Dream About Confronting Spouse And Discovering Past Transgressions

I had this recurring dream, 2nd time dreaming about this situation and the particulars surrounding this. My spouse and I were in this old house full of all our memories and evidence of my transgressions. My spouse is preparing for a trip, but I stumbled across evidence or got wind that he may be leaving me and going back home to visit family. I frantically started looking for evidence so that I could confront him about this. I was so emotionallly upset about this even though this would be my ideal situation… him calling it off. Asking for a divorce. The more I looked for evidence to prove that he is leaving and confront him with this the more and more I kept uncovering evidence everywhere of my past discretions. Unfaithfulness and cheating. Under the house, in outside storage rooms, under the bed, in the back of closets hidden in the back, dirt and dust and mess everywhere. The more I kept looking the more I was uncovering about about myself. Time was moving on, it seemed to be late into the night into early morning. But our house was just empty, dirty messy and cold. There was no love here. Nothing of value. Just old painful memories. But I kept insistently looking for this evidence that I was going to confront him with and that he was leaving me. All I could find was evidence staggering up against myself. All the wrong I have done. Of course he’d want to leave me and so he should. The run down dirty deserted apartment was dusty messy trash scattered about in ever room, with no furniture no belongings nothing of value. As if movers have already had come through and taken all the furniture and left only thd debris and mess wrappers and dust bunnies that was strewn about every room and every space.