Funeral

25 Oct 2024

Dream

I was at a beautiful outdoor funeral in Japan, it seemed like springtime during the day. I was sitting next to someone in the front row but I’m not sure who, and I don’t know who the funeral was for. I remember hoping someone from a Japanese reality TV show I’d seen was attending, and hoping that they were observing me/desiring me. During the service, a couple of hummingbirds appeared above and in front of us, and then a couple more to the other side, and they all started flying together, and then a bunch more appeared and they all danced in a swarm kind of and we were all in awe and subdued happiness with the birds.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

This dream was weird. It took me back to when I was 18 and I almost died of sepsis and pneumonia, but, in this dream, I did die. And I was a ghost. When my funeral came around I watched from the other side. It was a Marvel and DC-themed funeral, where all of my family and friends were wearing superhero costumes, my sister was dressed as Harley Quinn and she was smirking, my mom was dressed as Wonder Woman, and so on. They played rock music like “Stairway To Heaven” and “Bohemian Rapsody” It was an epic send-off.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

The first part of my dream i found out my oldest daughter's father passed away ( still very much alive in waking life). I felt so devistated although we do not have a good relationship. I remember having to tell my daughter that her biological father that she has never met died. She was very upset. We went to the funeral and his family wanted pictures with my daughter and the corpse of her father. This family has never met my daughter and I remember feeling so enraged that they didn't want to be a part of her life. I also remember there being a shelf above his body with toy blocks on it and I wanted some for my youngest daughter. Next I was riding in a car and we were going out to our farm land. I was so excited because we had a bunch of new baby giraffes out there. And our pastor was out there giving the baby giraffes chiropractic adjustments.

20 Sep 2024

Dream

I had a dream that a friend of mine named Diana that I met at a drug program a long time ago passed away. But what’s confusing to me is that it was Diana herself that told me about the death. The confusion didn’t seem to have any effect on my grief or sadness, as I felt immense sorry and began to sob uncontrollably. I was trying to get something nice to wear for her funeral so I decided to go shopping at the mall. While at the mall I was playing on some kind of playground or play structure and I remember looking down and trying to decide how best to get down, as all of the slides were very tiny and I didn’t want to get stuck. I believe eric and my youngest son Donivan were there playing with me and there were multiple kinds of slides but I didn’t think I would be small enough to fit down any. I began shopping at some stores when I noticed security guards were following me. I know I didn’t do anything wrong so I kept shopping as usual ignoring them but while leaving the mall the lost prevention people tried to surround and detain me even though I didn’t do anything wrong. they were trying to search me and they were taking up all my time and being rude to me and holding me against my will so I ran out of the first store and into another and suddenly more appeared and they began to Chase me. I ran outside and I found a woman companion somehow and we took off on horseback and we ended up in the wilderness, going on a long journey and Riding away from them throughout the rest of the dream. She had a shotgun with her and one by one she took them out with the Shotgun and we are up in a treehouse and we shot the last one came to us with a flare gun and he fell down in entry and burned up and dancing around and serve raining and we were having fun and I went to kiss her and she told me to stop that she doesn’t do that (sex) but she would kiss me always if I wanted to.

12 Sep 2024

Dream

I was at work, and Sean was being how he normally is. Not talking to me, glaring at me, talking behind my back, that kind of thing. He got off work early, and he went to talk to Mike. He wanted to know why, Mike stayed friends with me for so long. And why Mike wouldn't take his side now that Sean and I were done. Mike told him that, if he had to ask that, he never really knew me as a person. That I was a great friend and a great friend, and the fact that Sean was so willing to throw that away by being a dick, showed he never really cared about our friendship in the first place. Sean got mad, and said to Mike that, i must suck his dick really well, if he was willing to stick by me so easily. Just then, Donny (a really good friend of mine of 20 years), walked into the staff room where they were, and Sean included him into the conversation. Saying I sucked his dick too. Mike lost his temper on Sean. Saying that, it was disrespectful of him to call me a whore, when I was the only one who went to Sean's dad's funeral. And when I was a good friend to him for 8 years. And there were other reasons for them to be friends with me, but Sean would never know them because he proved he was unworthy of knowing them. When I came into the staff room a few minutes later, Sean left in a huff, calling me a whore as he walked by me. Mike told me everything that happened, then went to our manager and told her. Sean, got fired for what he said.

10 Sep 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was actually at a friends house 🏠 and I said something a joke a sex joke about a friend that rode my bus to highschool and this guy got really made and calmly threatened me as I would have my own funeral and he said are you family with this guy and I said yeah those are my close friends he said that’s lucky because you’re protected.

