Torture

15 Jul 2024

Dream

I was like five different vampires who had been like not from the same breed or something i didn’t really understand what the difference was. But we had been getting killed because we had been different, the way we had been getting killed was kind of brutal…. It was only like flash scenes when i was having myself getting tortured… one was having my organs taken out- like my ribs being beaten as well just completely destroyed…. Was laying down while it happened and bound with ropes. Then i remember this was getting closer to the end, i was then another vampire and rebellious a bit, because i overheard one of us being an exception. They had been apart of our deaths and torture too… one of us betraying us and partaking in our deaths… she was accepted because apparently her bloodline was also mixed with the ones she is killing with. she wore red. It was like the only color that stood out for me. Then i got horrible death. Then i switched to another vampire…. This scene particularly interested me tho…. This character was interesting… he kind of reminded me of Oh Sangwoo but like smaller and more vampiric… he had red eyes, he was wearing a grey hoodie. And he was coaxing me… saying that he loved me. And he asked me “remember what I love about you the most?” Then he shoved one of his fingers gently into my mouth and showed me, i have this sharp fang, its different from all my teeth is what he was getting at, he told me to bite… and i did.. because he kept pressing his finger tightly on that fang… and his finger suddenly started to pour his blood inside my mouth…. I could taste it… could taste the iron inside, then i started feeling dizzy and disoriented, i have no idea if it was poisonous blood to actually kill me because theyre trying to kill our breed or if he was giving me his powers and pretended he was killing me… i dont know… but it felt odd and intense and i woke up feeling dizzy and a headache. The color red was the only thing that stood out to me other than black. Girl in red dress, the ribs and organs ripped out of me red, his eyes red and his blood red.

7 Jul 2024

Dream

This was one of the more powerful vivid and lengthy nightmares that I have had in my life. The story line was so frightening and meticulous and there was no difference between the dream and reality in that moment. It is so hard to put into words but at the center of all of it is a very evil and very cunning man who has total control of me and everyone around me. He can not be fooled he can not be escaped it’s like he is an all seeing eye in human form and he knows every move we (all those he has control and possession of) make. It is not just me. He has many pawns in his twisted game. And we are all terrified we are all being punished And we are being violently killed or tortured and/ or being forced to participate and carry out different murders and violent crimes that he chooses, all in order to stay alive and not have our loved ones harmed. The first thing I remember took place at the apartment complex I grew up playing at. I remember I was in the parking lot and there were 2 dead mutilated bodies laying on a grassy nole in the parking lot. Then I was taken. I became a part of a group of captives who were forced to commit similar staged murders and leave these bodies in the exact fashion that this man wanted. I was constantly terrified constantly trying to escape. But couldn’t. He knew every thing I did before I did it. I was stuck in this cycle a prisoner to murder and death.

3 Jul 2024

Dream

I was a soldier and i was captured by this guy. He tortured me by electrocution. He turned the voltage up as high as he could and electrocuted me, but then my squad showed up to save me. They beat the guy but all through the fight i was still being electrocuted so i ended up in a coma. They paid a lot of money for my treatment, but when i woke up i wasn't the same cuz of brain damage. I couldn't remember a lot of things. I guess I'd had a mew pokémon and it told me i had named it Dr. Stein.

29 Jun 2024

Dream

Dreamed I was in a group of people playing some kind of game. Something happened to our lock picker, who instantly died. One of the other people got sick and needed to brush their teeth. One of the others was being rude and keeping then from brushing their teeth and were threatening the other person when I, wanting to avoid confrontation, quickly made a makeshift brush. The person thanked me and brushed their teeth. With guidance from a leader we made it to the next section of the game. We were to gather the right items. They called for a friend's boyfriend named Copper. She was about to step forward when a different leader was going to teach us something. One of the players said something really rude to him. He got so angry he left for a different group of people and started torturing them. I could hear cries fro help and screams. As this was happening our leader was getting us all out of the area. I was visably shaking and crying in fear, but my leader said "Its okay Julia, Ive got you, we're headed home." And led me to a group of pipes we were all climbing. I woke up.

