Stuff

12 May 2024

Dream

I am organizing stuff. My mother in law is using a label maker but I tell her I don’t usually do that. But I am considering it after seeing her use it.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

My ex and I were in the apartment that we rented together, he was getting his stuff and we were talking, getting along fine until we weren’t. He said something that made me mad and we started fighting, but I walked away.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

I was driving to work , realized I forgot something at home and went back to get it . When I got home I went into my bedroom to get whatever it was that I had forgot and found my ex girlfriend thier , we talked about something and then kissed for a bit after that we went into the kitchen where my mom was and we all talked about stuff I can’t remember what we talked about but I was happy and excited and relieved that my ex girlfriend came back to me . But out of knowwhere my mom and my ex girlfriend started acting like best friends and hinting that my ex stayed the night last night and I never knew and then I found out that she had moved on very soon after the relationship and that angered me immensely and I then yelled at her to leave and to explain herself but she went silent and would not speak and my mom was taking her side and not explaining either since it was implied she knew as well but neither would say anything. At the end of the dream I was yelling at them to explain and crying I don’t remember much after that but i woke up from my dream soon after

9 Apr 2024

Dream

i dyed my hair from black to white, my mom tried to break into my room and she did and then starts messing with my stuff and then she messes with something that’s dangerous, a lot of little kids and a lot of dogs try to break into my room they are pushing onto my door then the little kids are then sticking objects inside of my vagina little kids raping me with objects

9 Apr 2024

Dream

i dyed my hair from black to white, my mom tried to break into my room and she did and then starts messing with my stuff and then she messes with something that’s dangerous, a lot of little kids and a lot of dogs try to break into my room they are pushing onto my door then the little kids are then sticking objects inside of my vagina

8 Apr 2024

Dream

I was with some friends and we were walking thought this place that was sort of a mix between a house and an apartment building. We were checking out different rooms and some were too messy and we said how we wouldn’t stay there and some rooms we said were too small. We also found some clothes and decided to take them and wear them. Then some of us ended up walking to this common room type area. There were a good amount of people and a bunch of them I had seen earlier in my dream but didn’t know, some I knew and some were strangers. There was this dude that set up parties or something and he was talking to people. At some point some people took some edibles and I asked if I wanted one and I said no because I quit weed since it made me anxious. I still hung out with them and we walked to the woods or something and just explored. It started to become a nightly thing where we all gathered and people would drink and do drugs. We all sort of lived in that big area where I first met everyone and there were all the clothes and food we needed. At first all I would do was drink alcohol but I started to join in when they did acid and other pills. It was fun but I also didn’t know if I was making the right decision doing them. Everyone else was all the time though so I thought it would be fine. I would get up the next day and barely remember anything from the night before. Some days I had absolutely no recollection of the previous day. I was having fun but I also didn’t like how I was always out of it and never remembered anything. We had a poll on where to have some big party and we decided on a big party in the woods. We were all drinking and stuff but then for some reason the party became a competition and we were fighting some people but I don’t remember why. We didn’t fight everyone just certain people. I remember me and one of my friends were talking to the main guy and there were two dudes we were competing agains and both of our groups wanted to win. I decided I wanted to get it over with so I put one of them in a choke hold and we started fighting. I would be winning for a minute then he would be winning for a tiny bit but I ended up doing better as I could grab him from behind and stop him from moving. The right ended when I knocked him over and slammed something on his head and broke his nose. The other people were impressed and I was like, I think I broke my finger, oh well. Then everything went back to how it had been and it turned into nightly parties after that again and everyday felt like a blur. I couldn’t remember what happened when and where we were each night. We would go to cool places and party in mansions or at concerts. After a while the parties sort of stopped and we were apparently supposed to decide what we would be doing from now on. Like what we would be doing with our life. Everyone was splitting up and I was sad. Some people could go with one person from the group but some people had to go alone. There were a bunch of different tables with people at them sort of like a career fair but we had to end up choosing one. Some choices would be something like fly to different places often, never have a specific home because you’re always traveling. One was like working on boats by the woods we had a party at and stay in the area. One was joining the main dude in charge and help him prepare parties. One was an astronaut and go into space and leave earth behind. They were all really weird and there ended up being a point system or voting to decide what you get. I didn’t have as many points as some people so I didn’t get to pick first and I was stressed because I didn’t want to do any of the options but I had no choice.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

My dream was about my old crush and he decided to unblock me and he saw all the text I sent will I was blocked and he showed them to me and said look at all these what are these and I told asked him to not read them I begged because I used it as a way to vent and it had som personal stuff but then I went back into class and at lunch time and me and my friend decided to not go out to recces and stay in which is the worst thing to do in my school but we did and one of the recces lady's told our teacher and he came down and dragged us back to class and gave use 2 think sheets and those are little papers that say how bad we where and our parents have to sign and those are the worst punishment ever And that's the day I was super sad or just not talking to the teacher and the teacher was like you're not acting how you would act today and then I woke up.

