Transgender

30 Jun 2024

Dream

This is how I remember my dream in order I was at mcdonalds and for some reason In my dream I remembered arguing with someone about how American mcdonalds is better then the one in the UK so I ordered breakfest from the American one and then all of a sudden I am now In the UK mcdonalds and I ordered breakfest to and it’s the same except instead of butter and syrup they also give you jam and there accent where different and then after that I was with someone and we where sitting down and there was a very attractive lady with us and she was into me and I was into her so she said we should go back to her hotel and we did but when we started taking our cloths off to have sex she turned out to be transgender and for some reason it kept replaying us taking our cloths off and her relieving she’s transgender and I was disgusted and then after this somehow I returned home and me and my brothers where getting ready to go do special forces training for the military but it was hard for me to find good cloths and tools but eventually I found it and I went to get my brothers but they weren’t ready and one of them said to me “you have no responsibility your nothing” but I just said “ok I’m 16 I don’t need to” and then I left all of a sudden I am now in this huge area with broken and abandon buildings but it’s all over grown with nature and we are caged in this huge area and it’s the apocalypse plus there’s a zombie outbreak but I was with my friends we all had guns and where ready to take them on so we started looking for a place to go eventually we split up and then I was alone but then I found a new group of people and they where all my age I introduced my self to everyone and so did they and I stayed with them we had a camp fire and everyone was around it snd people also was guarding it with guns just in case, some kid saw my gun and said “ what the hell is wrong with your gun” apparently I built it wrong so he took the peices apart and but then back together and now it was a good sniper rifle, so I aimed down the scope cuz I heard something and it’s a kid and his mom arguing the kid said he wants to go with grandma and runs away but then the grandma pops out of the corner and I accidentally shoot the grandma cuz my finger was on the trigger, then we saw 2 people getting sick they where our friends we knew that they had the zombie virus, we didn’t wanna waste bullets so I stomped on there heads but one of them wasn’t dying or hurting he was just chilling, after this somehow we where escorted out of this caged apocalypse area and we where told we won, we where taken back to our schools as champions to celebrate we jumped into the school pool and then got out and listened to what our coach had to say, the whole school was there at the pool to celebrate our win it was awsome, after that the school day was over and I started to walk to where I get picked up but along the way I somehow got into a candy shop and they gave me this 2 huge empty chocolate eggs just because and then I left and as I was walking back everyone was being really friendly to me eventually I got to where people park and was walking past cars and everyone was playing the same song and 1 car before mine there was a naked lady in the car and I was confused but I walked to my car and when I got in there was fast food and that’s when my dream ended. No where in this dream though was I worried or had anxiety which is really weird

7 Jun 2024

Dream

I entered my campus LGBT"q" recourse center to relax and destress, because it's the only place where I can eat and feel safe because my facial hair shows when I eat and it makes me uncomfortable when people see it. The moment I sit down, i immediately get told that I need to leave by willow, a trans woman who is really passive aggressive to me in real life. She says that everyone knows that I'm a transmedicalist, and that I'm bot allowed to be there anymore. Everyone assumed that me being a transmedicalist makes me a bad person, they didn't give me an opportunity to explain my beliefs, they just placed that stigma on me without a second thought. It was especially upsetting because sitting next to her was someone who has no dysphoria and no plans to transition socially or medically and only uses they/them pronouns. They told me that it was also "inappropriate how often i talk about my dysphoria" which made me upset because a trans space is supposed to be the place where you can talk about dysphoria. They said that by transitioning to a body that is neither male nor female I'm "misrepresenting nonbinary experiences as a gender you can transition to medically". I started crying and ran off.

25 Apr 2024

Dream

In a weird town that looks like manurewa but has driveways that are excessively long for no reason like a rural farm driveway, but looks like driveways from papakura, I’m at a wedding for one of my friends that i wasn’t invited too, out of pure coincidence i drive in a sketchy drive way poke my head out and say I’m best friends with blah blah blah they open the gate i see pointy as f rocks with humungous potholes, i attempt to drive get stuck reverse out and park outside the gate wondering how the f_ck everyone else got in there. Once in the venue i walk into a garage i sit down in the middle of nowhere, this random as dude just start’s annoying me i go grab a drink, come sit back down everyone’s walking by with mugs of beer, a few of them are gang members wearing patches, saying that im a pussy , while others are asking if im okay and being nice, i get up and walk to the bath room while that annoying k_nt is nudging quite voraciously, at this point im starting to get angry with my tolerance diminishing little by little. I come out of bathroom, and im in an assembly, wearing my city clothes and its a wedding where i see guys wearing suits, and women wearing dresses, but what im so confused about is that i see 2 of my best mates dating keep in mind they’re both guys and are the most straightest guys I feel like i know, but one of them became a trans but they both were wearing suits and pashing each other, i was utterly confused, whilst trying to gather my bearings and coming to terms with what i was seeing, i get up to get another drink the the k_nt who’s been annoying me comes grabs, some like black powdered balls he rubs them and covers his hands in dust and proceeds to rub it on my neck and drops the powder under my shirt, and laughs at this point i slam my cup down thats it you annoying MF its fxcking go time i get stopped, by my best mates, but im lashing out the annoying person leaving i send my mates flying, grab him turn him around and uppercut him then we have a massive brawl.

15 Apr 2024

Dream

My ex-boyfriend was a transgender and broke into my house and raped me

30 Jan 2024

Dream

it was a summer night. the sky was dark. i was out with a group of 5 girls for my best friends bridal party. we all went to the movie theatres together. before the movie started we got some snacks. i ordered an iced coffee and popcorn. there was a blonde transgender girl that looked like jules from euphoria that kept flirting with me. i wasn’t into it because she smelled like farts and her breath smelled bad. any way, we all go to this movie together and i forgot what happens next.

30 Dec 2023

Dream

I was at school eating lunch outside when I dropped all of my pills on the ground. I went to pick them up when someone took my last pill and started walking away. I had to chase them down and I yelled that that was my pill. She gave it back and I think she wanted to be friends. She was a transgender girl. I didn’t talk to her but she followed me back to my bag. I told her lunch was over and I had to leave so I’d maybe see her later. I went to art class and my boyfriend was there. I picked out some new earrings and they were massive and didn’t exactly look like earrings. He asked about how I’d even put those on. Then I realized that the earrings were actually parts of a sculpture that needed to be put together. I put the pieces together the best I could but I couldn’t get all of it. I got frustrated because I couldn’t finish it because some of the pieces didn’t fit together. Then the artists came in and didn’t explain how to put it together and I was even more frustrated. The sculpture looked like an African style totem pole. I put it away on a shelf at the end of class. Then we were all at a beach front bungalow. There were some men in the water who were about to fight due to some drama I didn’t know about. I asked a girl next to me what was happening and she told me a little before she told me to shut my mouth. Then there was a parade where each college had their own float. It was supposed to be cool, but only a few floats appeared and the parade seemed to end. I was talking with my boyfriend about what was happening and a few older people told me to be quiet. Then I was talking with an old friend when suddenly my boyfriend came up behind me and grabbed me by the thighs. It was awkward. Then it jumped to me and my brother in the attic. The walls were lifting up and we could see things we couldn’t see before. Like inside the walls.