Soccer

15 Jul 2024

Dream

what the fuck is my dream recording okay so I said that tonight I went out with a friend to have dinner and it happened to be the night of the soccer game and we met this guy named Alex but he was friend with another guy named Kenny and Kenny was a fucking weirdo and he tried to get with me all night he kept saying oh I'm attracted to her I'm attracted to her aka me but like my friend had an a-line silhouette skirt and she was so cute and I was wearing like a sweatpants and a crop top and anyways he was like had eyes on her all night and At the end of the night, when we had to go home like 4 or 5 a.m., he didn't pay for our Uber and I honestly expected that behavior because I heard from his friend that he was unemployed. So, honestly, I'm not surprised. But my friend, she was like, oh, I didn't expect that behavior, like he was trying to take care of us all night, even against weirdos. I was like girl you look like a baddie right now and I'm like so mid and he obviously is looking at you all night but okay you don't you don't see that so I get that but anyway so he didn't pay for uber so I had to pay like 130 to go home he didn't pay for it and I was like you're a fucking loser and I blocked him

8 Jul 2024

Dream

My dream was of a soccer match where Italy was playing England in Italy. The game was going back-and-forth, the Italian friends were chanting like crazy but the game ended up in a tie. Either way the but fans seemed to enjoy the game. After the game finished, there was a finale performance, the stadium transformed into a tall house and me and many of the other fans were in this big living room. as the performance was going on there was a point where the the lady performing turned into this big gorilla that had a bunch of bananas and selected me to be the special guest by putting a banana in my mouth. as the banana was in my mouth, the gorilla/performer was asking me questions that I wasn’t able to answer because the bananas in my mouth and so I would just be making noises and everyone would be laughing and I was fine with that. Gradually, the questions again began to become more serious, asking me personal questions about my relationship with myself. They were asking me questions about if I was holding anything back from myself. Anything that I was keeping inside myself that I wasn’t allowing to be expressed outwardly, and honestly I couldn’t think of anything. I don’t think I have anything that I’m holding within me that I should be releasing out. The performing gorilla asked me if there’s anything scary about myself that I found that I want to share and yet again, I honestly couldn’t find anything. dream transition to me looking at myself in the mirror. As I begin looking at myself in the mirror, I started to split from myself, so it was as the awareness of myself removed itself from my body and what was left was that awareness looking at my body in the reflection. My awareness was being touched by my physical body, and then my physical body trying to attack my awareness by sucking itself into me. I was stronger than my physical body and pinned my physical body down my. in the dream I was confused because I didn’t know which part of me was the good Jantzen. The good Jantzen which was the awareness or was it the body I was pinning down. I was conflicted and I didn’t like having to fight myself.

8 Jul 2024

Dream

My dream was of a soccer match where Italy was playing England in Italy. The game was going back-and-forth, the Italian friends were chanting like crazy but the game ended up in a tie. Either way the but fans seemed to enjoy the game. After the game finished, there was a finale performance, the stadium transformed into a tall house and me and many of the other fans were in this big living room. as the performance was going on there was a point where the the lady performing turned into this big gorilla that had a bunch of bananas and selected me to be the special guest by putting a banana in my mouth. as the banana was in my mouth, the gorilla/performer was asking me questions that I wasn’t able to answer because the bananas in my mouth and so I would just be making noises and everyone would be laughing and I was fine with that. Gradually, the questions again began to become more serious, asking me personal questions about my relationship with myself. They were asking me questions about if I was holding anything back from myself. Anything that I was keeping inside myself that I wasn’t allowing to be expressed outwardly, and honestly I couldn’t think of anything. I don’t think I have anything that I’m holding within me that I should be releasing out. The performing gorilla asked me if there’s anything scary about myself that I found that I want to share and yet again, I honestly couldn’t find anything. dream transition to me looking at myself in the mirror. As I begin looking at myself in the mirror, I started to split from myself, so it was as the awareness of myself removed itself from my body and what was left was that awareness looking at my body in the reflection. My awareness was being touched by my physical body, and then my physical body trying to attack my awareness by sucking itself into me. I was stronger than my physical body and pinned my physical body down my. in the dream I was confused because I didn’t know which part of me was the good Jantzen. The good Jantzen which was the awareness or was it the body I was pinning down. I was conflicted and I didn’t like having to fight myself.

