Control

7 Jul 2024

Dream

This was one of the more powerful vivid and lengthy nightmares that I have had in my life. The story line was so frightening and meticulous and there was no difference between the dream and reality in that moment. It is so hard to put into words but at the center of all of it is a very evil and very cunning man who has total control of me and everyone around me. He can not be fooled he can not be escaped it’s like he is an all seeing eye in human form and he knows every move we (all those he has control and possession of) make. It is not just me. He has many pawns in his twisted game. And we are all terrified we are all being punished And we are being violently killed or tortured and/ or being forced to participate and carry out different murders and violent crimes that he chooses, all in order to stay alive and not have our loved ones harmed. The first thing I remember took place at the apartment complex I grew up playing at. I remember I was in the parking lot and there were 2 dead mutilated bodies laying on a grassy nole in the parking lot. Then I was taken. I became a part of a group of captives who were forced to commit similar staged murders and leave these bodies in the exact fashion that this man wanted. I was constantly terrified constantly trying to escape. But couldn’t. He knew every thing I did before I did it. I was stuck in this cycle a prisoner to murder and death.

4 Jul 2024

Dream

i dreamed i was taken from a school, and woke up at a school with people who had powers. i knew some of the people there. after a bit, were brought to the middle of the wild to survive. the thing is there’s this really big bird who will target us. so while we tried to survive, there was this dude who was also a student who was like a lady who’s really importants son basically lead us. At one point, the bird came close to our area so everyone was panicking because the bird could get us from our base. because of this, i tore the wire from some of the walls and ran towards a section of the base and started wrapping it to try and make a roof, everyone also tried to help but i lt didn’t work. me and the son of the important leader started to both kinda take control of things even though he wasn’t happy about it and ignored me. i decided to take the wires (again) and use a rock to forge them together and create a axe. i asked who wanted to cute down a tree and the important leaders son raised his and and smirked and said “me.” so i tossed it to him. I woke up after this but im pretty sure me and him were gonna fall in love.

27 Jun 2024

Dream

I was on a bus that was getting harassed by two motorbikes, the bus driver started speeding up and lost control of the bus, ultimately I was fine and wasn’t harmed

17 Jun 2024

Dream

I had multiple dreams in one one was a mining dream one was a dream about my relationship one was a dream like about a guy who did something to me in real life I can't forgive and one was about food trucks Well I guess that I was aware I was dreaming and could control what I said and did also they were a bit nsfw I could kinda read the peoples minds and I wasn't quite comfortable with all the things they thought and or said I held it in and didnt say I wasn't comfortable just tried to get out if the situation and would enter different dreams

12 Jun 2024

Dream

I was in a shoe store I used to work at looking at shoes. There were really cute boots and sandals and I was enjoying myself. Then there were these bratty kids running around climbing on the shelves and just destroying things. I told them they need to stop but they just told me they don’t care. I told their mom to control her kids and she told me to fuck off. So I told the sales associate and she said there was nothing she could do. So I started to throw jewelry that was on the displays and saying “well it doesn’t matter because no one here cares!” But then I felt really bad so I started cleaning up the necklaces and apologizing. Then I woke up.

