LGBT

7 Jun 2024

Dream

I entered my campus LGBT"q" recourse center to relax and destress, because it's the only place where I can eat and feel safe because my facial hair shows when I eat and it makes me uncomfortable when people see it. The moment I sit down, i immediately get told that I need to leave by willow, a trans woman who is really passive aggressive to me in real life. She says that everyone knows that I'm a transmedicalist, and that I'm bot allowed to be there anymore. Everyone assumed that me being a transmedicalist makes me a bad person, they didn't give me an opportunity to explain my beliefs, they just placed that stigma on me without a second thought. It was especially upsetting because sitting next to her was someone who has no dysphoria and no plans to transition socially or medically and only uses they/them pronouns. They told me that it was also "inappropriate how often i talk about my dysphoria" which made me upset because a trans space is supposed to be the place where you can talk about dysphoria. They said that by transitioning to a body that is neither male nor female I'm "misrepresenting nonbinary experiences as a gender you can transition to medically". I started crying and ran off.

13 Apr 2024

Dream

I was in a building that looked like an apartment and I was looking for my boyfriend but I couldn’t find him anywhere. I was with my friend who was dressing up and she needed shoes to wear with her outfit so I went to find her some but couldn’t find anything that matched her clothes. I tried on some sandals that actually matched my outfit perfectly and then went to look for something else for her to wear and hound a pair of cute glasses. I went to look for her to give her the glasses but she disappered. The whole setting was completely empty for a minute with no one three but me. Out of nowhere I saw my younger brother and sister and mom nearby. My little brother was trying to show me his back and he had multiple Japanese bagel head implants in his back along with a freshly healed tattoo. I was disturbed but got distracted somehow and had to go to the bathroom . The bathroom door was closed but the side of the bathroom wall was open and I could see inside. It was empty at first but the third time I looked inside I saw a demon in the bathroom. I quickly walked away to the next room trying to find an exit or safety , but I walking into the closest room from the bathroom and I saw a white man and white women who seemed to be apart of the lgbtq community in a bed. I was in their bedroom for some reason they were just looking at me. I went to look away and looked back and they’re faces changed. There was also someone else in the room, another white man and when I looked at them all, I visibly seen their faces change. The man standing up had changed into another race. After seeing this I closed my eyes and opened them trying to get out of this situation. It all felt so real. I closed my eyes again in fear and hope but next thing I knew I woke up.

31 Oct 2023

Dream

I dreamed of being taken back to a traumatic wilderness camp that I stayed at without my knowledge for a year. I was unable to leave this abusive anti LGBT camp even after 18 as I was put in a conservatorship to prevent me from leaving as an adult. I have dreams about being sent away even as a 22 year old and being the oldest there, not being able to leave the LGBT conversion camp. I am put there by my parents and even when I dream of running away police find me and bring me back where I am eternally trapped from ever seeing the public eye again.