29 Jun 2024

Dream

I was kidnapped and made apart of this cult that kills people that have abused them. Torture them. And then when a member of the cult dies they string them up and burn them, dancing around them to send them off. Even insulting them to try to lighten the mood. It was like a big fucked up family. They were monsters but the love and comradey was real. They loved each other in a way I didn’t think was possible. And there was this dark haired man there. Was kinda like a ninja. He was obsessed or well in love with another member and kinda bullied them for attention. But secretly they’d kill anyone who hurt the. They watch them while they slept and studied anything they liked just so they could relate to them more. He was so desperate for this persons attention he was almost driving himself crazy tho everyone in the dream already seemed a bit crazy. There was a mentor lady that everyone loved. She reminded me of Miss Hoffman. She was so smart and wise and the day she died, the ceremony they performed was so very different from there usual. They did this dance were they summoned forth every element including lighting. And when they pushed over her burial- instead of insulting her like what was natural, they all ran forward and cried at the base of her shrine. Praying for her. Wishing her every good thing and to just be able to see her once last time. She was like a hero to these souls. She gathered cruel beings, killers, bad guys. And she’d find redemption in them. She’s give loveless people a family and purpose. They loved her on a way I’m not sure I could comprehend as I don’t ever really feel loved. She was extremely powerful and No one saw her death coming. Like she “gave up” her life for something. I saw a bunch of messy love stories within the dream. The final one being, a great love between a human Witch and a great Titan Prince. He was deathly sick to the point he couldn’t open his eyes or move. His family kept tryna feed him the human. Maybe to give him strength or something but he refused each time. Literally crying. The human was terrified of him cause he was so big. She was like the size of his cheek. But she did her best to relax against his skin because he was normally completely unconscious holding her in his fist. Everytime she’s tense a little his grip on her would tight painfully. She ended up realizing that he was protective of her unconsciously and didn’t realize was was the biggest threat when he squeezed her. If she wasn’t freaking out or his brothers threatening to feed her too him- She and the giant slept like kittens. When they both slept, the Titan didn’t look so scary and monsterious anymore. More like a younger kid holding on to his only life line. And sometimes, quite rarely, she almost seemed to cuddle into his face. To get closer to his warm. 800 or so years later the Titan wakes again and this time the witch girl is the one protecting them. She put a youth spell on herself so she can try to stay with the Titan because he’s like close to immortal and she was only meant to live a human life. But she can’t hold on much longer. The Titan doesn’t say anything as he’s basically just a little kid waking from a long nap. He doesn’t get angry as he can feel how weak her energy is. All he does is try to protect and persevere what little energy she has left. But he too is weak from 800 years of a coma like sleep. Not really eating or moving. Though he’s still extremely powerful. As soon as he awaking tribes start trying to hunt the two (for some reason 🤷‍♀️) as he brings her back to the mortal realm in hopes of giving her soul a lighter existence. He feels this despair, like no matter what he does he can’t save her. And it kills him because if she goes he knows he will not smile again. People are attacking left and right and she’s visually getting weaker and weaker. Her old age catching up to her now that he’s awake and refraining his strength. He knows she will die. Now I didn’t see this next part in the dream but here’s what I think happened. I think he cast some kinda forbidden spell or something to tie there souls together and force her into reincarnation. He would find her again and when he did he’d be a man, not a child. He’d keep her for real. Now to only find and convince her of that as there old situation wasn’t exactly a friendly one and he’s not sure if he even has a likable personality. She only knew him asleep. Also a lot of the monsters in the dreams. When they died, they’d be locked in these night cages and they’d be sad and lonely till random spirits would visit then they’d get all happy and dance around in there cages. Also the Titan had a grimoire of summoning to all his old friends real selves. Kinda like in fate stay night were you could summoning forth a champion but he was strong enough to summon as many as he wanted whenever he wanted. And the human he was facing casually summoned a copy version of stalker guy from earlier in the dream. He got kinda smirky and summoned the real original that easily kicked the humans ass. It was kinda funny to watch. I was the human in the dream that hadn’t died yet. Also the Titan at first looked like this massive scary pig man with tusks and shit. But later in the dream it was like he just turned into a really large young adult guy. Considered a young child amongst his species and hers. He had long, light orange like hair and light sun kissed skin. He looked like he was surrounded by sunlight light later on. Like really pretty

26 Jun 2024

Dream

I went to 3 parties of my friends and got kidnapped at all 3. They all had demands of just apologizing and to stop doing wrong. I stop going to parties and went to Job Corp and got kidnapped there where they tortured me and I had to leave Job Corp. I went home and started partying and my boyfriend broke up with me and I started popping pills and smoking weed and drinking myself to death, I ended up in the hospital because of alcohol poisoning and I had a dream of god telling me if I don’t stop what I’m doing I’m going to end up dead. But I didn't listen I kept drinking and popping pills and doing weed and one day I passed out and I ran towards the white door. I seen god but he didn't look at me and my heart broke as I tried running to the golden-covered gate surrounded by white clouds a trap door opens and I slide down going to a gate. Its surrounded by fire a red, orange and yellow firey gate with 2 gargoyles smirking up me with their red eyes saying welcome and I sighed as the gate opens and I walk in as my dream fades to black.