8 Sep 2024

Dream

Was with my family. A mom and two older brothers. We were driving amd there’s this gate with two girls guarding/advising visitors when passing through. When passing through there’s this forest wilderness you can either drive through or walk through. It was like a memory of the past where we all used to drive through as a family, going through rivers , hiking through mountain passes and at the end there’s this local forest community with a village at the end with some lovely people. There’s a time skip. it’s just my brothers and I. It isn’t clear but I think my mom isn’t with us anymore. We all meet up one last time , my older brother driving us near the gate entrance of that wildnerness path after the funeral service I think. I told them that it was good seeing them but I gotta move on and wanted to go back to the Forest village by myself. Saying goodbye at the gate where the two ladies were , I could tell my brothers were super worried and didn’t want me to venture out alone. While I started walking my middle brother ran after me and told me to watch out for beast eyes at night. They both started following me which was annoying and freaking me out to the point where I forgot my backpack. After bickering and traversing there , we got to the community and went inside the main kitchen building where a few people were. A brunette guy who is in his 30s , a dog , another Brazilian guy and one Asian guy. I felt reassured getting there and was banting with the guys there , preparing to live there. My brothers were there as well but I think they were going to go back to the gate with the ladies in the morning when it was safer in the day to the car.

25 Aug 2024

Dream

a funeral for my grandmother Mini. My cousin Molly tells me that I have another aunt. I’m really upset. Why did I not know this. My husband Keith goes to the funeral-standing in a park. so then I go over. But then I have to go to the dentist. I cross the road and there is joking about retirement. And then suddenly I am at the dentist all day. Sitting in one area talking to my colleague from the college in waking life Candace who is a physical therapist in the dream. And then I go in with the dentist, and I’m really shaky. And I asked someone what time is it and they say like 9 o’clock and I’m like that can’t be right. Then we ask someone else and it’s 10 to 6. No wonder I’m so hungry. I grab some gluten-free pizza no regular pizza. Doesn’t matter cause I’m too hungry. There’s something about Mar-and did Mar Go to Spain. Yes of course she went to Spain. Mar, my daughter Hannah’s beautiful Rottweiler, who lived with me for two years who I loved so much. Who died last year . I really like the dentist. His name is Rebekenezer. Quite the Jewish name.

21 Aug 2024

Dream

I don't remember the entire dream, but I remember it beginning with me sitting at a funeral for a casual aquaintance at a building. I don't remember much after, but I was later pulled away by someone, who gently pushed an arid desert plant that looked dead but I knew it wasn't into my hands while they held a vase. They held my hand and held it somewhat romantically. As we sat at another funeral in the same large wooden room covered in wood panels and a lit up platform with glass behind it where the casket was. Flowers were everywhere and the pews were filled for both people whose funerals i attended. there were two large tvs that played scenes from either their favourite movie or a movie they were in (the avengers) and the person I was with still held my hand, but then another girl sat next to them in the aisle seat and they held her hand and flirted with her even though i thought the person was with me. I got so jealous and confused I woke up

20 Aug 2024

Dream

In a funeral hall Elegant and soft designs Assisting my mom rehearse and prepare her mind for the eulogy speech Not sure who really died but someone close to her, older generation Maybe her father(my grandfather) or grandfather(great grandfather) Being sabotaged, interrupted and disrupted repeatedly by grandmotherms(my mother’s mother) words and verbal jabs, she has a passive aggressive, cold and critical attitude when it comes to her own daughter Assuring my mother through it; she has low self esteem It’s kinda tiring tho Seeing a blue, impressionistic painting that looks like blue and hold ocean with bits of something red in it I find it beautiful The heckling and the interferences continue into the actual performance on stage People ‘ahem’ing at the situation, likely to the nagging grandmother Mother losing confidence every second Me helping and doing whatever I can to shut the granny down politely and such Once we’re done we’re out of the building It looked so magnificent from the inside but it just looks like any other building in a countryside, the whitewash sort of chipped, parts rusted, engulfed in vines and the flora from the surrounding forest We turn out backs on it(now there’s a man I don’t really know, a voice of my dad(just the voice, no real presence), and my younger brother) And get on bicycles that’d been left alone nearby and speed down the rocky slopes, dense woods around us, tree canopy like tunnel roof The whole area looks so much like the manor house square(there’s only the stone foundation of it left) of the castle ruins in the mountain we lived at the edge of(forests) Once I’ve come down the perspective switch Now it’s like I’m flying on the bicycle across a map I can see a moat; looks a bit like another Japanese castle I went to Car roads surrounding it so it looks like the Imperial Palace too The ebbing and flowing of tides, in timelapse The moat, the big pond and the waters are affected by it Once it turns to night(on the map) the park area shows itself Near the edge of dawn I go cycle into it, landing from the sky Playing around, lotus pink and white, beautiful dawn, purple atmosphere and sky Coming back to the house(the building I currently live in; owned by my other(paternal) grandma) Now the scenery is downtown Family reunion going on with all the relatives from my mother’s side taking place Icky vibes, mom’s mom(the bully from earlier is here too, being all obnoxious, fake-merry, faking demureness and being braggadocious) My bestfriend Maka from middle school is here too, so I take her and go up the indoor stairs to lose the crowd Mom too, she joins to supervise but not really; she just wants space from her bully mom Playing around, going up and down as parts of the stairsteps disintegrate and reveal a glimmering white offgrid, unrendered area under the map(like in games) There’s breeze despite it being inside(not really anymore, there’s infestations of plants and weeds, pretty tho) and itms really fun, relaxing in a way, the progressively ‘ruinous’ state of the building being swallowed into nature and the sparkling otherworld Mom seems greatly unsettled(like a normal person would be), Maka is having fun, playfully poking fun at my nonchalance and giving commentaries on both of us and the situation Climbing up high enough that we noclip into the outside staircase This one’s rusted but still safe Breeze blowing, it’s sunset Mild, warm and chill Sitting on the steps, talking about what happened back at the funeral venue Commenting to each other frankly, joking around about it being a hex or an evil eye(not really joking) As the time passes we come down from the bubble of the fun and comfort, hear the relatives laughing and still having the party and such Deciding to go back Noclipping into the inside staircase, pausing after descending about a third of the steps to the room where the party is, calling out to Maka and mom that I don’t want to They smile, look relieved and agree, we nod to each other We climb back up the grassy staircase and float into the map-like perspective of the sky around the town and the white overworld

