Christina, your dream is rich with symbols and emotions, indicating a complex interplay of your subconscious thoughts and feelings. Returning to your childhood home in Kansas while being your current age suggests a desire to reconcile past experiences with your present self. The presence of your mom and stepdad highlights family dynamics that may still influence you today. The dark presence in your room, and your inability to turn on the lights, represents feelings of being trapped or overwhelmed by unresolved issues or fears from your past. The act of desperately trying to turn on the lights but failing could symbolize your struggle to find clarity or control in certain aspects of your life.
The shadow moving towards you and your subsequent prayers indicate a confrontation with something deeply unsettling, possibly repressed emotions or traumas. Your mom's ability to easily turn on the light and her casual offer to go to the store suggests that she may possess a sense of control or understanding that you feel you lack. Her role in dispelling the darkness might also reflect a desire for her support in dealing with your inner turmoil.
The transition to the store, now located in Missouri, blends your past and present, creating a metaphorical space where unresolved issues from your childhood still affect your current life. The aggressive flower sellers, particularly the one predicting your funeral, could symbolize intrusive thoughts or external pressures that threaten your sense of security. Your and your mom's strong reaction to the flower seller indicates a shared shock or denial of these negative predictions.
When your mom focuses on buying alcohol, it may suggest a coping mechanism for dealing with emotional stress or conflict. The return to the Kansas home and the disjointed memory of drinking imply a disconnection or avoidance of confronting deeper issues. The diamondback rattlesnake wrapping around you while you are on the patio is a powerful symbol of latent danger and anxiety. Your parents' initial unawareness and delayed response to your plight might reflect feelings of neglect or frustration with their perceived lack of support.
Your struggle with the snake and the subsequent bites symbolize a confrontation with harmful or toxic elements in your life that you feel unequipped to handle alone. Your parents' casual attitude towards your injuries and your mom's reluctance to take you to the hospital underscores a feeling of not being taken seriously or a lack of urgency in addressing your needs. The return to Walmart and your mom's preoccupation with the flower seller, even as your condition worsens, reinforces a sense of neglect and frustration. Your fading vision and pleas for help signify a deep-seated need for recognition and assistance that you feel is being ignored.
This dream suggests that you are grappling with significant unresolved issues from your past that continue to impact your present life. The recurring themes of neglect, lack of control, and unacknowledged distress point to a need for addressing these underlying emotions and seeking clarity and support in your waking life.