3 Jul 2024

Dream

I had to get my car Towed and the name of the towing company was called Catskill. I stayed at person‘s house who allow me to stay there while my car got towed and when I was sleeping on the sofa of their house, they’re black cat and white cat wouldn’t leave me alone. It slept on me right on my back as if it were hugging me and wouldn’t get off of me even though I wanted it too. I had a dream that I was arriving to my godmother‘s house in Brazil again since I’ve already been there once and I knew how to get there. I arrived at night, walked across the bridge to the hotel, went to the second floor and took took a car that dropped me off at her house. It was raining outside during the day, and I struggled to tip the driver because I had my hands full with my luggage and wet in the rain, but I ended up giving him five Brazilian dollars as he went away when he pulled away, I went to enter the house and noticed that when I went to get the money for my pocket and put down my bag, I put it in a puddle and got everything wet and I also noticed that I brought a wrong bag. I brought a soccer bag with soccer balls, which wasn’t I wanted to wanted to bring. Dream transition to me being at the music festival where I got to see my girlfriend, but also stay at the house she was staying at with her best friends who are also attracted, but I wasn’t as attracted to them as I was to her. We were trying to figure out how to get from the campsite to the festival and decided to take a bus when I got to the bus station. It was just me and it was pouring rain. There’s no coverage and I was getting soaked and I was really cold waiting for the bus with some other people when the bus eventually did come I wasn’t able to get on the bus because other people pushed past me and filled up the bus. This Left me a little disappointed and even more cold. I ended up walking to the next bus stop to see if I could get luckier there as it was on the corner of the street. While waiting, a family next to me decided to call a self driving car to pick them up and bring them to their spot. for some reason I was able to get on and we made a pitstop at a fast food Restaurant. while we were there, there was a guy sitting across from us who I felt like I talked to day day prior and he was trying to get his life together and rid himself of his negative habits which he was struggling to do. I could tell that he was falling apart at this fast food restaurant. He wasn’t eating, he was stuffing food in his mouth. You could tell he wasn’t being mindful with his decisions, and he even tried to steal two boxed water bottles. I was disappointed with him because he shared with me the day before that he wanted to get himself together but He wasn’t taking actions to do that. Then my vision in the dream transition to thousands of white rabbits running through a simulated pasture together in unison and a voice of my hand said that these rabbits can take you exactly where you want to go. I asked how could they know exactly where I want to go? And the voice said that these rabbits have watched hundreds of recordings of individuals and that they know what we will be doing before we know. One step forward, one step back one step left.

2 Jul 2024

Dream

I was at a buffet with my sister for dinner at night. her and I were in the front of the line waiting to get salmon that was being offered, but there was a hold up because my sister wasn’t old enough to get salmon which I found strange. Either way, I ended up getting salmon And putting some on her plate as well. The dream transition to me being at a cemetery with my grandma on my dad’s side who had passed away and a man I’ve never met before who seemed to be my great grandfather. My great grandfather was old and frail using a walking stick. I was helping him walk down the stairs of the cemetery by holding his body and hand. as we were walking down my grandma and my great grandfather were talking about a flood that had affected the area a little while ago. All of a sudden, my great grandfather started getting a weaker and more frail, and started to slowly collapse. The dream transition before he collapsed. The dream then turned into me playing baseball on Wii sports with someone, but I wasn’t able to hit any of the pitches that were thrown to me and I ended up going the whole game without scoring. even though it was frustrating wasn’t too upset because the game ended in a tie, zero to zero. Then all of a sudden I was playing football in a football stadium and my team was losing and I couldn’t do much about it, which was frustrating. We ended up losing the game. afterwards I found myself playing a game of soccer against some younger Italian kids and again I was frustrated because we’re losing to kids I know I should’ve been able to beat

29 Jun 2024

Dream

I was playing soccer in a team. I told coach that my cousin is participating and in the olympics but I tried showing her instagram not pictures of her showed up I was in a loop of photos where people were just blowing smoke. I would be stuck scrolling the same kind of pics. And no matter what I could not find my cousin performing. I worried I would be lying.

