Lucid

24 Sep 2024

Dream

My dream starts with me being in some abandoned house with a whole bunch of drug addicts doing drugs and exchanging paraphernalia. Then my mom picks me up from there and on the ride home, I see the sky is extremely blue and there are beautiful white blossoms all over the trees and everything is just vibrant and beautiful and I step out of the vehicle to really take a look and I say this is the most beautiful day I have ever seen in my entire life. and I hear something coming from around the bend so I follow it down and there's this little town from my dreamscape, one that I've been there before and my grandma's there too. A lot of the things are made of gold and like an aquamarine color swirled together with gem stones and marble all very regal and expensive and like they said I guess they were El Dorado hills gold and there's a lot of like Spanish type themes and big rock columns, Mediterranean style too. Again there's that horseshoe shape island with the beautiful homes right there that I've seen before in my other dreams. There are parades with exotic animals and water around everywhere and I am with my grandma and we are having the time of our lives. I reach for my phone to capture the moment and I begin to film but I am very worried about running out of room in my phone or the footage not being captured. Then I notice the water begins to dry up and all of the bright colors begin to fade and and beautiful and exotic animals turn to basic long horn cattle that are charging at us. I run and grab for a tree branch only to be relentlessly pursued by one in particular that keeps coming back and trying to gorge me. I hang on for dear life as the stampede slows down and only the clouds of dust are left. Then I call for my grandma. But she is no where to be found. I frantically call for her and still there is no reply. As I watch the beautiful scenery turn to a dull lifeless dried out desert rather than the vibrant beautiful oasis of life and culture my heart begins to fill heavy as I realize that my grandma is dead and that she was never really there to begin with. But then I reach in my pocket for my phone and I find that there is footage of her there which gives me a feeling of hope and happiness unparalleled by anything else. I frantically try to show everyone and I slowly realize that I am in a lucid dreaming state and that I can control the scenery or the people who are there and what is going on in the dreamscape around me. I bring back the beauty and the exotic animals and vibrant colors and my grandmother and I enjoy the small hidden pocket of life and culture that I have created just for me, even if it’s only for a fleeting moment and even though I know it won’t last. I am still saddened by this but I use it as an opportunity to see my grandma anyway and hold her and love her. Then there are some typed of pages I wrote that blow around in the wind and my ex boyfriend Chuy catches one and sees his name. Unsure and embarrassed about the content I snatch the pages back from him and try to make an excuse as to why they would say his name, I think I claimed it was a list of phone numbers. I begin to go back and forth between this hidden world tucked into the hills of the Altamont pass in my dreamworld and back to the abandoned house where trouble and conflict begin to break loose. I was laying down with Chuy and I said something and some large black man began to try and attack me and punch me but Chuy quickly responded and fought the man and overpowered him. I then began to have conflict with a group of African American girls who I think were related to the man. They out numbered me but I stood tall and firm and told them that they do not want problems with me and I bluffed about having more people to back me up than I really did but it worked and they backed down. Later one through a pancake at me but it looked very delicious and I just wanted to find butter and syrup to eat it. I run into some of my cousins there and the dream somehow takes me to the dining room on my aunt and cousins at my great grandmothers house that used to be a place of stability love and comfort for me growing up. We seem to be arguing about something small but we are bringing plates of lasagna to this large table for everyone, but I begin to understand that they don’t have anywhere to live and that seems to be a theme throughout the dream- many people being homeless and relying on me to help me in some way. I feel overwhelmed and powerless to help them

27 Mar 2024

Dream

I was walking around my neighborhood when I noticed the house across from mine was way different and brand new when suddenly I went into the car with my brothers and a oddly familiar white guy. When we were driving we entered onto a highway the white who was driving began driving recklessly making me feel nervous but at the same time exited. Then suddenly I ask the driver “Could this be a dream” to which he didn’t reply so I reality checked. Once I became lucid I attempted to change our setting only to send a powerful purple shockwave going through one lane of the highway then I woke up

