Ancestors

10 Jul 2024

Dream

Hello I wanted to say hi today and this is my waking life I had probably the best week and the best month of my whole year. My parents are gone for one more day and then comeback for a month and then go back to the Carolina’s. I had a good visit with my doctor and everything was pure class and happy. Had some crying spells 🪄 when I was thinking of Briggs my Neighborhood Dog that was so sweet. 🥹 I could just cuddle him right now like Pei Pei I feel emotionally charged happy excited and more full of energy and life as I’m off the Melatonin I can function better. Took my meds a bit late but it’s ok I’m ok. I had this thing I wanted to say… I was crying today after the day was over bc I’m home alone but I keep myself busy, I saw 👀 a cockroach 🪳 scurrying or climbing the wall, I usually smash 💥 em I got so excited in a sad 😭 way so melancholic I cried like a baby. I said to the cockroach 🪳 it’s ok 👍lil buddy I know what it’s like to be alone, and climbing the very obstacles in life but yet still alone sad 😭 and I’m crying now I’ve made it this far and I’m strong 💪🏻 and I feel the same for cockroaches as I’m spiritually awakened like a monk in a monastery. I feel so bad for those little bugs I’m alone and so is that thing I could use some company bc I miss my ancestors and so do they. They climb the walls like in the movie the mummy or Indiana Jones raiders of the lost ark. Same lighting and ceiling height. I’m so sad for those looking for their loved ones I feel the same maybe their happy or sad looking down on me. I sure hope they can see my overall achieved beliefs.

4 Jul 2024

Dream

I was back at my childhood home, exploring and cleaning with my sister. I kept on finding new rooms and objects that I didn't know existed in that house. Somehow, I even started interacting with my ancestors and they showed me to different items that they wanted me to have. They wanted to celebrate me and my achievements, trying to dress me up in the perfect dress with the right accessories that reminded me of the culture I had to leave behind. They also praised me for surviving a home that fell apart because it hadn't been built correctly from the start. When I was all dressed up and entered a large room with high ceilings, one I don't remember being in the house, one of my ancestors had a final gift for me in their hands. It looked like some sort of small box and they held it like it was a treasure, saying that it was long-lasting family heirloom. They told me to give them my hands and just as they were about to put the box in my hands, I woke up.

28 Jun 2024

Dream

I was walking through my ancestral mansion that was passed down to me. I admiring the artifacts neatly hung on the walls and talking about how this mansion has always been owned by people of color. I then went to the basement and saw how clean and almost empty it was. I thought about how it would be a great idea to turn the basement into a museum dedicated to my ancestors. Especially since the basement lead to a glass back door that was guarded from trespassers on the inside.

29 May 2024

Dream

I had a dream I told my Mom that she’s an indecent person and that if she was Chinese she would belong in Nanking with the Japanese Imperial Army having fun with her and her dipshit ancestors (if she was an indigent Asian)

30 Dec 2023

Dream

I dream of intimate relations with a guy and girl. They were, I would say, in a high society. The female could see, ancestors, and would present themselves as skeletons. It was just a lot of moving parts.

30 Oct 2023

Dream

Where to start? I had a dream that reminded me a lot of Narnia. I was the daughter of an Indian family that held a very dark secret from our ancestors. It was such an intricate dream, but I remember there was a prophecy I wasn't told. I lived my life normal as a child, going to school and stuff, when out of nowhere, one day, these people broke into our house with weapons and looking for someone or something. I had like two or three siblings and I was the youngest, and my mom and dad just took all of us and they brought us to like this basement room that was ultra secret and safe. Except it wasn't and it couldnt protect us from the bad people, our parents hugged us and then they told something to my older sister and brother, they were whispering but I could see they kept looking back at me. When my parents left, they fought the bad people to give us a chance to escape. We escaped successfully, and we just kept running and running away through a forest when we heard an explosion. Huge, loud, destructive. Our house and our parents were officially gone. We didn't let that stop us, I tried to go back but my older siblings didn't let me. After running and walking for hours, we arrived at this medieval looking place, like a kingdom that was gated and protected. When we approached the huge doors, they wouldn't let us in until my older sister said "We are the prophecy, and it has started." At last they opened the doors and we went inside. It seemed like its own world away from technology, and the city. But they had weaponry, food, clothes, everything you can imagine but as if from the Indian medieval times. We stayed there for a while, less than a week. I kept asking questions that no one would answer, and it'd make me mad. My siblings didn't take me seriously and I missed my parents. One day when we were sleeping, in the middle of the night a fire started. It woke the whole village up. Screams, heat, light, smoke. They were shooting fire arrows over the walls and gate to us, starting to burn all the buildings one after the other. Everyone was running and screaming. My siblings were trying to stay together and navigate to an exit, but we didn't know the place at all. At last, the bad people were able to enter the kingdom and brought down the gates. It started a horrific genocide whilst they were looking for US, or more specifically, me. In the midst of the chaos and fear, I ran away from my siblings to a hiding spot. All I remember is them screaming "come back we have to stay together!" But I was so scared. I somehow was able to get out of the kingdom through a back door, back into the forest. It was still incredibly dark, but the light from the fire allowed me to see a little. I wanted to wait for my siblings but didn't. I started wandering into the forest when it got really quiet, and I heard heavy steps besides my own. I started running, and I could feel something was chasing me. Tears came out of my eyes and when I closed them, I hit something hard that stopped me, and made me fall onto the floor. When I opened my eyes, a lion was over me, looking at me. I started screaming out of fear when the lion put his paw on my mouth, looked around us quickly and then he started speaking! "Do not fear. It's paramount that I take you to safety." He reminded me a lot of Aslan from the movie Narnia, and I think that's who he was supposed to be. I got on his back and we left. Morning came by, the forest was awakening when I asked him "what's happening?" And he just said "patience." Finally we arrived at another place that was secured and isolated, and looked very similar to the other Kingdom, except this one looked more like camp grounds or something. Everyone was Indian. Aslan let me down and I walked next to him, everyone that would notice us would stop and bow at us. I didn't understand. I couldn't find my siblings either. . . We arrived to a place a bit away from everyone, when my siblings came out of a tent running to me. I was so happy I cried, and hugged everyone. They got mad at me for running away, but then Aslan interrupted saying "we're all safe that's all that matters". Then out of nowhere, he started digging on a spot on the dirt, and retrieved a chest. He wanted to tell us something, but someone announced the enemy was coming! Horns started sounding, and Aslan looked at me and said "you are the prophecy, just trust your gut. Now get out of here." He took my older brother and gave him a weapon, and he jumped on his back and they both started running away towards the danger. My sister grabbed the chest, and my other older sister grabbed me and we all started running but I was so curious of what was inside. I stopped all of us so I could open the chest and see what was inside, they kept telling me no don't do it, but I did. I could see the contents but couldn't understand... It was pictures of me as a child with my family, except it was a different family altogether in all the pictures. They were all different families but I was in all of the pictures over and over again. I was so shocked, I felt like I was starting to understand the prophecy when my alarm woke me up and that's the end.