Embarrassing

13 Oct 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was on a cruise ship of some type with my ex-husband and his dad and his stepmom and it was for the most part okay but there were a lot of moments that were awkward and tense period and basically it was the one part that I remember the most is where the cruise was almost over and his parents decided to grill me on why we are no longer together and they sat me down at a table and individually like interviewed me and asked me why I didn't want to be with him anymore and asked me all these other questions and then his dad sat me down in front of everybody and decided to go through a list of things that he got apparently from a lawyer where he was highlighting different categories of things like tests and there were tests and interviews of myself, my character and interviews with family and friends who know me and asking them basically questions about my own character and one of the questions was like me not knowing what a tent was in design terms which it was odd because I knew what that was and then they argued with me about it and then after that was interviewing my brother who testified that, well not testified but he wrote on this test really that I'm a really good person, yada yada but apparently his results, his test results were the same as my ex-husbands in terms of like the kind of person I am and then some friends that were tested which were not really friends of mine, they were more friends of his, were asked similar things and they didn't know what to say really and he just went through the whole list and like would ask me all these questions and then read the responses and stuff like that and then it was embarrassing and it was terrible and I woke up crying because I was like why is this even happening like it just was very upsetting the whole thing and then right before, well right before I woke up they asked me why did I want a divorce and a lot of other stuff and then they started to read out things that like characteristics of like things that he actually did so it was like I was being gas lit and everything that I ever said was like never believed and it was just the strangest thing and it was awful.

25 Sep 2024

Dream

I dreamt I was at a party hosted by a girl who used to be my best friend, but the friendship ended badly, and she hated me. So I dreamt I was at her party. I arrived, feeling like I had dressed well and looked quite fancy. The house was big. And there were clear groups of people who fit together. I didn’t fit in with any of them. The entire dream was me walking around, not fitting in. People moved away when I sat next to them. And I constantly did embarrassing or wrong actions I was not aware was wrong.

27 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was in a meeting at my apartment complex with many other tenants and the meeting was about confronting my cousin who is the property manager about illegal activity she has been doing in her management and that she has been posting inappropriate posts on social media of her being intoxicated and the owners of the complex were yelling at her why would she do this and then they had her escorted out in handcuffs and I went to open the door for her and she looked at me with an embarrassing smerk and walked out and then the owner was sincerely apologizing to me and saying he was sorry for the trouble and inconvenience this has caused me and has heard the complaints of the other tenants about how rent is too high and the he’s going to lower the rent and make living more accommodating and affordable

23 Jul 2024

Dream

Me and my brother were late to getting breakfast. We drove around but couldn’t get our breakfast. I loose my brother and start exploring. I get on an elevator but the door isn’t opening. Eventually the elevator door opens but I’m on a stage with all my peers watching me, I’m being publicly humiliated. I leave feeling embarrassed and lonely. I miss my boyfriend. I wonder where he is.

18 Jul 2024

Dream

Woke up again from another dream about my wedding. It wasn't very long but I was getting ready for my wedding, when I got there I was still wearing trousers under my dress so I had to quickly get them off and put tights on before walking up the Isle. .how embarrassing 😳 😆 I woke up feeling quite confused what the dream meant.

5 Jul 2024

Dream

I dreamt that I was with my family, my father, brother, stepmom, and members in a house or vacation rental. With each day of our stay at the rental, there was an accumulation of clutter such as boxes, bags, magazines, toys, books and luggage, carry-on, etc. As time lapsed only a path remained open to allow for movement within the house. As the clutter accumulated, so did my anxiety and frustration grow the unhealthy environment. In another part of my dream, I was driving at night on a busy thoroughfare. My father was sitting on passenger side, making unhelpful comments about me to which I got very angry and snapped back at him. The dream seem to continue with another part where I had returned late from my summer vacation. I was reporting to work very late, long after the initial meeting had started. I didn’t know what to do or what was going on, and I felt embarrassed. There was a college class I was taking and I knew I couldn’t or didn’t have the first paper that was due that day.

23 May 2024

Dream

This dream is a reoccurring one. It is a nightmare but not scary like the other ones, just extremely embarrassing. I get ready for school and then go to school. And somehow I forget I don’t have any pants on ( I have underwear, just no pants) as soon as someone sees me they immediately start laughing or smiling. I honestly hate this nightmare a lot and don’t understand why I have it.( It’s not like I would ever forget something like pants or a shirt when going to school.)

10 Apr 2024

Dream

I was showing an embarrassing video of my brothers to my boyfriend in front of my brothers. Then I was at a deli. There was a weird person just starring at me smiling. My auntie showed up and I asked her to stand in front of me so the person starring can’t see me. Next I was angry and upset at something that happened I can’t remember what. I was blackmailing two people that I’d out their secret. I can’t remember the whole thing.

2 Apr 2024

Dream

My crush went blind and I was going to write him a poem trying to express that I love him but when I went to see him with my mom she said that I should give it to him but when I was going to give it to him I refused cause it would be embarrassing when he isn’t blind and reads it

