Week

9 Apr 2024

Dream

So I’ve had this repeat dream at least three times in the last couple of weeks. I feel like it is my mom who buys me this house, but this house is really in bad repair and it needs a lot of work and I don’t really care for it. It seems the house belonged to a coworker of mine that I really did not get along with , nor did I like. as I’m looking around the house, I noticed that there is a feral cat. now, I can’t stand cats and I’m highly allergic to them and even a little afraid. but the real estate agent is telling us that the cat has to stay with the house. I am shaking my head thinking there’s no way I’m letting a cat stay in my house if I have to live here. I’m thinking to myself the whole time that I do not want to live in this decrepit old house with a feral cat.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

Zombie apocalypse was with a group of people at a university we were tasked to clear it out but most groups didnt make it. We were a week in and of the the safety doors didn't lock all the way. Zombies got in. People didn't want to kill them they just wanted to run but I thought we could kill them and clear them out if we worked together. People ended up running and getting eaten I held the door shut and let people in as they ran up to it. I kept it locked

7 Apr 2024

Dream

My husband, my two children and myself moved into a really fancy nee apartment. I couldn't stay awake at first. But when I woke up I realized I was dreaming and I told my husband I was dreaming, he thought I was crazy. I went to sleep in my dream, but I was aware I was still dreaming. I was pulled out of bed by this horrific creature and I could t get it off me. Eventually I got up and just wanted the dream to be over, so I jumped out the window. I woke up in the same dream again, without ever waking up in real life. Then I was sexually abused by some friends my husband had over, my husband did t seem to worried about it so I jumped out the window again. I woke up in my dream a third time, this time I just ran for the balcony because I knew I was still dreaming and I wanted it to be over. I felt my body hit the ground and I could feel the sun/moon rotations above me for what felt like weeks. Then I finally woke up for real.

6 Apr 2024

Dream

As soon as I fall asleep it starts to happen. I’m aware I’m asleep with my eyes closed but can see the ceiling of my room as if I’m laying there with them open. I then feel my blanket slowly getting tighter wrapping around my chest and shoulders with a forceful weight on top of me not being able to move with only the odd muscle twitching of me wanting to wake up but feeling so drained from it. I then hear as if it’s old nursery rhymes coming from a middle aged women from the futhest distance of my room with the sounds of a rocking chair and a set of knitting tools being used. Thankfully it got to the point of me eventually waking up but felt very long as I was In a loop of it all happening over and over. I woke up laying in my bed sheets that were drenched from my sweat. I then looked at the time on my phone and I was only asleep for 30 minutes. I’m having dreams like these far to often each week and I’m starting to hate going to sleep. I started having all these nightmarish dreams for the past year and half and feel as if they are becoming more and more vivid each time. I believe it’s some sort of sleep paralysis but I have had past dreams where I have delt with it and then felt myself being popped out of my body floating up to the ceiling with my breathing sound as if I’m wearing a astronaut helmet looking around the room at myself sleeping but feeling very relaxed when I get to this part I feel as if it all starts with sleep like paralysis then if I pass that all with out having feared it I then go in to an Astral projection sleep. I have only experienced the astral projection a few times but don’t last long nor go far from room in it as it is all quite scary for me.

4 Apr 2024

Dream

My wife and I were sleeping inside some type of group facility. We woke up and we had to wait in line to use the restroom. The facility had designated women's and men's restrooms. My wife put her arms around me and hugged me. She was telling me the reasons why she loved me and it sounded like she might have been repeating something from an audio book she was listening to. I embraced her back by hugged her and keeping arms around her while we talked. We embraced for a moment and then she went into the women's restroom. Right before I was about to enter the men's restroom, I saw my original work mentor. She's about 20 years older than me and already retired. She was waiting in line to use the women's restroom as well. I did not see her husband. I said hello to my memtor with my mouth covered in head slightly turned away from her. I was trying to indicate to her that my breath smelled and I didn't want her to smell my bad breath. I went into the men's restroom. My mentor really had to use the restroom and did not feel like waiting for another lady to exit first the women'srestroom. There was not a wait to enter the men's restroom, so she followed me into the men's restroom. I started to brush my teeth and she sat down on the open toilet next to the sink instead of using a private stall away from the sink. For some reason I didn't have any underwear. I had a long "wife beater" t-shirt on. She was talking to me while I brushed my teeth. She was making small talk asking me how things were going at work. I didnt have any underwear on and I had a slightly morning penis erection. She could see the forn of my penis under the t-shirt and a little bit of the base of my penis. The majority of my penis was hidden underneath my t-shirt. She was sitting on the toilet at eye leve to my penis. She noticed my penis and stared at it briefly before we continued to talk. She asked me how I was doing. I told her fine and then I asked her if she knew that our other colleague Robin was retiring in 2 weeks. She thought it was odd that Robin was retiring.