24 Jun 2024

Dream

I was out in the town and there were a lot of new rules Basically, there was a dictator that had taken over and the town rules were very limiting and against any crime or anything that could be perceived as crime. I was a student in school, and I didn’t fit in with the rest of the students. Our building caught on fire and we all had to run out and go to a hospital to be taken care of. When I got out of the hospital, I went to a thrift shop of sorts and saw the only shirt or jacket or some thing that I had owned hanging up to be sold. So I went to get the jacket and I asked the storekeeper hey this is my jacket from the accident, can I have it back? The storekeeper said I would need to pay to get the jacket back and I told him I did not have any money but that it was my only belonging. He said I could not get it back without paying so I took it when I went to see my classmates, and ask them what they would’ve done and then I had taken it. They were very upset with me for breaking the rules and stealing some thing, even though it was mine and taken from me. I’m out on the streets trying to exist in the town doesn’t like me. I get taken to a detention center/jail for kids where they trained you but really were torturing you through games and situations that kids ahould not have been in. I remember being in the woods a lot and my brother was there with me. My family kept coming to try and find me and get me out. I believe they framed the place as a school and I was a tennis player and my family wanted to make sure that I was still playing tennis and to see a game. I was not playing tennis because I was being tortured through these activities. They did not let my family in and kept me doing activities. I don’t remember a lot of the activities but one of the main ones was this game in a pool. Before the game they gave us a explanation as to why we were doing it. In the explanation, they talked about how men were out of war where they had to hide underwater for four hours, and have combat underwater or they would’ve been shot from above. Job to stay underwater without being detected by each other or found alone by the other team. I was one of the first people in the water able to start getting ready and cleaning our side of the pool, so I worked very hard. They told us that we could collect the leaves off of the floor to improve our gameplay. We could also put the leaves on the boys side to make them play worse. I was collecting leaves and scraping up algae when I was found by the other team. The collecting leaves and scraping of algae, was supposed to be done by a teammate of mine that had a developmental and intellectual delay Skill issues and autism. This individual was actually a student of mine and my real life last year that I had trouble connecting with and working with because she was not advanced enough to be in my class. She was upset with me because it was her scrape the leaves, but I knew that she would put our team behind so I did it quickly for her and then set her up for success by doing most of it so that as the leaves came in the game, she could keep up. She was very upset with me for doing so, I would also like to note that I myself have autism and adhd but I am thrice exceptional because I was also a gifted student because of my high IQ scores as a child. I mask and hid my autism better than others can so I wasn’t formally diagnosed in my real life. I often in waking find myself judging others with the same disorders as myself for not learning and adjusting to the world like I have from a place of ableism. Continuing with the dream. I was the first person on my team found while I was cleaning I went to a center where I was on my own outside of the door to the pool. The game was eventually over and the person in charge came to me and he wanted everyone to smile and look him in the eyes so he can figure out what team to place us on tomorrow. he said he was using our eyes when he got to me. He had trouble seeing my eyes because I wasn’t in the same place as everyone else I told him they were steel blue and he said everyone else has had steel blue eyes as well. Which is weird to me because blue eyes is not a very common eye color, the next thing I know I’m able to run away from this camp and go into town. I find myself in a convenience store where there is coffee, popcorn, and drinks and candy. I am looking around. I find coffee and I get some snacks then consciousness shifts to the front of the store and I watch a woman check out. She has random things ring up on her item and they are confused but don’t like me so figure it’s my fault and walk back to me. I occasionally have OCD in waking life when it comes to cleaning I get an in a mood where I will start cleaning and I can’t stop until someone stops me. It’s an unhealthy behavior, but I get a lot done and I’m going to have to clean my apartment today. in the dream I had gotten into an OCD state and kept making coffee after coffee for people popping popcorn, scanning candy and other items and it was all piling up around me. The shopkeeper and ladies started yelling at me for what I had done, but we looked to the side, and there was a curtain that was moving because there were a ton of people that had arrived to buy the things that I was making as if I was a barista, which is the small town did not have. They could not be upset with me and I continued making coffee until something happened and I walked outside like a little explosion. I looked down at my feet in the snow and I saw a rat. I heard my brain say there is a rat in the shop, no more coffee. it was as if my brain was exiting OCD mode because it was grossed out by some thing. People wanted more coffee and I said no and walked away because I was no longer in that mental space. it became late, so I blocked back towards the forest and it was as if I was seeing snow in my eyes and I was excited, and then when that OCD mode shifted everything kind of turned red, and my brain was upset. I knew it was time to get my brother out of the camp because it was over so I walked towards the forest. I was looking for the water. Our family had brought because that was the only way to get people out of the camp. I saw lots of families and students from the camp walking out of the forest towards their vehicles, but I could not find my family or our water. So I kept walking in the forest and eventually I ran into a tall man that was in my family, possibly my dad or husband I was unclear at that point. I looked to the side and I see my belongings and my brothers belongings, there is a baby stroller in the middle recognized that I had forgotten at that time. I saw my purse, my jacket and other belongings on the side of the post piled up a baby carrier on the floor and my brothers items on the other side on a different post. There was not a baby in the baby carrier so I picked it up to put it on the stroller and couldn’t get it attached correctly. my husband walked over at that moment and told me that I didn’t have the baby carrier on correctly as I was already loading my belongings into the baby carrier so that I can get out of the park. I went to the side to fix it and as I was fixing it, I heard a younger brother walk up to my husband saying he was still holding the baby to my husband, and my husband said that’s OK you’ll have to keep holding him. I had a sense of the baby was a boy and his name was possibly Freddy. I did not see the baby, but I kept picking up Lauren and loading the stroller. We started walking towards the back of park to find my brother and then my alarm went off and woke me up.

