Truth

13 Jul 2024

Dream

My friends are here..? I was in a place that is the combination of my new middle school, and old elementary school. At the "combination school" I met my old friends, Rahma, Nadine, Aisha, Nasihat, Fayyadh, Shidqi, Danish and nasfi, I am so relieved and happy seeing them again. They were in good condition, I also met Mrs. Asti, we are learning and having fun, I didn't meet hanin yet, Rahma said it's because hanin is going somewhere. I met hayyuma, Ghina, & Sabrina instead. Then I met my new middle school friends, that is, Rijal, Azzam, and others, I also met my older brother Ikmal. Azzam, I, & Rijal are planning to cross the road to go to the masjid, so we sneaked inside a car and drive it, but then a stupid car driver blocked the road, so I went to the wrong road, since I never drove a car, I lost control and ended up crushing some of the road borders, it damaged the front and sides of the car's body, and I realized that this was her car, then after that I was mysteriously teleported back home. Back home I met my mother, but I didn't want to tell her that I broke her car, but I need to tell the truth. So I told her that I broke her car, and I then woke up to real life.

14 Jun 2024

Dream

So last night I had this dream that was kind of about the “end” of the world. It started off with me being at my family home with all of my family there. It was night time and things were going pretty normal. I was with my cousin hanging out in my parents kitchen. When I glanced out the window and saw what looked like meteors falling from the sky, but… something was off/strange about them. It was almost like they weren’t real. There were tons of them; and they all fell straight down in the sky. They had this bright yellow color and it seemed as if they would randomly appear in the sky with several others around it, then fall straight down. The other thing that was strange about them was they almost appeared to spark right as they hit the ground kind of like electricity. Something about them felt man made. I don’t remember the specifics, but I believe it was a holiday and that’s why we were all together. I remember we were watching the news or something that was publicized live about the holiday; then as these meteors started falling it switched over to the news and was shooting out one of those warning signs before two people appeared on the screen announcing a warning and talking about the meteors falling and that it was happening all over the US. I remember my cousin and I started to panic. We ran up to my old room and starting putting together a bag/backpack of clothes and necessities. Apparently we weren’t the only one with same idea. We got all of our family together and started driving. I looked out the car window and remember seeing others panicking and cars almost getting hit by each other or these so called meteors. Fast forward and it’s day time and we are still driving. We are on a dirt road driving with multiple cars in front of us and behind us. I ask where we are going and my dad tells me we are meeting my sister Shantal and her husband. We started to drive out to this river/lake. The road started becoming more like sand as there were small beaches/sand dunes all around us. There were people everywhere with boats of almost ever size. Cars behind us would start to get impatient and go down off the road and onto these beaches trying to get around everyone. Eventually we found them and they had this big red boat. We all got on and started to go. Apparently everyone was told to go to a facility owned by the government for safety. In it, I was separated from most of my family and started doing classes on/about these meteors and how to stay safe. A older man stood in front of the class teaching about safety procedures. I raised my hand and asked about where to go that would be safest during these events. I asked would hiding in a cave or an old mine shaft be good places to go during a meteor shower. He sad no. I was shocked but then asked what would be better. And I was appalled by his answers. They made absolutely no sense and had no real logic behind them. He then asked the class more ways to protect yourself and the class full on believed every word of his and would answer with even more stupid answers and the guy would support them. After we took a test on computers. There were people around us in suits and headphones that were there to keep us on track and to help. As I was going through this test I was furious. These questions were so stupid and didn’t have anything really to do with ways to help you or meteors at all. Some of the questions came with videos and they were so weird. There was something about them that had a sickening/disgusting feeling to them like I shouldn’t be watching them. I had enough and stood up from my chair and yelled “this is so stupid!” The main teacher who was this older lady called me up to her desk for disrupting the class. She wasn’t that ugly physically; but something about her made her extremely ugly and repulsive. She was getting after me for this outburst and trying so hard to convince me what I was learning was right and was truth. By this point I was explosive. I got in her face and spat “you can’t be serious. This is absolute bull shit. None of what you are saying or teaching has anything to do with your safety. You are basically feeding off of people’s fears and insecurities and making a huge profit off of it by feeding them nothing but lies and what they want to see. I had enough… I’m out, and don’t you dare follow me.” And walked out. shortly after I woke up.

