Fruit

21 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was going back to college. I was moving into my dorm. My mom, my husband Nate, and my dad were helping me move in. My dad had taken me shopping and I picked up these abnormally large fruit bearing plants. One was a strawberry plant and the other was a tomato plant. The campus was my Alma mater, university of Maryland college park. But the dorm suite I was moving into wasn’t familiar. Nate, my husband was helping me carry things in to the dorm and I recognized names on the doors as I walked past them down the hall. They were names of my college friends and acquaintances. I asked Nate to leave the double stroller with me in the dorm. I think that the children may have been staying with me but I never saw them in my dream. Then I turned on music and my friends down the hall could hear it so they started making their way to my room but my mom closed my door and stopped them from coming in. I was confused and a little bit annoyed. Then I woke up.

10 Sep 2024

Dream

There are around five phases to this dream The first one is a dream about me being on an airplane It’s kind of cloudy and I’m at an airport at some misty foresty place Somewhere in Romania or Bulgaria I don’t know I just get the feeling that it’s in Europe And the plane does take off ones but then like lands almost crash lands back on the same airport like moments after they take off And when they do land this time around I’m at like Taiwan or some Jeju island-looking place The second dream is that I’m on a helicopter And I’m flying above some island, I think the god calls it Oki-no-tori-shima Island, or Minami-tori-shima island Or Ogasawara I don’t know somewhere remote But from the looks of things I’m at Shikoku(四国), Seto inland sea(瀬戸内海) The helicopter just came back to this Inland region from the remote Japanese island, I think I see an artificial or like artificially/naturally connected island(much like Enoshima, Itsukushima shrine or that one sacred rock thingy in Manazuru), the kind that you can go to via walk during the day but you can’t during the night because of the tides It’s sunny here and everything is peachy, it’s Seaside town, there’s hostels I can see inns I can see the docks to the small fishing boats I hear seagulls, and I can smell like some kind of tropical fruits, or some citrus fruits original to the region I think we’re eating it at the bay or in the helicopter Once we take off again we’re engulfed by clouds because the bay area is directly adjacent to some low mountains(like Kobe) Scene changes and now I am at Gotemba, near Mt. Fuji I think this is right after we got through the cloud via the helicopter past the mountain regions and all So I just basically teleported from West Japan to East-Middle Japan No I’m on a car and we’re driving through the fog, there’s needle-leafed trees and a bunch of deciduous trees; a mix of both We arrive at this Michi-no-eki or an udon restaurant at the base of the mountain bordering Hakone and Gotemba, or the one closer to Mt. Fuji(idk which) We stop the car, we as in me, Blade, and someone else(maybe Kurapika?), and go in The place is kind of crowded, and the staff comes to tell us that we’ll have to wait So we wait Scene switches and now we’re back at the car Maybe this is after the meal, or maybe we didn’t wait and came back after all We’re driving down the long winded road leading to the Gotemba city Now I’m some kind of like a fairy Apsara hybrid? I am basically seducing the standoffish, depressed, dead-looking(because he did die once in-game; then turned into an immortal via being fed mouth-to-mouth the flesh of an immortal monster by his male lover(both of these characters are heavily coded to be queer)) emoass that is Blade I don’t fucking know man I don’t know what’s happening but somehow this whole conversation turns into a discussion about enlightenment, Vishnu, samsara(what the fuck dude what is going on)(I mean the game did incorporate heavily some Buddhistic and some Hindu concepts into its world making when it came to this particular game region that he came from. But still why the fuck am I activating his kundalini) Somethings similar happened with Kurapika(since switched and now Blade is the driver) And I’m just like ‘dual cultivation partner’ or the ‘yogini’ to their journey of self-realization I don’t fucking know Apparently already got it(the self-realization) or whatever and that’s why I’m an apsara(?) Oh my god so fucking weird Why am I seeing train platforms Also we’re at Ueno station now, but it’s somehow placed at like the base of Mount Fuji

7 Sep 2024

Dream

I dreamed Iwas with a group of people and their was a person who appeared to give my brother some type of black white and gold garment I felt it was a prayer shawl or what we call the Talit, as he was handed this prayer cloth from who the people in the dreamed I heard say it was Joyce Rodgers, Joyce Rodgers was a famous female preacher who passed away last year, the crowd ran towards her blocking me from getting to her and she disappeared, I then seemed to be riding on a backwards cow and there was a large half of fruit in front of me, the fruit color was purple, but it appeared to be eaten from the bottom to the top by these small mice, the mice started to appear eating through the top of the fruit, it was three of them from what I recall, the cows then begin to gather in a circle at this point I got off the cow, it was several of them and they appeared to fall out or die. I woke up from the dream confused

5 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream, I have been in a In a garden with lots of tree and fruits and my siblings are right there as well with me and be peeking up some fruit I pick a fig from the tree and it was so tasty and juicy and sweet and Soni had a bit and eat it while we were enjoying saw myself in the house with my father second wifeand she had a broken leg and we had kind of argument with her

4 Aug 2024

Dream

I was holding a piece of fruit , I think a peach and I seen a white worm wiggling through it

25 Jul 2024

Dream

I was living in Costa Rica and I had to decide whether to leave or stay. All I had was a tent and there was a place to live in a campground. And I was concerned because it was so rainy there sometimes that I didn't know how I would stay dry in this tent. But I thought about putting a tarp over top of it and I still thought that I would be very uncomfortable with all the rain. There was another lady there, living there, so I talked to her about it. And then we decided to go up the road. And as we walked up the road there young men carrying platters of fruit and one of them started tipping and some of the fruit was falling off so I caught it and then I ate it and it was pineapple and some other little fruits and it was so delicious and then I kept walking.