21 Jun 2024

Dream

I just woke up from this crazy dream. I was in this house with a religious group and this guy who was reading bible scriptures was creepy. He was talking about a whole bunch of negative things and bringing up people’s past mistakes and telling everyone that we’re all going to hell because of those mistakes. After hearing all that me and everyone else in that religious cult started torturing that guy and beating him up for all of the lies and negative things he was preaching.

17 Jun 2024

Dream

Some friends and I were at a cabin for the weekend and some strangers came in and tortured us . I was wrapped in barb wire all over my body and when I tried to move it would cut deep into my skin

4 Jun 2024

Dream

I saw some man and his wife were torturing a cat who could turn into a missile as a weapon to get what they wanted. I felt the need to save their cat. Their cat could also breath underwater and could shift into a turtle form. I somehow stole the cat to save him and let him live in my fish tank with my one fish I could swim with. Even though I saved this cat, I worried if the man and his wife would do it to another poor cat

29 May 2024

Dream

I wrote a poem lately begging any god, dragon, angel, unicorn, etc for help cause I was being raped and tortured. In my dream I woke up in a medical unit with two people. One of them was a woman, she was looking down there to make sure I was okay?? She even swiped her finger through my pussy and tasted to idk maybe check the PH. She said not to worry. The mean man didn’t leave any lasting damage. That I was healthy and I’d survive this. I can’t remember the other person in the room but I think they were there for moral support. I think they were a woman. She held my hand and told me I could do this!

13 May 2024

Dream

I was supposed to order some clothing from my nonprofit organization. I didn't have the items, so I called the apparel vendor on the phone and was attempting to order with him. I figured out we hadn't ordered yet. I went through everything and placed an order over the phone. When I hung up the vendor representative that we have worked with for years was sitting in my living room she's been there since 4 o'clock. She heard the entire conversation so I apologized and she got up from the chair in the living room and came into the dining room. She had her daughter with her and then she's explaining why the order wasn't processed. Her daughter has special needs. She wasn't sure if the daughter was possessed demons or gifted. I was nice to the daughter and I just tried to be extra kind to the daughter I had some challenges. We went downstairs to the basement and there was all kinds of Native American artifacts and things like that in the basement. The mom and daughter were hungry. There was a stuffed eagle downstairs and the eagle appear to be dead. We took the eagle, skinned it and cook the meat like chicken. We kept the feathers, head and claws. One of the neighbors came over and realize that we had desecrated a holy object for the Native Americans and he was really upset about that. We didn't know what to do, so we thought he should pray on Native American land and an exchange for him helping us he could pick one of the artifacts to have himself. He picked out a bear skin. Then as we talked more and more, we discovered he was part Native American and he belonged to a certain tribe. At that point, I had a little more acceptance from the neighbor because I also had a little Native American Indian blood in me. I was with my twin or with my brother and we're on this bridge at night. We had to get through this dictatorship property in order to continue on. It felt like we were 3 or 4 stories above the ground. The building was similar to a hotel. The dictator came out almost like the wizard in the movie The Wizard of Oz. He questioned us to see if we're going to let us pass throught the territory or not. At some point, he started torturing us. He took my left hand and started to cut between my fingers with a saw. It was a circular saw. He cut about a half inch through my hand, rhere was blood everywhere. He wanted me to cut through my own left hand using my right hand. He wanted me to use the circular saw and I wouldn't do it. Two Doberman dogs appeared and they were very intimidating. The dictator put us in some type of jail cell. in the jail I'm not sure if it was in the ground but it looked like one of those jail cell the Vietnam prisoners of war were kept in. Then we would get out and we can work everyday. Eventually the dogs became friendly with us and they realize that we had Native American Indian blood in us. at one point the dogs actually would follow our commands. If the dictator was there they would act as if they were still mean and enforce the rules with us.