19 Mar 2024

Dream

Had a lucid dream about going on a night walk. I was walking through this abandoned mall and scavenging abandoned toys while I explored. After I left a tall figure showed up which turned out to be this super nice entity whom had a nice talk with me. Before he ended up disappearing. Ended up exploring the mall a little more and run into these random group of guys. They bring me to this party to where I group up with my ex girlfriend & her and those guys. The night was going great and my ex was showing some form of interest in me again. But then I wouldnt you know it. She starts to go off with another guy while comfortably saying she’s going behind a tent with this guy. I started to react in sadness and anger without showing it. Starting to walk towards her and follow her but her girl friend grabbed me by the shoulder. To just tell me to let it happen and she will shut down on me if I even did something to stop it. So I woke up.

14 Mar 2024

Dream

My dream starts out where I'm running around in the woods away from my mother and her friend, but my mother and her friend aren't people I know in real life, and I'm running away with one of my friends, but she’s also not someone I know in real life. We're running through the woods, and I think at one point my grandmother shows up, but she's also not my grandmother in real life. We're running, and we're running, and we're running, and we climb a tree with our grandma, but she pushes us down off the tree when my mother is there, and my father, and we start to leave, and we run away again. They were mad at us for some reason, and I just want to run away, and I run away two more times I even end up jumping off a waterfall to get away, and then finally they catch me, and then my dream kind of switches the next dream is a lucid dream. we're living in this hut kind of, it's made all out of like large boulders, and there's like glow-in-the-dark paint on the walls, so when it's nighttime, it's like there's stars on the walls. Whech is what inspires me in the next dream I dream which is also lucid where I’m in my room but it’s not my room in real life it’s like a much much bigger version of the my room it’s like my dream room anyway so me my mom and my sister are in my room and we’re painting a mural I decided I wanted a fall scene they’re a bunch of fall trees and I get a little annoyed with my sister because she’s not painting correctly my mom doesn’t do much painting but she helps a lot with the direction the mural takes she makes a pathway through the woods and onto a gravel road where I had painted a beautiful brick house behind it for for the road to lead to we finally fininshed I I really like it if you looked at it it would look like a beautiful birch and aspen forest in the fall the trees are almost all yellow me and my mom maid a point to add some green trees to it it had a little pathway with some rocks in it through the trees to a gravel road which lead to a beautiful brick house with lots of windows

1 Mar 2024

Dream

I dreamt I was taking the biology exam with my friends at night. But then i blacked out and teacher called me alone to do the test. It was 1 am and I had slept off due to exhaustion. So I told her I'll do it at 5 am in the great hall with the other people, so she let me. But during the exam in the great hall, I didn't get time to revise. It was very dark and grim and I couldn't remember anything. So I demanded a retest but the teacher said she won't. I almost cried when I remember this was a dream and we already had out biology exam. Then the dream shifted to be more lucid but I woke up too soon. And after waking up I realised, I don't have biology at all, I'm a social science major

28 Feb 2024

Dream

in the waking world there was a tornado getting close to my house in the early hours this morning, i didn’t see it but the sirens kept me awake. i finally fell asleep, and i was in my room tryna reorganize my perfume on my shelves, or doing something with my shelves in general. i felt water droplets hit my head, so i look up and there’s a wet spot forming on the ceiling. i figured that was probably from all the rain and wind blowing everything around, the roof probably got soaked through or something hit the roof making a hole. i ignored it for a few minutes cause i thought it wasn’t that big of a deal, but i saw the water hitting my electric cords, and they were sparking. i went to the kitchen where mom and jason were, and i said “there’s water coming in from the ceiling in my room, an electrical fire is about to happen.”. jason replied with “oh okay ill take a look”. i looked at him saying “okay thanks. by the way what’s wrong with your arm? that’s not normal.”. his arm was deformed and was bent in places it shouldn’t be bent, and he just starts shapeshifting. he gave me a creepy look as he shape-shifted his arm to appear more ‘normal’. his whole body kept shapeshifting into things that didn’t look right. when i noticed his entire body was shape shifting, i woke up in my dream. i was aware of what was going on, i could feel the floor, i could hear everything, it was so real. i was practically lucid dreaming. anyways when we got to my bedroom, he took a look at the ceiling and said “it looks fine to me.”. i looked at his misshaped body and said “dude do you not see that electric block down there getting ready to burst into flames-“. he shape-shifted into a tall, black and sinister looking entity, and the house blew up in flames. i woke up from the fire burning my skin.