24 Jun 2024

Dream

I’m retiring from teaching and have been asked to say some nice things about the PTA President for their fundraiser event, and talk about all the money they have raised for the school. The celebration is outside so everyone is very casual. First I am supposed to bring up the principal to introduce him. When I say his name u cannot remember it. I am very embarrassed and end up just calling him principal. I continue to tell everyone about the funds that were raised to build a science lab all with money from selling cup cakes. I talk with teachers afterwards who like fun at me and try to give me the principals false name and I acknowledge that their joke is funny but I know that it is not his real name. In another dream I am with a group of teachers and we stand in a long line to purchase ice cream from a lady who creates amazing ice cream creations. We wait at a table and also decide to order some lunch. The menu is very small and I gave to search for my classes to read the menu. It’s hard to pick something and the other teachers tell me they are ordering soup, but I don’t want soup because it is too hot for soup. One of the teachers has a friend show up and says yay finally my friend is here. It makes me feel weird because I tought I was her friend and why couldn’t she talk to me. I don’t say anything about it and just smile at the new friend. After a long wait the lady brings the ice cream creations to the table. All of them look amazing and delicious. She’s padding out all the ice cream and is about to walk away and I ask her where my dish is. She asks me what I ordered and I don’t remember. I dig through my purse to find my receipt and cannot read it without my glasses. I hand her the receipt and she reads it and returns to her kitchen. I tell everyone that I am just going to cancel my order because I don’t want to have to wait again. I realize that I have forgotten my tennis shoes that I will later need to play soccer. I watch everybody eat their beautiful ice cream creations. Even the girl who showed up very late got a dessert. I feel like I am being discriminated against. I am the only brown person there, everyone else is white.

14 Jun 2024

Dream

I dreamt about a huge teenage soccer game happening in my friend’s massive backyard, which was a large field. Throughout the game I won an award during a small match of tag for my speed, and was later interviewed for it, although the interviewers oddly didn’t recognize me and questioned whether I was even a player. Later on the game actually became a large soccer match, which my team one using their incredible teamwork and speed. We conducted a huge team celebration and slept over at my friends home, which hosted the event. I woke up in the morning helping my female cousin Monica record a morning vlog on her breakfast with two other members of the soccer team, who I recognized as classmates of mine, one from middle school and one from high school.

10 Jun 2024

Dream

I dreamt that I was in England, on August 11, 2024. I was tired but kept myself awake while exploring Cambridge, Hadrian's wall, and Edinburgh. In Edinburgh, I watched a soccer game, and after that, I wasn't tired anymore! As soon as the game ended, I blinked and was standing in front of a calendar saying the day was August 16. On that day, I saw my friend Riccardo, who is from Sicily (the location that appeared in the dream from yesterday), and went to masterclasses for music. Afterwards I toured London while preparing for my concert, with my friend Riccardo.

9 Jun 2024

Dream

I was by my grandparents front yard to their apartment, and it was very late at night. Me and all of my soccer-teammates were there for some reason, I have no idea why. I continue to walk with them all the way to the lobby and to the elevator inside the apartment. But as we enter the elevator, everything except the foundation of the building disappears, and we were instead standing on a big muddy field with huge hills of mud that made it more like mountain peaks of mud. Me and my soccer-friends explored the muddy area together, getting covered in mud while doing so, and then decided to see if we made a wrong turn. But then as soon as we tried to leave the muddy area, it became deep in the afternoon! Then a lot more of my friends came, and everyones parents. But the parents there acted as if nothing was wrong at all!!! Even though we were in a huge muddy field within the foundations of a building! At least they brought snacks and candy, I guess... They just took us all and we walked and walked outside to the building complex and area, but as it walked, time seemed to pass quickly, that as we crossed the street, it became nighttime. Then, we arrived at the house of my online Waldorf homeschooled friend Zoe, who I know didn't live anywhere near my grandparents apartment, let alone across the street, me, all my friends, and my soccer teammates, all dropped her off there, then continued and dropped my other friends off at their houses, saying we'll definitely see them very soon; Juno, Stoney, Rocky. Then we dropped all of other my soccer-friends; Yehor, Jaxston, Mia and Micah, saying goodbye and that we'll see each other next Sunday. As we dropped off more and more people, the surroundings looked less and less outdoorsy, till finally when only my parents, my sister and me were left, the path turned into a hallway! We continued walking and found a purple themed bedroom, which was said to be my cousins, Juliana, Jaylene, and Christian, but they weren't there. I've never seen a purple themed bedroom before. I looked outside the window, and I saw something unbelievable: I was looking out the window and looked down at a view of Palermo, Sicily, from what seemed like a castle hotel, and it was daytime again! Then I woke up.

