Diaper

14 Aug 2024

Dream

Waiting for mom to come back home after a nighttime grocery shopping She went to drive In my room with younger brother He’s watching gameplay vids and I am too Or I’m PLAYING a game I tell him to go back to the room where he sleeps with mom on his own accord so that he won’t be caught pulling an all-nighter(“It’s not gonna be my fault if she scolds you in any way, I’ve given you the caveat and now it’s your responsibility”) When she comes back, predictably he’s still unaware and playing/watching videos He rushes back to the room just before she comes into the house, tries to feign that he was just about to go back to sleep after not being able to, and that he was just borrowing the iPad to help him dose off She ofc clocks him and pokes on all the logical flaws in his fabricated excuses I’m in the room just watching, mom scolds younger brother for not changing his diaper Her teaching the natural consequences of his actions and him throwing a tantrum about it(he has the impulse control of a four year old when he’s physically already ten or so, what can he do) I’m just coldly giving him info about what he has been doing, what things he has not done that should’ve been done by the time she was back as per her instructions, as well as what he has done After each point she gives him the verbal preview of what would happen if this behavior continues on in the future, even WITHOUT her chastising him for it every time(e.g. you will be stinky all the time if you don’t wash yourself and change diapers, etc.(He’s ten, he’s only wearing it during times when it’s not feasible for him to be attuned to his own needs but COULD do so if he chooses)) The room’s light is dim and I’m folding the clothes while he trots around or rolls to whine about it, she’s on the mattress calmly giving the verbal demonstrations After I’m done folding the clothes I tell her that I’m done, and that I’m going back to sleep in my own room * I can tell that she feels displeased/isolated by that thought; she never really liked it when I insisted on being let sleep alone even when I had all the reasons to, because she feels that I could just ‘sleep alone all I want when I get my own room/apartments’(again, deprivation of this sense of ownership over my own safe space is a prominent theme; WILL affect my sense of and the ability to feel security in my own body and space in the future, the “Nothing ever is mine, I don’t *really* deserve anything, I’m just “borrowing”/“stealing” spaces/things that really belongs to someone else and I’m only veing able to use these things because they feel generous/I’m being so “selfish” just by asking and being so “incomprehensibly”/“unreasonably” adamant”

23 Jul 2024

Dream

I had this dream that I was driving in a truck with my daughter and we were going up to the mountains and we're going off in this embankment and I remember we're stuck on this like cliff thing I went out to fix the truck and try to gauge how difficult it would be to drive off of the little embankment thing and try to get back on the road and I determined it was pretty risky and then when I looked in the back of the truck I saw all these brand new pairs of sneakers that belonged to my youngest son's father. I was confused about why I had all of them but I wanted to go through the rest of the stuff in the truck but I waited. I eventually got us down driving down and I realized that I had been going away that was way more difficult than it needed to be. I suddenly realized where we were and everything became clear and I started to go that route but I kept veering off the sides of the road and eventually I fell off the side of this embankment again but then I was able to control and I knew that I was dreaming and it turned into a lucid dream so I was able to control the truck as it flew. Then we ended up at this cabin, but throughout the journey I realized that there was something stalking me, some sort of predator. When I got to the cabin, I realized it was the cabin that belongs to my youngest son's father, whose truck I had. His brother was there in waking life, he's an attorney, but in this dream he was an anthropologist. I was asking him how big the bears were in that area because there was this big giant bear who changed form throughout the dream as it was pursuing me. It had changed to a giant lion or saber-toothed cat type creature and also to a extra large gorilla type Bigfoot like creature or a Yeti. Either way, it was some sort of large mythological creature that lives in colder climates. At one point in the dream, I was changing my daughter's diaper. My daughter's normally nine, but in the dream she was a small baby. And I got baby poop on the comforter of my youngest son's parent's bed. No matter how many baby wipes I used, I couldn't get it off all the way, and I was trying to get it clean before they noticed. I went outside and there's this big structure and it was like a fire pit area but it wasn't made by man it was inhuman for some reason and we were discussing whether or not we thought it was like some sort of offering fire or if it was a fire to make food but it was made by this creature and it was all these jagged rocks and these stones and wood pieces that were sticking out from the rocks and various piles I believe that there was it was 3 rows of four wood piles across, the jagged wood sticking straight out like spikes being held together by heavy stones. I had the feeling of being pursued throughout the whole dream like prey and I knew that there is a predator lurking just beyond the eyesight everywhere I go I'd see the silhouette and the tree lines or I could feel it staring at me through the windows I would try to be still because you can only see the silhouette. At one point I was on the toilet seat in the bathroom of this cabin and this large saber-toothed type cat comes in from above into the shower and I could only see it through the shower glass and I'm terrified as its large body starts to fill up the shower stall and then it makes eye contact with me. At some point I was with my baby's dad's mom and we were back talking about that fire area that the mythical creature had made and there was a ski lift and I remember the ski lift start to move but we weren't trying to go on the actual ski lift we were just trying to sit on there to rest. So she showed me how to hold on and and jump onto the other bars and wait and climb up so that we didn't get taken by the ski lift all the way around. I didn't know if I was gonna be holding on tight enough and I was scare but o made it. I also kept returning to a closet in the cabin in the dream and inside of the closet there was these clothes that belonged to me and belonged to my daughter and belonged to the father of my son and all these clothes were very nice and I recognized them and I miss them but they were all too small for us or slightly outdated and I wanted to take some of them with me because they were so nice but they just didn't fit any of us anymore. In the end when I finally was caught by these mythical creatures they ended up being more like gorillas or Bigfoot or Yeti type things but they weren't scary they were dressed in human clothes and had human type personalities and they were laughing because the whole time they weren't even really trying to pursue me in a predatory way and I was just assuming that and making assumptions because of the fact that they were these large mythical creatures. In the end, I felt silly and safe and wasn't afraid to go with them for some reason.

