Control

2 Nov 2024

Dream

school ends and I’m trying to find someone and I hear a group of girls talk about that person that I’m trying to find and I ask them if they know where they live and they say yes so they take me to their house but when we are in the house one of the girls rub their vagina on my leg I feel like I lose control and I touch her vagina, but the person walks in and we act like nothing happened

29 Oct 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamt that there was a huge celebration, it almost felt like the end of the world. Everyone was drunk but I was sober. There was chaos and mess everywhere. I was alone and in control.

11 Oct 2024

Dream

so I'm in a castle there's lightning it also looks like a school built in with the castle so it's like Hogwarts like one of those old classic like gothic-y type settings it's giving dark academia and I am hiding okay scratch that before that I am an angel of sorts apparently and I have a boy with me and I'm hiding him and myself from the student committee members or like the school prefect or the teacher whoever it is that like basically like regulate stuff in the school And in front of school because(it’s built on some steep hill or mountain edge) there is a valley or like a steep slope it kind of looks like the one from Sekiro the game(Set in Medieval Japan, warring period; fantasy-action) And I'm basically camouflaging myself and the boy, covering him with my wings or whatever and basically camouflaging my whole self and just like my surroundings as the grass on the mound, like the shifting scapes at the bottom of the valley. Because everything around me is basically just flora and fauna. And one of them who came down to search basically like pokes where I am(me) with a staff or whatever out of suspicion, but I don't react and they, yeah, go away with a pompous ‘hmph’. So this scene kind of changes tonight abruptly(we’re still at the same place though), and I basically like fly the boy back to his dorm sector in the castle. It’s raining, I think. Yeah it is also like thundering and stuff; it's a whole ass storm, yeah, but it's raining, it's nice. Like the castle, like the silhouette of it it looks like it's kind of faintly glowing blue, pale blue? I don't know, maybe it's the lightning doing the tricks on my eyes. and now it's like 2 in the morning like 2 22 a.m. or whatever angel numbers and there's like a sound of some kind of an instrument that wakes everyone up. yeah and it's still raining, it's kind of stormy. And I'm in like this room right, when(I suppose I'm back to being human somewhat) there's like a guy's voice announcing that like some “The Angel (whatever-their-name-is) is here; sing the hymn, bring your petitions everyone” and like everyone is gathering to like the room that I was sleeping in. Apparently I was like sleeping in like a communal lounge or whatever but it does look like a solitary room so I don't know. Kind of stony, kind of medieval, kind of looks cold. The kind that you would see in like folkloristic illustrations of a castle where there's like knights and like princesses and stuff, you know what I mean? And like the angel is here? everyone is gathered, like everyone is in a line or whatever to, like, basically get their petitions heard, And like the angel? Oh my god, they look so like ethereal. Loke they're blue pale like glowing apparition of some kind of like a tall figure; there's like faintly like a silhouette of some wings behind it it's beautiful. And like when it’s my turn, I ask them how I can get good at magic and astrology. They ask me where my north node and my south node is. My north node is in the 9th, my south node in the 3rd. He tells me to go ask Haiaiel, another angel. When I tell him that I have my moon and mercury in my 9th house. And because I have my Jupiter in the 3rd house and in the sign of Libra. And because it's retrograde, he tells me to basically let go of my need for control. And to sort of basically depart from what I think is a dogmatic way of thinking. Even if I might think that I am an unconventional person on a conscious level. There still is that level of perfectionism and dogmatism and this fixation with control. He tells me to look to my 5th house and my 7th house, the houses that are like 2 apart from each other measuring from 3rd and the 9th house. I ask him what if I had my Pluto in my 5th house. He basically tells me to not be afraid, be courageous about taking an unconventional path when it comes to your creativity, that is your magic, arts, and whatever inspires you to live in your life. He also tells me to like pay attention to the way I use my creativity as like this source of subconscious and unconscious power, a means for control in my life, an upheaval, to accept that okay there are some extreme sides to me but to not be afraid of it because being afraid of it and repressing it only makes it come out in a more maligned way. When I tell him that I have my Neptune in my 7th house as well as my Chiron, the asteroid. He tells me to tap into it basically. Use the imagination that you have and you use to romanticize, glamorize, and idealize your interpersonal relationships and your limerence into your creative activities. And that includes magic. magic is all about subconscious beliefs and all that the efficacy of it at least is. so the fantasy component, the depth, use it. The moon and mercury in my ninth house as well as my north node basically tells me to follow what your inner guidance, your intellect and my intuition tells you to do. Like sure your foundations could be built on the like the traditional approach that, you know, your Jupiter facilitates in your learning it, but to define what really works You you, you have to do it yourself. you have to take the initiatives. You have to try and fail you have to be courageous; have not like any sort of fixed way of thinking without carefully evaluating it. And even then do question alway. Hone in on the clarity your inner intellect and voice provides. Practice trusting your intuition. Practice discernment between you know what is conscious and subconscious. Also he just like basically really really just pushes me to like seek Haiaiel’s guidance. And after that I basically thank him and go away, and he moves on with answering everyone else's petitions and questions and prayers, yeah. And I watch from the bed.

22 Aug 2024

Dream

Me and 3 other people were in a facility that we were trying to escape and it was mostly red and white, then we got Deadpool powers but everyone had their own perk, I had powers but I didn't have deadpools cancer cells because I'm a cancer sign and someone else had the perk to control our dreams.

