Pastor

17 Oct 2024

Dream

There’s always far more to my dreams than I can remember, but I was maybe 10 or 12 years old. I was in the house alone with my sister who is younger than me. The house is two-story with the second floor. We were on the ground floor the first floor, and I noticed that there was water seeping through the ceiling (it was daytime as I remember some light from outside seeping through the windows). the water looked like it was pouring out of the ceiling, not in drops but like a faucet. And then the water kind of turned into orange juice and then I knew that something was up, maybe someone spilled orange juice upstairs and it leaked through the ceiling down to us. My sister was on the couch and she didn’t get wet, but she was right next to the pouring orange juice that was flowing from the ceiling. Finally, I saw smoke come from the ceiling and that’s when I went upstairs and saw that there was a fire upstairs in the room right above us. I took my younger sister and we exited the home and it was late at night. At that moment, the house was all engulfed in flames so much so that neighbors came out to make sure that we were OK. All I could think of was telling my parents about it but distinctively enough I did not worry about that so much… I saw one of the pastors that attends my church. She’s kind of like a protect her, someone I look up to as a very spiritually discerning mother figure. She was there and she just wanted to make sure that we were OK. I’m sure there was more to the dream than I can remember, but that’s what I clearly remember. I don’t think it really has any significant meaning I didn’t get anything from it, but I’d be interested to know it’s analysis.

15 Oct 2024

Dream

The first part of my dream i found out my oldest daughter's father passed away ( still very much alive in waking life). I felt so devistated although we do not have a good relationship. I remember having to tell my daughter that her biological father that she has never met died. She was very upset. We went to the funeral and his family wanted pictures with my daughter and the corpse of her father. This family has never met my daughter and I remember feeling so enraged that they didn't want to be a part of her life. I also remember there being a shelf above his body with toy blocks on it and I wanted some for my youngest daughter. Next I was riding in a car and we were going out to our farm land. I was so excited because we had a bunch of new baby giraffes out there. And our pastor was out there giving the baby giraffes chiropractic adjustments.

7 Oct 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream after I was watching the movie Agatha After Long. The particular episode I watched was about witches who were going down this path that they needed to face their fears. when I went to sleep the dream that I had took place at I was at an airport and I got to the security and I didn't have my boarding pass so I was trying to find pull up my boarding pass on my mobile phone but I couldn't find it and then I couldn't find my ID so I was looking for my ID and my boarding pass so I decided I needed to go back home to get my passport and I knew it would take it was only like a 30-minute train ride away to get to the airport and back in There was a subway train connected to the airport. I hopped on the subway. It was only supposed to take me like 10 minutes to my house and 10 minutes back so I should have been back to the airport in 20 minutes. However, the train never stopped. I asked the conductor why didn't the train stop and he said this train is going backwards and it's gonna take over an hour to get back to the airport which I was super nervous because I said I'm gonna miss my flight but there was no way for me to get off the train. Next thing you know it went pitch black and the scene changed and I was walking out of the subway. When I got out of the subway, I transitioned from a subway to walking out of the homeless shelter in my hometown of Kalamazoo, Michigan. When I was walking out of the homeless shelter, I was holding the hands of two children who were scared. There were a lot of homeless people, many of whom were on drugs and some people were even dead. And I was trying to guide the kids around the different bodies. I also saw one of the pastors who I know was with me as well. And he was saying, come on, we got to hurry up and get to this training. While holding the kids' hands and trying to navigate them and keep them calm from being scared, all of a sudden the scene changed again and I was at another building and I was trying to find my way in so I could take this training. I knew I needed to be there for a training. However, when I got in the building, nobody could answer me when I kept asking where the particular training was. Nobody knew where it was. The pastor and the kids that were with me were gone and I was trying to find them to see if perhaps they knew where I needed to be. I ran into a woman and she said, Hey, the place where you need to go is next door. Go over there and ask them when you get there, ask them for this particular information. I can't remember what it was, but she told me what to ask and she was like, you need to go to the building next door. When I walked outside to go next door, it was pitch black. As I was walking next door, I almost heard this voice saying to me, this is a dream, but it's not, pay attention. As I was walking to the next door building, I heard somebody say my name, Nicole. The voice kind of sounded familiar, but the voice also sounded distressed. They called my name again. When they called my name, they started coming towards me and then they fell and they were in so much distress. I instantly stopped what I was doing, I dropped everything and I ran to that person's aid and I started to help them. As I was helping the woman, it almost seemed as if she came out of the ground which was similar to something that happened in the episode but she was coming out of the ground and she was struggling and stressed and I was helping her, trying to keep her calm and then eventually her demeanor changed and she was more calm and she said, for helping me, here is a door and a door appeared out of nowhere like magic, almost like a magic wand and I heard a voice say that you can go through the door she said, you can go through the door, this is almost your reward for helping me and as I got ready to go towards the door, it closed really fast Almost as if she shut the door when she slammed the door her face completely changed and almost like a demonic But not really her face can change and she ripped off this mask and she said You are not supposed to go through that door you are actually supposed to go somewhere else you are distracted This was a distraction and I heard a voice say listen like this isn't a dream But this is like it's a dream, but it's not a dream Listen to the words she's saying she said like that door wasn't for you to go through But because you were helping someone else you thought this was a door that was presented to you But that actually wasn't the door you got distracted when you were trying to help this individual instead of Going next door to do what you need to do You stopped to help someone else and then you thought this this opportunity was for you. That wasn't for you so then I sat there and then I woke up

