for the campsite. This tent is where me and that friend would stay for the night. After we set up the tent, my friend reveals that they are going to do a cover of a song (that also exists in real life.) The song is about being empty on the inside and a failed relationship. After they do the cover, they post it on social media. For whatever reason, upon hearing the cover, I am angry at it because they changed some of the lyrics. Apparently, they changed the lyrics to represent people they know and one of the lines referenced me. I state on social media that I don’t like it because of the changed lyrics which leads to public outrage against me online. There was an attempt to delete or terminate my social media account and as I find out later, my friend is the one who reported the account. After I find this out, I leave in my car to go on some kind of highway. Before actually going out on the roads, I park my car in the grass just before I am about to join the other cars. I get out of my car and stare out into the traffic. For whatever reason, there are other people (who I don’t know in real life) there who are trying to stop me because they think I am going to attempt suicide. I tell them that I am not and that I am just lost. After this, I go back to the campsite and me and my friend reconcile somewhat. They show me a tool that they got from their mom that could change how the night sky looked. Our families go out on this lake and suddenly the night sky turns darker because of the tool. I am under the impression that it was dark originally but my friend uses the tool and changes it to appear brighter. This is where the dream ends.

7 Feb 2024

Dream

Last night, I tried the 690452 tiktok trend. In my dream, I was in my high school. I ran up to my maths classroom, which is on the top floor of the school. I opened the window of it and I swan dived out of it, attempting suicide. I survived because I landed on a block. I looked to my right to find multiple students and my head teacher looking at a fire that had spread around a certain area.

1 Dec 2023

Dream

we followed a girl's ghost story to figure out why she committed suicide. Then I was eating. I had to eat everything, and I even bit into the ceramics, and cracked it. Putting away the ceramics, I ended up in her closet, found her diary, someone caught me with it. Then I had to watch someone jump rope. And then I was in this class about how to sweep kick someone down. After that, I was going down this lazy river conveyor belt with a sandwich half in the water I needed to make sure I lifted up at the right time onto the ledge of the pool. I ended up not paying attention, and the sandwich fell apart and I only got half on the ledge while the rest floated down into the pool

27 Nov 2023

Dream

Their was a group of people surrounding a quicksand area and there was this guy standing on a very I chair and a line of people who have committed suicide but didn't succeed the man on the high chair said this is what they deserved two blonde little girl came up from the crowd and said they tried to commit suicide and that life was worthless and that men were disgusting and women were mean they said the only thing they wanted to die with was together everyone tried to stop them but they jump in

18 Nov 2023

Dream

I dreamt that my uncle committed suicide by setting his house on fire while he slept in his bed. I was with my dad and we found the house in flames walking past. I was in shock and started freaking out crying really hard. I searched the house in hopes that he needed to be rescued… only to find his charred body in his bedroom. I was at a loss for words. I told my dad and we cried together while the firefighters showed up. Then I woke from it.

14 Nov 2023

Dream

I dreamt that I was a serial killer. I was recognized by a flower. My name was a name of a flower that looked like a lotus. I'm not quite sure. However, I found myself being hung to the ceiling fan. My chest was empty. No heart. No lungs. Someone had impersonated me to kill me. This is because that was how I killed people. Taking out their hearts and lungs leaving nothing inside. That hole resemble the flower that I was known as. That was how I got my name. I disguised each killing as a suicide. But it could never cover up the hole that I have made. The person who impersonated me hated me and wanted me dead. I don't know why. I remember seeing my body hung. And I also saw the news about my death on the news. The blood was all censored. The body was also censored. The news mentioned that I was dead but there was a new killer impersonating me and replacing me. The place I was killed was my bedroom and I was scared to open my eyes just in case that it wasn't a dream. Since I had died, I was a soul. I wondered at a gas stop that was like a convenient store but for criminals. That was when I found out about my death on the news.

12 Nov 2023

Dream

I was enjoying in a café with my family and my cousin. Then the police or FBI come, I don't know. And they captured us and put us me and my cousin in mentality hospital. I've met my old friend (Apisit) in there and we have a little chat before we get pushed into the classroom. At first I was sitting in the back but I couldn't see the TV in the front, so I try to go to the front but I can't walk properly and fail. The FBI think I'm faking it and make me walk again but I can't do that. So he forced me to walk to hospital room with him and he kept yelling at me like I did something wrong. He make me wait outside and I met a girl, I don't know her name but she offered me something to exchange for the blanket I've been wrapped myself. Buy I said no and hug the blanket more. Then something wired happen, the four elements (Fire, Water, Wind, Earth. They just like in Elemental movie. ) Come out of the black hole in front of me. One gave me the crystal and disappear. I look down for a long time and FBI finally come back and gave me paracetamol and make me go to some places with him. He make me go help the girl who try to commit suicide, I talked to her and exchange our trauma and I finally convinced her to not kill herself. The FBI finally let me go back to the classroom and I'm not dizzy anymore. I go there and I make Roast beef for everyone. I served to everyone and when I'm about to eat, I woke up.