4 Apr 2024

Dream

For a whole week I had dreams with my boyfriend and them, but every day it was a different dream.

3 Apr 2024

Dream

Last week I had a dream that I was in a desert field with my dog. I was meeting up with someone. Maybe my sister or a lady friend. My dog ran into quick sand. I ran to go rescue her but woke up before I could get there.

28 Mar 2024

Dream

There was a young boy about 5 years old maybe I have no idea who he is but he was looking for his missing twin sister I don't remember much but I remember that he was incredibly smart and did some research until he determined that his sister was maybe still alive and buried somewhere in my school garden so he convinced his parents to take him to my school. once they arrived, me and my classmate where on a lunch break the boy came up to me and asked me if I could dig up a specific spot to find his sister. I agreed, when I was digging up the boy noticed that his sister was buried 11 weeks ago and was probably too late and his sister was all ready dead, and he was right because after a while of digging up I found her dead body. it was so terrifying I woke up immediately

25 Mar 2024

Dream

Two lions were walking through the vast desert, there was a silence between the two, until one dropped dead and the other sat there and sobbed, then it was wolves, and deers, but it was all the same, one died, leaving the other to cry and greive their lose, the world became small in the span of three days, and through the next week everything started to break down, nothing could be fixed, the human existance was nothing but mere history, an omnipotent darkness fell over Earth, the sounds of howling from greif echoed through the air as a strong wind swooped through the Earth, the trees swayed and the leaves fell, the green blades of grass turned burnt and brown, nothing was left.

25 Mar 2024

Dream

I was driving in my husbands 2021 Chevy truck in a random state I had never been and missed my turn. Did a loop and pulled off to this random empty parking lot, it was behind a hobby lobby or old run down target department store with tons of open parking and no one around... I took Emory, my 18month old daughter out of the truck with me and we took the trash from our trip to a nearby dumpster. As I’m walking the trash bag starts to rip. Trash trails behind me, I put my daughter on the ground and off of my hip to start picking up behind myself. From what seems like all four side of me, surrounding me 3 males and 1 female all ranging in ages from 25-34 started laughing and making comments about the trash. How is belonged to the street and I was being too nice. I get to a cement median dividing the parking lot and sit down with my daughter, I’m exhausted and just trying to get to Kurt’s parents house-(Kurt is my husband). I take off my book bag and start to pull out more trash from accidental spill and by this time all four-(what looked like homeless hungry possibly jail community service members ) were hovering overtop of me digging through my trash and wanting to eat anything I had left over, Maybe a sip left of Apple Juice- Week old fries it didn’t matter. I start handing out food scraps not realizing this one young man- possibly about 26, tall (6”1) skinny white dude with dirty blonde hair comes angrily speed walking up behind me, I turn around towards starting to stand up to him. He grabs my writs so tight and in his left hand I see a small sized needle. Before I can throw him off, he stabs my Flexor Pollicis Brevis and I immediately feel a numbness all throughout my hand. He then goes behind me and stabs me with another needle in my upper left shoulder blade. I run back towards Emory whom I find sitting on the older woman’s lap- Emory is crying and foaming a blue color at the mouth. Shes not crying so I assumed the women shoved a drug pill down her mouth. I YANKED EMORY out of her arms and start smacking her on the back to get her airway unblocked. I TRY TO YELL AT THE WOMEN AND MY THROAT JUST BECOMES SO SORE AND CLOSED. We run to the truck and leave. I finally make it to the in-laws place and give Emory water to clean whatever she had in her mouth out. My right hand starts to bubble and blister. Starts bleeding. I immediately call 911 and they send cops over to start asking questions even though all I wanted was an ambulance. The whole family is sitting on the back deck of the second level of the house talking to cops when out of the left corner of the side of the house I see the guy who stabbed me with a needle with a gun running up on us all. I quickly grab Emory and run inside. Then I wake up.

23 Mar 2024

Dream

About two weeks ago, I had a dream that I was in a car with my brother, my brother was the designated driver, he had his girlfriend with him in the passenger seat, and I was sitting in the back. When he started driving, he was driving really fast as we were trying to escape from someone who was chasing us. I couldn’t remember who was chasing us in the dream, but it was somebody who was trying to hurt us. Speed of the vehicle kept progressing, and I begged my brother to stop driving so fast, he ignored what I was asking him to do and kept driving faster and faster. we were in our old neighborhood and he was driving through the grass and the front yards in between each house, and then right as I woke up out of my dream, my brother was calling me on my phone in real- life.

