Roses

30 Aug 2024

Dream

shilijit dripping, mixing, tasting. Feeling heat & passion rise up. Then a stab. Shame. Impotence. Weakness. I don't want to be this way.

24 Jun 2024

Dream

Taking a pregnancy test and looking at roses

7 Apr 2024

Dream

me getting angry at my boyfriend for using my rose water too much and us getting into a fight but he didn’t know what you use rose water for and just liked the smell of it

7 Apr 2024

Dream

At a high rise apartment building with my mom sister and my child, a baby girl. It was hot and sunny outside, the summer. We were outside at the pool in the apartment complex. My child had a deep open wound in the back of her neck. My mom said what is that and poked it. A pocket inside the wound exploded in my face. It smelled horrid and some of it got in my face and mouth and tasted like acid, chucks of meat. I went to get on the elevator to go upstairs to the elevator to wash my mouth out. When I got upstairs my bf was in a room that looks like a basement. Getting his hair cut by a barber. I was trying to walk past to exit to get to the door but I had to lay on my back and shimmy through hot thick metal bars to escape. He made a comment saying she looks soo good. It was a very uncomfortable feeling and it felt very obsessive and psychotic. Then I saw the picture of a McDonalds hamburger in a greasy skillet and it looked disgusting then I thought of Popeyes chicken and how it didn’t taste real.

6 Apr 2024

Dream

I had a very short nightmare. In the dream I woke up to go to the bathroom. Everything was my normal reality, my bedroom and bathroom. I was trying to go pee and it hurt and I suddenly noticed that my cat Nels was in the toilet. For context, this is a cat that I have that is less than a year old and I'm very close with him. The cat seemed to be stuck and struggling under the water. I was reaching in and trying to get him but for some reason I couldn't touch or grip him. The water in the toilet started rising, along with my panic. I started trying to turn off the water valve to stop the water and I started saying to myself, please let this be a dream over and over. I woke up very much crying but so relieved

6 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in a high rise building. I saw something like a tornado coming… it was soil mixed with something and very very big. It was high all the way up yo thr highest high rise. It came suddenly and swallowed us up. Then another scene… my youngest son Noah was dipping in the lake it was a very dirty body of water almost like oil water… everyone was doing some kind of race/event… there was a guy with a mic saying ready set go! And everyone went swimming out in this water very casually. Noah was only 2 years old. He’s actually 13 but in my dream he was a cute toddler again. We were up on like a hill over the lake watching Noah and these people below. I see other older kids swimming in, no problem. But Noah dipped in the water smiling having a good time, then he went swimming as well… and suddenly something swallowed him up in there. I went and got him somehow, but he swallowed a lot if water. The ladies who work at the event said this happens a lot? & just told me to plop him on my thighs head towards me, and rub his chest. They were praying very casually like this happens a lot. They weren’t worried at all. But he didn’t make it. They were surprised. I think I had another dream about the weird earth tornado disaster too again.

30 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream about a snake that was going up through my toilet but when I flushed it down it came rising back up so this time I grabbed a paper towel from the bathroom catching it with the paper towel balling it up and then punching it till it was dead.

30 Mar 2024

Dream

All the sinks in my house are backed up and the water level is rising in them. I know I have to get them unclogged before I can run the dishwasher or take a shower. I ask for help from younger men whom might also be living with me. It's a new and modern house. It's nighttime and I accidentally let my cat Toshiba outside. The men are working on the sinks but then they go outside and sit in their truck. I look for a plunger myself. I unclog the sink and water drains out. Maybe the men are plumbers and they don't live with me after all. Another man sent me a fax. It's a copy of a legal document that will notify someone else. It's a legal or business matter and he may be representing my interests to help me. The letter comes with a second page. The second page is instructions for how to play ping pong. He sends the fax with a ping pong table. The recipient will get a table and I am also receiving one. There's a drama unfolding. It's like a play or a movie but I'm in it. It's a family conflict and confrontation. The woman is trying to force resolution. I see the woman lying face down. She is wearing a pale green dress like I recently purchased. And she has long, full blonde highlighted hair which looks like my new hairstyle. I can't see her face but she looks like me. The situation is not safe for her, it's a set up. I realize the woman is the one who's going to die. I get out just in time. That's not my fate. I'm okay. I feel calm and clear.