26 May 2024

Dream

So from what I remember we are in my current house and we found a baby I knew the baby wasn’t mine but I took care of it as it was mine and the baby would cry the moment I walked away. I remember a specific time I put the baby asleep in my bed and then went downstairs to play games with my cousins but like 5 mins in I heard crying from upstairs and it dawned on me it was the baby. So as I was rushing up I was hoping the baby didn’t fall off the bed. When I made it to the room he was just standing up crying waiting to be picked up. So I picked him up and he stopped crying and started to go to sleep again. I brought him downstairs and we sat on the couch. Everytime I got distracted the baby would wake up and need something. For example I would go on my phone and the volume would wake him up or I would start talking and he would wake up and I had to change his diaper and his clothes because he had an accident. As I was trying to find his clothes I kept picking up the wrong size and I couldn’t find anymore baby clothes and the more bags I opened the more clothes I found that weren’t his size and then the baby disappeared and I woke up

15 May 2024

Dream

I was watching tiktok videos of babies. One was of a little baby boy laying on his dad while messing his diaper, which made a fart sound. Actually, it changed from being a girl to boy. He had gay dads. I watched it multiple times. I was intrigued, but kind of grossed out.

8 Apr 2024

Dream

Last night's dream was very interesting. I dreamt that I was in a big house party, everybody was wearing white. And we were all jumping in and out of the pool, we were jumping in the mud, and everybody's hair was greasy. And I remember I was looking for something with someone, and I came inside and this little girl was excited to see me, and I gave her a big ol' hug, and then I noticed that her diaper was dirty. And so I went and I had somebody change her diaper, clean her up, and then I made sure that she was fed, and then I left, and I remember swimming in a pool with a couple of friends.

3 Apr 2024

Dream

I dreamed that I moved in with someone as a roommate. A former friend of mine is the person who found me the place. He was helping me clean it up. The person I moved in with was a widower, and he was neglecting the cleanliness of his home and also his child because he missed his wife so much. So me and my friend were cleaning up for him so that he could maybe feel better or do better. In the dream at first I thought he was Jewish, but he ended up also being a Muslim. So then his friends kind of just assumed that we would end up together. I started taking care of his daughter, but when she pooped her diaper, I brought her to him to do because I didn't want to deal with a poopy diaper. I kept cleaning up the trash and cleaning up the kitchen, and eventually we got it to the point where we could have people over at our apartment. Even though I was on the lease for some reason, he had me go a specific way around the back to take the trash out because he didn't want his neighbors gossiping about me there because he didn't want people to assume that I was his new wife or girlfriend.

5 Mar 2024

Dream

Having my imaginary friends take turns change my adult baby diapers

20 Feb 2024

Dream

I changed a girl baby diaper and I felt calm and happy.

8 Feb 2024

Dream

First i had a dream at first that I was in a car and someone handed me a baby diaper it reaked of baby poop. Then later i had a dream a song i made went viral on the tiktok app , i post a tiktok on the app everyday or every other day now in hopes that it will

4 Feb 2024

Dream

To understand the dream I have to first explain that mom left the house months ago, and I have to take care of my two youngest brothers most of my time. In this dream I took my youngest brother who's six with me to the University, I was there with my cousin, I felt very angry that he could concentrate and I had to take care of my brother, I went to another lecture afterwards. This lecture was given by one of the professors I don't like, Dr Ahmed wageeh who doesn't even believe in philosophy, he is a professor in philosophy. I was searching for a place to sit in, and there was an empty place, once I tried to sit on it he did before me, and started joking around with my collegues, we both have a silent hate towards each other so he had no problem to waste the time of the lecture to annoy me, then he laughed and went to the board to start giving the lecture. In the middle of the lecture, he noticed my brother with me, he went to him and asked him if he was my brother, my brother didn't answer, then he asked him if I beat him up, my brother didn't answer, I was worried he'll say yes even though I don't, he kissed my brother on the lips even though I told him my brother is sick and that would make him sick too, my brother kept crying, and I was trying hardly to concentrate on the lecture. A short time passed and the professor got sick, and kept looking at me with hate as if I'm the one I got him sick, I took my brother out because I couldn't concentrate with him crying and the professor dealing with me with hate, I took my brother to the bathroom and bought him diapers with my own pocket money even though he's six and doesn't need them, I changed his diapers and lift him in the bathroom, I went to get some ingredients for a cake I wanted to make, but my bad suddenly disappeared and I didn't know what I should do and how I could take my brother back home, while I was thinking to get to the house of someone I know, there were stray dogs fighting in the streets, one of them jumped and bitted me in my arm, her fangs got stuck in my arm, another dog came and got out the upper fangs, I got out the lower ones with my other hands, and went to a shop to ask them for aid to get to a hospital. The dream ended when I was looking at the fangs marks on my arm and Wondering how it was that shallow and tiny.

3 Feb 2024

Dream

I had a dream that me my mom and our friend Kelly were all at some kind of advent and Kelly had one of her special kids with her who had autism and so I explained I had autism and that why I needed to wear diapers and my mom's reaction was negative and she said things like I don't know why you want to wear diapers thats childish and inappropriate and I was just lying about being autistic and that I needed to grow up....I felt very criticizes and judged and unsupported when she said that and then I was woken up

25 Jan 2024

Dream

me and my gf were at her dorm and i went to ckass with her and then i was wearing a diaper but she didnt know but others did and i felt scared but i ended up getting my pants on and we went back to her dorm room and layed down for a little then got up and walked around. When we were walking we started running but she was too fast but i grabbed her and we both fell and we both got up and said to meet back at the dorm so she ended up running very fast again and i lost her and couldnt find the way back.