27 May 2024

Dream

Me and my girlfriend Colleen are relaxing in my bed at home, not really doing anything just lying there. I get up for some reason and look out the window to see my parent’s car in the driveway. My parents walk in and are a little surprised. I briefly introduce them and all is fairly normal so my panic quickly resolves. I walk outside to the shed and it is now dark. I can hear music coming from inside but the door is locked. A bunch of people from my high school appear behind me and are also trying to get in including my friend Euan. The door finally opens and we run inside. There is a speaker playing the music on a desk but the interior of the shed is actually a bus. I’m pushed to the back by a the wave of people running through. We are in school uniform and I assume this is some kind of school trip. I see at a seat near the front of the bus, my greatest spiritual teacher Ram Dass (who in real life is dead) staring back at me with a big beard. He’s smiling so brightly and warmly I outstretched my arms in awe and admiration and fill up with love. I start giggling and attempt to make my way closer to him. I find a seat beside an old friend in the middle and Ram Dass keeps staring at me. I can’t stop giggling and blushing and have to keep looking away to contain myself. Soon it becomes clear that there is no bus driver and so I have to take over. The bus starts moving but I’m not sure what I’m doing, the bus is moving wildly and I realise I’m using the clutch instead of the gas pedal. People are sort of panicking and I realise I need to get it under control. I find the gas pedal but it’s stringy and worn. The bus lurches onto a main road then rides up on the pavement beside the park. We stop and there is a group of men holding a cat in front of me. The bus disappears and I am standing alone there. Suddenly the men let go of the cat and it starts chasing a rat who in turn is chasing me. I run wildly to get away and then the dream ends.

24 May 2024

Dream

I was on my way to group with my friend Melody, when I saw my crush walking with his friend. God he was perfect..  We made eye contact and he gave me a small smile. I was about to walk into the group room door when I felt someone grab my wrist, before I knew it I had a hand over my mouth and was being dragged into a spare room. I looked at the man pinning me against the wall, It was my man. He grabbed my wrists slamming them above my head. "I know you like this.." My face turns red as I look around making sure no one was standing near us "Jack I-" right as i was about to say something he smashes his lips into mine, aggressively pulling my hair still keeping both my wrists above my head. "Shut the fuck up.." He slides his knees in between my thighs kissing my neck. "you want me to gentle, or to treat you like the bitch you are?.." "Mhm..." "You asked for it.." he grabs me by the throat And throws me against the wall "Dont even beg.." he pushes his body up against mine He bit my neck and pushed me up on the wall he slowly ran his cold hands up my shirt. He kisses me roughly and then takes his shirt off, smiling. He kisses me more roughly pulling my hair gently. I feel my breathing get heavier as I let out a moan "Oh-ho.. my little slut..~" He grabs my neck tightly again "Did I say you could make noise?..~" "No J-" "What the fuck did you just call me, slut?" He squeezes my throat tightly "No daddy.."          "I think I have an idea.." he grabs my legs pushing them apart aggressively "Now listen, you're not going to do anything, you're going to stay still and take it" He pins my wrists down above my head. I proceeded to squirm around underneath him trying to break free from his grasp "Fuck.. do you not listen?.." He smiles at me keeping his hand on my throat. "I'm sorry.." I lean my head up closing my eyes tightly I hear the sound of a belt unbuckling and pants being removed. He pushes my skirt up and removes my panties. "Listen here pretty girl, I dont care if you scream for me.. your going to stay quiet" I nod my head, leaning back closing my eyes again "God your beautiful.." I yell his name loudly as i feel him slam himself inside of me setting a hard brutal pace. "Shit.. FUCK!" i feel him hold a tight grip on my throat still slamming into me "Dont speak unless spoken to bitch~" He slams into me grunting, I let out a loud moan ".....louder...." He whispers into my ear, kissing me, biting down on my lip and moving to kiss my neck. I moaned his name louder, "Jackotah!~" "That's right do as you're told slut.." He continues to slam into me grunting, his hand still on my neck. I continue moaning and whimpering, "Hmph- I- J-jackotahh~" He starts slamming into me harder, He leans into my ear and whispers, "I-im close" His thrusts become sloppy and his breath becomes heavy. Jack speeds up his thrusts until he reaches his climax. He released into me. (Skip) The next day. "Mel, can you believe that? Who would be that stupid?" I felt a large soft hand on the bottom of my chin, next thing I knew the back of my head was pushing into his groin. "Hey..~" Jack said pushing my head closer, He was tall and mildly toned, yet the veins he had... God... "I'll see you later, you know where~" he let go of my face and walked away, his dirty blonde fluffy hair was so distracting, I forgot about mel. "Spill! What was that!?????" She squeezed her fist, covering her mouth, I told her EVERYTHING.. maybe a little to much.. but whatever.. Later.. "Byee! WOA-" He quickly grabbed me pulling me into the janitors closet, locking it. "is something wrong?-" "yes there is my little slut~ I'm upset.." "Wait why-" I walked closer to him, gently grabbing has facep "Because you're not on your knees yet." He laughed and kissed me "really?-" "No beautiful- I'm joking... unless?" He grabbed my waist and pushed me on the wall. Grabbing my bottom thighs holding me in place "Jack? What are you planning?~" "Beat the shit out of someone- or Sex I'll decide later" He removes his shirt again along with my panties, Straight to the point, He ran his warm hands along my inner thigh, putting me down on the nearest table. He moved to his knees and grabbed my hips. "Jackotah~.." He placed his lips at the top of my clit and began sliding his tongue up and down, then after a while of that slid his tongue inside of my pussy, his actions soon led me to release on his lips. He then took two of his fingers in his mouth, placing them in me. A small whine left my lips, as his connecting with mine quickly as he sped his motions up. He added another finger to make it worse. "you're doing so good, beautiful~.." Then my eyes slowly fluttered open and I was laying in my bed next to my body pillow, alone.