29 Mar 2024

Dream

There I was. Impaled through my stomach and out by back by one of the needles that was sitting at the bottom of this abyss I was knocked into that now has my blood dripping on it covering it in my blood. My limbs are twitching as I'm stuck around the needle point as my body is unable to go further down towards the bottom. My eyes pour blood the same time my mouth is throwing it up. I saw from a different perspective this time. This time I'm looking up at myself. But as bad as it is it couldn't possibly get any worse. That was a lie. Sooner than later I see a train falling right above me. And at the right moment, I woke up. I rose up quickly dripping in sweat and tears looking like I just been baptized. I found myself clenching my pajama shirt in between my stomach and my chest where there was excruciating pain. But it was only a nightmare. So why am I having this pain? This feeling was familiar to me… could this be another one of my prophetic dreams? If it was than I need to figure out what it means. Quickly. I laid back down questioning myself. How did I end up in that situation? Well let me tell you. I'm standing in front of an abyss. In between this large rigid train track that goes across this petrifying hole that leads to another side. I tried to run to the other side of this abyss but I gave up to the thought that it wasn't going to end. I closed my eyes and I somehow ended up in the same spot to begin with. “this place seems scarcely familiar..” I whispered to myself afraid that I would attract unwanted attention. I examine the place trying to look for certain things that could possibly ring a bell so that I can remember where I am and how to escape. And this is what I see. I looked in front of me and there is a train track that has no support holding it up above or below. I looked down and I saw a corpse lying on the train track where its ‘used to be’ head was. When I looked over to where the rest of its rotted head has been scattered to, I get startled to the sight and jerked backwards falling having tripped on the boards of the track. My hands start to shake like they were having a seizure and my heart was already starting to beat up against my ribs trying to escape and leave me making my breathing pattern irregular. Soon I get up and back away quickly from it and turn around ready to run away from this place like a headless chicken. But alas I am stopped by a brick wall that was infinity high. I immediately run to get around it but the deeper I got thee more ominous that place got. I started to feel my tear ducks fill with salty water as I become frustrated and terrified I was with this place. I close my eyes to release the tears and found myself right back in the middle of the train tracks. I continued to keep looking around and I eventually see an old abandoned gas station with one street light flickering and shining over a figure that would sometimes appear under the light and a sign written in blood, ‘Only the true special ones make it home this way’. I tensed up at the sign as another dead corpse lying on the side of the sign. I felt offended by the sign saying ‘only the special ones’ due to my narcissistic side. It was like it was taunting me saying I wasn't. But I am special! “What makes me different from the people that survived?” the next thing I knew, I see a train coming right for me on the tracks right when I began to start hoping on the boards. Still on land I watch as the train speeds my way as I stood there as numb as a block of wood. But right as it seemed it was about to hit me, I stupidly cross my arms in front my face and lower myself into a stance ready to accept my fate. My eyes teared at the thought, ‘Maybe I'm not special…?’. I closed my eyes tight enough it felt like my eyes were being pushed in by the lids of them. I stood there and opened my eyes hesitantly expecting a harsh impact, I felt nothing but strong wind. I stayed in that position for another half a second before fully opening my eyes with confusion. I could see the train around me as I went through it. “ghost train..?” I asked quietly before falling to my knees as the winds stopped holding me up. After another second I stand up again from my knees regaining my confidence despite this ungodly place and ignoring the fact that something was waiting for me on the other side. I begin hoping on the boards risking my life with each hop. It wasn't until I get to the middle of the huge abyss where I missed a step and fell in between the boards. I immediate reflex was to hold on to something so I don't fall in. I grasped onto one of the boards that was thankfully not far away. I couldn't bring myself back up due to the many trains that were passing by and possibly knocking me off the track, so I had to reach to the next board like I was playing on monkey bars. Once I finally reached the end of the abyss, I climbed up onto the land and unlike the other side I felt grass in the ground so I knew I was making ok progress. Still being the darkest, gloomiest and most ominous place I've ever seen in my life, I am still cautious to this new sight. I stood up facing a forest with very tall thin grayish brown trees with dull grass. As I stood up as silent as a white rabbit hiding from its prey, I observed the forest regretting having gone over here. Until I heard a faint whisper and rustling leaves behind me. I ran. I ran as fast as I could. I tuned around to see if I've gotten far from whatever that was, but it turned out I didn't get far at all. I stopped trying to run and stood looking behind me. Nothing. I figured I could continue finding my way through this forest but as soon as I turned around I meet this thing with a safe for a head wrapped in thorns and an apron covered in dirt and blood along with its hammer covered in mud blood and other disgusting fluids you could ever think of. It already had its weapon held up high as I stood there and before I could process the moment, he swung his hammer and I fell in the abyss. I'm falling and paralyzed and afraid. This is where I've met my wits end. Even though I can not move or scream and cry bloody murder for help, I can still feel this pain that has impacted me. It felt like someone dropped a wreaking ball wrapped in sharp wires cutting open my skin while releasing its disease through my sore body. It felt like someone injected a poison in me that also had small crystals inside of the killing substance just to tear me apart on the inside as much as it is on the outside. As I'm falling the river of tears, blood, and a black tar like substance flow out of my eyes, nose and mouth. I see all the lost souls, dead bodies, blood, and organs spread out everywhere. My perspective changed in this dream changed so that I could see myself falling from a distance. I see that as I fall I managed to turn over facing the ground. The perspective changed again and now I see that my face has gone pale and I could feel my heart giving up and my eyes changing to a cloudy gray. And there I was. Impaled through my stomach and out by back by one of the sharpest infectious needles that was sitting at the bottom of this abyss I was knocked into. My limbs are twitching as I'm stuck around the needle point as my body is unable to go further down towards the bottom. My eyes pour blood the same time my mouth is throwing it up. I could still see from a different perspective this time. This time I'm looking up at myself and the train falling right over me behind me. The fastest second went by and the train finally fell on me. Scattering my insides out. Squirting all the fluids out my body. And splitting me in half due to the pressure put on my body while still on the needle like a kebab.

