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3 Jun 2024

Dream

I wanted to go to a place and had made a schedule. But suddenly Nugroho kept talking in English even though he doesn't speak English. He asked me to change the schedule and the place where we will stay so that we don't lose or get hurt. And because Nugroho was talking non-stop, I got annoyed.

1 Jun 2024

Dream

I was in a black void with Noah. She didn't spoke to me. The dream ended like that.

13 May 2024

Dream

I am taped or glued to the floor and I cannot move. I cannot speak. I am trying to get help but I am helpless

8 May 2024

Dream

I had a dream that juice wrld spoke to me and inspired me to do great things, while I was looking at my YouTube analytics.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that I was at this dance community and the teacher had me do some moves following after her, and she was so impressed and when she asked of my dance experience I said I had none. Everyone was so surprised the people around me were a lot younger so I felt behind, like i still see myself as a child or that I’m not where “adults” should be. But then I was in even though they never asked officially I was partnered up this this boy who didn’t want to be me partner at all. I felt super overwhelmed and inexperienced to be there, he didn’t like the fact that I was a nobody and that I was new, so I spoke up and said if you don’t like me or don’t want me to be here plz just communicate and talk to me, and he got over it, but there was Always tension. Then we sat against this wall the whole dance crew. I’m a bench. And watched others dancing it was really beautiful and this one girl was doing a backbend on roll skates! I was in awe there was this little girl who came up and said I hate black, for then my dance teacher said ofc not in that way, the theme was about sadness and anger, and they were doing a vocal expression of it as well as dance, the place felt like I’ve been there before, sort of like my job but more expanded we all lived there and dormed there, the hold time I felt unsure if this was what I wanted, incorporating or committing myself to something new, my days and time would be spent different, and I had lots of anxiety about how I would perform, and it felt hard to settle in, I wonder how else’s in my life the idea of doing something why I always go to “idk if this is for me” maybe always feeling unsafe? Or having to be on edge. But I wonder if flowing through it and sinking deeper into the possibilities of life could take me to a place I like. Cause the same is bringing me just that, and I seek for growth and change. So I want to be open to incorporating newness and committing to things that question if it’s for me,

9 Apr 2024

Dream

I was driving to work , realized I forgot something at home and went back to get it . When I got home I went into my bedroom to get whatever it was that I had forgot and found my ex girlfriend thier , we talked about something and then kissed for a bit after that we went into the kitchen where my mom was and we all talked about stuff I can’t remember what we talked about but I was happy and excited and relieved that my ex girlfriend came back to me . But out of knowwhere my mom and my ex girlfriend started acting like best friends and hinting that my ex stayed the night last night and I never knew and then I found out that she had moved on very soon after the relationship and that angered me immensely and I then yelled at her to leave and to explain herself but she went silent and would not speak and my mom was taking her side and not explaining either since it was implied she knew as well but neither would say anything. At the end of the dream I was yelling at them to explain and crying I don’t remember much after that but i woke up from my dream soon after

