Dream About Reconnecting Lost Love 2

I was traveling with a couple of friends of mine. We were hanging out at their place and I remember asking for their help to take me places which lead to a fight and huge misunderstanding. My friend got upset because she felt that I only hung out with her when I needed something and made me realize my mistake on this matter and apologized for my actions immediately and tell her It was not in my intentions to do that to her and that I was only trying to look out for my kids and make sure I have everything for them. She understood, but we still didn't go anywhere. All of a sudden we are at a bar and I'm sitting down at one of the tables as I try to explain to my friend why I needed her help, but also understood her feelings. I stood up from the seat only to be met by someone I used to be in love with many years ago. My husband was no where to be found and so we ended up talking for a while and hanging out all together. Soon we took off and headed home to my house. We were then all in my bed laying down and talking. I remember looking at his face and just missing his presence in my life and how much pain there was left behind between us. I didn't want things to happen they way they did. I spoke out to him that I missed him. He looked at me and said I'm sorry I can't stick around for you anymore. All of a sudden I realized what he meant. Was he dead? Was he dead and his spirit was visiting my dream? I started to cry and ask him if he was dead? He looked saddened and said nothing to me. He then wrapped around me and held me as cried in the bed over his potential death. Then I woke up rather extremely sad and emotional.