4 Oct 2024

Dream

I was at church with my family, When we arrived at the building I could hear our pastor T.C. over the intercom saying "It would be nice if people could help with setup instead of just standing around and talking." I wondered how many people are ever available to help T.C. and his family with setup. Then His wife Osheta came around and was collecting things from different families to make a display of thankfulness. April gave her one of Helena's blankets. Later on the video of the beach where they had displayed it along with some vigil candles I had the distinct feeling that it looked a lot like a memorial. Something people display where someone had died. But Helena is alive I noted. I also noticed how things look more beautiful on camera than they do in real life - framing is everything. In real life you often do not determine your framing. But can you?

14 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a boat heading towards a beach. The beach was so pretty. The water was clear and the sand was perfect. As the boat was approaching the shore I looked around and saw people on the boat with me. It seemed like we were on a mission but the other people were distracted. They were so conceited. One lady in particular walked up to me and kept talking about herself saying thinks like “look at my hair!” And “look at my jewelry!” She was just showing off all of her material possessions. I was annoyed that everyone was so superficial. Then the boat started to sink but I was the only one who cared everyone else was still bragging on themselves. The lady who walked up to me kept bragging even as she was drowning. She was too into herself to save herself even though we ended up in shallow water. I could still see the lady under the clear water talking about herself. Then I started swimming and then walking to shore. I looked back and I saw a my pastor in the water he was parting it like he was searching for something, even though the water was clear. He had on a military green shirt and military dog tags. The pastor was also mumbling to himself. Then he called out to people to try and salvage some of the wreckage. I felt no need to assist him so I kept walking forward. I noticed some people under a pier watching while in the water. One of the people was my brother he was angry, calling the pastor stupid and crazy. I quietly asked him to stop. And kept walking to the shore. Then someone yelled out, “There are babies in the water!” So I turned back to help rescue the babies. I was so angered because I knew the babies had to have come from our boat and someone was supposed to be caring for them but they didn’t. I found a baby and picked him up. He was Asian. As I walked back to shore I started to fall in love with the baby and I was weeping. I felt an intense feeling responsibility for this baby. I saw my husband on the shore just standing there ready to help. I was heading to him because I wanted to tell him we need to take care of this baby. I started to feel insecure and too unqualified to take care of the baby. That’s when a lady on the shore approached me I couldn’t tell what she looked like. She was just a black silhouette, a shadow figure. She told me the baby needed to be inspected. I didn’t want to part with the baby but I thought she knew better so I gave her the baby. She took off with the baby. I immediately regretted giving the baby to her and I ran after her to get the baby back. I chased her all the way to the huge facility. When I went inside all the lights were off. There was a bunch of new equipment but none of the staff knew how to use it. All the staff was walking around in the dark. I turned the lights on and looked around for the baby no one could tell me where the baby was.

13 Jul 2024

Dream

I saw a pastor getting arrested. He was hurling insults at people and trying to make them look bad on the way to the cop car. I saw a younger version of him in a corner.

24 May 2024

Dream

I'm having a weird dream. I am at a beach. I'm at the beach with my friends and we had to get some kind of drug I think to make me get better or something. There is a pastor too and me and my friends are trying on our own to talk to this old Chinese lady but she's really not cooperative and will only give a certain amount and make us pay overprice. So the pastor walks in and wants to help by taking this Chinese lady into the water, dipping her under and saying God will never forgive you and he will let you drown if I let you. And we get to get back into the beach. She has her daughter there which is kind of dying from not eating and we have food but the pastor says no food. She can't get any of our food as long as you are denying to give us what we want. If you give us what we want for a reasonable price your daughter can get food. And then my dream kind of stopped. I never got ending on what is going to happen with this lady or me.