9 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in a house with a man, someone I think I felt safe with, not too sure what happened in the house. I remember hopping on the back of a army truck with a group of people, my mother was driving it and we end up getting to a point where everyone needs to get checked before moving on and alarms start going off as someone in the car, the person was an old friend named Imogen who I haven't spoken to since Meredith left me was someone in hiding, I apologize to mum because I need to just off the truck with Imogen and make sure I keep her safe so we run off. We find some water dive in to the very bottom and hold our breath for a while until it is safe and resurface. Once we resurfaced we made our way to a safe area for all factions that was a long the beach side. Once we got there I saw people of many colours, they all had a tattoo that represented their faction, they also had smeared on them war paint but each person has it in different areas of their body which represented where they were from on the map. I cannot remember any more of the dream at this point. If I do I will update.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I had a weird dream where I had to enter a witch mansion with a companion. I don't remember the exact reason but it seems like i vonluntarily entered it to get some kind of information. The companion's identity also changed over time. When I start entering the mansion, it's like a labyrith. This witch is a blind witch as she had her eyes separated from her body and hanged somewhere in the house for supervision. So when I and the companion navigated ourselves through the house, i always felt like there are a pair of eyes watching us. At certain point, we heard an annoucement that the witch is not here, we needed to find her at my aunt's house. I knew the way there but I didn't know where we were. There was a large open window leading to a rice field. When we tried to see whether we can jump down, the companion who was now a close male cousin said that it was too high that we may hurt ourselves tried to jump down. We then remembered that there was a cherry blossom garden in this mansion that we knew how to get back from. We then went to a spa with a lot of girls, this spa seems to connect to the garden. At first, the spa looks very relaxing and enjoyable. I befriended with a girl and ask for a way out, she said she knew a way which was through two supermarkets connecting to each others. One was for citizens of these mansion only and the other was for normal people. She said we could pretend to return a specific drink and sneak out that way. I spoke to my companion - who was now my best friend and she said we should rather climb out to the cherry blossom garden as per our plan. We then went up to the make up section of the spa where we sees other girls but they seems a lot more vain and competitive. This make up section has windows where we can climbed out to the garden. I found an old friend, haven't met her for a long time but from my memory, she always made very irrational decisions, like some of the worst decisions i could think of. She had turned herself into a moiturising bubble machine. I was horrified, this is a kind of body horror. When I spoke to her, she can only see the bubble patterns to confirm her reaction. I could imagine what she thinks when she made that decision, that she would be the most modern and perfect beauty in this competitive catty environment. But her technology is now out-dated and she was put under a make up table. I spoke really gently to her at first but one of the catty competitors told me that the old friemd didn't recognise me. So i spoke harshly to her like i did once long time ago in the past. I felt guilt and woke up.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

The year after my grandpa passed away, in 2022, we were in our new trailer, me and my grandma, because we basically had to move out of our house that I grew up in forever by January. I had a dream. I was laying on my blow-up mattress, because that was my bed at the time, in my new room in my trailer. I was sleeping on my blow-up mattress. Then suddenly, I was asleep. I remember in my dream, I was at my grandfather's sister's house, in the back room where my grandfather would always sleep and stay when we visited there. That room that he stayed in, I have always been afraid of that room. For some reason, I have no idea why, but I always was. The fear. I never felt safe in that room. So, in my dream, I was in that room he used to sleep in. The room I was scared to be in. I remember the door being open, wide open. It was nighttime. I always watched TV at nighttime. Since the door was open, there's a hallway. One side of that wall, of that hallway, is a huge closet. The closet doors was a huge mirror. So, it's pitch black in that hallway. I cannot see anything. It's dark. It's black. It's scary. Then, I remember the whole room going dark. The TV was not working. I was trying to change the channel or something on my TV. It was not working. The TV went to TV static. I don't remember if the bedroom door was closed or open when the whole room went black and the TV was not working. Then, I remember my whole body. I don't know if it was in a blanket or not, but since I sleep on my back, my whole body was turning. Slowly turning. Slowly turning into a full circle. Slowly turning. Halfway before, whatever it was, I was going to see. I don't know if it was going to be a demon or whatever, but I woke up. I woke straight up from that. I woke up gasping. I wake up and to the left of me in the bed, a swoop of black. Like a swish of a black spirit or something black flew by me and disappeared in the room. I remember still not being able to move because I was paralyzed. I felt like I was paralyzed. I was not able to move, speak, nothing. Completely in terror and fear. I finally was able to move maybe after 15 to 20 minutes. Then, I was crying. I was bawling my eyes out. Completely scared, shitless because I had a night terror a year ago in my old room. Now, a year later in my new room, I am having a night terror again. I have no idea if a horrible spirit was following me from my old house that just happened to follow to my new house. I do not know what it was, but that was a very scary time for me. Thank God, now, in the year 2024, in my own place that I own, my own apartment, night terrors are not happening anymore. Thank God. I do not know if it was a trauma from back then or what, but it was very scary. Very scary.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