23 Mar 2024

Dream

kind of about eric ig in another universe. briefly shows me / "toni" (short for tonisha i think) meeting and flirting with him for the first time in a theater esque situation at 15. similar shit goes down and i just don't see him after being reprimanded a few months before my 18th things haven't really improved. i'm in a sort of wayward teens program and we're on a field trip. i have a rambunctious beast friend similar to kayla who takes her daily meds but still acts weird. i've mastered the art of not taking i think we're visiting a hospital or living facility of sorts, and i'm aimlessly wandering until i see a familiar name somewhere. i realize he's staying there and don't really tell bff but try to but she's busy talking with one of the male wayward teens she likes. it's kind of a race to evade both building staff and the crew watching the teens but i make it shortly after some religious folks leave the room. i'm panicked thinking he's in hospice but slowly walk in. just by my heels he goes "toni?" i think he's "quenton" in this dream but we sort of awkwardly look at each other before he smiles and we catch up and gossip and he's fine i think just staying in an exclusive residential suite bc he wants to "find himself" and i guess can afford to. at some point things get hot and flirty and kind of weird in the you're still so beautiful but all grown up way but its so sexy to me lol. in the dream some actually ?? stuff happens and bff is there and i think i was just very in real life horny lmao so my dream had a porn like scene anyways it gets back to some sense of reality when again in the dream he leaves halfway through ~activities saying he'll be back and me and best friend cry like wtf but a more normal scene in this hellscape would be i fall asleep after and he says something i can't really decipher and when i wake up he's gone and the alarms are going off in the hospital again my dream gets crazy and there's an action sequence and the hospital explodes ?? but let's say i and some other patients from either program / facility escape without jumping out of a tall ass building. bff somehow makes it out too and she's pissed at me first bc her crush didn't make it out or got bright back to the state custody but we eventually shrug and kind of become street urchins idk if i have family or she does but we spend the next few weeks kind of making the city outside of the "dishonorable youth" program. initially im trying to find him but there are no leads and bff convinces me to give up. it hurts and i wander one more night in a shady alley that's somehow relevant (lmao i think its a college bar area near where he claimed to live during the catching up scene, suggestive / creepy comments and all) and these two east asian guys ask me what a sign says and i'm like "black cherry?" (it looks like a bar) they laugh and speak another language so i walk away and decide that's it, he's gone xmas eve comes, the day before im assuming my / toni's 18th birthday and there's a sliver of hope that there will be a Christmas miracle but im starting to wake up at this point so the last actual dream part was me standing in what was kind of like central park of ny all lit up and i was looking at this really tall light post that's bulb was super bright and i pretended it was a shooting star before bff is like let's get wasted my own ending i think is that i wake up hungover as shit with this guy snapping and going "hello?" and i think he's my shooting star come true on my birthday morning so im like "quin"?? and he says "who?" as the sleepiness leaves my eyes and he's just some college guy from a bar we went to. i blink before smiling and replying "ah, nobody" other parts in the dream that were probably "in order" before my own ending but i couldn't make sense of it in a linear manner include coming back to the hospital that's now in good condition with better security and we make a joke to the receptionists about the incident months prior which makes them confused first then surprised. i think we go the equivalent of jk, oh can we get these drinks? i also think i made note of not seeing his name on the visiting sheet as an option or something so it could have been during the "where's pedo" montage alternative ending i get some sort of real closure? it's been years of no contact atp and i think nye following my 21st and i see him at the event and he sees me. i don't feel the same butterflies and anxiety but just.. weird so i go somewhere less crowded to drink water and this time he followed me. vague small talk, some awkward silences, and then we both say im sorry. and he's like why are u sorry and while i feel like i have a reason i stop and frown and i just don't know. he goes you aren't because you don't need to be and talks about the regret of ruining my adolescence and that's why he ran bc while the night was fun and thrilling it wasn't right and wouldn't end in good for anyone. like how i'm on track in community college after getting my ged (which i mentioned during small talk) and he's in therapy and trying to talk to ppl his age *awkward pained but genuine laughter* we nod and look away nervously while ppl filter in and out of what's probably someone's penthouse kitchen. the ball drop is soon and he says my name and i instinctively look despite feeling ashamed be almost a dog on call, following every command. he says something goofy to lighten the mood but i interrupt and kiss him as the countdown starts. its brief but passionate and at five i go "goodbye, quenton" and run off to the glass/window walls as one approaches. bff is there with u troubled youth boy toy who's turned it around and she grabs my hand and i squeeze back as it's the new year. there's celebration and cheer and yelling and we hug and bff asks "so what's your first resolution" looking her in the eye with a smile and refusing to acknowledge the confused but all too familiar set of eyes i'm sure is on my back "to never look back" toast, cheers, etc noises as she looks confused momentarily but shrugs and smiles bc she may not get it but she /gets it/ and i do too, finally