Phoenix

11 Jul 2024

Dream

I wake up in a barely lumminated bedroom that gives the space a purple hue and go down stairs in a house that looks like a remodeled verison of a house i used to live in and see what seems to be a race war between black neighbors on my side and white neighbors in the other both arguing over a large U-haul movers truck thats almost bigger and wider than the house itself, i ignore it and go inside and talk to my mother who tells me that she knows im taking phioenix dust and tells me to be wary using that stuff during my secret workout sessions upstairs.

25 May 2024

Dream

A glowing ball or star in the sky and a giant flaming bird and a blue dragon was fighting in the sky for it n the bird won and took the glowing ball or star out the sky and flew over me n dropped it and gave it to me and it landed in my hand

31 Mar 2024

Dream

I was at a dance class, with Thai girls and guys I was the only one who wasn't Thai, we had to dance in these high heels and pretty outfits, but I had a hard time with the high heels, and I fell a couple of times, and the end of the heels were slippery, which made it extra easy for me to fall. As I was clinging onto a railing in the middle of the dance class holding on for dear life not to fall, everyone else looked so serious and so professional, they were dancing so pretty. As i was trying to have my balance back, I saw a bird, it was relatively big, but not too big for me to hold, he had these sharp wings at the end, and he looked so pretty because he was almost colorful. He also as a facial features he looked like a Phoenix. The bird was flying over us (the dancing people) and the dance master got able to catch him, as he watched him I was so afraid the dance master would harm the bird or kick him outside as it seemed he had nobody, he was all alone. I begged the dance master to give me the bird, while struggling to move with the high heels. I wobbled over to the dance master and said please give him to me, and he did. I was so happy but the bird was fierce and wanted to fly out of my hands. He was so soft and cute. I brought him into the backstage, where people change their clothes. I held him there and stroked him, he was calm with me. My two twin friends came and saw the bird, me and them fed the bird. We were so happy that he was doing fine. We fed the bird too much, that he ended up passing away. I started crying, I tried to do CPR on him, but to no avail. The birds soul was already gone. I made him a nest where i could lay him in his last resting place, still feeling guilty for not being able to take care of this animal. I looked at him one last time, I was sure he wasn't dead. I couldn't imagine that he died. As I looked at him, he looked dead. I went home with my mom, in the car I was crying out to my mom how the bird died and how incapable I am of taking care of such a little animal. Guilt and pain was taking over me, as I cried as if someone of my family members died. It was that deep, the bird meant so much to me, and he was gone. And I was the reason for that. It hurt me, the pain of the bird leaving the world so early hit me like a truck, even more than the guilt that was washing up of me. I loved that bird. He was my companion and my best friend, even though we had just met. He meant a lot to me. And I was the reason for his ending. I just wanted to feed him because I thought he was hungry. And we overfed him until he passed. I feel horrible the pain is unbearable.

23 Jan 2024

Dream

I was playing this game that required WiFi and it was a bit like the SIMS. And I would go up to these animals in these 4x4 Utes and they would say what missions I have to do. But then it cut to me watching this Harry Potter movie called order of the Phoenix, and apparently someone had turned a teacher into a snail and Dumbledore had to escort the snail out in his hands. And I was Harry Potter all of a sudden. But for some reason Draco Malfoy thought I was the one who turned the teacher into a snail because he marched up to me and shouted "WHY DID YOU TURN SOMEONE INTO A SNAIL, AYE POTTER?!" and shoved me back. But then it cut to me and him in a bed in a bedroom and apparently it was a cut scene that never aired and it showed me as Harry Potter in bed with Draco cuddling up with him, and he said "please don't let this scandal and drama wreck our secret relationship". Well, I said "no don't worry, that'll never happen" and sat on top of him and began kissing him while biting his lip and tongue-kissing him. I moaned while making out with him " god, kissing the same sex really turns me on~". And that's when he said "oh really~?" while proceeding to lift me up from behind to a position where he started to kiss my naked body and began fingering me.