29 Mar 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was in a passanger seat of a car and there was a man with blonde hair driving. I didn’t recognize the man or the car. We were on a really long bridge over a huge body of water, similar to the causeway over pontchartrain lake but miles longer. There were other cars riding along the bridge and the sun was out and barely any clouds. I felt content in the car and looked around out the window when suddenly a steam engine train t-boned the passenger side of the car causing me and the man in the car to get thrown off the bridge and into the water while simultaneously flying out the car. When looking at the place of the collision there was no sign of ghe train and the other cars weren’t affected at all and continued on the bridge as normal. I looked to find the man and the car and the man was standing going towards the car and I was still behind. The body of water was very shallow about 3 and a half feet deep, yet the water rose over my face as I sunk to the bottom and drowned watching the man walk away. I woke up in a cold sweat gasping for air as my body stopped itself from breathing.

27 Mar 2024

Dream

Mom, Kristen and I went into this building, into a dark closet inside of a library of valuable books. We weren’t supposed to be there. In the dark, she started telling us a story about how Dad had almost been murdered when he was 17 and the PTSD he suffered as a result. John Waters came in to get some books, and while supportive, told us we had to leave. We went searching within the building but most places were occupied with workers. Eventually Dad showed up, we were on some crowded bleachers watching a demonstration. Someone gave Dad a clock in computer and he destroyed it. Emmett wanted to show me how to get a new one, but somehow we ended up destroying the bleachers and the park altogether. Mom and Dad left us, so we were trying to navigate our way out of the building from the basement. Each room was its own horror, but you could take whatever you could carry. Lots of little goofy things, decorative globes, nail polish, shoes, etc. Some rooms were just stairs, some were dark kitchens and other nerve-wracking areas. Lots of quickly slamming doors. We got through the worst of it, and there was a gift shop/convenience store at the top. Everything was free to grab. One guy was stuffing bottles of coffee syrup into his clothing. Everybody was singing Margaritaville. I read the final line of a book I had with me. It said, “They stole together and they sang. They stood outside and watched the sun. They did this for the next 16 hours, until the New West rose over the horizon, and their bodies turned to dust.”

26 Mar 2024

Dream

My husband dreamt that we were in a boat the a big cyclone rose. I slept off the boat onto waters where he came and rescued me. The cyclone went to the side we were heading and ended there taking away two people. To his surprise he saw some people who said that the children there are the ones who creaythe cyclone. In the same dream he explained this dream to his late brothers late mother in law. And that mother inlaw asked him if he has shared this dream to me his wife. Then he woke up . What's the meaning of this dream