Two or three months after my grandfather passed away in 2021 of November, I had, well, his family was in town, and his wake, his funeral, everything, them basically destroying my house and taking my home from us was horrible after he passed away, and a family friend of ours that is very close to me, she has special gifts, she hugged my aunt, that is my grandfather's sister, and she said she felt darkness, she felt cold when she hugged her, and it kind of shocked her, and then after that, after hearing that, I don't know if it was the night of or the following night, after they all left town, his whole family left town, I had a night terror, I was in my old bedroom, laying on my bed, I felt like I was awake, actually, a black cat came into my room, which is odd, because I don't have a cat, so, that was pretty odd, because it literally felt like I was awake, like I was just, you know, my whole room looked exactly the way it was, like I felt like I was in my bed watching TV, black cat came into my room, then weirdly transformed, and then I ended up with a woman sitting on my lap in a white gown with dark, long black hair, her black hair was covering her face, so I did not know what she looked like, she was sitting on my lap, I sleep on my back, when I'm sleeping, so she was sitting on me, I remember vividly shouting, yelling, screaming at her, get off me, what are you, why are you on me, but then I realized, I cannot open my mouth, my mouth would not open, I am screaming, trying to get the words out, but it's just in my head, I'm screaming in my head, God, get her off me, get her off me, who is she, get this demon off me, Lord, I don't know what to do, I can't speak, get her off me, I'm freaking out, I am so freaking out, and then I remember wanting to move, but I could not move, it was like I was frozen, my arms would not move, nothing would move, it felt like my eyes were open, and I was screaming in my head, because my mouth would not move, nothing was happening, she was still sitting on me, and then I remember waking up, waking up from the dream, which felt like it was going on forever, and I remember after waking up from my dream, I could not move, I could not speak, for a whole 20 minutes, after the 20 minutes I could finally move my body, and I just started crying, uncontrollable crying, I was shaking, I was trembling, like my anxiety, and my, I basically had a nervous breakdown, because it was so scary, I was so paralyzed with fear, and crying, because I did not feel safe anymore in my house after this, it was horrible, it was absolutely horrible.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

i had the clearest dream of me being in my exs neighborhood talking to her friends in her house after just walking in and i was just asking a bunch of questions. her friend spoke about how she was hanging out with the guy but they gavnt done anything intimate like kissing or anything and idk in my head i kept having a recurring thought of me being at a gun range shooting at pictures of me and her but not like shooting at us, i was shooting at targets next to us and i noticed i shot at the ones of us being together and not the pictures of what i took of her if that makes sense. weird dream but it was so vivid. i was asking questions but i wasnt asking the right questions i do remember asking one of the people at the house if they could talk her into coming outside and talking to me for closure or just to talk to her but it didnt fall through

7 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamed that I had a crush on a guy, but he had to be in hiding for something and I had to keep his location a secret to everyone or else he would get hurt or other would get hurt? Bad people were trying to hunt him down. I told him to hide in a secret closet at a random place? He asked me to go to a place - it was like a gas station/store, and I needed to re-buy his things that he sold or got rid of (to make the bad guys think he died). So I went there to buy those things, but there were not many workers around, so I went to this back room and saw a small group of Koreans speaking Korean about me. So I interrupted them speaking about me, and spoke in Korean back to them. They were surprised I spoke almost-perfect Korean to them, but I think it somehow gave me away that I was hiding the guy they were trying to find and they saw that I was holding his old possessions. I noticed that their body language changed and something felt off, so I immediately knew they were the bad guys this entire time, so I immediately tried to run, but all the lights turned off and I couldn't see anything. There was immediately loud gun noises and they were trying to shoot me and shot anyone bystanders that were around me. I had to run away from them in the dark while avoiding tripping on bodies. I ran outside of the gas station store and there was a cliff and bright blue water at the end of it, so I jumped in the water and tried swimming fast while they continued to shoot at me through the water. I couldn't swim fast enough. I didn't know where to go to safety because I was worried that they would follow me to his hiding place and try to kill him, so I tried hiding in an underwater cave, but I couldn't breathe... I began to slowly die.