18 Jul 2024

Dream

I don’t know if it’s a real dream I only remember that I was a kid and was holding a flower which I wanted to place in my big garden I was asking Jesus to help me place this one flower I called for him . After. That i told him that I want my garden to flourish even more and I took a fruit of my tree And then I had a second one where I really can’t remember anything

14 Jul 2024

Dream

I lived on a fruit tree farm, and every season I harvested different fruit trees with many friends. Sometimes the harvest was not great, the pear season was particularly bad and the fruit was bruised, rotting and tasteless. But the Apple tree season was very successful, the apples we bright red and very sweet, and we lay down nets to catch the thousands of apples when we shook the trees.

19 Jun 2024

Dream

January 15-16th ⁃ I Was migrating with my stuff ⁃ My grandmother having a family gathering ⁃ It ended up being an intervention of sorts ⁃ My former stepfather was there (Garykayi) and I was asking him stuff ⁃ And i asked him about my stuff ⁃ He brought up my suicide attempts as a jab at me. ⁃ I was furious at him bringing that shit to the family, punching him in the arm ⁃ My grandmother and incubator were both there ⁃ “I didn’t want to tell you, because no one here cares about their mental health! Why would you care for mine?” ⁃ After forcing me to explain the circumstances (and I replied with vague answers) I knew it was time to leave. ⁃ I went to go grab my stuff but only bits and pieces were laying around ⁃ I found the dog…pit Bull. He was asleep when I found him, and flinched awake when he smelled me. But he was instantly relaxed and very happy to see me. He was happy with me giving belly rubs and headpats and rubs. He had so many scars around his eyes…his eyes bulged out wild because of the treatment he’d gone through. ⁃ I didn’t want to leave him behind, but I knew if I did my leave my treatment would get worse here. Or worse, the poor dog would die because family sent him away to get killed indirectly. If I attempted to take him with me. Neither result was desirable. ⁃ Went back to the living room. I asked where my stuff was, and no one gave me a straight answer. Folks grinning at my fury like it was funny. ⁃ I walked out to find a way to my Aunt Mary’s. Surely my stuff would be there right? ⁃ There was my grandma house yard. But with trees and fruit growing on the trunks. (Before it was desolate.) ⁃ I went and walked up the stairs to sidewalk. Finding an old comic book abandoned on the stairs. Joker was on the cover…and a couple of dark clad hero’s? Joker in the pose of a puppeteer. I stepped over it and started walking. ⁃ Someone stopped me and told me to go back. I told her I couldn’t and won’t. She seemed to give me some advice while walking with me. Then disappeared. ⁃ Disney festival seemed to be going on. Familiar town square. Finished performing. (I remembered going the opposite direction from my grandma’s house and ended up with dead ends, so I went towards the square instead.) ⁃ Because I was furious and showing it, my walking speed was faster and folks seemed to want to help me. ⁃ I was soon stopped by someone (parent?) Because I had dropped the plushies I was carrying. Not recognizing I had. ⁃ Thanked them before going further to seek a way to my Aunt Mary’s. Or a way out. An exit. Something along the way. But I was stopped because strings were attached to me were pulled taut by corners. ⁃ I then was freed with the help and kindness of others. ⁃ That’s how I discovered in the donations box, there was the blanket I was sleeping with to keep warm. ⁃ I knew my family right then had donated and given away my stuff without my consent and knowledge. Stuff I had rebuilt my life with. Stuff that was given to me to support me through transition. ⁃ Grabbed the blanket and contacted my incubator who happened to be following me. ⁃ “You get one answer. ONE. Where the FUCK is my shit?” ⁃ She gave me a flyer as a response. “Abuse.” Something else… and “total shame.” ⁃ I really hated that. So I threw and broke a nearby beer bottle by throwing it at the wall behind her. Not caring if I was hurt by it. ⁃ Walked back through the square, knowing my stuff was lost for good. Or to spread out for all to be found in time. Which hurt so much as so much of it was precious to me due to sentimental value, gifts and mementos I’ve held onto from friends and folks who supported me. I woke up after that, felt the need to scream in anguish. I wasn’t sleeping well. So dreams were foggy at best; and on and off. Couldn’t stay asleep. I don’t want to fall back asleep.

4 Apr 2024

Dream

i was at a festival thing for the eclipse with some friends and my boyfriend but there was also a big heat wave going on so it was really hot outside but their were stands for people to sell things and me and brody(my boyfriend) were picking out clothes that were selling out quick and me and brody forgot out money in the hotel room inside this school so we had the lady hold our stuff till we got back and we were running to this hotel thats kinda far from where we were and we get into the school and we r going through these hallways and eventually get to his room and he grabs him money and we leave and when we r back at the shops i realized we forgot to get my money and so we had to go back but he kept wanting to push it aside like it didnt mattered what i wanted and he said he was thirsty first and i did too and he said lets get drinks so he got some mountain dew and i asked if i could get this fruit flavored drink and he said yes but didnt get it for me and just left me there so i ran after him and i just pushed it aside and i said can we get my money now and he said sure but he didnt want to go with me which was pissing me off a lot but he didnt seem to care that much and only cared about what he wanted

27 Mar 2024

Dream

I was in a motel but everyone kept their doors open. My room lead to a downstairs and backdoor. The area looked very poor and people were struggling. Someone asked me for some fruit so I decided to go grab some. I jumped off the top staircase to fly. The lady who asked me for the fruit was shocked I could fly. I said "I have to fully believe I can and I will fly". I didn't go and get the fruit after that because I needed to defend my room from something that I don't remember

7 Mar 2024

Dream

Drempt of fruits, yellow mango, yellow bananas and red apples on the floor of my house was going to pick up but I woke up