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I was on the street and I remember seeing my brother and a lady next to a car and feeling very uncomfortable and scared. I looked towards my brother and I remember seeing the lady and a man dressed in all dark clothing to conceal his identity shoot a gun and the bullet went through her head leaving her body limp and sliding down the front of her car. I was filled with extreme fear. Then I was oddly in my grandma’s white Lincoln and she was driving wearing some black outfit. She parked and took me with her to a front door of brown brick building with a black door and knocked. It was a funeral parlor and though she didn’t tell me I knew she was trying to schedule her death. No one answered. I could feel my heart beating through my chest and tears filling my eyes as I heard her continue to knock no one answered. I knew I didn’t want her to go in there and I didn’t want anything to do with all this loss. Everything went dark and I don’t know if my grandma ever walked into that building.

5 Aug 2024

Dream

I was back in my childhood home in Kansas. I was as old as I am now and my mom and stepdad were there. I was in my room and I felt a dark presence behind the door. The room was super dark and I tried to turn on the lights but I couldn’t. I desperately tried going back and forth flipping the switch and pulling the chains on the fan. I even made sure the light bulbs were screwed in. The presence was angry that I was trying to turn on the lights and I saw a shadow move from behind the door towards me and I screamed for it to stop and started praying every prayer that I have. I told it to go away in the name of Jesus. It didn’t go away but it loomed over me. Then my mom came in and flipped the switch on the wall and the lights came on. The thing looming over me disappeared and she asked what I was doing and asked if I wanted to go to the store. I said sure whatever. So we went to the store and it was the one here where I live now in Missouri. (I guess my mind is combining places that make up “home”) so we’re at the store and we get bombarded with people trying to sell us flowers. One told my mom she would need them when she buried me. My mom and I both screamed “WHAT THE HELL! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU” but the guy shugs and reiterates that she will need them soon for my funeral as if it was a fact. We push past them and go to the store. My mom has me look at cheese and I stay there for a couple of seconds before she tells me she’s done shopping. I look in the cart and it’s full of bottles of alcohol. We head out of the store and go home parking the car on the edge of the patio back in Kansas. We started drinking and then apparently it was the next day at high noon. My mom and my stepdad were like “oh there you are” and my mom was like “you had fun last night”. I couldn’t remember any of it but she said it was cool and I was funny. I shrugged and was looking at the edge of the patio where the cars were parked while my parents were around the corner drinking and looking at the side garden. I was trying to see if you could fit a third car, my car, on the edge of the patio. I had gotten on my hands and knees when a diamond back rattle snake wraps itself around my arms and around my back. I try to stay still and I try to call for my parents who were just around the corner. They didn’t seem to hear me. I kept trying to get their attention and even screamed for them a couple of times. I tried to grab the snakes head and pull it off myself but it bit my finger and slid to the middle of my back where I couldn’t reach it. I tried grabbing its tail to pull it off but it bit me in the back twice. Only then when my parents were done looking at the side garden and discussing what they wanted to do with it did they notice the snake around me. My step dad tried to take it off me once and it ended up biting me again before he was finally able to get it off of me. My hand and back stated to throb and my finger was swelling. My parents were doddling around as if nothing happened and I urged them to take me to the hospital and only after me begging them to take me did my mom say “ok let’s go”. She didn’t take me very seriously. We get in the car and she takes me back to the Walmart. I try insisting more that she should take me to the hospital and she waves me off and tells me I’ll be fine. Meanwhile I start to feel sweaty and shaky and I follow her into the store. She was trying to find the guy who tried to sell us flowers for my funeral. I kept urging her to take me to the hospital when we find the guy and she stays disgusting prices with him. My vision is going in and out as I plead for her to take me to the hospital and then I wake up.