24 Feb 2024

Dream

Its a beautiful night, alot of my family & loved ones surrounding me. My grandmother, my sisters, my boyfriend at the time joel , my mother and father (surprisingly, considering how much they hate eachother) , my aunts etc.. First negative turn was seeing my aunt & mother get into a fist fight (maybe thats suppressed childhood trauma from seeing them getting into an actual fight when i was a little girl). I’m not sure why they were fighting in this dream but i got in the middle of it , ended up with a long scrape across my lower stomach (kind of how woman look after a C Section). The wound looked alot worse than anticipated when i showed my mom & aunt the Mark i got from trying to break them up. Seeing it shocked me, what was even more shocking was the REAL pain i felt from it. I remember being in my dream thinking “dam this must really be hurting me because my Stomach probably hurts in real life”. (Lucid dreaming is pretty common For me). Anyways , my aunt and mother ended up making up and the night continues happily. The vibes are right again. I soon realize this entire soiree with my loved ones are ON A BOAT! Picture this, beautiful night in miami, big boat, cool neon lights on the decks, white and gold decor on the inside, rave type music in the background. Wow ! What a night! Untill shit takes another turn for the worst…. There’s this man i reminder meeting earlier in my dream …. White, tall & beefy, older (maybe later 40s early 50s, grays on his head and beard.. he had his little son with him (maybe about 5 or 6 years old). He wanted to show me a cool part of the boat. I fell for his trap and followed him … this part of the boat was this vacant dark area kind of like a small room next to where ppl park their cars (why is their a parking garage on a boat, Dont ask me) . As we approach this dark room i get a wave of regret rushing over my entire body. My entire body was telling me to RUN! As he gestures for me to go in the room first i turn around and use alllll of my energy to RUN! But it wasnt enough! He grabbed me by my necklace and pulls me back . Sort of choking me a bit with the necklace. In the moment i knew what was about to happen, i knew i fucked up. He drags me into this dark room with my whole body kicking and squirming screaming out for my dad “DAAAAAD, DAAADD, HELP ME DAD!!” like i said… the entire area was vacant.. my dad wasnt coming to save me, he couldn’t even hear me.. I black out in that room from the white older man hitting me in the face so many times (the punches I did not feel in real life, thank God) As im coming in and out of consciousness i see glimpses, flashes of this Horrible mans face with the biggest evil grin I’ve ever seen.. He tried putting his finger in my mouth and my first thought was “bite” so i bit as hard as i can , if i would’ve bit any harder i would’ve took his finger off, luckily. But i didn’t get the reaction i expected, he liked it. So i bit harder and harder! Nope didn’t work.

21 Feb 2024

Dream

I had a lucid dream right after my boyfriend had past away. I was fully aware that I was dreaming and I dreamt that he visited me. His skin looked perfectly clear with no tattoos like he used to have. His hair was a perfect golden blonde and his eyes looked vibrant and blue. He kept repeating to me that he only had a short moment to talk to me before I woke up. At first I didn’t believe it was him, so I asked him personal questions to make sure it was him. He assured me that I was dreaming and that this was the only way he could reach me. He told me that life was good and that when he was living on earth he took life for granted.