24 Mar 2024

Dream

I was on a boat with 3 other people who were my friends. We would get to shore but had to be careful because there were packs of deer who would attack us and bite us. One almost bit me and I was very afraid how it’d hurt but it actually didn’t hurt that much. Then the dream switched to me in my childhood home at night. I see one of my friends from the boat outside my window but there are police cars behind her with their lights. I was afraid the police would hurt me and my family, but they weren’t there for me. It turns out that the two other friends one the boat were pedophiles & Nazis so they were going to jail. They also lived in my neighborhood so when people found out the truth about them they were thankful because they were worried about their own kids. A woman who was my neighbor came up to us with her dog named Bernard and thanked me and my friend for telling the police about them since she had a 10 year old son who could have been a victim. The night was so beautiful in my neighborhood with all the lamp lights and stars. It was a nice ending

3 Mar 2024

Dream

I barely remember bits and pieces since I should've recorded this as I woke up from my accidental 4 hour nap but here it is. I was with another girl and some dude with some sort special abilities or power but I wasn't there as me, rather an entirely different person at least externally. The dude wasn't necessarily like an enemy or antonganist from my point of view/towards me but also wasn't necessarily with or on mine and the other girls side either, like a chaotic neutral kind of character with a little unsure back and forth between goals, intent, motives, and action/behavior. Always difficult to tell and almost fickle in that sense but nothing too worrying for me at least. The three of us ended up together along mine and the other girls 'mission' and journey to do/find something like a truth and I believe shut something no good down. He just kind of ended up there, with intent that was clearly not trying to 'help' us but not necessarily 'against' us either and with his own motives that are more or less unclear but not really threatening so we were oddly comfortable with him in our own ways aside from some occasional bickering and what not. I am unaware of the backstory of the three of us and our affiliations with each other but I knew that much as far as how we all got on with each other and what we know of each other's characters. For some reason I couldn't physically stand at first, in a wheelchair and something had happened in front of me a ways away that I wanted to see out of disbelief and like a hope. It seemed like an act of kindness and positive change being shown from the random people idly there and I remember feeling disheartened just a moments before this with a lack of confidence and insecurity with my own capabilities and luck. He knew this and seemed to try to lift my confidence and hopes up in his own subtle though direct way. Seeming satisfied when I without any help quickly stood up and managed to even walk a little towards the scene which brought on a lot of emotions in me and determination. There was a time skip to me, him, and the other girl ending up in this giant flooded sewer like area where normally people aren't supposed to be for many safety reasons as well as it not being built for that. The water was practically up to our chest and really strong and big like waves, it was scary but I remained nearly unfazed by fear as we waded through the gushing water into the next section of nothing really different. There was a different little opening though quite big to the side like that of a sewer system that had a red light illuminating it to a high powered fan that would indefinitely kill us if we ended up there. I got stuck somehow being pushed by the water towards that opening and getting dangerously close to the terrifying death trap that was, I was panicking and anxiously yelling "guys-!..." in a way that was more alerting rather than a plead for help. They stopped in their tread and looked back, the other girl with a worried expression and the guy with an alerted expression though the guy had managed to very quickly make his way towards me and manage to save me somehow (probably with the help of his questionable strength and mysterious abilities) he helped me out and towards the other girl where we were supposed to be more or less on our way to wherever we were going. The other girl let out a relieved sigh with a faint smirk as she said to me, "You seem to be constantly helped by him"(something along those lines with the same concept and leading tone). I felt a little embarrassed and irritated with myself at the notice of that and realization of my incapabilities in comparison to them, ultimately feeling a little flustered and embarrassed but also really insecure about possibly not being independent or self-reliant and capable enough. I am always quite independent and self-reliant and with every intention to be at all costs but this made it seem as if it weren't enough to be or at least wasn't in these moments. There was more but it gets more difficult to explain further on and more difficult to remember accurately as it is very detailed to begin with and complex. My conscienceness kept going from in the dreaming state to being more aware and in tune of 'reality' and waking life though never actually waking up, more so like just my mind but I never really opened my eyes or felt the rest of my body wake up like such regardless. Due to this it felt like my conscienceness was being pulled in and out of the dream similarly to that of waking up and revisiting/recontinueing the same dream the next time you fall asleep, making it feel like such without having actually.