7 Apr 2024

Dream

why last night (in the process of writing about it right after it happened) in my dresm a lot of scary stuff happened like horrifying screamings and saying stuff like "yes the bombing happend then and then" while hurting me, but i also couldnt move and my eyes would close when it happened while the feelingof slowly zooming in i used to have dreams like this all the time like this when i was younger, (7-13) which made me grow to not be scared of it, bc the only way to get out of the dream is learn to  not be afraid  not be scaredwhen it happens which has been easy bc i know what to look for when i know its one of thosd demonic dreams, idk if this is a demon interfering with my dreams or something but when something like this happens it feels so real  everything the pain, pitch screaming, zooming in feeling, fear, and esspasilly the bombing at my school, due to the dream started with the dsy of school with my brother saying "i heard there was gonna be a bombing today" even though the bombing didnt happen until after school with this women throwing them and hurt my friends bc the police wouldnt let us run as it was happening making me have fo trip and jump over prople to survive

6 Apr 2024

Dream

Me, my cousin Malia, and my grandma Aba were wedding dress shopping for my aunt Courtney. I'm not sure why we were wedding dress shopping for her because she's already married but we were. We were smelling perfumes and I really liked the way one smelled and it was only 10 dollars and 47 cents and I had 4 dollars and 97 cents so I asked Aba if she could spare me the other 5 dollars to get the perfume and she was like "Hmmm, I don't know. I have to get thi Beef jerky." And the wedding dress store was inside a gas station and she was looking at this shelf that had a bunch of random stuff on it like beef jerky, already filled up blue raspberry icees, and other things. I was like "Okay." And then went to wander around the gas station. And in the gas station was also a bookstore so I was walking around shelves of books and I saw one of my friends and her friend and they were like trying to avoid me and she was whispering to her friend "We'll have to go left, right, around the bouncy house, and over the shelf to avoid Amaree." And I just thought that it was stupid and childish that they were avoiding me but I didn't really care. And then Malia comes next to me and says "They're obviously avoiding you." And then I walked around looking at more books when I noticed that my friend and her friend were right behind me trying to stay hidden but I noticed them so my friend started running and went past me

6 Apr 2024

Dream

i drove to my exs house without telling him and when i got there he wouldn’t let me in and so i tried to leave with my car but kept running over stuff and ran over a dog then i decided to walk home instead and then i got a spam call saying i got a virus and someone has hacked my phone

6 Apr 2024

Dream

In this dream at first it was really dumb. At first in the dream I was just thinking of a show we are bear bears and thinking about how cute the bears stack on top of each other and then started thinking about different cartoony and stuff animal looking creatures stacking on top of each other. I then realize that I was spacing out looking out the window in my room. I start hearing fighting and people arguing outside my house. I start to pay attention to what was happening and I see three men two of them were arguing, one of the men pull out a gun and shoots one men multiple times in the stomach. The man that got shot slowly starts falling on to the floor. Another man pulls out a bigger gun and completely kills the man on the floor. After seeing that happen I was in shock I just witnessed a murder. I then realize that I’m in trouble since the two men saw me looking out my window. I hear them heading into my house. I turn off the lights and pretend to be asleep, one of the men go into my room and they shoot one of my curtains and it falls. He gets close to me, I thought I either was going to get shot or raped. The man touches my arm and leaves the room. I’m frozen in my bed, I thought maybe he thinks I’m dead, or maybe he is sparing me for some reason. I hear the other man in the hallway in front of my room saying to go to the attic where my older brother was. It was like they were gathering my family members in the living room to execute them. I hear my aunt’s voice downstairs in the living room and I couldn’t tell if she was the one giving the men orders or a victim. I was really worried about my family I did not know what to do, I was scared, but I later started to realize that it was not real, it was a nightmare