9 Jun 2024

Dream

I was by my grandparents front yard to their apartment, and it was very late at night. Me and all of my soccer-teammates were there for some reason, I have no idea why. I continue to walk with them all the way to the lobby and to the elevator inside the apartment. But as we enter the elevator, everything except the foundation of the building disappears, and we were instead standing on a big muddy field with huge hills of mud that made it more like mountain peaks of mud. Me and my soccer-friends explored the muddy area together, getting covered in mud while doing so, and then decided to see if we made a wrong turn. But then as soon as we tried to let the mud, it became deep in the afternoon! Then a lot more of my friends came, and everyones parents. But the parents there acted as if nothing was wrong at all, even though we were in a huge muddy field within the foundations of a building! At least they brought snacks and candy, I guess... They just took us all and we walked and walked outside to the building complex and area, but as it walked, time seemed to pass quickly, that as we crossed the street, it became nighttime. Then, we arrived at the house of my online Waldorf homeschooled friend Zoe, who I know didn't live anywhere near my grandparents apartment, let alone acrorthe street, me, all my friends, and my soccer teammates, all dropped her off there, then continued and dropped my other friends off at their houses, saying we'll definitely see them very soon; Juno, Stoney,and Rocky. They we dropped all off one of my soccer-friends, saying goodbye and that we'll see each other next Sunday; Ivar (I think thats how to spell it). As we dropped off more and more people, the surroundings looked less and less outdoorsy, till finally when only my parents, my sister and me were left, the path turned into a hallway! We continued walking and found a purple themed bedroom, which was said to be my cousins, Juliana, Jaylene, and Christian, but they weren't there. I've never seen a purple themed bedroom before. I looked outside the window, and I saw something unbelievable: I was looking out the window and looked down at a view of Palermo, Sicily, from what seemed like a castle hotel, and it was daytime again! Then I woke up.

9 Jun 2024

Dream

I was by my grandparents front yard to their apartment, and it was very late at night. Me and all of my soccer-teammates were there for some reason, I have no idea why. I continue to walk with them all the way to the lobby and to the elevator inside the apartment. But as we enter the elevator, everything except the foundation of the building disappears, and we were instead standing on a big muddy field with huge hills of mud that made it more like mountain peaks of mud. Me and my soccer-friends explored the muddy area together, getting covered in mud while doing so, and then decided to see if we made a wrong turn. But then as soon as we tried to let the mud, it became deep in the afternoon! Then a lot more of my friends came, and everyones parents. But the parents there acted as if nothing was wrong at all, even though we were in a huge muddy field within the foundations of a building! At least they brought snacks and candy, I guess... They just took us all and we walked and walked outside to the building complex and area, but as it walked, time seemed to pass quickly, that as we crossed the street, it became nighttime. Then, we arrived at the house of my online Waldorf homeschooled friend Zoe, who I know didn't live anywhere near my grandparents apartment, let alone acrorthe street, me, all my friends, and my soccer teammates, all dropped her off there, then continued and dropped my other friends off at their houses, saying we'll definitely see them very soon; Juno, Stoney,and Rocky. They we dropped all off one of my soccer-friends, saying goodbye and that we'll see each other next Sunday; Ivar (I think thats how to spell it). As we dropped off more and more people, the surroundings looked less and less outdoorsy, till finally when only my parents, my sister and me were left, the path turned into a hallway! We continued walking and found a purple themed bedroom, which was said to be my cousins, Juliana, Jaylene, and Christian, but they weren't there. I've never seen a purple themed bedroom before. I looked outside the window, and I saw something unbelievable: I was looking out the window and looked down at a view of Palermo, Sicily, from what seemed like a castle hotel, and it was daytime again! Then I woke up.