9 Feb 2024

Dream

My sisters daughter was saying something over and over and I said shut up and then my sister said see I told you she was going to act like that and then I said stop lying to your kids about me i don’t have a problem with my niece and nephews you need to tell them the truth of why I’m staying away and what you have been doing to me spiritually and physically and I woke up

7 Feb 2024

Dream

The dream setting was in the cafeteria at the primary school. It was me and four or five men that was working there. No kids were there at the time to eat. We were all playing around with each other like laughing, running and talking. I remember a small fire happened on the grill and one of the men looked at it and I started snickering. He got in trouble for it so I ran off lol. But then all us stood in the lunchroom waiting for the manager to come. Then I heard one of the guys saying to my crush “And that’s why you’ll know if it’s the truth or not.” The way that he said it was very vocal and he was serious about it. I was curious on who the man was talking about. I notice that my crush was brown skin but he was still mixed with something because of his hair. He had a small-medium piercing on his notice and I just kept looking at him. He was very handsome. Then I seen a small spider and the colors were lilac (purple), apricot (orange) and rose pink. Then I seen it on my shoulder squish down so I was confused. It stay on my shirt and it blended in with it.

6 Feb 2024

Dream

I found out a man was sexually assaulting kids. I caught him and interrogated him. He was trying to leave but my neighbors caught him because he also assaulted their daughter. I forcefully made him tell the truth. My dream started over again but instead of interrogating him, it was a girl I caught instead and I walked her all the way to the police station. I woke up before we got there.

6 Feb 2024

Dream

We were in a hotel. I was with some girls at a table all the way up and some girl didn't believe me something. So I said that I would order cocktails to prove to her that I was telling the truth because if I drink just a few drinks I'll be really drunk and tell the truth. she agreed with that and waited for me to order some But when the waitress came and asked us for our order, I hadn't decided yet what I wanted and I asked her to come again later. She never came and the girls were very, very upset with me. I applied lip liner at the table and the girls were judging me. I went with a friend, I went down the elevator. We were looking for something, but we didn't find it. Then we went on a boat and it malfunctioned. The motor was broken so we had to get off and go on land and go by foot. We had a bunch of things like water, a few snacks, and I put a bottle in my bag. The girl that was leading our group told us we were not going to stop for food or drinks or even the bathroom. You will just walk. I actually told her that I had to pee in the next 30 minutes so I was gonna pee and she was okay with that. We then walked and were in the forest and we saw two people sitting on a, I don't know, on some wood. And they didn't see us, which was crucial because Because we were watching live events play out that were from the past and if we would interfere the events would change everything in the future. The people we were watching were part of our group, so it was even more important that they didn't see each other because your future version is not allowed to meet your past version. It would confuse the past version way too much. I got woken up by the doorbell.