5 May 2024

Dream

I'm in a house or a building. There are a group of people who are helping cleaning it. I'm sweeping the floor with two others. The woman told the man that he missed a spot. He gets annoyed. In another room, there's a mother and daughter. The mother is very verbally abusive towards her daughter. I feel sad for her. I keep sweeping. Then another mother and with her baby comes. She asked her baby if she wants to go on the bouncy mushrooms? The little baby says yes. She takes the baby in her lap and bounces (slides) up a hill. I keep sweeping the floor. Pastor Vona walks to me. He says something (I don't remember it). He says something else. I answer, "I'm trying." He leaves and walks in a different room. He closes the door and prays. He comes back out and says,"As your parent, I need to tell you that Jesus' Spirit is always within you. Don't let no one make you forget it." I say,"I know."

18 Apr 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was in my childhood church. I have not been to this church in years. In the dream I was standing in the front of the church and I was annoyed and was rolling my eyes while the pastor was speaking. He looked at me and started preaching to me. People in the church was looking at me in shock because I have not been there in years. They were surprised I was back in the church

24 Feb 2024

Dream

i was at a mega church i used to belong to. i was scheduled to speak about Matthew 25 and being wise in the fear of the Lord and intimacy with Jesus; but it seemed to take forever to get to my part where i would speak. all of a sudden, i noticed no one was paying attention at all. my sister was sitting in the balcony, so i sat by her. she was trying very hard to pay attention and had a set of notes she handed me. she said something along the lines of ‘the pastor wanted you to see his notes;” however, these mysterious notes were not given to me. i started trying to make my way to the pastor and briefly ask about the notes. it seemed to take a long time. everyone had the appearance they were engaged; but no one was listening! i eventually get to the pastor. by this time, people are actually talking while another former pastor is speaking, including the current pastor that i’m trying to get instruction from before i speak. he literally began talking to me about chocolate in a joking manner. there was this feeling that the congregation was not ready to hear what i had to speak. then i woke up.

18 Feb 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was sleeping with a man who was a pastor. I was his mistress. The wife found out and tried to used me as an abuse victim. They had several children probably 12 and they were deceiving their church by stealing money from their congregation. I kept trying to flee and every time I did I was on a stairwell and would run into the wife and one of her kids. The pastor and his wife had plans to make their children become famous- but their kids had other plans and wanted to be themselves some of them even happened to be gay and that was frowned upon in black Baptist church.

18 Feb 2024

Dream

I am swimming in dives above sharks, behind Rachel. The sharks emanate a deep grumbling, and embody satan. When we dive in I disturb them, and they begin to chase after me. I’m taken out of my body and shown a third person view, I follow Rachel up through an exit tube. I just hold on and breathe through a tube until she lets me up. I’m looking from the outside in, and the tube is reminiscent of a throat, breathing. Just before this I was washing my feet with seals, because I had just run through the mud. My friend found some of my rave goggles and I couldn’t see I was stepping on sage sprouts. She said “where’s the sage?” Continually. I was coming from a huge buffet and school event, where David from class was invited for Air karate, and my grandfather was still in construction. I remember driving past huge tractors taking up most of the road. It was like I was in Africa, because David from the education pillar was in love with me. Also I was buying alcohol for my friends Salva and Reed, although the store was packed and I don’t remember if we got it. Somehow we drove with Cameron to the wake up calls, and they had sold Richland to this diner. This dumb fucking girl who I hated started bad mouthing roasters and so I destroyed their entire store. Amen. We ended up in a holding cell where bail was $1350 or we had to write a 20 page essay. She came a sat right in front of me and I told her to move bc I hated her. Also very early in the dream, I was going up to this food truck court, and I went up to one with the pastor who didn’t like my dress and he was selling hot dogs or ice cream or something for $6, because as a mom-profit they can only have transactions for under $10. So I celebrated, because that means we can sell coffee. I walked back and passed Siah and Seven and was walking behind this loop. He was flamboyant and I already knew what he was gonna say. He was describing an outfit, boots up to the thighs, with a heel sharp as a boxpick. Going up within it formed a skirt. Me and another girl repeated this, and I went to the buffet. I also woke up with the worst headache.