5 Apr 2024

Dream

I remember one of the first dresms was inside my backyard Inwasndoingnsokerhint where inessntrtijgntongonogrrbthrnbrifkneslln but then after that I went to the table at the end of our backyard with my mom to spray paint on my clothes and a police helicopter dropped red paint all over me for some reason, I had to leave the house in the car to a grey day concert that my sister was talking about in the car there were so many people staring at me with the red spray paint but Indidnt care on the freeway the entire time that we’d do so I got into the car rolling the window down I remember when I went into the lobby area for the freeway race there was other people inside the girls locker room/ lobby aka preparation area and I had my things set down there next to tape so then I went and kept talking to people inside the locker room waiting going back and forth, and then when I got back in there was someone who I used to know before who was In my past but I didn’t care about them and then they came over to me trying to get my attention through doing things negatively, but Injust didn’t respond and got my stuff to change and get ready to go, while I left for one minute to the bathroom when I came back she was asking me questions like “Why would you do this to my own things huh? You care so much about myself that your a lesbian dyke reorganizing my shit.” and it was just my things coming back covered with tape on it next to hers which she purposefully stepped on to gather onto her clothes and my bags open which she unlogivslly somehow equated to me investigating her stuff , she was trying to get everyone else’s attention on her to create a problem, but then i responded calmly explaining how I don’t really care and that those things is clearly a problem with herself that she’s trying to projecting onto my life to make herself feel better about from putting me through making me look like i’m harassing her as the victim , she basically got upset from my non chalantness and everyone else inside of the room realized the situation from how i responded and just started ignoring her and acting like she was crazy, I didn’t care and I went out onto the kayaking boats on the freeway and while I was there, and inside the boats on the freeway she got next to mine and started saying in public “I’m still upset because I can’t believe you tried to steal my stuff” and then in response to that I started screaming since she was trying to get me evicted that l know she’s just lying about it when I only had my things next to her and had tape on my own yet she’s still trying to cause a fight about it because she’s determined to try and get me out because you just want to fight she hasn’t been relevant in my life for years and is still trying to live off of that to take advantage of it, when I said that everyone else was like “Oh girl. You should fight her back, Because if that was me.” and I remember instead of fighting defending myself to listen to them which got skyla to shut up and got them in trouble anyways while we were on the kayak boats after we accidentally got onto a escalator exit ramp that leads to the inside of a mall, i went inside there and there was a square room and as I kept progressing I was just in my thoughts relaxing but then I saw a girl who was crying in the middle of the escalator outside of the escalator on the sides of the room and I saw she was hurt so i went to her and hugged her saying “It’s ok.” and she kept crying, but then eventually after hugging her for a while after resting on my shoulders the entire time she said “You’re arms feel really strong.” and I got off from hugging her and she said “Oh your not the muscular man I was thinking.” and then I said “Yeah it’s because I have spray paint all over my hesd and body, but i’m ‘spanish.” I walked off smiling and I saw her happier and then when I went off the kayaking and down the escalator inside of the malll outisifenthe ecidt, I saw a group of my friends there ordering food and as I was trying to go to them to rrr was this man at the msll who was a security guard who I knew before that’s always trying to cause problems with me and to all my friends so he stood next to me and was about to do something but then he looked forward and saw the tripe double cheeseburger 49 he was obsessed with and he couldn’t stop staring at it so I just slowly left at the car for when we were going to the grey day concert my sister said, actually first what happened is we were all inside of this big bike neighborhood and it had a zoo inside, this neighborhood was for really good people in a community made by those who were well off, and as I got lost, before I got lost running out and going away from the people who dictate that I remember I went inside the original place and they said that we are a nuisance, as our family used to be one of the main leaders for that but now we’re in deep poverty which is ruining our reputation and image, and the image of them, so they couldn’t have us there but we’re deeply disgusted and dissapointed, and I said to them but does that dictate anything about us, and when my aunt was begging them around community she said yeah it does so i started going inside the place since this was the enterance to the community to find a way out away from them and I saw on my own a bunch of neighborhoods with people running bikes on each house, yet I was just trying to find a way out, and eventually when it got bad to a point where ai didn’t have much time left, I had to take someone’s bike to get out but I felt too bad stealing someone’s bike so I instead of ran all the way around the zoo area to find my house and get out of the dead end, and I did but it was behind and outside of the community entirely and when I got back we were in such poverty some homeless man tried stealing our car and things, so instead of pushing him out what I did was cooperate and say “Here instead of taking those things why don’t you take this,” and gave him 3 things and as I was gonna give more I said hold on and went back to the kitchen to grab pepper spray and a knife and came back spraying it to him to get him out with just those 3 items and he ran off but yet still broke the car door off our car and was so determined, but eventually we spoke through to him and he went up to us offering to help and then as we were leaving he just started stsying there helping out with the house too, and as I went into the backyard that’s when the spray paint thing happened etc, in the car with my mom once me and my sister got dropped off to the end of the freeway we were supposed to wait for my cousin and my aunt and mom to take us but what ended up happening is my sister had to take mom and my aunts car t the place but my cousin who said she was coming was apparently about to kayak me there, so waiting for her I looked everywhere on both sides for both the boats but I couldn’t find her, and I didn’t message her thinking communicating would send me back even further on time, so I just looked and after that I found one of the people from my school so I was going to get alisha and me to go into a kayak there on the freeway but then I went to the bathroom to check if she was there but then I saw someone else inside thet bathroom with their own stuff sitting half naked with shit in front of them and they were telling me about how they had a horrible day right now and were almost violently shitting inside that tub but I didn’t judge them instead I tried being understanding and said that sucks from how hard it’d be for them and that I thought they were actually my cousin at first but they were looking up to me having a conversation and then when I came back out I realized the kayaks were gone so i tried to call alisha but realized she had to go to the grey day concert without me so I was left back and abandoned by everyone else who was going to take me to there