6 May 2024

Dream

I seem to keep having dreams about people from my past, people that I haven’t seen for a long time. This particular friend, I used to use drugs with she was older than me, and I would consider her a pretty influential person around town. She was a businesswoman and made a considerable amount of money , but she spent most of it on drugs. In the dream she had me working for her and I almost felt like I was trapped. We were working in her home and she had all my banking accounts going through her name and therefore under her control, yet she was only giving me a percentage of what I was depositing into them by working for her, as my salary. I knew in the back of my mind that it wasn’t correct the way she was doing things, but for some reason I couldn’t do anything about it or get out of there; there was no way to escape. There was no way to call my family, she was totally tracking my every move, I felt trapped . I also felt under some kind of chemical substance that was being forced onto me without my knowledge. However, no matter how drugged up she was keeping me, I understood the whole situation that was taking place was very serious and I needed out. I felt trapped and totally under her mind control.

6 May 2024

Dream

flying over a green forest and rivers I can control my body looking around, people asking me how to do it I try to teach them but I can't explain with words, usually those dreams are consecutive after wake up for a bit keeps going right when I fall asleep

2 May 2024

Dream

I was confined in a large area that had an inside area and an outside area. The inside area was al white and had a bathroom and a living space but it was very bland and there wasn’t much to do, there was a small workout space but there was no equipment. The outside was under a glass dome and it was a circle with some grass and trees. I didn’t feel like myself in the dream, it felt like I was someone else and I was called by a different name. I don’t know if it was a name or a number or object but it wasn’t my name. I felt like a lab rat. I had never been outside of this cage place, people would only come in and that were usually scientists or a women who was called my mom. I think she was the reason I was put in there. I was miserable and unhappy as the girl locked up, but my subconscious mind was watching this like the dream it was so I didnt actually have these emotions. The mom lady comes in and takes me for a walk around the outside part of my cage and talks about things like responsibility and power which makes the girl I am annoyed. She takes me indoors to one of the rooms and makes me play a game and I lose. She makes me play more little games and she all has tricks up her sleeve for them so I can never win and we play by her rules. She says I’ll never go out into the real world if I can never learn and that there are dangerous people that want to use me out there. I get frustrated saying that the mom is the most dangerous one to me and I shouldn’t be kept here. She is very sly and watches me when I don’t know it and analyzes my behaviors and patterns to have control. She uses her powers on me to make me go into a daze and follow her every word and action.When I am in the daze I “love” her. Then after a while she will return me to normally and I’ll be too exhausted to think or do anything. When she eventually leaves and I’m left in my extravagant prison, I walk around some of the rooms. It’s all white walls or glass. I can’t see anything outside only inside, and I don’t know where the door is. The people call different days by colors which assosiate how the day was. I told myself there has never been a maroon day which was going to be the day I escape, but I was going to make it happen. I see the sunlight and it’s a bright day and there are cleaning ladies that come in to clean the rooms so I am kicked outside. My indoor area is locked up so I’m stuck outside but I go and pester them through the chain fences that surround the places. The indoor area is elevated too so I’m looking up. I try to get in an area that is left open but they close it saying I can’t come in. They call me “your majesty” and I don’t say anything I just run to another area that might be open. There are 3 ladies working and they start yelling at each other to close all openings. So I run and I see some random hole in the chains that I’d have to jump up a concrete block to reach but I pass it going to another open door. None of the ladies seem to notice the small opening so I bring there attention to the door since it’s hard to get to each opening from the other one really quickly while inside. Once I see the ladies are far enough where I want them I quickly cut back and sprint towards the small opening. And I struggle to get up the concrete block but I make it before the ladies can push me out. I see them panic through a window looking from where they were to me. I smiled and felt very mischievous for what I was doing. I felt a little bad for the ladies since they would take the blame for my escape but in no way was that going to stop me. I keep running through my indoor area looking for the place they would’ve come in and I don’t find it but I find a gap in the wall and a new area on the outside so I squeeze myself through it and I’m in a new room and then I opened the door out of the room and it’s an indoor gymnasium with a bunch of people playing tennis or basketball and I see a door across the ways. I here