Dream About Riding Motorcycle With Ex

I was on a motorcycle and Brad, my ex, was driving. He held me and how he held me with such care while I felt exhilarated sharing the motorcycle ride with him… I felt on top of the world. The way he supports me while we took on these exhilarating adventures… the tender side of him that he shared with me! Then all of a sudden I realized we weren’t the only ones on the road. Others could see us together and I suddenly wondered how I could end up with him after everything he did! No one could see us together! I can’t be with him! And then suddenly I felt my heart breaking and I told him I needed off the bike. I told him I hated what he did to our relationship… that he made me love him only for him to destroy everything! I suddenly woke up and I’m still confused as to why I even gave a hint of romantic throught his way after all the trauma and abuse he put me and others around me through. How could I love and feel so deeply for a lie? Was it all a lie?