5 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at my parents house. I got upset because they dissaproved my sailor moon powers so i left. I stayed somewhere else. I met my friends friend that got her interested in plants. Although ive never met this friend before i was able to see her face. She was nice and told me i could go over to her house sometime to see her plants. Then i went to the living room. I saw an old friend arrive that i hadnt seen in years and hugged him and he hugged me back but he didnt say anything or even looked at me and walked away. I then had a different outfit sort of like a white kimono dress made out of towels and a robe. I almost put on a thick black waist and wrist band that are meant to enslave and control you with shocks. I realized i didnt have to wear the bands and decided to hide them. Except one of them had a screen with a movie i was watching so i left it out until i finished my movie.

23 Jul 2024

Dream

My dream was about my insecurities which I can’t control it is accepted by my close people in my dreams

7 Jul 2024

Dream

This was one of the more powerful vivid and lengthy nightmares that I have had in my life. The story line was so frightening and meticulous and there was no difference between the dream and reality in that moment. It is so hard to put into words but at the center of all of it is a very evil and very cunning man who has total control of me and everyone around me. He can not be fooled he can not be escaped it’s like he is an all seeing eye in human form and he knows every move we (all those he has control and possession of) make. It is not just me. He has many pawns in his twisted game. And we are all terrified we are all being punished And we are being violently killed or tortured and/ or being forced to participate and carry out different murders and violent crimes that he chooses, all in order to stay alive and not have our loved ones harmed. The first thing I remember took place at the apartment complex I grew up playing at. I remember I was in the parking lot and there were 2 dead mutilated bodies laying on a grassy nole in the parking lot. Then I was taken. I became a part of a group of captives who were forced to commit similar staged murders and leave these bodies in the exact fashion that this man wanted. I was constantly terrified constantly trying to escape. But couldn’t. He knew every thing I did before I did it. I was stuck in this cycle a prisoner to murder and death

4 Jul 2024

Dream

i dreamed i was taken from a school, and woke up at a school with people who had powers. i knew some of the people there. after a bit, were brought to the middle of the wild to survive. the thing is there’s this really big bird who will target us. so while we tried to survive, there was this dude who was also a student who was like a lady who’s really importants son basically lead us. At one point, the bird came close to our area so everyone was panicking because the bird could get us from our base. because of this, i tore the wire from some of the walls and ran towards a section of the base and started wrapping it to try and make a roof, everyone also tried to help but i lt didn’t work. me and the son of the important leader started to both kinda take control of things even though he wasn’t happy about it and ignored me. i decided to take the wires (again) and use a rock to forge them together and create a axe. i asked who wanted to cute down a tree and the important leaders son raised his and and smirked and said “me.” so i tossed it to him. I woke up after this but im pretty sure me and him were gonna fall in love.

27 Jun 2024

Dream

I was on a bus that was getting harassed by two motorbikes, the bus driver started speeding up and lost control of the bus, ultimately I was fine and wasn’t harmed

17 Jun 2024

Dream

I had multiple dreams in one one was a mining dream one was a dream about my relationship one was a dream like about a guy who did something to me in real life I can't forgive and one was about food trucks Well I guess that I was aware I was dreaming and could control what I said and did also they were a bit nsfw I could kinda read the peoples minds and I wasn't quite comfortable with all the things they thought and or said I held it in and didnt say I wasn't comfortable just tried to get out if the situation and would enter different dreams

12 Jun 2024

Dream

I was in a shoe store I used to work at looking at shoes. There were really cute boots and sandals and I was enjoying myself. Then there were these bratty kids running around climbing on the shelves and just destroying things. I told them they need to stop but they just told me they don’t care. I told their mom to control her kids and she told me to fuck off. So I told the sales associate and she said there was nothing she could do. So I started to throw jewelry that was on the displays and saying “well it doesn’t matter because no one here cares!” But then I felt really bad so I started cleaning up the necklaces and apologizing. Then I woke up.

27 May 2024

Dream

Me and my girlfriend Colleen are relaxing in my bed at home, not really doing anything just lying there. I get up for some reason and look out the window to see my parent’s car in the driveway. My parents walk in and are a little surprised. I briefly introduce them and all is fairly normal so my panic quickly resolves. I walk outside to the shed and it is now dark. I can hear music coming from inside but the door is locked. A bunch of people from my high school appear behind me and are also trying to get in including my friend Euan. The door finally opens and we run inside. There is a speaker playing the music on a desk but the interior of the shed is actually a bus. I’m pushed to the back by a the wave of people running through. We are in school uniform and I assume this is some kind of school trip. I see at a seat near the front of the bus, my greatest spiritual teacher Ram Dass (who in real life is dead) staring back at me with a big beard. He’s smiling so brightly and warmly I outstretched my arms in awe and admiration and fill up with love. I start giggling and attempt to make my way closer to him. I find a seat beside an old friend in the middle and Ram Dass keeps staring at me. I can’t stop giggling and blushing and have to keep looking away to contain myself. Soon it becomes clear that there is no bus driver and so I have to take over. The bus starts moving but I’m not sure what I’m doing, the bus is moving wildly and I realise I’m using the clutch instead of the gas pedal. People are sort of panicking and I realise I need to get it under control. I find the gas pedal but it’s stringy and worn. The bus lurches onto a main road then rides up on the pavement beside the park. We stop and there is a group of men holding a cat in front of me. The bus disappears and I am standing alone there. Suddenly the men let go of the cat and it starts chasing a rat who in turn is chasing me. I run wildly to get away and then the dream ends.