yelling behind me and I know now security is about to be called and I need to get out quickly. I smile because it’s my very first maroon day and it’s one I created that they will remember for years. I’m sprinting across the gym taking the most direct path to the door which meant jumping over people lounging on the ground or pushing aside some tall guys playing basketball. I open the doors and I have to sprint through another court inside the gymnasium but after I do that there’s grey doors with an exit sign and I think subconsciously about how someone would write about this situation if it were in a book (I do this a lot in real life if I’m going somewhere). I run out of these grey doors and I’m in the back of the building which is really tall and white. I’m outside for the first time and it’s this parking lot with trees on the left side. I haven’t heard the alarms go off so either security is slow or they don’t want to alarm all the people inside the gym. I hop onto a car and just run on all the hoods of the car until I have cleared the parking lot. I look to my right after hearing some noise and it’s the mom, an older man, a guy my age, and three girls wearing some white robe. The mom and older man tell the people my age to go after me and that I need to be captured. He also said that it would be easier since I didn’t know how to talk to people and was really socially and emotionally unsmart from being alone my whole life. Subconsciously I laughed because the girl I was in the dream had the actual me in her who actually had being socially and emotional smart as my strengths in real life. I knew I wouldn’t trust many people though in the dream. I couldn’t go back now since I was caught so I run towards an open grass field and I’m just sprinting to lose track. They all have some sort of powers that they are trying to shoot me down with and they are orange. I have some white power that has some other color that I use to boost my speed and ability to jump. I’m running into highways and jumping over cars to get away. I take some turns that I hope would lose the male following me, I don’t know where the females went. I’m running a lot time until I get to this giant white wall of air that extends further than I can see. There’s a small circle that has more transparent air but it says beyond that point is for intermediate people referencing how skilled you are with powers. I immediately go in and it’s like the normal world but slightly more dangerous. It’s just the guy following me and he’s yelling at me to turn back and that I can still fix things. He seemed relatively close to me and like he would be a friend or love interest in the future if this was a movie. He had brown fluffy hair and brown eyes, and I thought he was relatively attractive but I was gonna run away. I’m still running and it’s a little easier to lose the guy, but then the 3 girls show up and I see another white wall of some air particle but if I go in this one it’s for experts only and I’ve never really used my powers so I’ll be in a lot of danger. The girls all have blond hair and brown or blue eyes. They seemed like workers of whatever agency had me locked up with their plane white dress gowns. I almost go past the wall but quickly cut back and go through the transparent circle because it was worth the danger to try to get rid of the girls. It’s very distopian once I enter this area. There was no one around except trees and large white buildings that were half broken. I think there are monsters and demons in here but I didn’t see any of them while in the dream. There are these big white buildings with a lot of glass areas. The girls eyes turn orange and they are using these beams of powers against me that I barely dodge. Some things are to trip me up and to capture me but this one was to put me under a spell of their control. It was one that my mom figure would use on me so I particularly didn’t like that spell. I use my own powers to boost me forward enough that I enter a building and I go through lots of doors. As I was running the guy and these girls were putting little red flags on the ground to track where we were which was annoying because I would have to continuously move to finally get away. Me and the girls go through and building and I lead them into a new building that’s bigger and I’m going to try to lose them in this building. I go in and out the other side of some small rooms and then I circle back to areas that they already went through because they would try to look in new areas. I finally at one point got them turned around after I used some controlling powers on them. It put them in a daze for about a minute and their bodies glowed. As they were going around a room, I was slowly just mirroring their move on the other side of the wall so that they didn’t ever see me but I knew where they were. They were annoyed when they finally gave up and called up the old man who came really quickly. He was definitely experienced and he said to them to keep searching this area and backup would be coming. I almost got caught a few times when I was trying to peak at them from out of the corner wall I was using as a shield of vision. I would have to get on the move when they were gone and go a new direction. The dream ended as I almost got caught when the opened a door, but I hid between the wall and the door as it opened and then slipped out before it could close after they all walked in the sciency looking room. It was very risky.

