Beau, your dream of being on a bus harassed by two motorbikes and the bus driver losing control can be quite revealing. The bus represents your current life's journey, possibly reflecting your daily routine or the path you're on. The harassment by the motorbikes suggests external pressures or disruptions in your life, which could be linked to the stress and anxiety you frequently experience. The two motorbikes might symbolize specific stressors or challenges, potentially related to your past traumatic experiences or ongoing financial stress.
The bus driver speeding up and losing control can symbolize a feeling of being overwhelmed or out of control in your waking life. This loss of control may be connected to your difficulties with falling asleep and frequent waking, as your mind might be struggling to process and manage the stressors you face. However, the fact that you ultimately weren't harmed indicates a resilience and inner strength, suggesting that despite these pressures, you are capable of handling them and coming out unscathed.
It's also significant that you were a passenger on the bus rather than the driver. This could imply a feeling of passivity or lack of control over certain aspects of your life, perhaps related to the health issues and relationship difficulties you've experienced. The recurring nature of your dreams and occasional nightmares might be your subconscious trying to process these feelings of helplessness and striving for a sense of control and stability.