Outdoors

13 Mar 2024

Dream

i had a dream that i was in a different country with some random people, 1 girl and 2 boys and i guess that we were traveling the world so first we were at a place in the forest we lived with the one girls family and got to show that we could experience the outdoors we fished, she had a bird and we played with that and then one day we travelled to my house where we stayed for a few days and it was an amazing time i realized that this girl was amazing, fun, adventurest and just a bra personality but something happend in her family and she had to go back home. So then we spend the night and while i am downstairs in my room I was around all these weird crazy bugs and insects. I’ve never seen these insects but i didn’t know what to expect. then A huge mansion.next place was a huge mansion, and it felt very European and in this European place we had to go to school, but the school was artsy and expected a lot from us. one day closer to the first day of school we ended up going to class but to pass my one class I had to go over a steppingstone bridge over the pool while it was busy. I told them I need to go across while I was walking across my bag dropped into the water and I was embarrassed so I went to the teacher who also hosted us into her house and told her I needed to grab stuff out of the pool while missing class. I ended up running into the boys. I ended up living with, and they mentioned the new girl. transitioned to the house the one tall boy, with brown hair was hooking up with her, but he didn’t want a serious relationship while she did. The other boy had a crush on me, but his parents were the host of the week so he was very set in stone on the rules while one night we needed to go downstairs to grab something to eat. I’m at both boys downstairs while the host son left the other boy made a move on me. the attention was nice, so I remember snuggling on the couch while snuggling he showed me videos and photos of the other girl that she sent to him. Meanwhile, there was his phone on speaker and echoed throughout the house. As soon as I felt comfortable, I made the first move and we started kissing, after the hostess mother and the boy caught us and flipped out while he was a bad boy, I automatically apologize and explained our reasoning. He did not like that stormed off while I was back going into my room. I kissed him and he was furious.

5 Mar 2024

Dream

In this dream I was visiting a zoo/hospital. I stop at the nurses station which is a regular nurses station but it is outdoors. She points behind her to a hill where a large deer like creature is nursing her baby. She points out that one of the horns had been broken off - which it is. "She is still feeding her baby." The nurse tells me. I am overwhelmed with compassion and respond, "because she loves him" I say. "It's true." the nurse responds. She says I can go up to her if I want. I do and start to approach the deer. On the way however, I'm distracted by a hospital bed out in the field, on which my grandmother Helena is laying. She has been dead for several years, but this image is of her towards the end of her life. She is frail and wearing a light blue shirt with white sheets pulled up to her chest. A halo of white hair frames her smiling face. It looks a lot like one of the last pictures I have of her. I walk over to her bedside instead when suddenly I can't breath. I'm not just struggling to breath, I am struggling and cannot breath. This goes on until I wake. In that time I remember trying to call for the nurse. Considering how long I could hold my breath. Feeling the point where I would normally panic. And experiencing a couple seconds past that - which I believed were hypothetically possible. And finally wondering if I would simply pass out. And wondering if once I did pass out, if I someone didn't help me start breathing again, would I simply die. Could I resign to this?

3 Feb 2024

Dream

I have neighbours who impact my life negatively and often, so i don't like them. In my dream I was living in a duplex house with them in the other half, which meant we had one shared garden around the house. We were living in Tasmania, where I have lived before, so I understood the climate and they didn't. They got guinea pigs and put them in a hutch outdoors. I've also had guinea pigs before and knew that it was too cold out there for them. Then they began to gather more and more quinea pigs, and hand-built a larger hutch that was completely inadequate. The guinea pigs were at risk of escaping, freezing to death, and dog attack. So when the neighbours went out one day, I went out to the garden to inspect it, to see if I could fix it a little. It was far too crowded, males and females were all in together (which you can't do with guinea pigs), the males were beginning to fight, and there was a light-coloured female with two babies I had to get out of there. I managed to get them out, and then saw that she was still in labour, but the last baby seemed stuck and she was in danger. I became distressed and tried to help her, and in doing so, I accidentally crushed her two live babies. I was horrified and froze, I couldn't move. Then I could see the neighbours coming home so I gathered her and the two dead babies up and ran into the house.

19 Jan 2024

Dream

My girlfriend and I walked around my school whilst holding hands. Then the outdoors turned into a classroom. Then she was seamlessly hooked up to a heart rate monitor. I didn't pay much attention to it, and then she faded away and turned to dust. I frantically looked for her around the classroom, but I couldn't find her before I woke up.

3 Jan 2024

Dream

I was in a house that looked like my old house but it had a different porch that came all the way under the front bedroom window. The kids were playing outside but it started to rain. I could feel the weather. The humidity and the rain touching my skin. I could smell the scent of rain and outdoors. The 2 kids I saw were my kids but didn't look like my kids. My daughter was darker skinned and had thick curly hair. We were on the bed while I combed her hair. I felt the grease I was rubbing in her parts. My son was jumping on the bed. I gave them a bath and put them to bed while I took a bath. While I was in the bathroom my daughter jumped out of the window onto the porch. I came out to not find her. By the time I went outside it turned daylight again. I saw 3 men cutting down a tree on the left side of the house. I recognized them from my childhood. They were the men who used to park in my yard to go fishing behind our house. They always made comments to me and I felt uneasy whenever they'd come around. They gave rapist vibes. I was desperately trying to get my daughter in the house before they saw her to say something to her or touch her. Then a girl from my area, Ton, drove up with 4 other females to ask me to smoke withe them. Liz, Margaret, and another lady i didn't recognize. These are people I know but never hung out with before and hadn't seen in years. Liz was in the van as well as her son. Lil Sam, he died last year of suicide, and my daughter really disliked him because he was a bully to her in school. He was up the hill on the side of the house with my daughter sitting under the peach tree talking. All of a sudden mosquitoes were coming from everywhere into the van. I was fanning and swatting as hard as i could but a few still bit me. so I got out of the van. I was trying to get to my daughter bc the bug spray was on the ground next to where she was. My daughter is 23 in real life but in the dream she was grown but looked like someone else's 9 or 10 year old child and i treated her like a little girl. He kept saying "I just need to talk to her. I have to tell her something." In the dream I was itching from the bug bites. I woke up still itching as if it was real.

23 Nov 2023

Dream

I had a dream where I was on some sort of field trip with classmates that I didn't recognize. We were out exploring the outdoors but were chased down by very large bears and I was one of the unfortunate ones that got caught by one. I remembered in detail how I got mauled by a bear and died