2 Feb 2024

Dream

The first dream I was transferred to the other Youth Prison to have a look. Some of the old boys tha used to be at my residence were there. They were well looked after, it felt like a holiday programme more than a Youth prison. The boys rooms felt like a genuine young boys room, with drawers, posters, a small TV. All of the essentials in the boys rooms were all secondhand but it made such a big difference. The boys felt like they were able to be young boys instead of criminals. The second dream started in the centre of a township, where me and my ex best friend found our other old friend and her long-term partner eating at the centre. Her and her partner were displaying signs of drug abuse as they started dribbling halfway through their sentences. At one point my two friends left me with her partner to get drinks with a car load they flagged down who were work colleagues of hers. Her partner then proceeded to lead back to a house where he tried to take advantage of me and started kissing on my neck. I refused to be apart of it and stormed out of the house to be met by my friends outside screaming at me and accusing me of cheating with her partner. I fought and yelled back telling her I had no part in it and it was all him, yelling at him to tell the truth to her and admit it was him. She continued to scream and abuse us both for cheating, and her scream was that of pure trauma and horror. When she confronted me accusing me of cheating with her man, i swore on my dead child life, which in reality i had a miscarriage, that i didnt touch him or provoke that behaviour and it was all him. But it felt like it fell on deaf ears and she just continued to abuse her partner. She started acting him to the point the family had to get involved and seperate them, but she continued to physcial harm him. Before i chose to leave because i didnt want anything to do with this toxic situation, as i was leaving i took one last look at the fightinf couple and she had smashed a huge liquor bottle into his head where i believe she had stabbed it into his skull. I walked away in disbelief and had no fear in facing her if i were to become her next target because i didnt do anything wrong and felt strongly about my innocence that i wasnt scared. I carried on walking through a small township i wasnt very familiar with and noticed a small creek tgat led to the ocean and a graveyard littering both sides of the bank. I felt like ive sene it before but carried on my journey. I then came across a gang member gathering and walked beside one who seemed like he knew who i was and made a light joke after a greeting. I carried on after greeting after him and the gang member walking infront of me looked familiar and i then called his name and surprised it was my old physcial life work collegue. The third dream was my partner, myself, my mother, my sister, my friend and her family of 4 living together. My partner arrives with a set of twin baby girls and says he just found out these are his kids and the mother doesnt want them. So we take them in, and i feel a sense of jealousy in me. Although i feel jealous, i still care for them as if they were any ither child. It feels like a few weeks passed in the dream and as we loaded my partners babies, and ny friends kids into the car and start driving i asked my partner "have you named the girls yet?" and he laughed and said no, i replied "why not? Its been ages since you got them, they cant just go around having no name" but i could tell he didnt show interest in the children due to him not really planning or wanting them. So i said its okay, ill name them and coddled them. My last dream was in an old house that had no residence in it. A tall dark man in a cloak entered and playfully told me to put my ear to the floor and tell him what i feel. As i placed my ear on the floor it immediately feels warm, it gave me a slight fright where i came up and looked at him and he laughed and said "Thats Hell." so i did it again and now aware of what it was, i could feel the heat and hear the rumble and crackle of fire underneath the floor. He then comes over and hurries me to open all the windows and doors before it gets too hot in here. Without warning he leads the opening of the house, and starts digging at the flooe to open it. I feel a slight panic at the idea if i dont open the house up were gonna get killed by Hell's fire and had a bit of difficulty keeping them open. Thankfully i managed them open as the floor opened into Hell, and i felt a wave of relief when i realized Hell's fire isnt as hot as i thought it might be

31 Jan 2024

Dream

I had a dream where my mom got really furious with me for some reason that I didn’t know about. She didn’t even explain to me as to why she is mad at me and begin to hit me with a wooden spoon. She kept on yelling as she hit me multiple times until the bruises begin to show up on my skin. She hit me hard enough to make the bruises to start bleeding a bit. My mom then fistfully grips my hair very hard and yelled at me that nothing good will happen to me and that she hated for how I was behaving. I had endured the pain I felt when she hit me and when she grabbed my hair. I didn’t even cry because I knew what she said was the truth. She did this to me while my younger sister and brother went out with my dad to go to Costco to buy some groceries and some snacks.

