Darkness

7 May 2024

Dream

It was a dark dream there was literally nothing... What does that mean??

6 May 2024

Dream

I have this recurring dream that I’m in Walmart and everything just goes dark and people begin to panic.

30 Apr 2024

Dream

In the dream I a young girl with dirty blond hair bright blue eyes. My name is May. I am wearing an old peasant dres that is old and torn. I am sitting outside surrounded by rubble. I sit on a rock near a little fire made from stone and wood. The ground is a soft dirt surrounded by shrubs and old and dead trees some grass is growing. Beside me is a wise and old monk. Dressed in a brown but worn robe. He is a friend and provides a sense of comfort. We talk with each other about a power I have that is spiraling out of control and the darkness with it and how it came to be. I speak to the monk with much sorrow in my heart. “ I’m sorry but there is no beauty in a gift so terrible.” He responds saying, “But May, there is beauty in it. The things he taught you and showed you when it came to your gift is a lie. I have watched as it only brought in darkness and anger into your life, where love should be.” I tell him how I’m, I’m not even sure I ever knew what love was or is. But he confineds in me that I do. That I have for many years. He tells me to think back. Think back to the girl and the world I created with my magic when I was just a child. He tells me that the little girl is me! At least she is who you longed to be when I was young. My eyes fill with a bitter sorrow as I thinks back to the little girl I met in the forest. I think back to when we used to play together near the castle where I once lived. I talk about how, for the longest time I never knew that the girl never truly existed. The girl I created as a child with my powers name was Nadia. In the dream May starts to imagine her in her head and remembers Nadia. She was so kind and graceful. Her smile was like a ray of sunshine. There was a light of hope when ever May was around her or Nadia’s family. When May was with them she didn’t feel so alone; nor did she feel like she had to hide from the darkness. It just seemed to vanish. The Monk continued , “She was another side of you that you wished to be. There was love lacking in your life; so you created her to try and fill in that gap.” I began to cry. “I needed her. I thought she needed me too; but she vanished just like everyone else in my life.” My voice began to break as the anger rose up in me. “All I wanted was love. She was the only one I ever felt gave me that. Then she changed and she.., she left me…” My eyes filled with tears. I grasped her chest, trying to just take in a breath. The monk looked upon my face with concern but he smiles at me and gently says to me. “May, you are loved. It was him that hid that from you. That made you feel that you were incapable of love.” I shouted at him. Feeling a sense of rage. “But look at the way they treated me… They looked at me as if I was a monster. How could someone love something they feared..?” I thought I had it under raps, but eventually it drove even Nadia and her family away too. You can not say that it was all him that made others leave me?” The monk stood silent for a moment. “Sometimes when we are so encased in darkness we don’t always see the pain that others are in. That goes for all of us. There are things we did not see when it came to you and this growing power that consumed you. But you also did not see others pains and afflictions. There was pain and darkness even within the girl you created. You just didn’t see it. You only clung to the love you thought was there. This world is a lot more complicated and others pain is not alway laid out so clearly in front of us.“ I started to dry my eyes, though the pain and sorrow still lingered. I tried my best to make sense of his words despite the agonizing conflict I felt in my heart, But manage to say “But she always looked so perfect to me.” The monk smile before saying “Because that is how you imagined her to be. You felt alone May, and unseen by even those closest to you. You were so desperate for love and to be seen that you disregarded the darkness that was there and just clung so desperately to the love you thought she and others had. You incased yourself in it; blinding yourself to the reality of how things actually were. In the end she couldn’t save you unless she let you go and you her. You had to wake up May and start learning to love yourself. She could not do that for you.” My eyes once more filled with tears. His words pierced my heart as I saw the truth within his words. Though a part of me didn’t want to hear it, nor except it. However, I knew it was true. But I still doubted myself. Tears filled my eye before I spoke. “How can I, when so many have shown me every reason not to.” Then I woke up crying.

24 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in a random place couldn’t tell where I was at but a lot of people were talking to me but didn’t know who they were because their faces were blurry. Though in the end of the end right before I woke up a person with a scary face just stood in front and now that I remember I saw it so dark but looked like if only his face was just skull no skin.

23 Apr 2024

Dream

I was walking in an AI VR world that was supposed to be relaxing. The AI was supposed to take my ideal vacation spot and turn it into a world where I'd be able to "walk" through in VR. But it seemed like something was off, because in each world I felt like I was being stalked by something I couldn't see. Eventually, the more worlds I wandered through, the darker the scenes became and I did manage to see what was following me. It looked like a tall human with a mask and horns, but with a Bigfoot body type. I was able to escape the entity without incident, but after removing the VR headset, I still felt scared. In the dream, I was living in a world that was developed solely off of AI, and I was scared that I wouldn't be able to live in that world by myself without someone else's company and companionship.

19 Apr 2024

Dream

Me and my kids and my girlfriend were sleeping in a tent out side and I felt on edge prior to falling asleep well I brushed it off and finally fell asleep I woke up at 3 am gasping for air trying to scream for help but couldn't in my dream there was a dark demonic figure trying to gran me or suffocate me or something by pushing the tent in on my it was saying something but I couldn't understand it what's this mean