Infidelity

27 May 2024

Dream

my brother killed a guy that i had killed in another life and i tried to help him hide the body, then i went to south dakota to a country thing where the lead singer got in trouble for being there when the guy was killed. I also had sex in a hot tub with the guy before he was killed and he had a girl freind.

26 Apr 2024

Dream

Been living with my partner for a few months. Suddenly I see he has another woman’s number in his phone. I scan the messages and see it was a number of weeks they were intimate. I’m destroyed, fuming, and in disbelief. I then see many other women in his phone of the same. Some I was even at an event with him while the woman was there too without me knowing who she was. I confront him and he tries to deny it, but then finally caves and tells me everything. He’s not bothered. He just sits there sheepish and distant, unfazed. I start panicking about all the things I have to move from him, where I’m to go with my son, no money of my own, and nowhere for all my business materials to store and continue my work. My life falls apart in seconds. He seems fine with everything, not arguing, just calm - his usual demeanour in confrontations. I remember when he once woke early and washed his genitals, which I found odd since he’d never once done that in the number of years we’d been together. I now knew it was because he’d caught something from one of the women he’d had intercourse with. I tell his mum because she would just blame me rather than her son. I tell my mum and go to move into hers but she doesn’t have room for all my business items and few possessions. Before I leave my partners, I speak to him about it all and how distraught I am. Again, he’s not bothered and almost seems to hurry me out, though he keeps trying to get me to stay too. I try to calm my building anger but I’m so mad at everything, I kick him hard in his genitals since he never gets consequences for anything he does wrong. Then I leave.

28 Jan 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I went to Sweden and stayed in this hotel by the sea. For the first day we stayed with this tour group which took us around our hotel. There was a hurricane so we had to stay in this emergency room. My boyfriend in real life, Eamon, was in my dream except in my dream he was a stranger and I was dating someone else. Eamon and I got really close in the dream and I began cheating on my bf with eamon. My mom was watching us the whole time ready to shame me for infidelity. Later in the dream after the tour group I was taking a walk around town outside. Whenever I passed someone it seemed like they’d say something to me and then act like they didn’t. I took pictures of the beautiful houses as they looked from a fairytale. I began walking back and as I approached the hotel and I could see the sea I noticed how scary the water looked. It was grayish green and the waves were incredibly aggressive. I sat and watched the water for a while. The waves got bigger and bigger until it looked like a full on tsunami. We were at the top of this large cliff but even then it looked like it could reach over it. I got so scared and ran inside to tell my mom but when I did she said it was fine and didn’t believe it was a big deal. I started freaking out and ran back outside to see if anyone saw what I was seeing, except, no one was there. I called my dad to talk to him about it and he said to find shelter immediately. That’s where my dream ended.

26 Nov 2023

Dream

I dreamed with ex husband he came in house that he came thru that wanted to talk. I was so surprised cause have huge ego. I anxious to know what he wanted to tell me I wanted hear him recognizing he left good women during my cancer journey and desrespecting me with other womens his infidelity that I saw with my eyesin the video. He video tape then sex gross. I will forgive him but just hear I can heal