16 Feb 2024

Dream

I don't remember a lot of things but i remember that i realized i was dreaming so it was kinda a lucid dream, and after that i wanted to try something since i knew it was a dream and i told the people in my dream that it was just a dream and thry started to get angry and attacked me, after that i woke up

13 Feb 2024

Dream

It’s a reoccurring dream I have about once or twice a year. It’s very lucid and seems real. So the dream has three outcomes and I cannot wake up until I’ve got through all three outcomes. Basically I’m like out of town somewhere idk where I’m at but I’m going to like a house to I guess more like babysit for this stranger. Each issue or event there’s like a two choices I can choose and it’s like there’s a good choice and then more so a bad choice. I choose all the bad choices first. It’s like the first event I get to this house and I think I’m there to babysit for this handsome man. When I walk in and see him I immediately get nervous seeing him. But I introduce myself and he introduces hisself and his little boy and the kids mom is also there. She seems bothered by me being there and is very rude to me. So the first choice to this event is like I can choose to flirt with the dad or not. Which I’m chooosng the bad choices first so I choose to flirt with him and he flirts back. While around the house waiting for dinner we just flirt here and there behind the moms back and eventually we get intimate right behind the moms back. We’re like behind a table having sex and trying not to show emotions or give away that we’re having sex to her but I think she kinda knows. She keeps staring and rolling her eyes and I try to not show emotion on my face while we just keep going behind the table. That passes and me the dad and the boy leave out and travel a distance to what seems like a bar or small restaurant in the middle of nowhere. There’s no one but like us and maybe 3 other sketchy people there. But someone comes in who apparently is like after the dad so he tells me and the boy to hide. And all I can think about is protecting this boy while we’re hiding and I’m hearing all the screaming and loud noises outside the door. A scary guy finds us and makes us come out. The dad is really beat up bad and like unconscious in the corner and they’re like giving him drugs or something. This is the next event and my two choices are to fight and try to get out the door with the kid or just stay calm and do as they say. I’m picking the more bad decisions like I said right now so I choose to grab the boy and start fighting to try and get away but I don’t get far at all before they catch us and start to give us the drugs and I push the boy out the way so he could try to get away and let them inject me with it but the boy doesn’t get far and as I’m starting to lose vision and fade away I see the little boy get injected to and I feel helpless. They put me and the boy in a car and drive to another location without the dad and it’s like a house. I think the house is like a whore house with like a pump and all. There’s beautiful women who honestly seem like amazing people but just trapped. Me and the boy are inside and I’m still barely able to see or stand. But as it starts to wear away I start to try to think of a plan and decide to try to fight once im a little more sober. The man’s talking about how beautiful I am nand touching my face and I just keep pulling my face away. Once I felt a little sober I had the option to fight and try to get away or just be submissive. I choose to fight. I started fighting him and grabbed the boy and tried to get to the door. The women just watched but didn’t engage as we were about to get in a car and get away we get snatched out the car and drugged again. The little boy is taken into like a different room and I’m like sexually assaulted by the guy and I’m just so sad and helpless while it’s happening and when he finish he just walks away leaving me on the floor laughing. I don’t quite remember the last event or where we went but I think we ended back up at the dad and child’s house from the beginning nd the mom is there hugging her child and everything but I think she knows what happened with me and the father so she’s just ignoring us and left us. Next option I could choose is to have sex with the dad again or just leave and I have sex with him and this time it’s not as enjoyable and I think the mom catches us and like starts attacking us or something and it’s like I was dying and as I died I could feel myself trying to wake up cause I knew it was a dream but it’s like when I tried to wake up I just saw blurriness. And I would just pop right back to the dream. And boom it’s like the whole dream started over exactly the same, me pulling up to this house with the dad and the boy to babysit this time the mom was there but it’s like she wasn’t with the dad this time she was only there to maybe drop off her son and she was really nice to me and she left. And I was super shy because like I said the dad was handsome. But this time I chose not to have sex with him. And him, the boy and I just really got along. It’s like the dad was such a amazing person and he became good friends and the litttle boy loved me and we just hung out and had a great time like playing games and eating. Then we got it the bar restaurant again. When we hide this time and get caught I choose to not fight this time and just be compliant. The dad was still on the floor unconscious and being drugs but the people seemed to a lot nicer to me and the boy while I wasn’t fighting. They still decided to inject us with the drugs but they weren’t as aggressive and I just held my arm and let them. I think because I was compliant they didn’t put as much this time so even though I felt loopy I wasn’t completely useless. When the time was right I grabbed the rest the drugs and stuck the people holding us with them and after a short about of time they passed out and I grabbed the boy and dad and we got to a car and escaped. But still ended up at the whorehouse somehow. I chose to be be compliant and nice when the pump was talking to me alone this time. And I guess because I was nice and did what he said without fighting I didn’t get raped but was actually let to go over with the beautiful women and hang with them which ended with then actually pleasing me and me feeling amazing. And at the end he just let me and the dad and kid go. We ended up back at the kid and dads house and the kid had gotten so close to me and I was so close to him we were like a family. The kid went away to like another room and me and the dad ended up getting intimate and it was amazing. It ended while we were being intimate but it wasn’t over it started over again at the house. And this time I didn’t have to pick a certain option it was just free will. How ever I wanted to handle each situation this time. Which ofc each situation I choose to do the second options from before and it just turned out the same but even better than the second time. I got close with them at the house we had so much fun. At the bar I was actually able to stay calm and be complicate and not get us drugged at all and just drugged then and got away. At the whorehouse I didn’t feel scared or anything more so like the pump and women were my friends and I was just stopping by and we were all just hanging out and there was a bit of flirting with the women and a little pleading with the women and the dad. And once we were back at the house it’s like me the dad and kid were like a whole happy family. And then I woke up…. I didn’t realize it was a dream until it started over after the first time. It felt so real.