26 Mar 2024

Dream

my sisters wedding was taking place but nothing was organized properly. I felt stressed because I still needed shoes to go with my dress and the rest of the bridesmaids were not ready. It was the day of and I realized I forgot to get new shoes and I thought to myself “wait this is a dream, I’ll just think up some new shoes real quick” and then it was like I forgot the rest of the time I was in a dream. We were all sat down at the church and they were playing a slideshow of my sister and her new husbands pictures of their life. Baby pictures, school pictures and everything in between. I got nervous again because I had a feeling a picture of me might show up and I didn’t want anyone to see it. Even though the pictures were supposed to be of my sister and her husband I just had this awful feeling an ugly picture of me doing something embarrassing was about to show. Suddenly a picture frame on the wall falls over and collapses. There was a bunch of weapons hiding in the wall behind them that were now exposed. My sisters husband got up and tried to explain and apologize to everyone but they were already leaving. I felt weird but kept quiet because I had a gun strapped to my thigh. I’m not sure why I had done this. I’m not a gun person. Then as we were all leaving the church I tap my body as if to check I have everything. I looked in my bag and I was missing my wallet. I go back inside the church but I grab my cat who I guess I had known was there the entire ceremony. He was hidden underneath the benches of the church kind of coward away from everything. I knew he was scared. I finally get a hold of him and I can feel him fidgeting in my arms. I get into my sisters car quickly with him still in my arms and I try to soothe him in the ride. We drive up to the hospital where a friend of ours was sick in. I remember saying hi to everyone else in the room except the friend who was sick. Someone had brought their dog though so my car jagger was very on edge. I had to soothe him a bunch for him to feel just a bit comfortable. The dog was a bull mastiff and still a puppy so he was very big and clumsy and just generally unaware of his surroundings. I don’t think he knew just how big of a dog he was. Jagged was terrified and I held him in my arms the entire time. I remember as soon as jagger had relaxed I looked down at him and it was almost as if I could read his thoughts or I was trying to at least. He was thinking that he could relax because I this isn’t the first time I have taken him somewhere with me. Therefore I’ll never leave him, because I won’t even leave him at home. He’s by my side through everything and that thought alone seemed to ease him. Then I woke up.

22 Feb 2024

Dream

Last night I dreamed that I was somewhere at campus, spending time with Kyle, when I got a phone call. I answered the phone and i believe that it was mom, wanting to know how I am doing, and where I am since she is likely still in Africa. While I was talking to her, I distractedly received a text from Jack who replied to my message I sent two days ago. After that long pleasant yet embarrassing phone conversation with mom once again reminding me not to focus too much on spending time with friends as they wouldn’t really care if I am around, I started remembering a previous dream I had about the Fall 2023 semester ending. Noticing I was in a deep thought mode, Kyle said something to cheer me up, which unsurprisingly made me feel a bit better, but I still wasn’t fully fine. I decided to walk around a bit, and while I was putting on my music, I heard a familiar voice coming from the SSV 2nd floor hallway and it was Jack. Seeing Jack made me a little giddy especially when he noticed me walking and greeted me with his confident sweet smile I always admire. We chatted for what feels like an hour or two, but it was really nice. I told him about my day, including a phone call from my mom, and similar to Kyle, Jack said something to cheer me up, except, Jack encouraged me to “keep doing my best with a good attitude”. The way he said it made me not just smile wide, but also had my heart racing with assurance. After that comfort moment, we just joked around and shared a smiley stare then and there. After chatting with Jack, I realized that today was Agape so I went to look for Kyle. Once I found him with our mutual friend entering the building, I gotten a call from Mom, asking me if I am home since she is now in the U.S, so I told Kyle if it is possible that he drives me home at six. Just as the club was close to being finished, mom called me again, asking me where I am so I told her I am at a church club in campus. Once I told her, I knew I had to take the call in the hallway, since I didn’t want anybody, especially Kyle to listen. After getting yelled at for “focusing on friends” and all that in speaker, I heard one of Kyle’s friends asking me if I am okay. As we all walked to the parking lot, I got in Kyle’s car, noticing his eyes were filled with concern. When he asked, “are you good?”, I began to tear up but I nodded ‘yes’. While he was starting the car to head off to the highway, and music was playing, he noticed I was being too quiet. No longer standing the silence, he asked what was wrong so I briefly told him about my phone call. He then lowered the radio, and said everything that was saying much more than “it is going to be okay”, and hearing him speak made me feel better. I thanked him, and he nonchalantly said, “If you’re good, I’m good”, making me smile.

15 Feb 2024

Dream

It started with a guessing game that ended with a punk bar as the answer. There was an element of trying to impress Greg that I was punk. Then we got up and left. I had long bright green hair and I was with my family, Greg’s family and Mia. We went to this pub with chalk all over the walls that was next to the punk bar (same one as before) and everyone sat in this tight little corner at the bottom of some stairs while me and mia sat with the bartender at this big wooden table. Mia got a cherry gin and I got a hot chocolate. The bartender left to make our drinks and we snuck off the the bathroom and ended up fucking. There was a screwdriver (that changed forms a lot; syringe, plastic thing like a dildo, other things I can’t remember). All that disappeared and then both out families but not mia anyone were at the Myocum house and I was in my room fucking myself with all the curtains down and the door closed but mum came in and got me in trouble and said it was embarrassing cause the cousins were over. She had my screwdriver / syringe in her hand and wouldn’t give it back. I went into lots of different rooms to try again but the doors would never lock no matter what. The doors just kept on coming loose and it really really distressed me that I couldn’t have privacy and lock a door. So I ended up asking to get some fresh air so I could run away (running away was now my goal) and she ran after me. I got to the top of the driveway and she caught up to me and grabbed my long green hair that is now long blue hair and I kept running and she held onto my hair. I yelled back at her as we ran “u can do it, pull as much as u can, pull my hair off, come on don’t be weak” and she did. So some of my hair came out in her hand and I got free. I ran! But I heard her crying so I stopped and went back because I love my mum. She was so sad that she had ripped my hair out and the main point she made over and over again was that she “loved everything about me.” She hugged me and said this so much that I was now in the wrong. It didn’t matter how much I was angry at her before, I was now in the wrong, because she just loved me. So we walked back up the driveway (we had gotten as far as the tree the cockatoos used to eat seeds off) and I can’t really remember anything after that. It included Tully, Rose, and the garage.