9 Apr 2024

Dream

My best friend was walking on eggshells with her bf. I was there and I gave her advice don’t like him control you . That’s not real love that’s control. Then she confided in me we went to this room and started telling me everything. Then she kissed my ear, my lips then my neck. Her bf kept texting her she had a service that would automatically text him. Then she said she had to or was going to drive to Florida to get the snacks and candy he wanted. We talked then when she left I heard her standing up for self to him in front of my family. She ended the relationship and I was so proud of her. The guy left walking to his car. He put the hood back onto his car. The we all celebrated, and told her we were proud of her.

6 Apr 2024

Dream

I think, at first I was trying to appease or follow control of my mother or both parents. Don't remember what was before that. Then I was at a school and had tests, and biology lesson, teachers didn't like me and there were my classmates and colleagues as classmates. And then on break we were supposed to do so something, but i sat on bench and Rinkveich talked to me and wanted to hold my hand. And asked about what i think about politics. And then my friend got mad about me that i didn't arrive and ditched me even when i was running after them. And then i wondered around city and kicked rocks around that were breaking everything, damaging the buildings, including an ancient ruins, that i vandalized. Then i saw a couple in a house with a lot of windows and went in . I don't remember if they were doing anything sexual at first, but the girl (young woman), but i started to flirt a bit with the girl and she wanted to shower and i joined her. Then we started to kiss and caress each other. But i had to take out something from my mouth first 2 times and wash hands afterwards. And then we saw that all windows were open (we were on the first floor) and many people are watching us, and the girl's boyfriend explained that one of the guys in the crowd is their neighbor. That guy also filmed with his phone. When we closed all the curtains, i caressed girl's back and picked a bit on a pimple. I asked if it was painful. She didn't want me to do it and i lied, saying that i didn't do it. Then I and girl's boyfriend talked about music and a festival he was at last summer, and it was some sort of fantasy medieval music. I remembered in the dream, that i was there but i don't think it's true. Then we talked about one dj (who had also a YouTube channel), who was very fun and a music band i actually had seen and sang a bit of the most popular dwarfrock song. During this conversation i had a feeling that the guy doesn't believe me, just like it was when it happened recently in real life. Then i woke up.