11 Feb 2024

Dream

This dream was long. I swear it could have been the same one the entire night. I was walking along a path, heading uphill. Soon, I came across a divided path. One led down into the forest. The other led up to a grassy clearing. I take that one and end up spotting a couple buildings. The one to the right seemed like a big family home, but modern-looking, meaning grey and flat. The other to the left was still being built. I realized this as soon as I climbed up to the roof and saw the cement being poured into it. Climbing down, I approached the other building to the right. Once inside, I found myself at a table. A sort of oval-shaped table. And there were other people there, too. Like five of them. They felt elite, somehow. For some reason, Eric S. was there. The elite seemed to glare at me, as if I was less than them. But when Eric vouched for me, saying I was the one who was lucid dreaming, their look turned to one of challenge. I felt like they all could have been real. Meaning that they were meeting there through their dreams. I went outside, onto the balcony, and saw a hill of pure, beautiful green. On the deck there were several broad-leafed potted plants. I looked down at my hands, then looked away, then looked at them again and saw that my right hand had distorted a little, blown up like a balloon, pudgy fingers. I knew I was dreaming. I thought of last night's dream when I looked at my hands on the stairs of my burning house and laughed at how differently distorted they had gotten this time. The scene changed and I was in my home at Piedra Azul in Chile but on the beach part. The tide was out but there were people dragging kayaks along the sand to the left of the shore to a little square storage building that was there. (That storage building does not exist in real life.) At some point I was inside that building, but I don't remember more. I woke up with a burning desire to preserve and remember this dream.

30 Jan 2024

Dream

I was quite young in this dream I was late teens early 20s and I was at a resort of some kind with a group of people and what the action of the dream was was trying like enjoying being out in nature trying to take in the scenery There was a sunset at one point, and it was gorgeous, all pink and peach and purple and beautiful. And then the moon rose, and it was framed perfectly through a break in the clouds, and I was trying to get someone to come and see. At this point, I was on a train, and we were looking out the window of the train car at the sky, but the clouds had moved in, and it had started raining. And at this point in the dream, I became lucid. I realized I was dreaming, and so I took control, and I went and I told the boy who I was friends with that I just wanted to be friends with him, but I honestly really did want to be friends with him. I liked him a lot. I just didn't feel romantic about him. And he felt the same way, and we laughed about the pressure that our friends were putting on us, and we decided we didn't care what they thought. We would just be friends, but we would actually be friends. And then I went and found the boy that I did like, and I told him that I had a conversation with this other one and what we had decided, and I told him that I liked him, and I thought maybe he liked me back. And he said that he did, and we held hands, and he kissed me, and it was lovely, and it felt like maybe I healed something from my late adolescence and early adulthood through this dream. It felt healing. It felt really good in my body, like empowering. And that's all.