21 Jan 2024

Dream

I was in some kind of problem, and I can't remember the truth. I went in and slept with in my grandparents house in the room where my mother is currently sitting. My cousin Youssef was coming in and out, and I slept crying and praying it was all a dream. *Ironically it was actually a dream* When I woke up, I found Youssef bouncing on the bed, but he was still very young, and his face was not as pale as now, with blood running through it, and he was sitting laughing and joking with me. I woke up laughing at him, and looking around, I found his other cousin’s children sleeping on the bed next to me. Omar is still alive, but He doesn't walk, and Muhammad walks like in the past, wearing a purple pullover that I used to see a lot of. I looked at my hands for a long time. I was surprised that I was young again, and my entire life was running in front of me at once. At that time, I told myself that this time, I would never make the same mistakes again. We returned home. As soon as I went, I went to my closet. I threw away all the clothes I didn’t want, and my mother was fighting with me because she didn’t like that. I told her that I was free to wear what I wanted, and I kept wearing the clothes that made me comfortable. More than once, mom and dad were fighting with me. I didn’t care. One time, my father brought me a picture from his mobile phone of me, Nada, and my cousin, wearing clothes that looked like each other and carrying my brother Islam, and he said to me, “Look, how beautiful you were?” I told him "I wasn't pretty, I was upset, look at me?" I left him and sat fooling around in the house. We went out and went to the Orman Garden. It was time for the flower exhibition, and I had a lot of money for it. I asked them to let me get some plants at my convenience (at this age, in fact, I was afraid to ask them for anything, even if I needed it for school). I grabbed my mother’s hand and started buying a lot of things. Then I told her to come with me to see the lotus lake under the moonlight because today is the International Moon Day (a strange thing, yes), and somehow I suddenly grew up. I was 14 years old. My father used to fight with me and hit me because he wanted me to wear the hijab (in fact, I hijabed very young. Maybe 10 years), I called the police for him, and they took him away and he did not appear again throughout the dream. My mother kept cursing at me and fighting with me. I told her that if she laid her hand on any of us, I would do the same to her too. In the dream, I was aware and thinking of everything that had happened to me in my life. I was thanking God that I had not made the mistakes I had made before, and I knew that I was about to meet Sarah and Reem. I was thinking that I would not talk about anything that might cause me problems. No. Sexual transience and no religious ideas, until I can get rid of them. But still, I was living my age in some way. I started playing and bouncing at my leisure again, going out alone as I liked, doing everything I loved, until I met Reem and Sarah on the same day. Somehow, they both knew me, and they were both on a trip similar to mine, restarting their lives again. I completely ignored Sarah, while Reem asked me to forgive her and start over. I told her that I would never go back to her again, because what happened in my previous life with her was enough for me. She told me, “But we are changing, and in your new life you have changed. Give me a chance to change too.” I shook my head and continued on my way from alone. The dream began to get very distorted here. My family, somehow, all of them suddenly disappeared, and I was locked in our house again. I have no idea why. This time, no one locked me, but the door of the house would not open no matter how hard I tried. It was a completely incomprehensible turn of events. I entered my room and locked the door. Another time, as I was when I was imprisoned by my family in the house in real life, I started crying and cutting my notebooks and books, and I tried to commit suicide more than once, but I failed, all of that actually happened in real life when my parents locked me in the house. I was looking for my mobile phone everywhere, maybe I could talk to someone who would let me out. I found it, but it was out of charge. I turned the whole house on a charger that I couldn't find. I kept trying to remember my grandfather's house number so I could call him from the landline. I was completely unable. I went out to the balcony and the sun was still rising. I kept calling out for someone to come help me, and I woke up like that.

20 Jan 2024

Dream

My niece Myla was murdered by her father. He crushed her skull to death. My two cats died. My mums dog Molly died. Everyone was just dying. I thought I had a bag of old clothes from my niece but they were from my mums friend's kid instead. I couldn't go through a sentence without crying because she died at only 11. She was too young. My mum asked if i saw it coming and i told her the truth: yes i did, I've thought Myla's dad was dangerous since i was little. While dealing with all this I was trying to solve a mystery with my friends. We were sneaking into this guys hotel room to get clues.